The Science of Speaking Up for Yourself | Elaine Lin Hering

Key Takeaway

Stop silencing yourself by editing conversations before they happen. When you assume you know how someone will react—your spouse will be annoyed, your boss won't care—you're writing a script that prevents real connection. Instead, notice what you actually need, ask yourself if you want to share it, then give the other person a chance to respond authentically. The conversation will often go better than you fear.

Episode Overview

In this episode of the 10% Happier Podcast, Dan Harris and his wife Dr. Bianca Harris interview Elaine Lin Herring, former Harvard Law School lecturer and author of 'Unlearning Silence.' They explore how people learn to self-silence from an early age, the health consequences of staying silent, and how we unintentionally silence others—even those we love. The conversation includes practical steps for using your voice more effectively and knowing when silence is actually the healthier choice.

Full Transcript

Transcript of The Science of Speaking Up for Yourself | Elaine Lin Hering from 10% Happier. Auto-generated from episode audio; may contain minor errors.

Hearing a voice can change everything. So AT&T wants everyone to gift their voice to loved ones this holiday season because that conversation is a chance to say something they'll hear forever. AT&T connecting changes everything. This is the 10% Happier Podcast. I'm Dan Harris. Hey, hey. How we doing? This will likely come as no surprise to anybody who's ever listen to this show, but one thing I really do not struggle with is using my voice. In fact, I've been told on more than one occasion that I use my voice way too much, that I should sometimes just shut the up.

However, I am well aware that this is not the case for many, many people, including for my wife, Dr. Bianca Harris, who's going to join me today as a co-host for this interview. Our guest is Elaine Lynn Herring, who's a former lecturer at Harvard Law School and who now works with uh both companies and individuals to build communication skills to help people handle both conflict and collaboration, which brief aside, I have to say, is an incredibly important thing to teach. These basic communication skills are vastly undervalued in my opinion.

Anyway, Elaine has written a book. It's called Unlearning Silence, and it's about how and when to speak up, as well as how to stop silencing other people, which has been a problem for me. Honestly, I'm not proud to admit that, but that is true. In this conversation, we talk about how and why many of us learn to self- silence and self-edit, often at a very early age. What the health consequences can be from self-sing. How we often miscalculate the costs and benefits of speaking up. In other words, it will often go better than you fear it might.

We talk about Elaine's four steps for how you can learn to use your voice, times when it actually makes sense to stay silent, and how we can unintentionally silence other people, even people we love. In fact, Bianca and I talk about our own experiences with this very dynamic in our own marriage. Before we dive in, I want to do a quick plug here for the new 10% app. So cool to be able to say those words. The app has just gone live. We will be doing a free New Year's meditation challenge in early January, 7 days with Joseph Goldstein, the great meditation teacher.

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Willie and I have known each other for nearly 25 years. He's just an incredibly close friend, and I laugh my you know what, off every time we talk. That's my guy. AT&T wants everyone to share their voice over the holidays. So send a voice note, leave a voicemail, call someone because that conversation is a chance to say something they will hear forever. Happy holidays from AT&T. Connecting changes everything. everything. everything. Elaine Lynn Herring, welcome to the show. show. show. Thanks so much for having me. Dr.

Bianca Harris, welcome back to the show as well. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Pro tip, Elaine. Um, if you want this to go well, if there's any sort of dispute, I am right. Okay, we cool with that. What does Bianca think? [snorts] I mean, I know the truth. So, if he really needs that to be what the world thinks, go ahead. And the truth will set you free. Exactly. Exactly. Exactly. Uh, no, truly a pleasure to have you here. And Bianca, thanks for coming on.

This is this is something we have thought and talked a lot about on our side in our relationship and also in just just in in how the world works. So let me just start with you. I'd be curious to hear your origin story on this. Why why silence? I am the youngest daughter of an immigrant family from Taiwan to the United States. I grew up in the Christian church. And so all of those things teach me to turn the other cheek, to swallow my own needs, to cater to other people, to respect and even love other people means to listen to them without pushing back because as someone said at the beginning of this episode, they're always right.

And so I learned a lot of silence and then having gone to Harvard Law School, taught at Harvard Law School, doing leadership development work around negotiation, difficult conversations, feedback, noticed a pattern that even though people spend a tremendous amount of time and energy around learning those skills or teaching those skills, some people still don't negotiate or have the difficult conversations or give or receive the feedback. Why is that? And what I landed upon was silence. The silence we've learned, the silence we've benefited from, and the silence that we often continue to perpetuate without realizing what we're doing.

So, you learned silence, but I guess I can take from your last statement that you you've also learned to silence other people. people. people. I think we all do. Silencing other people is part of the human condition. As we're moving through the world, we inevitably butt up against each other. Sometimes it is a matter of self-preservation, right? I need a boundary with you. I don't need that perspective in my life right now, so I'm going to cut you out or maybe just not reply to your text message.

But it is also also also silence, right? I think I'm being welcoming, supportive of you. You're not receiving it in that way. You feel unheard, unseen. unheard, unseen. unheard, unseen. I don't mean to silence you but I have. So the question is am I realizing that it's happening and how do I make different choices going forward? So how do you define silence? And I know you as its opposite you use the term voice. So let let's do some definitions of these two concepts. I love a good definition.

So let me start with voice because often people think it's just the words that you say in a meeting or what you say in the conversation. To me, voice is how you move through the world and the agency to decide how you're going to move through the world. Silence, you know, there's so much about silence that can be great, that is key to meditation, key to happiness, but the difference between silence that is additive or oppressive is agency. So the silence I'm talking about unlearning is when there's not enough room in the conversation, in the relationship for your needs, for your thoughts, your preferences, because it seems like it always has to be the other person's way in order to stay in the relationship, stay in the marriage, stay at the table.

So how do we create space for each other, for our differences, to really honor the dignity and humanity in each of us? What would you say are the stakes here for the listener? Why is this so important that we sort of unlearn these habits about being silenced and also silencing other people? Yeah, let's start with ourselves. Staying silent has real health impacts, right? This epidemic of loneliness of having your alert system on chronic high alert because you have to edit out parts of yourselves in order to be accepted.

It is fundamentally about do we get to live freely? Do we get to say what we think? Do we get to feel what we feel? Or do we have to show up as versions of ourselves that people expect rather than who we are? The stakes in a relationship are I may be married to you, but I may never know you. And if I never know you, how could I really love you? In an organization, it is collaboration, innovation, retention, engagement, all of these things that really impact the bottom line.

But it is this unspoken force that we're not solving for because the problem has been presented as well you don't feel heard well just speak up more have more courage be more confidence versus what silence might be in this ecosystem and how might we each be contributing to it not because we're bad people but because we're human and we butt up against each other. Bianca let me bring you in. I just knowing you as I do, I would imagine many of the things Elaine has said uh ring true.

What's going through your head? head? head? I think everything rings true and that makes it very difficult for me to sort of key in on one thing that or one context in which to begin talking about it because they're all super relevant. And I guess my mind went to, you know, professional and personal and, you know, self-care. All of these issues come into play, especially as adults in environments that we look to to blame for our difficulties. Certainly for me, being in medicine, it's medicine, it's the hospital.

Being in a relationship with an extremely hardworking, extremely vocal, opinionated human that, you know, that was another sort of presentation for me. But what I really like about your approach to this and is actually the one that I've just been taking for myself in general over the last few years and trying to understand in particular imposttor syndrome for me but just more about my [clears throat] my neurosis I guess and how to improve upon things is really the origin because I think the environment and all the things that we want to point to are modifiers, contributors, exacerbators but you can switch environments and still have the same silence or the same difficulty, you know, with a voice and really taking a look at the beginning as you're doing, I think, is is key.

I want to give some space here. Feel free to respond to anything here. I don't want to overly engineer this whole thing. thing. thing. Yeah. I feel like Bianca and I could just have a conversation. Great. Great. Great. Not that you're not welcome here. Fine. Fine. Fine. Right. But but take the being in a relationship. This could be a marriage. This could be a work relationship with an extremely hardworking, vocal individual. We each have our own passions. We each have our own wiring. We each have our own preferences until they're squashed.

And being a mother often feels like your own needs take last priority. last priority. last priority. Are the kids fed? Is anyone bleeding? Why is this sticky? Right? Where in that juggle? Oh, and the client deadline or the patient. Where in that juggle is there room for me? Not because anyone's actively trying to silence me, right? I would argue in a healthy relationship, I'm not trying to silence my spouse at all. But is there room in our juggle for all the things that we need? And if not, and are we acculturated to put ourselves last last last over time?

It happens so subtly. That's the thing about silence. It's an absence. And it happens so subtly that you don't even realize it until you wake up 10 years later. Who am I? And I've been walking around as a shell of the person I could be. And going back to the stakes in our relationship this whole time, they thought they knew me. They thought they loved me. They were with the best of intentions. But because I don't know what I need and no one else is asking me what I need and the rhythms and the pace and the patterns, patterns, patterns, don't ask me that either.

For me, the first place is to notice it. Notice, well, what do I need? What a radical idea as we move through the world so quickly to stop and to think and to notice and then ask ourselves, do I want to share that? Do I want to share that with my spouse? Do I want to share that with my manager? Centering the agency that you have around disclosure? That's at least a place to start to honor who we are and what we need, which usually makes us happier.

Disclosure can be a very scary thing obviously and [clears throat] certainly thinking about the workplace in particular. Yeah, particular. Yeah, particular. Yeah, in medicine it is not really okay to disclose that you're not okay or at least traditionally. least traditionally. least traditionally. Totally. Totally. Totally. And you know, voices are silenced in all sorts of ways, but we also come in with our own silencing of ourselves and of others through our own hurt and fear. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You know, I met Dan right at the beginning of my training as an internist, my residency component.

So, no one's really at their best. I truly didn't know that it was an option to not be silent in certain contexts. In other contexts, you know, in medicine, I mean, you you speak up because that is the way that you get by, but but the voice that comes out is not always your own. So, there was this constant pull between am I invisible, you know, but I'm surviving and thriving, but is that me? And it was quite easy in some ways, even though it was also very scary for Dan and I to have different approaches to communication.

communication. communication. Mhm. Mhm. Mhm. Both of which had, you know, downsides and both of which perhaps had upsides. To recognize that they actually did something for each of us, right? Like for me, I loved being able to hide in plain sight because I could be with Dan in public at an interesting event just in conversation and usually, you know, be the less interesting of the two. And so people, you know, I could be privy to all these wonderful things and and experiences and I could learn, but I wasn't necessarily the one that people were focused on, but that only served to sort of like, you know, reinforce the need for silence.

And for Dan, it just allowed him to be more Dan, which was highly desirable for Dan for a long time. Fortunately, we've both come a long way and and those differences have really started to balance out, but um it can be very scary, right, to put it out there. Absolutely. Do you find that there's, and I don't know if there's any hard data on this, that there are, you know, generally gender divides on this because I I think Bianca and I are perhaps stereotypical in in that it's easy for me to find my voice and it's easy for me to inadvertently or deliberately in my worst moments silence other people.

And Bianca's the exact opposite. And I'm just wondering is is this common in your experience? experience? experience? Absolutely. And I would say it's not inherently around gender. It is around a culturation in our societies around gender. gender. gender. What expectations do we have of women? What expectations do we have of children? Let's start there, right? Be seen and not heard. That is something that we often expect of our children. And to be clear, as a parent, I really sometimes want to subscribe to that. And I think about short-term long-term impacts.

But when we talk about gender, the expectations of women either to be docile, to be supportive, to be helpful, to be caring all silence our own needs. And over time there's also a question of what systems are we operating in? If we look at executive leadership in corporate America, it is still dominated by white men. And that forms the norms of how we are supposed to operate. And anytime you carry a subordinated identity, that could be based on gender, race, class, education, you are more likely to be otherred, more likely to be secondguessed because you're different.

And so to me, it is less about someone's gender specifically so much as our societal expectations and how those expectations of those genders show up in the organizations, the teams that we're in. in. in. Let me ask this though. Are there times when silence suits us? When it's actually the right move or maybe the comfortable but dysfunctional move? Absolutely. That is why chapter 3 of the book exists when silence makes sense because to say you always have to speak up ignores reality. So to me unlearning silence is not about always saying everything.

The world is too noisy and complex for that. The stakes and the consequences are real. Bianca as you mentioned in terms of disclosure as one example. So I want to honor that silence can actually be an act of self-care. setting a boundary to say I don't want to talk about that today with you. I'm gonna stay silent, but it is silence I am choosing to enact rather than I have to bite my tongue in order to stay in this relationship or stay in this friendship with you.

So absolutely silence has a utility and I want to honor that as a matter of self-care and self-preservation and controlling our narrative and frankly reaping the benefits of silence. Right? that meditative [clears throat] pause, the pause between stimulus and response, all of that we need more of in this world. And the difference is whether you're choosing it or whether it feels like the only choice. Yeah. To put a fine point on it, there's it seems like there's healthy silence, you know, like when I go on a silent meditation retreat for 10 days.

Yeah. or also just the momentary silence that you might invoke to create some buffer between the stimuli in our lives and our blind reaction to said stimuli. So that there's healthy silence or self-protective silence that might also be healthy. And then the unhealthy silence is when you have no choice when it's being imposed on you. Well, that's the difference of you choosing to go on a silent retreat versus you being put in solitary confinement for 10 days. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Really different impact. What if my wife forces me to go on a silent retreat?

Is that where does that fit? How much are you choosing? I love the complexity of this. I'm going to answer it and then you can decide whether you want to keep it. His silent retreats are helpful for me, too. too. too. Yeah. Where is choice? And and this is where I wrestle of choice is not always that clear that clear that clear because we're married, because we're in this relationship. Am I really choosing it? Or am I choosing it because I want to honor you? Because I defer to you.

Because I know in my finer moments that you might actually be able to see me more clearly than I can see myself. Right? Our lives are all intertwined. And the best that we can do is be aware and intentional about our choices and then also the impacts, right? Are we having those conversations, Bianca, of what was the impact of being the more silent person at that interesting conversation? conversation? conversation? Did it serve you in the moment? Did it work for you in the moment? And also, it could have worked then, but it might not work now.

And as long as we can have that dialogue, we avoid the negative impacts of silence of suffering and silence or silence exasperating intensifying existing suffering. Where are you at with this now, Bianca, in terms of silence as a choice or silence as something where you feel it's imposed on you? Well, I was I don't know if this answers that directly, but it made me think about you writing books and right now we're reviewing one of Dan's upcoming manuscript, which is quite personal and private as I feel this conversation notwithstanding.

notwithstanding. notwithstanding. I'm very happy to to be open about things that will be helpful for people. But in that process, you know, we have a lot of things to run through regarding experiences we've had and and feelings that we have. And so, one of the things we were speaking about recently was a decision that I had made, which I guess silenced Dan, although we didn't put it that way in our conversation when we were going through IVF IVF IVF long time ago. And Dan was super busy with his, you know, work and I was very supportive and very happy.

And both as a doctor and as somebody who didn't want to need, I basically gave him a pass on some of the bigger procedures associated with IVF. And he had said, "No, but I I want to come. I don't have to do that shoot." And I said, "No, no, no. I'm fine." And I wasn't fine. And I silenced myself because that was one of the times where I knew I wasn't fine. And I still didn't say anything because I had made the choice for him. And I would think I was too scared for him to begrudgingly come along when he had other things he might want to do.

But that was incredibly unfair to him because he wanted to be there. So it's interesting to sort of look back on that now. There were many times where as the silent one, I actually silenced Dan out of fear, I think. And that didn't allow his strengths and support to follow through in a way that he actually might have known more what I needed then than I did. So I that's an interesting twist for me. Absolutely. And Dan, I heard the characterization from Bianca of him coming begrudgingly.

coming begrudgingly. coming begrudgingly. That feels like a story line from where you sit, Bianca. I don't know if that's how it felt, Dan. Oh, 100%. That That's me. Yeah, I think I I hear what Bianca is saying as a storyline in her head, not as a characterization of how I felt about it. about it. about it. Mhm. Yeah. To me, that is so often what we do, though, right? We edit before we even have the conversation with the other person. other person. other person. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. And at some level, it's easier because then I'm writing the script to this movie. Yes. movie. Yes. movie. Yes. And I actually don't have to allow for the unexpected. the unexpected. the unexpected. I don't have to allow for their personal growth. growth. growth. It's more rigid. It's not necessarily more healthy, but there's a comfort in knowing and having that control. I love that you're having these conversations though and able to look backwards because that to me is the journey. How did we silence one another?

How did we impact one another? How might we move forward in a different way that honors both of us better? Right? That's that's the beauty of voice and a life together with that intentionality. So often when people say, "Oh, I silence someone." Right? There's self flagagillation, there's guilt, there's shame. To me, there doesn't have to be. If that's not how you wanted to show up, the question is, "What can you do differently?" But we can't figure out what to do differently if we don't talk about it.

about it. about it. Coming up, Elaine Lin Herring talks about if and when it is ever appropriate to silence other people, why it's important to try to unpack uh your own origin story when it comes to your own patterns of silence, and how running small experiments in your daily life can be a great first step here uh when it comes to learning how to speak up. You know, AT&T believes hearing a voice can change everything. It's why we love a good podcast or we save voicemails from loved ones because we appreciate the sound of a familiar voice.

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So to me the question is how do we optimize for voice? There's a really practical aspect of the world can't run on consensus and we can't realistically get input from everyone. So my prescription in the book is let's get clear on when we're consulting. clear on when you're actually not being consulted because the friction point is I think I'm being consulted because people say, "Oh, I need to check with my wife or I need to consult my team." But if the decision's already made and then people don't feel like their voice is heard, you're actually doing more damage over time.

So, I'd optimize for voice. And to me, that moment isn't actively silencing people. It's being clear on what we need and where we are in the process. process. process. which is the more respectful, dignityhonoring thing to do. What if somebody's being an or, you know, being harmful? Isn't it appropriate in those moments? You know, like if Donald Trump was at our dinner table saying a bunch of stupid could I not silence him? Yeah, I think you absolutely could. And because though it honors other people's dignity, it honors your own.

I see. I see. To have those boundaries. And the trap that we often fall into is we don't make those rules and expectations explicit. They're implicit. So, we're all looking around at each other. How's this going to go down versus that's not okay here? This kind of leads to the how-to section of the book, which I think find it really interesting. But before we move to that, I just want to make sure that there's nothing else either of you wants to say in this stage of the conversation where we're kind of describing the problem.

problem. problem. I don't feel silenced. Okay. in this conversation. I appreciate you checking in as a matter of process. Bianca, what about you? I mean, the the lowhanging fruit, you know, the example that I brought up was an important one and a unique one because I was the one doing the silencing. I think probably where Dan thought I was going to go, which maybe is important to address, is that typically it would be the other way around around around and sometimes he would silence me with silence.

And I think that's the place where you fill in that person's silence with your own faulty narrative about it. And that's the most dangerous place to me because that narrative is what clouds certainly my ability to even identify what my needs are because then I'm in like fight or flight based on what other historic garbage is there, you know? I'm so glad you brought this up, Bianca. Oh, did I cut you off? I mean, that was really actually quite timely, so that was good. Appropriate. No, but I did I don't want to cut you off.

So, off. So, off. So, I know better. I I'm really glad you brought that up because we had you and I had a conversation the other day that might be worth referencing here, which is that we talked about how one of my dysfunctional go-tos when we've had conflict historically is to just withdraw stonewall. stonewall. stonewall. You know, there was that great t-shirt, I don't get angry, I get distant. M and I've never felt good about that as a tactic. And you pointed out that actually it might be a trauma response that you know in what we know about trauma and I know very little but one of the actually adaptive things that we do in the face of traumatic events is dissociate.

So we learn to dissociate when we're really really really uncomfortable. And that may be what I'm doing in some of these conversations. And so that's just another aspect of silencing myself but also silencing you in the process. I don't know if any of this is making any sense that completely tracks the research, right? Silence as a trauma response as a secondary response. Our work as grown-ups, as adults, is to interrogate what am I doing right now? Can you name that I am disassociating, that I am detaching?

Do you realize that that is something from the past? There's an origin story behind it so that the people around you can better understand the response as well and understand it in that context. Fill in the narrative in a more accurate way, which is, oh, this is Dan working through Dan. It's not actually about me. Yeah. And I was able to turn down that voice in my head, the negative one. We've been together almost 17 years, I guess. And it took probably half of that time to really be able to, I think, want to investigate.

And through the investigation, something came up from Dan's adolescence that the sort of light bulb went off that the essence of this experience that he had actually was underlying the response that he would have to me in a number of different circumstances. which is not to say that I wasn't accountable and it wasn't also about us, but for the first time it just sort of silenced the default that it was me, which sometimes is very inconvenient for Dan. But, you know, we actually have we both have a lot of fun and interest in talking about these things and I feel very grateful again that yeah, that we're both exploring it and have a reason to talk about these things without being in the midst of conflict.

conflict. conflict. Mhm. Mhm. Mhm. Maybe it's worth just very briefly putting some meat on the bone when you referenced that adolescent incident. Bianca, should I should I just quickly describe it? describe it? describe it? Totally your call. Yeah. So, uh this is very painful and embarrassing, but when I was in sixth grade, I was involved in bullying and there were a bunch of us doing it, but I was the one who got in trouble for it. And there was an like an avalanche of shame and blame that ensued.

And what kind of did my head a little bit was that some of it was it was absolutely correct. I had bullied this kid, but there was also some unfairness in it and some accusations that weren't exactly correct and many other people who weren't getting in trouble. And yeah, it was very hard for me and I never ever unpacked it or discussed it ever. And it came up in a couple's counseling session with Bianca in which I said, you know, I think I've realized that when somebody criticizes me, I read it as I'm a horrible person because that's the story I arrived at when I got busted for bullying this kid.

And I told that story in a couple's counseling session and Bianca turned to me and said, "That explains every fight we've ever had." Yeah. Are we way off topic on the on the subject of silence or is this all tracking and resonating and landing for you? you? you? So what you just described right not talking about that incident for years silencing it to yourself. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And you think about every fight you ever had with Bianca and how that might have played out. This to me is why we need to unlearn silence.

If we're not doing our own work to unpack the traumatic experiences, the painful experiences, the ways that we've been impacted by the lives that we lived, it all leaks out anyways and not in ways that we intend and often having unintended impacts on the people around us. So, I'm so grateful that you have identified that, interrogated it, been able to put words to it, are in conversation with Bianca about it, and I know the stakes of putting something in a book because I just went through that process as well.

And that negotiation with your spouse of how are they being characterized, how do they experience being characterized, who gets to make the decision, are you consulting, are you vetoing? Those are all the things we were just talking about. about. about. My example in the book is Toilet Gate with my husband. And we went through a couple of iterations about how that vignette, that story is written because I meant it as a lighthearted example that we would tell to our friends and it did not land that way for him initially.

Well, can you tell the story here? Early in our marriage, uh, early in our marriage, we were trying to figure out our patterns of who cleans the 400 foot apartment that we lived in in San Francisco. I had been traveling for work and I got home that weekend and said, "Hey, we need to clean the toilet. We should clean the toilet this weekend." And he looked at me and said, "I did clean it." And I didn't say anything in the moment because of my origin story, right?

you you don't push back in that moment. My relationship with silence is strong. My learned silence is strong. But I I thought my data points were there are still yellow streaks on the outside of the base of the toilet. How could it be clean? And because I'm going to catastrophize a little bit, when we fast forward, if we have a toddler or a baby crawling around and they lick and explore with their mouth, that is not a clean toilet from a hygiene stand. How could that be a clean toilet?

toilet? toilet? It took a while. I chose silence and I think in an effective way initially because I was really dumbfounded, right? How could this be a clean toilet? And let me not read into, well, what does this say about you? How were you raised? who did I marry? Sometimes we go there. And it ended up being a helpful conversation where I said, "Well, when you clean the toilet, how come I still see what I code is unclean on the outside?" And he said, "Who cleans the outside of the toilet?

You just clean the part that you use." And again, there was a little bit of like, "Who did I marry?" But the illustration is in the book for me of as we are speaking up, as we're having conversations, needing to connect the dots for each other because we don't all think in the same way. We're not all wired in the same way. We don't have access to the same information. Do I wish that by default we had the same definition of what a clean toilet is from the start?

Absolutely. It would make life so much easier. But that's actually not realistic to expect if we're all different humans, which we are. And because it is my book, there are some statistics in there about percentage of bacteria per square inch. That might just be uh my final word on toilet gate for now. I actually, you know, in talking about silence and voice, I like to go deep with it and I'm into all in all sorts of rabbit holes around my origin story and dance and how it plays out in the world.

But just bringing up cleaning the toilet. This is I guess a little more light, but also a real difficult I think context for for women in particular or at least maybe one spouse, one partner without being gender specific when you need something done and how you say it and is there even a space for saying it in a way that is okay for the other person to not hear is either critical or annoying. So, how do we navigate using our voice, which we think we have for like the basic things of everyday life a lot of the time, not really speaking about deep-seated wounds and needs, and not come across just by virtue of asking as somebody who maybe needs too much, wants too much, or has a voice that's intolerable.

Yeah. I'd start with some fundamental principles. I would say that they're truths. truths. truths. And you said this earlier, Bianca, as someone who has needs, right? We often worry about being needy when having needs is actually just being human because as children, we were vocal. We cried. And it is in the lack of responsiveness to our cries that we lose our voice. So some of that rewiring is starting from fundamental premises of do I have needs? Yes. Does it make you needy? No. How might you express those needs?

How might people hear them? Because that's a virtuous cycle of if you express your needs, I can hear them. Better yet, how do I invite someone else's needs into the mix and be curious about them so we can jointly solve for them? One of my mental hacks there is classic negotiation theory which says every party to a negotiation has a set of interests. Interests are needs, goals, hopes and concerns. But what I forget is that I am actually a party to the negotiation. Am I an active player in this dynamic or am I an observer?

And too often we take ourselves out of the equation to say I'm actually not a party. But if I were to think of myself as a party to this negotiation, of course I would have needs, goals, hopes, concerns of my own. I'm not taking up too much space. I just am a factor in this equation. this equation. this equation. And those start to change both the calculus and the perception. And then in terms of externalizing it, I would start with small experiments. The story I use in the book is I'm in a taxi after landing in Seattle and I tried to open the window to get some fresh air and it press the button didn't work.

And I'm doing this mental calculation that maybe resonates of well like there's only 22 minutes left on the GPS. I guess I can suck it up for that time time time and then wait. I'm a paying passenger. Shouldn't I be able to get fresh air in the back of this cab? Okay, we're on a pretty congested freeway, so the likelihood of the driver getting mad at me and throwing me into a ditch is pretty small. And then finally opening my mouth and saying, "Hey, can you open the window?" And the driver didn't say anything back.

He just pressed a button and the window opened. And it was like the freshest air, the most crisp air I've ever breathed in my life. But given my wiring, my history over time, that was a small experiment that to me was pretty low risk, right? I'm never going to see the guy again. Probably be okay. Probably not going to be physically harmed. Can we experiment in a way that gets us more data points that show us it is okay to ask? And can we each as a way of wanting to care for lead people well inquire as to what do you need?

How can I support you today? Rather than assuming or rather than failing to calculate that that person might also be a party to the equation or the negotiation and therefore has a set of needs. needs. needs. Coming up, Elaine talks about the importance of people in our lives who can act as sounding boards. Uh how we often misjudge the costbenefit analysis when it comes to speaking up versus staying silent and her four-step plan for finding your voice. I've got a big trip coming up. I'm very excited about this.

My family and I are flying to Washington to go to a Washington Commander football game. As you may have heard me mention before, my beloved brother-in-law, Jack, is a pro scout for the Commanders. Love Jack. Love the Commanders. Love their head coach who was on this show not long ago. Anyway, I'm excited about this trip and many of us are heading into a period of time when we're all taking vacation. It's the holiday season and I've got an idea for you. While you're away, you could use that as an opportunity to host your home on Airbnb.

I love staying in welcoming homes that I book on Airbnb. And it got me thinking, my home could do the same for somebody else. I put so much work into this house. My wife put most of the work in, but we put a lot of time and energy into this place. So, why not use it as a spot to help other people feel comfortable while they are away from home? And think about it, if you host your home on Airbnb while you're traveling, it's a great way to offset some of the costs of your own trip.

to get paid for taking a vacation. And the extra income you make can be put toward an upcoming trip, a splurge you've been eyeing, home improvement projects. So, if you've got some holiday travel or any other travel coming up, hosting is a pretty cool and unique way to make some of your money back. Your home might be worth more than you think. Find out how much at airbnb.com/host. So now we've moved into the what do you do about this part of the conversation and in the book you explicitly uh recommend what you just talked about there there there which is running experiments uh as a way to figure out how to use this voice that may have been stifled for for much of our lifetimes.

Um another thing you talk about is using sounding boards. What does that mean? Yeah. Too often, uh, I think we go to people and we don't necessarily know what we're asking of them. And a sounding board, if you think about it from, uh, a pulpit, is actually literally the board that bounces back the sound that goes there and reflects back. So, a sounding board is like holding up a mirror. uh they're not necessarily there to tell you what you think or what you should do, but to reflect back to you.

What are you hearing? And the power of that is it's really hard when you're in it. It's really hard when you're in it to see the dynamic clearly because of all of the things of our own story because of power is often invisible to those who have it. But a sounding board is a place where you can throw spaghetti in the wall, see what lands, see what it's like to come out of your mouth. In my work coaching people to ask, to make requests, to negotiate, there's often a difference between the fear laden version of, "Oh my gosh, what would it sound like if I were to ask Dan for this versus practice it, try it on for size." And the sounding board is a place where you can try it on for size.

Therefore, getting the embodied experience of, "Oh, that wasn't so bad. I can't actually say those words." Or the sounding board saying, "I have no idea what you're asking for." Right? Because of mitigated speech, I don't I don't understand what you're saying, so I'm not sure the other person's going to get it either. What do we need to do? Right? Let's do take two. take two. take two. How do we calculate the cost benefit of speaking up? And I know this is something you you address in the book.

I think there's something called the is it and a Amy Edmonson who's been on the show who's a also a Harvard professor talks about the the voice risk analysis or something like that voice cost. Yeah. Amy Adamson terms it the voice silence calculation silence calculation silence calculation and a flippant response to your question of how do we calculate cost and benefit to speaking up is poorly. We often as human beings overindex on the short-term costs to ourselves like I have to deal with discomfort of how they might react or I have to pick up the phone and even call a sounding board.

I don't have time for that right now. We overindex on the short-term costs and we underindex on the long-term costs of if I don't have this conversation now, what's going to happen in 5 days, in 5 months, in 5 years? What's the long-term impact? Now, Amy Edmonson's voice silence calculation makes the observation that part of why that calculation is tricky is because the costs of speaking up are usually incurred by me and the benefits of speaking up are reaped by the group or by everyone. The costs to me are pretty guaranteed.

I feel the palms, the sweat in my palms right now. I feel my heartbeat going faster. And the benefits of speaking up are not necessarily guaranteed. In fact, I could incur more costs. So for me, the question is how do we make that calculation more accurately? And there are two biases that I discuss in the book for us to watch out for. One is that present bias, right? What happens in the short term versus what happens in the long term. We tend to be short-term thinkers.

And then the other is the self bias. which is focusing much more on what I think in the moment than the self bias where I'm thinking much more about me than most everyone else is related to the spotlight effect. So how do those biases operate and it sounds like they operate in unhelpful ways when we're we're running the costbenefit analysis. costbenefit analysis. costbenefit analysis. Totally. So I would say notice them, be aware of them because then you can ask yourself not just what are the costs of speaking up in the moment but what are the costs over time if I don't and also asking what are the benefits you know we're talking about the benefits of staying silent that it is familiar that we can preserve the peace but what are the potential benefits of speaking up as well right that things might change that we might have greater intimacy that I might actually be known that my needs might be met in a different way.

So by noticing the patterns of human nature and the biases and the traps that we fall into, we can then solve for them and do a more accurate calculation. So let me see if I can do a concrete example. Notwithstanding the fact that I think I've been pretty much correctly portrayed as somebody who finds his voice easy to access and can be, you know, bit of a barbarian on that front. There is one area where I really do struggle which is giving people clear and candid feedback.

And I've gotten that feedback consistently that that is not one of my strong suits. And so it's something I've thought about a lot. And so there's actually somebody in my life who's a friend who's asking for a favor that is actually inappropriate. And so I could imagine and I've had these thoughts of well maybe the easiest thing to do is just it, just say yes to this thing even though I don't want to do it. And also so that's the present bias. I'll just get it over with.

Whereas actually I'll be living with the consequences of this guess for a while. So that bias is you know skewing in an unhelpful way my decision-m matrix. And the second way, the second bias you mentioned is the self bias where I'm telling myself a whole story about how if I speak up for myself in this case, I'm gonna, you know, the other person's not going to like me when in fact there are probably a million other things going on than, you know, his opinion of me.

me. me. Yeah. And then to factor into that analysis, what's the benefit of you saying something to your friend? What's the potential benefit? Well, there are a bunch of complex ramifications that are inappropriate to discuss right now. That that would be positive. Uh negative if I don't speak up and positive if I do in terms of the actual situation, the favor and the tendrils that come out of it. But also actually there's potentially a positive in our relationship, which is, you know, I find that when I do jin up the gumption to give clear, candid feedback that it is generally good for the relationship.

relationship. relationship. I love that you said chin up the gumption because gumption is a little bit like courage or confidence, right? And and all of those things are necessary. I'd say courage is necessary but not sufficient. The other lever that we have in our relationships to increase the likelihood that people give us the tough love or the candid feedback is to change the calculation for them. If I knew that when I spoke up you would hear me, it would be wellreceived. You might even appreciate me or reward me.

How much more likely then would I be to speak up? And I'd argue that we each have the power to change the calculation for each other by changing the way we show up. Right? Choosing not to be defensive in the moment to actively invite the feedback to say also here's the way that you can get through to me best. I actually process best by reading or texting rather than real time verbal. If so, you know, the way to best get through to me typically makes it easier for you to actually share what you think.

think. think. Yes. So, now I think we've moved the conversation from how do you find your own voice to how do you encourage other people to find their voice? And you talked about how if you can incentivize people by giving them a a hit of dopamine every time they speak up, then you are really going to help them find their voice. And also, I've found in my own experience, the more I can, back to Amy Edmonson, create what she calls psychological safety on my team, where I of course have a lot of power.

If I can use my power to reward people publicly for telling me things that I don't want to hear. to hear. to hear. Yep. Yep. Yep. That is not only good for the team, but it's good for me. Yes. Yes. Yes. Now, I'm not I don't want to pretend I'm perfect at this. I'm I'm sure I'm I continue to be scary in lots of ways that I don't have full visibility into, but I have found that this is a virtuous cycle if I can set it in motion.

Yeah. And I would call that you're building a culture of voice because the narrative over time is, oh, it's okay to say things to Dan. In fact, it's good, right? And there are enough data points for other people who might be skeptical of that or come from different life histories, different work teams where it wasn't okay to do that to say, "Okay, I can point to concrete examples of when other people did it and they're still here. In fact, they're even better respected and I might be able to do it, too." It becomes the norm.

It becomes the culture of voice rather than the culture of silence. Bianca, what do you got? What's what's going through your head? I was hanging on to your comment about how you process things better by reading and writing. and writing. and writing. Mhm. Mhm. Mhm. And I can relate to that. Not just because I have some fear. I'm just not as well practiced in sort of the face tof face component of things. Although I'm getting better, but because I actually do feel like I express myself better that way.

Except that I'm not sure that everybody does. And on the receiving end of it, I worry that a things can always get misinterpreted somehow. Things are super clear to you and just come across as like gobbledegook on the other side and also you know it could be the total opposite for that other person and how much do you worry about that over what works for you. So that dance is very challenging to me and sometimes I use it against myself because I just say well are you just not sort of courageous enough to you know zoom with someone.

I mean I don't even zoom my therapist like we talk on the phone. I just that's just me. But I guess knowing your audience and knowing who you're speaking with matters. But you seem to be very confident that that's what works for you. And I guess I'm just wondering, do you feel differently about your voice if you're not doing it the way that works best for you? I do because I've tried it the other way. Right. I'm a pretty good imitation of some other people. And this gets back to dominant paradigms as well where in the workplace in corporate America the mode of communication that is prized is real- time communication in three succinct bullet points with enough emotion to show that you care but not enough emotion that you might lose credibility particularly if you present as female as female as female versus versus versus a slack message that is well doumented could be three to seven bullet points with a lot of detail.

Right? Why do we prioritize one mode of communication over others? And what are we collectively going Dan back to your question of what's at stake? What are we collectively missing out on if we cannot hear people who communicate more effectively and play to their strengths in a different way? It's taken trial and error and it has taken pushing back on how the dynamic is normally framed. Which is to say that if you don't communicate in real time in that way, that's a source of weakness. That's a deficit that you need to work on versus we're all wired differently.

We're not even getting into neurodeiversity there, but we're all wired differently. So, of course, we would have different strengths and communicate in different ways. And and the question is how do we design our communication flows to optimize for voice? Which means if Bianca, if your preference and it is easier for you to be candid, particularly in therapy, candid by talking on the phone and not having to worry about pixelation on video, why shouldn't it be not only okay, but advantageous to talk on the phone? And to me, it's not one way or the other.

It's can we actively have that conversation. So when you're talking about communicating with a friend and is this version going to work for them? What's the impact on them? To me, that's that's actually the conversation. The example I use in the book is that uh a friend of mine prefers audio notes, you know, voice memos in texting. And that works well for her because she's breastfeeding right now and her baby sleeps through noises. And so she'll leave me the voice message and I listen to it and pick it up.

I am usually sneak texting in the line at the grocery store or while playing Legos with my son. And so I can't record that voice memo. I also can't listen to it. But if I can sneak text back with my two thumbs and she's willing to receive it in typed format rather than audio format and both of us accepting right you don't have to communicate to me in the in the way that is easiest for me to communicate to you but I can hear you in that way.

That's actually what has kept our friendship going versus the requirement of in order to be in a relationship with me, you need to communicate with me in exactly the way that I prefer, which may not be realistic for your life stage or play to your strengths in terms of wiring. And we're creating an additional barrier to communication, which is also an additional barrier to intimacy or effective collaboration. effective collaboration. effective collaboration. It's making me think of uh Jerry Colona, who's a great executive coach who I work with personally and Bianca knows him as well.

He talks about giving everybody in your orbit an operator's manual for you. And I I think that sounds like a a nice component of a of a healthy culture and it could be workplace or the home or a friendship or anything. Um yeah, and the benefit of the operating manual is that it's not a directive. It's not a prerequisite to interacting with me. It is context to better understand how I show up. Y Y Y the downfall I hear with the operating manual is well these are the terms and conditions in in which you are able to engage with me which does not open up the lines of communication.

You were going to say something Bianca just that the idea of knowing your operating manual is a barrier for a lot of people and if you start off in silence and without a voice Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You know, I I very much support this because I think I'm in that place where I understand mine. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. But it's taken a long time and and that in and of itself is a big ask. Totally. This is where I'd go back to experiments. experiments. experiments. Mhm. You don't have to write your operating manual as gospel.

You can write it as here are my operating hypotheses. Here's what I think I know about myself. It's probably going to change because I'm human. Not because I'm unreliable or unaware, but because we continue to evolve. So, can we at least be in conversation about it? I'll update you as I discover things about myself, too. I hope you'll do the same. Ela, in the book, you have these four steps for how to speak up. Um, I'll list them and then maybe you can unpack. The first one is start with why.

The second is connect the dots. The third is make the ask clear. And then the final is embrace resistance. Can you walk us through these? through these? through these? Yeah, absolutely. This was a response to people are often saying, "Okay, I want to speak up. I'm have that mindset shift of I think my voice matters. How do I actually do it?" And while there are useful phrases to get you started, the reality, as we've been talking about, is each of our voices is going to sound different.

So, the words, the specific words I use are going to be different than Bianca or you might use. Uh, the anchors are intended to anchor you when the waves of self-doubt or frustration or confusion inevitably come. And of course, because other people don't follow your script for how a conversation would go, [clears throat] you have something to hold on to. So start with why is you know Simon Stenick has done a lot on this but why might I even want to have the conversation? Why might I want to use my voice?

What is the bigger thing that matters to me more than my immediate fear or discomfort or uncertainty that would lead me to have this conversation? And this is Keegan and Lehey's research around behavior change of if you know your bigger why you have a reason to keep going. Second is connect the dots and that was toilet gate, right? We're inevitably going to see things differently. As much as I might want to have the expectation that other people would just understand me, I am, as I often say to my son, I I am going to have to use my words and share my perspective from where I sit.

My perspective is legitimate. It is also limited. uh which means that I can own my perspective but connecting the dots for someone else for how I see it allows them to say oh I I wouldn't have thought about it that way or oh I didn't know that or here's what I think is missing from that from that from that third is make clear the ask because so often we want to love our spouses we want to be supportive colleagues but we don't actually know what people are asking of us and so if I can articulate you know what Bianca what I really need is a listening ear or today I need your best advice then Bianca can actually show up well for me versus having the YouTube video it's not about the nail become our real life experiences and fourth is embrace resistance because as much as we might hope that when we speak up people are like yes I'm on board green light here's your funding we're good to go that's not reality but if you ever work with sales people you know that any engagement is considered good good good because engagement means interest of some sort.

Uh resistance push back is actually information if we can unpack it. So if someone gets defensive to not be thrown off by their reaction but to engage it and say well what concerns do you have? what would need to be different in order for you to be on board. Those four anchors give us things to grasp onto in this journey and conversation that can inevitably be awkward, difficult, and full of the unexpected. unexpected. unexpected. How does that recipe sound to you, Dr. Harris? Yeah, I mean I think it's very helpful to be able to succinctly bulletoint them like you're doing because this all makes sense and seems to be floating in my head somewhere, but for you to be able to pull it all together is super helpful to articulate the things that we think we're learning and discovering, but in fact there's like, you know, real thought and organization behind these ideas out there.

I like the last part because I'm always worried about what's going to, you know, are people going to freak out like the friend I need to talk to. Is he going to freak out and get defensive or whatever? And so just to be armed with some simple questions, remind me of the questions, but they sounded really good. I'm glad. What What concerns do you have, right? What about this doesn't land? What would need to be true for you to say yes? It's going to differ based on the context, but essentially it's okay, you're not on board.

What's behind that? Let me understand that. And by understanding that, I better understand you, and we can craft a way forward. All right, let's talk about how to stop silencing other people. I'll list some of the um concepts that you list in the book, and then maybe you can pick a few of them and and talk about them. Mhm. uh recognizing your default, articulating the norms, providing your endorsement of how somebody else communicates, making norms and assumptions explicit, and getting out of the way. Those are some of the ideas that you list as ways to help other people find their voice.

Which of those leap out to you as worthy of unpacking here? here? here? I I'm going to add one there because Dan, you said you identified and people know you as someone who doesn't struggle with using your voice. Uh this is chapter five of the book of the ways that we silence other people. One of the ways that we silence people is fundamentally forgetting or underestimating how difficult it might be for someone else to use their voice. If I've always been really comfortable speaking my mind and my voice has been accepted or I just don't worry so much about push back, then we forget that someone like me might be sitting in the back of a cab having a 20-minute conversation with herself about asking a taxi driver to open the damn window.

Right? And as we're leading our teams, how might I approach it with, well, what's your relationship with science? What have you learned? how hard it is is for you to to to know that and that awareness even unlocks a conversation unlocks empathy toward a different way. The one that I'll pick up on and not silencing other people is lending your social capital. And this gets back to normalizing normalizing normalizing that it can be okay to sound different than someone else. I get this question all the time, particularly for people who are uh English second language speakers, right?

and saying as a concerned colleague like you know they're they're cutting her out of the meeting and it's usually gendered they're cutting her out of the meeting she's the most brilliant person I don't know what to do right we have these private conversations where I empathize where I say oh well that really sucks or they should do differently and I get really frustrated because that private commiseration is a nice dopamine hit there's connectedness but it doesn't fundamentally change what's happening in public. public. public. And so my invitation is how can we use each of our own social capital, particularly if I'm someone for whom using my voice or finding my voice isn't an issue.

How can I lend my endorsement? Right? Hey, y'all should really listen to Bianca because she has the most nuanced analysis of this situation I've ever heard. Never mind that Bianca might be English second language or might have a bunch of ums or god forbid tear up in the conversation, right? But you are using your social capital to say, "Hey, listen to this person." So that you are both disrupting biases that we might have, assumptions we might have about whether to listen to that person and lending your endorsement.

That's all very helpful. I think in our closing moments here, it might be worth talking about silencing as parents. Um, you said earlier that as a parent, Elaine, you, you know, there are moments where you're like, "Yeah, I would love if this child would be seen and not heard." I certainly feel that way. way. way. Mhm. Mhm. Mhm. So, what are your thoughts about how we can create a culture of voice, to use your term, in our own house without like creating endless mayhem? This is an everyday negotiation.

I do the same costbenefit analysis that we talked about short-term long-term and again this is from my lived experience of if I enforce silence right now it might make today easier because I don't have to deal with their opinions but what kind of human being am I really trying to raise I want my son to have opinions thoughts of his own and the ability to communicate them over time which means I am going to have to listen to some of those opinions today to help him have the data points that say, "Hey, I used my voice and it actually mattered.

Hey, it is okay for me to have needs because I am human." And And And to avoid the mayhem part, each of our voices exist voices exist voices exist next to in community with in relationship with someone else's. So, the conversation we often have is what's the impact you're having on other people? And let me name that when you storm I'm having flashbacks to this morning. When you storm around the house stomping, it makes it really hard for me to answer your question. Can we take a deep breath together?

Right? Articulating that impact rather than my perpetuating my silence of just sucking it up, of just tolerating it. And I'm still in a multi-year experiment with this sort of parenting. So, let me report back in about a decade as to outcomes. outcomes. outcomes. But my hope is that that at least means that he's unlearning different things as a grown-up than the ones that I and so many people now are unlearning around silence. silence. silence. Bianca, what do you got? I'm having the opposite problem with Alexander right now.

I think we've given him a voice and this is this is where our personalities are like coming to clash a little bit or challenges I should say. This morning the usual like get ready to go to school, did you get dressed? Blah blah blah. 20 minutes later he's not dressed but I'm annoyed. I'm stern. I tell him so. And he makes an argument that it was the first time he heard it. And what was really upsetting to him, let me speak, he said, was your tone.

I didn't like your tone because you didn't give me a chance to get dressed. You just started, you know, coming in at me. I said, well, you didn't actually hear me. He's like, well, you forget stuff all the time. So, you can imagine that thing playing out, but he's very comfortable speaking his mind. And those moments are challenging to me as someone who is just getting used to their voice. And I don't have the balance. the balance. the balance. Dan is smirking cuz sometimes he just observes it.

It's ridiculous. No, I'm smirking because Juju Chang, who's a great friend of ours, amazing journalist at ABC News, who I worked with for, you know, decades, has a funny expression, which is be careful who you sleep with because you'll end up raising them. them. them. It is so true. And in advocacy of Bianca, I want to ask this question which is Bianca and and from the principle that we don't unlearn silence on our own. It is group work, not individual work. So we're each building a team.

How can the people around you support you on this journey as you're experimenting with finding and using your voice, right? What could your son do differently? What could your spouse do differently that would support you? Um, I don't want to put that on my son. Maybe that's wrong, but just to table that for a minute, just with his issues. I think with Dan, one of the complexities is that it is 99% me in the functional routine in the household. And if he's not there, it's just what I have to contend with.

Mornings are unpleasant and you know, I'm not actually insecure about what I said being inappropriate or poorly timed. It's when Dan is there and has actually silenced himself because he's not part of the routine and maybe a little bit because he doesn't want to get in the fray because he doesn't have that much time and wants it to be sweet with Alexander that you know he'll only really join in if I'm being fully disrespected which I appreciate or you know when it's really necessary. So I think with a witness it would be really helpful [snorts] if you could partake in the morning routine and also be on him before I have to like you know escalate to stern mommy.

You can think about it. about it. about it. Yeah. No, I'm I'm now I'm even more determined to stay on the other side of the house during the morning routine. [snorts] [snorts] Uh no, I think it makes complete sense. They're smart little buggers, you know. Yeah, they are. Elaine, this has been great. Uh, is there a place you were hoping to go here that we didn't get to? I think where I want to leave us all, and you can tell me whether we've gotten there with the groundwork that we've laid, where I want to leave us all is that we can make different choices going forward.

that the silence we've learned that has shaped our past and influences our present doesn't have to be the habit that we perpetuate tomorrow or in the next conversation. next conversation. next conversation. It is hard. It is uncomfortable. It is deep work at times. It is real conversations. conversations. conversations. But to me, the benefits of intimacy, of being known, of working together instead of working around one another, make it worth it. worth it. worth it. Well said, Well said, Well said, Bianca. Any closing thoughts? You feel complete or do you have some something else you want to add?

I think she does complete me. No, I really appreciate that. The final thing I always want to ask is can you just remind everybody of the name of your book and you know website socials anything worth plugging? Yeah the book is unlearning silence how to speak your mind unleash talent and live more fully. [sighs and gasps] I am on LinkedIn, Instagram and have a monthly newsletter. You can find it all on elaarring.com. on elaarring.com. on elaarring.com. Ela and Bianca. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you to Elaine.

Also, thank you to Bianca. Don't forget to go sign up at danh harris.com if you want to participate in our free New Year's meditation challenge which will be running from January 5th through the 11th. Joseph Goldstein will be our teacher. He has crafted an amazing series of seven guided meditations that really are a kind of master class, an on-ramp to Buddhist meditation. Great for beginners, great for people who've been meditating for a long time. I cannot stress strongly enough how amazing this is and how awesome it would be if you join us.

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And there's also a free 30-day trial for the app if you want to try it before you buy it. Yeah, super excited about this. Finally, thank you to everybody who works so hard on this show. Our producers are Tara Anderson and Eleanor Vasili. Our recording and engineering is handled by the great folks over at Pod People. Lauren Smith is our managing producer. Marissa Schneiderman is our senior producer. DJ Kashmir is our executive producer. and Nick Thorburn of the band Islands wrote our theme.