Navy SEAL: “Not Killing People Is Hard” - DJ Shipley

You've done a lot of hard things in your You've done a lot of hard things in your life. Couple. life. Couple. life. Couple. >> Why was getting out of the military the >> Why was getting out of the military the >> Why was getting out of the military the hardest thing that you've had to do? >> No one ever prepared you for it. >> No one ever prepared you for it. When you get in the teams, any military, When you get in the teams, any military, When you get in the teams, any military, but especially special operations, it but especially special operations, it but especially special operations, it becomes your identity. It becomes the becomes your identity. It becomes the becomes your identity. It becomes the only thing you do and becomes a only thing you do and becomes a only thing you do and becomes a justification for everything you don't justification for everything you don't justification for everything you don't do. Like why don't you do this? Uh do. Like why don't you do this? Uh do. Like why don't you do this? Uh because it'll affect the instate. When because it'll affect the instate. When because it'll affect the instate. When you transition away from it, you never you transition away from it, you never you transition away from it, you never thought it was going to be hard. You thought it was going to be hard. You thought it was going to be hard. You thought you were going to transition. thought you were going to transition. thought you were going to transition. You were going to find that same love You were going to find that same love You were going to find that same love and passion, energy you had for being in and passion, energy you had for being in and passion, energy you had for being in the military. And then when you don't the military. And then when you don't the military. And then when you don't find it, it's a huge fall from grace. find it, it's a huge fall from grace. find it, it's a huge fall from grace. But I mean, you hear these fairy tales But I mean, you hear these fairy tales But I mean, you hear these fairy tales of this billionaire is going to pay you of this billionaire is going to pay you of this billionaire is going to pay you hundreds of thousands of dollars to live hundreds of thousands of dollars to live hundreds of thousands of dollars to live on his ranch and to do nothing but tell on his ranch and to do nothing but tell on his ranch and to do nothing but tell war stories and shoot coyotes and war stories and shoot coyotes and war stories and shoot coyotes and whatever. You know, any any whatever. You know, any any whatever. You know, any any [clears throat] place you want to go, [clears throat] place you want to go, [clears throat] place you want to go, they'll pick you up because of your they'll pick you up because of your they'll pick you up because of your background, because of your resume, and background, because of your resume, and background, because of your resume, and all these different things. And when you all these different things. And when you all these different things. And when you get out, you quickly realize that's all get out, you quickly realize that's all get out, you quickly realize that's all a lie. No one's going to pay you to do a a lie. No one's going to pay you to do a a lie. No one's going to pay you to do a compound assault. No one's going to pay compound assault. No one's going to pay compound assault. No one's going to pay you to skydive. No one's going to pay you to skydive. No one's going to pay you to skydive. No one's going to pay you to assault a cruise ship or whatever you to assault a cruise ship or whatever you to assault a cruise ship or whatever else you did. They don't exist. So, I've else you did. They don't exist. So, I've else you did. They don't exist. So, I've spent my entire adult life developing a spent my entire adult life developing a spent my entire adult life developing a skill set nobody wants. What am I skill set nobody wants. What am I skill set nobody wants. What am I supposed to do now? I don't know how to supposed to do now? I don't know how to supposed to do now? I don't know how to do anything. You want me to go to Home do anything. You want me to go to Home do anything. You want me to go to Home Depot? Like, what am I supposed to do? Depot? Like, what am I supposed to do? Depot? Like, what am I supposed to do? I've avoided getting my picture taken I've avoided getting my picture taken I've avoided getting my picture taken for 20 years. I've avoided conversations for 20 years. I've avoided conversations for 20 years. I've avoided conversations with normal people. I don't have a with normal people. I don't have a with normal people. I don't have a rolodex because I've never opened myself rolodex because I've never opened myself rolodex because I've never opened myself up to anybody who wasn't inside of that up to anybody who wasn't inside of that up to anybody who wasn't inside of that 12man team. 12man team. 12man team. >> I don't have anybody. I don't know the >> I don't have anybody. I don't know the >> I don't have anybody. I don't know the CEO of Apple or Google. I don't know any CEO of Apple or Google. I don't know any CEO of Apple or Google. I don't know any of these people. There's nothing for me of these people. There's nothing for me of these people. There's nothing for me to do except contract. That's it. to do except contract. That's it. to do except contract. That's it. >> Which just keeps you in the same system. >> Which just keeps you in the same system. >> Which just keeps you in the same system. >> It's the exact same thing. You're with >> It's the exact same thing. You're with >> It's the exact same thing. You're with the same people, the same deployment the same people, the same deployment the same people, the same deployment schedules, same routine, and you just schedules, same routine, and you just schedules, same routine, and you just chip away until you're too old to do it chip away until you're too old to do it chip away until you're too old to do it anymore, and then you just fizzle out. anymore, and then you just fizzle out. anymore, and then you just fizzle out. That must feel to a lot of special That must feel to a lot of special That must feel to a lot of special operators like they basically can't ever operators like they basically can't ever operators like they basically can't ever leave. leave. leave. >> Exactly. Even the guys who do leave, the >> Exactly. Even the guys who do leave, the >> Exactly. Even the guys who do leave, the majority of them, they're either majority of them, they're either majority of them, they're either miserable or they transition to a job miserable or they transition to a job miserable or they transition to a job that's so similar to the military. It's that's so similar to the military. It's that's so similar to the military. It's like they're still in like they're still in like they're still in >> well, like >> well, like >> well, like >> contracting >> contracting >> contracting >> agency work, Blackwater, Triple Canopy, >> agency work, Blackwater, Triple Canopy, >> agency work, Blackwater, Triple Canopy, stuff like that. You're basically doing stuff like that. You're basically doing stuff like that. You're basically doing a very similar job, just you get paid a a very similar job, just you get paid a a very similar job, just you get paid a little bit more [gasps] or the guys just little bit more [gasps] or the guys just little bit more [gasps] or the guys just come right back in. We've had guys get come right back in. We've had guys get come right back in. We've had guys get out and go to Goldman Sachs and try to out and go to Goldman Sachs and try to out and go to Goldman Sachs and try to reinvent themselves. They make it 6 reinvent themselves. They make it 6 reinvent themselves. They make it 6 months, 3 years, and nope. Right back months, 3 years, and nope. Right back months, 3 years, and nope. Right back in. in. in. >> No way. >> No way. >> No way. >> Oh, yeah. >> Oh, yeah. >> Oh, yeah. They miss it that much. They miss it that much. They miss it that much. >> I mean, Wall Street trading feels a lot. >> I mean, Wall Street trading feels a lot. >> I mean, Wall Street trading feels a lot. It's probably the closest thing that you It's probably the closest thing that you It's probably the closest thing that you can get to war in the finance world. can get to war in the finance world. can get to war in the finance world. But, uh, yeah, if the adrenaline of But, uh, yeah, if the adrenaline of But, uh, yeah, if the adrenaline of million-dollar movements every couple of million-dollar movements every couple of million-dollar movements every couple of seconds on a market isn't good enough seconds on a market isn't good enough seconds on a market isn't good enough for you, you got to get back into for you, you got to get back into for you, you got to get back into something with a bit more of a kinetic something with a bit more of a kinetic something with a bit more of a kinetic energy. energy. energy. >> Kinetic energy is what it is. You need >> Kinetic energy is what it is. You need >> Kinetic energy is what it is. You need something where something where something where you have a little bit of risk of dying, you have a little bit of risk of dying, you have a little bit of risk of dying, right? You've never felt more alive than right? You've never felt more alive than right? You've never felt more alive than when you're right on the teetering edge when you're right on the teetering edge when you're right on the teetering edge of death. And once you feel that and you of death. And once you feel that and you of death. And once you feel that and you survive it, okay, more that whatever survive it, okay, more that whatever survive it, okay, more that whatever that was, I need to feel that again. that was, I need to feel that again. that was, I need to feel that again. Didn't matter if it's skydiving, if it's Didn't matter if it's skydiving, if it's Didn't matter if it's skydiving, if it's combat, if it's whatever else, you're combat, if it's whatever else, you're combat, if it's whatever else, you're chasing the adrenaline dump. I need I chasing the adrenaline dump. I need I chasing the adrenaline dump. I need I need to feel the adrenaline. Whatever need to feel the adrenaline. Whatever need to feel the adrenaline. Whatever I'm doing, I don't feel it. I'm doing, I don't feel it. I'm doing, I don't feel it. >> What does that feel like? >> What does that feel like? >> What does that feel like? You ever been in like a a bad car You ever been in like a a bad car You ever been in like a a bad car accident or almost in a bad car accident or almost in a bad car accident or almost in a bad car accident? accident? accident? >> Yes. >> Yes. >> Yes. >> When you get done, your hand shake a >> When you get done, your hand shake a >> When you get done, your hand shake a little bit like, [gasps] "Oh, I can't little bit like, [gasps] "Oh, I can't little bit like, [gasps] "Oh, I can't believe I made it through that." It's believe I made it through that." It's believe I made it through that." It's one of those. And then it becomes, "Of one of those. And then it becomes, "Of one of those. And then it becomes, "Of course I made it through that. I've been course I made it through that. I've been course I made it through that. I've been training to make it through that." And training to make it through that." And training to make it through that." And then it's almost like an ego check. then it's almost like an ego check. then it's almost like an ego check. Like, how close can I come or how Like, how close can I come or how Like, how close can I come or how successful can I be with with everything successful can I be with with everything successful can I be with with everything you do? How much can I plan? How much you do? How much can I plan? How much you do? How much can I plan? How much can I dedicate my life to buy down as can I dedicate my life to buy down as can I dedicate my life to buy down as much risk as humanly possible to be much risk as humanly possible to be much risk as humanly possible to be effective on the battlefield? whatever effective on the battlefield? whatever effective on the battlefield? whatever that battlefield might be. that battlefield might be. that battlefield might be. >> He's saying that >> He's saying that >> He's saying that being a soldier, being a special being a soldier, being a special being a soldier, being a special operator is essentially operator is essentially operator is essentially a war equivalent of an extreme sport a war equivalent of an extreme sport a war equivalent of an extreme sport that people decide to do recreationally. that people decide to do recreationally. that people decide to do recreationally. >> Exactly. Exactly. You'd be surprised how >> Exactly. Exactly. You'd be surprised how >> Exactly. Exactly. You'd be surprised how many guys do extreme sports while many guys do extreme sports while many guys do extreme sports while they're in or that was what they did they're in or that was what they did they're in or that was what they did when they came in. Like mine was when they came in. Like mine was when they came in. Like mine was skateboarding. You got guys Andy was big skateboarding. You got guys Andy was big skateboarding. You got guys Andy was big into skydiving, base jumping, wing into skydiving, base jumping, wing into skydiving, base jumping, wing suiting, all of that. How many guys come suiting, all of that. How many guys come suiting, all of that. How many guys come from the MMA world, ultra competitive from the MMA world, ultra competitive from the MMA world, ultra competitive worlds, and we get inside there? It's worlds, and we get inside there? It's worlds, and we get inside there? It's okay. Well, if I mess this up, there is okay. Well, if I mess this up, there is okay. Well, if I mess this up, there is no bronze medal. no bronze medal. no bronze medal. If I mess this up, I'm going to die. Or If I mess this up, I'm going to die. Or If I mess this up, I'm going to die. Or worse, you'll die. worse, you'll die. worse, you'll die. >> Other people, too. >> Other people, too. >> Other people, too. >> Other people die. How much of a >> Other people die. How much of a >> Other people die. How much of a different energy does it give things if you're energy does it give things if you're someone that's an adrenaline junkie someone that's an adrenaline junkie someone that's an adrenaline junkie that's happy to do dangerous things for that's happy to do dangerous things for that's happy to do dangerous things for yourself, yourself, yourself, but your decisions and your actions are but your decisions and your actions are but your decisions and your actions are almost going to put somebody else in almost going to put somebody else in almost going to put somebody else in danger, too. Does that make it more danger, too. Does that make it more danger, too. Does that make it more exciting? exciting? exciting? When you're putting your friends lives When you're putting your friends lives When you're putting your friends lives in danger, that's where it's not in danger, that's where it's not in danger, that's where it's not exciting. You're trying to buy down as exciting. You're trying to buy down as exciting. You're trying to buy down as much of that as possible. Well, that's much of that as possible. Well, that's much of that as possible. Well, that's really what really they want you to do really what really they want you to do really what really they want you to do is just obsess over your craft where you is just obsess over your craft where you is just obsess over your craft where you can control all the variables because it can control all the variables because it can control all the variables because it makes it safer. And that's where a lot makes it safer. And that's where a lot makes it safer. And that's where a lot of the the leadership really don't buy of the the leadership really don't buy of the the leadership really don't buy off on that. If you want to make off on that. If you want to make off on that. If you want to make skydiving safer, make it mandatory to skydiving safer, make it mandatory to skydiving safer, make it mandatory to skydive more. Like, right, Andy will skydive more. Like, right, Andy will skydive more. Like, right, Andy will tell you the same thing. The most tell you the same thing. The most tell you the same thing. The most dangerous person in the military is a dangerous person in the military is a dangerous person in the military is a skydiver with 180 jumps that thinks he skydiver with 180 jumps that thinks he skydiver with 180 jumps that thinks he is a ninja. is a ninja. is a ninja. He's not. If you want to make it safe, He's not. If you want to make it safe, He's not. If you want to make it safe, have thousands of skydives and jump have thousands of skydives and jump have thousands of skydives and jump every single week. jump every single every single week. jump every single every single week. jump every single month and stack those years over years month and stack those years over years month and stack those years over years and then you buy down majority of the and then you buy down majority of the and then you buy down majority of the risk. Same thing with risk. Same thing with risk. Same thing with >> CD like 3,000 something like that. Maybe >> CD like 3,000 something like that. Maybe >> CD like 3,000 something like that. Maybe more. more. more. >> He's he's got to have more than that. >> He's he's got to have more than that. >> He's he's got to have more than that. I'm at 4,000. He's been jumping longer I'm at 4,000. He's been jumping longer I'm at 4,000. He's been jumping longer than me. than me. than me. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. I mean, but that's how you buy >> Yeah. I mean, but that's how you buy >> Yeah. I mean, but that's how you buy down the risk. down the risk. down the risk. >> Got to do it more. You got to fight >> Got to do it more. You got to fight >> Got to do it more. You got to fight more. You got to shoot more. You got to more. You got to shoot more. You got to more. You got to shoot more. You got to jump more. Got to operate more. So me jump more. Got to operate more. So me jump more. Got to operate more. So me and him, we had this conversation two and him, we had this conversation two and him, we had this conversation two days ago and he goes, "Do you think days ago and he goes, "Do you think days ago and he goes, "Do you think [snorts] if we limited how much combat [snorts] if we limited how much combat [snorts] if we limited how much combat people saw, you wouldn't have such a people saw, you wouldn't have such a people saw, you wouldn't have such a huge fall from grace, you know, anxiety, huge fall from grace, you know, anxiety, huge fall from grace, you know, anxiety, suicide, ideation, all those things when suicide, ideation, all those things when suicide, ideation, all those things when they leave it, if you could they leave it, if you could they leave it, if you could compartmentalize them and not let them compartmentalize them and not let them compartmentalize them and not let them burn the candle at both ends. Do you burn the candle at both ends. Do you burn the candle at both ends. Do you think that would be better off for think that would be better off for think that would be better off for them?" I said, "Absolutely no." They them?" I said, "Absolutely no." They them?" I said, "Absolutely no." They need it. That's how you get really, need it. That's how you get really, need it. That's how you get really, really good. Could you imagine if if I really good. Could you imagine if if I really good. Could you imagine if if I locked you in a room, I never let you locked you in a room, I never let you locked you in a room, I never let you play another team and then you just play another team and then you just play another team and then you just played on a Super Bowl. played on a Super Bowl. played on a Super Bowl. >> But in this Super Bowl, if you lose, you >> But in this Super Bowl, if you lose, you >> But in this Super Bowl, if you lose, you die. die. die. >> That's not very good. I want to play >> That's not very good. I want to play >> That's not very good. I want to play every single day. We're doing two a days every single day. We're doing two a days every single day. We're doing two a days the entire time getting ready to go. the entire time getting ready to go. the entire time getting ready to go. Buys down the risk and it increases your Buys down the risk and it increases your Buys down the risk and it increases your confidence and the confidence of the confidence and the confidence of the confidence and the confidence of the entire team. That's where you see entire team. That's where you see entire team. That's where you see level two unlock when everybody truly level two unlock when everybody truly level two unlock when everybody truly believes that you have covered all your believes that you have covered all your believes that you have covered all your bases. I couldn't burn another rep. I bases. I couldn't burn another rep. I bases. I couldn't burn another rep. I couldn't spend another hour. We're as couldn't spend another hour. We're as couldn't spend another hour. We're as good as you could humanly be. We're good as you could humanly be. We're good as you could humanly be. We're [clears throat] good. We're unstoppable. [clears throat] good. We're unstoppable. [clears throat] good. We're unstoppable. >> How many times have you been on >> How many times have you been on >> How many times have you been on deployment and seen somebody that deployment and seen somebody that deployment and seen somebody that shouldn't have been there based on shouldn't have been there based on shouldn't have been there based on expertise or disposition? You know, Andy expertise or disposition? You know, Andy expertise or disposition? You know, Andy came through and explained an awful lot came through and explained an awful lot came through and explained an awful lot about what his selection was like. And about what his selection was like. And about what his selection was like. And then he went back and was the guy with then he went back and was the guy with then he went back and was the guy with the bullhorn as opposed to facing it. the bullhorn as opposed to facing it. the bullhorn as opposed to facing it. >> Um, and you think, well, this is >> Um, and you think, well, this is >> Um, and you think, well, this is supposed to weed out people that aren't supposed to weed out people that aren't supposed to weed out people that aren't supposed to be there. It's incredibly supposed to be there. It's incredibly supposed to be there. It's incredibly rigorous, but it can't be perfect. It rigorous, but it can't be perfect. It rigorous, but it can't be perfect. It simply can't be perfect because it's simply can't be perfect because it's simply can't be perfect because it's unable to replicate what you're actually unable to replicate what you're actually unable to replicate what you're actually there to do. So, yeah. Have there been there to do. So, yeah. Have there been there to do. So, yeah. Have there been any times when you've got out there and any times when you've got out there and any times when you've got out there and thought, thought, thought, "That guy's not you shouldn't be here "That guy's not you shouldn't be here "That guy's not you shouldn't be here with us?" with us?" with us?" There's definite times where you get There's definite times where you get There's definite times where you get people inside the team you wish were not people inside the team you wish were not people inside the team you wish were not there. [laughter] >> You just do. Like, you get there and >> You just do. Like, you get there and you're like, man, but it goes back to, you're like, man, but it goes back to, you're like, man, but it goes back to, you know, I had a mentor. He's talking you know, I had a mentor. He's talking you know, I had a mentor. He's talking about being clonable. Would we be better about being clonable. Would we be better about being clonable. Would we be better off if I had five of you? If the answer off if I had five of you? If the answer off if I had five of you? If the answer is not yes, then you shouldn't be here is not yes, then you shouldn't be here is not yes, then you shouldn't be here at all. I don't even want one of you. at all. I don't even want one of you. at all. I don't even want one of you. >> So, while they might not be the best guy >> So, while they might not be the best guy >> So, while they might not be the best guy for the job, if you can compare them to for the job, if you can compare them to for the job, if you can compare them to all the other guys you've worked with, all the other guys you've worked with, all the other guys you've worked with, they're so much better that it doesn't they're so much better that it doesn't they're so much better that it doesn't really matter. really matter. really matter. >> The group and you know, the strength of >> The group and you know, the strength of >> The group and you know, the strength of the overall collective is going to make the overall collective is going to make the overall collective is going to make up for whatever deficiency he might up for whatever deficiency he might up for whatever deficiency he might have. If it's a cultural thing or have. If it's a cultural thing or have. If it's a cultural thing or personality trait, those are harder to personality trait, those are harder to personality trait, those are harder to navigate, believe it or not, because navigate, believe it or not, because navigate, believe it or not, because everybody can perform. that you're not everybody can perform. that you're not everybody can perform. that you're not going to find a guy that can't shoot, going to find a guy that can't shoot, going to find a guy that can't shoot, move, communicate, skydive, dive, do all move, communicate, skydive, dive, do all move, communicate, skydive, dive, do all the things. He might not be a 10 where the things. He might not be a 10 where the things. He might not be a 10 where this guy is, but he's a solid eight no this guy is, but he's a solid eight no this guy is, but he's a solid eight no matter what. His personality I just matter what. His personality I just matter what. His personality I just don't like don't like don't like >> and nobody else does either. >> and nobody else does either. >> and nobody else does either. >> So, I was learning about uh the way that >> So, I was learning about uh the way that >> So, I was learning about uh the way that bands form. I've been thinking a lot bands form. I've been thinking a lot bands form. I've been thinking a lot about music over the last couple of about music over the last couple of about music over the last couple of years and uh many times you might have years and uh many times you might have years and uh many times you might have someone that's a seant guitarist or an someone that's a seant guitarist or an someone that's a seant guitarist or an unbelievable basist unbelievable basist unbelievable basist but they're a [ __ ] tang on the tour bus. but they're a [ __ ] tang on the tour bus. but they're a [ __ ] tang on the tour bus. >> Yep. >> Yep. >> Yep. >> And what you don't see I suppose um the >> And what you don't see I suppose um the >> And what you don't see I suppose um the job is not finished in the bounds of job is not finished in the bounds of job is not finished in the bounds of what you do professionally. It's well, what you do professionally. It's well, what you do professionally. It's well, how do you impact the morale of the how do you impact the morale of the how do you impact the morale of the team? And what's the energy that you team? And what's the energy that you team? And what's the energy that you bring when you're on your way to a job bring when you're on your way to a job bring when you're on your way to a job and on your way back from a job? And how and on your way back from a job? And how and on your way back from a job? And how do the debriefs and are you keeping in do the debriefs and are you keeping in do the debriefs and are you keeping in touch when you're not on tour, whether touch when you're not on tour, whether touch when you're not on tour, whether you're a musician or a comedian or a you're a musician or a comedian or a you're a musician or a comedian or a special operator? Like, are you special operator? Like, are you special operator? Like, are you WhatsAppapping every so often? Are you WhatsAppapping every so often? Are you WhatsAppapping every so often? Are you kind of keeping that connection? And kind of keeping that connection? And kind of keeping that connection? And what's the sort of vibe that you get? Or what's the sort of vibe that you get? Or what's the sort of vibe that you get? Or do you just low-key irritate everybody? do you just low-key irritate everybody? do you just low-key irritate everybody? Or is it just a mismatch of this one Or is it just a mismatch of this one Or is it just a mismatch of this one particular type of personality? Maybe if particular type of personality? Maybe if particular type of personality? Maybe if you were with a different group, your you were with a different group, your you were with a different group, your annoyances wouldn't annoy quite so much. annoyances wouldn't annoy quite so much. annoyances wouldn't annoy quite so much. You know, you could have people, there You know, you could have people, there You know, you could have people, there are certain people that are universally are certain people that are universally are certain people that are universally annoying, and there are some people that annoying, and there are some people that annoying, and there are some people that are specifically annoying, like are specifically annoying, like are specifically annoying, like idiosyncratically annoying. Yep. idiosyncratically annoying. Yep. idiosyncratically annoying. Yep. >> Um, but whatever it is, it's like, hey, >> Um, but whatever it is, it's like, hey, >> Um, but whatever it is, it's like, hey, this particular node doesn't slot into this particular node doesn't slot into this particular node doesn't slot into this particular network. this particular network. this particular network. >> Did you get that? >> Did you get that? >> Did you get that? At a certain level, we do a draft. So, At a certain level, we do a draft. So, At a certain level, we do a draft. So, when you get to the tier one when you get to the tier one when you get to the tier one organizations, they draft you. No, organizations, they draft you. No, organizations, they draft you. No, doesn't do football or anything else. doesn't do football or anything else. doesn't do football or anything else. They break you off. performance, They break you off. performance, They break you off. performance, performance, culture, trust, all those performance, culture, trust, all those performance, culture, trust, all those different things. And you might get a different things. And you might get a different things. And you might get a guy that checks into your team. He's guy that checks into your team. He's guy that checks into your team. He's there for 6 months, two years, whatever. there for 6 months, two years, whatever. there for 6 months, two years, whatever. It's just not working. It's just not working. It's just not working. >> Sometimes they will lateral transfer him >> Sometimes they will lateral transfer him >> Sometimes they will lateral transfer him to a different team. Perfect. to a different team. Perfect. to a different team. Perfect. >> Like his personality is perfect. The >> Like his personality is perfect. The >> Like his personality is perfect. The cultural doesn't clash and just cultural doesn't clash and just cultural doesn't clash and just everything makes sense for them. You see everything makes sense for them. You see everything makes sense for them. You see that? I won't say often, but often that? I won't say often, but often that? I won't say often, but often enough to where you remember it. enough to where you remember it. enough to where you remember it. >> Can you explain how the different tiers >> Can you explain how the different tiers >> Can you explain how the different tiers and things work? I have an understanding and things work? I have an understanding and things work? I have an understanding of this from the British side, but I've of this from the British side, but I've of this from the British side, but I've never really learned it when it comes to never really learned it when it comes to never really learned it when it comes to >> very similar. >> very similar. >> very similar. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> So, you think baseline and everybody >> So, you think baseline and everybody >> So, you think baseline and everybody will say they are higher tier than they will say they are higher tier than they will say they are higher tier than they actually are, right? So, a lot of people actually are, right? So, a lot of people actually are, right? So, a lot of people will say that the SEAL teams are tier will say that the SEAL teams are tier will say that the SEAL teams are tier two. They're not. It's a tier three. two. They're not. It's a tier three. two. They're not. It's a tier three. It's a lot of is based off your parent It's a lot of is based off your parent It's a lot of is based off your parent unit and your response times to unit and your response times to unit and your response times to catastrophic things. So, catastrophic things. So, catastrophic things. So, >> okay. So, if you're anywhere on the >> okay. So, if you're anywhere on the >> okay. So, if you're anywhere on the planet within 36 hours, you're quite planet within 36 hours, you're quite planet within 36 hours, you're quite high. high. high. >> Yep. Or sometimes you're on a 30-minute >> Yep. Or sometimes you're on a 30-minute >> Yep. Or sometimes you're on a 30-minute recall. That's where you live for months recall. That's where you live for months recall. That's where you live for months throughout the year. 30-minute recall, throughout the year. 30-minute recall, throughout the year. 30-minute recall, that page goes off, that text goes off, that page goes off, that text goes off, that page goes off, that text goes off, you were on an airplane in 30 minutes, you were on an airplane in 30 minutes, you were on an airplane in 30 minutes, you got to go. you got to go. you got to go. >> No [ __ ] way. >> No [ __ ] way. >> No [ __ ] way. >> Oh, yeah. And anxiety just boosts you. >> Oh, yeah. And anxiety just boosts you. >> Oh, yeah. And anxiety just boosts you. [laughter] And I mean, like, you know, [laughter] And I mean, like, you know, [laughter] And I mean, like, you know, really, it isn't much. And I was just really, it isn't much. And I was just really, it isn't much. And I was just talking about this not too long ago. it. talking about this not too long ago. it. talking about this not too long ago. it. You get more funding, but really what You get more funding, but really what You get more funding, but really what they do is for the tier one they do is for the tier one they do is for the tier one organizations, organizations, organizations, they cover all the logistics. They put they cover all the logistics. They put they cover all the logistics. They put you inside of Disneyland, all the you inside of Disneyland, all the you inside of Disneyland, all the ranges, all the assets, all the ranges, all the assets, all the ranges, all the assets, all the intelligence folks, the human intelligence folks, the human intelligence folks, the human performance, the best gyms, everything performance, the best gyms, everything performance, the best gyms, everything you could imagine is inside of a you could imagine is inside of a you could imagine is inside of a compound. They stick you inside it and compound. They stick you inside it and compound. They stick you inside it and they try to lock you inside it. they try to lock you inside it. they try to lock you inside it. >> Just come here and only focus on the >> Just come here and only focus on the >> Just come here and only focus on the craft because as soon as we tell you to craft because as soon as we tell you to craft because as soon as we tell you to go, you're going to have to go at 100%. go, you're going to have to go at 100%. go, you're going to have to go at 100%. Go get ready to go. The other ones it's Go get ready to go. The other ones it's Go get ready to go. The other ones it's a very similar workup routine. It'll be a very similar workup routine. It'll be a very similar workup routine. It'll be a year, two years long sometimes, and a year, two years long sometimes, and a year, two years long sometimes, and then you'll forward deploy, do operation then you'll forward deploy, do operation then you'll forward deploy, do operation for x amount of months, 3, 6, 9, 12, for x amount of months, 3, 6, 9, 12, for x amount of months, 3, 6, 9, 12, whatever the unit deployment cycle is. whatever the unit deployment cycle is. whatever the unit deployment cycle is. You come back, rinse and repeat. In tier You come back, rinse and repeat. In tier You come back, rinse and repeat. In tier one organizations, it's just a constant one organizations, it's just a constant one organizations, it's just a constant revolution over and over and over again. revolution over and over and over again. revolution over and over and over again. It's amazing. It's amazing. It's amazing. >> How long were you doing that? >> How long were you doing that? >> How long were you doing that? >> I joined Navy in 2002 and I retired in >> I joined Navy in 2002 and I retired in >> I joined Navy in 2002 and I retired in August of 2019. So right at 17 years August of 2019. So right at 17 years August of 2019. So right at 17 years >> and how long >> and how long >> and how long >> tier one side um 2010 till 2019. >> tier one side um 2010 till 2019. >> tier one side um 2010 till 2019. >> So you did nine years of being on call >> So you did nine years of being on call >> So you did nine years of being on call within 30 minutes basically. within 30 minutes basically. within 30 minutes basically. >> Not the entire time but every year you >> Not the entire time but every year you >> Not the entire time but every year you spend a significant block of that on the spend a significant block of that on the spend a significant block of that on the alert schedule, alert schedule, alert schedule, >> right? >> right? >> right? >> It's amazing. >> It's amazing. >> It's amazing. >> Why? >> Why? >> Why? >> Because you matter. Like you wake up >> Because you matter. Like you wake up >> Because you matter. Like you wake up every day, you're watching the news, every day, you're watching the news, every day, you're watching the news, you're hearing all the intel briefs and you're hearing all the intel briefs and you're hearing all the intel briefs and you have a dude stuck up in your locker you have a dude stuck up in your locker you have a dude stuck up in your locker up in the team room that you're actively up in the team room that you're actively up in the team room that you're actively just hunting with your friends all day just hunting with your friends all day just hunting with your friends all day long and [laughter] you're just waiting long and [laughter] you're just waiting long and [laughter] you're just waiting for some dude to send out a text and for some dude to send out a text and for some dude to send out a text and you're going to go yes. So I, you know, you're going to go yes. So I, you know, you're going to go yes. So I, you know, have little code words with the wife have little code words with the wife have little code words with the wife like going fishing with the boys. Where like going fishing with the boys. Where like going fishing with the boys. Where you going fishing at? I have no idea. you going fishing at? I have no idea. you going fishing at? I have no idea. Take off and go. That is that is the Take off and go. That is that is the Take off and go. That is that is the coolest thing you can do in the coolest thing you can do in the coolest thing you can do in the military. Why? Cuz it's just like in the military. Why? Cuz it's just like in the military. Why? Cuz it's just like in the movies. You seen the greatest war movie movies. You seen the greatest war movie movies. You seen the greatest war movie ever made? Navy Seals in the middle of ever made? Navy Seals in the middle of ever made? Navy Seals in the middle of that wedding. That's what everybody that wedding. That's what everybody that wedding. That's what everybody wants. I want to be in the middle of wants. I want to be in the middle of wants. I want to be in the middle of that. The pager goes off. Gotta go right that. The pager goes off. Gotta go right that. The pager goes off. Gotta go right now. Right now. Leave. now. Right now. Leave. now. Right now. Leave. >> And three people from the party leave. >> And three people from the party leave. >> And three people from the party leave. >> Yeah. It's a lot of pressure, but it >> Yeah. It's a lot of pressure, but it >> Yeah. It's a lot of pressure, but it gives you a reason why on those days you gives you a reason why on those days you gives you a reason why on those days you don't want to get up. don't want to get up. don't want to get up. >> You're going to get up. Team deserves >> You're going to get up. Team deserves >> You're going to get up. Team deserves it. The mission deserves it. The nation it. The mission deserves it. The nation it. The mission deserves it. The nation deserves it. Get up and go. And now that deserves it. Get up and go. And now that deserves it. Get up and go. And now that I'm out, I get to see these subants I'm out, I get to see these subants I'm out, I get to see these subants throughout their craft. the guys go down throughout their craft. the guys go down throughout their craft. the guys go down and talk to Houston Rockets, Kevin and talk to Houston Rockets, Kevin and talk to Houston Rockets, Kevin Durant over there and you get four gold Durant over there and you get four gold Durant over there and you get four gold medals. I mean, one of the greatest is medals. I mean, one of the greatest is medals. I mean, one of the greatest is the greatest scoring um in Olympic the greatest scoring um in Olympic the greatest scoring um in Olympic basketball history and you get to see basketball history and you get to see basketball history and you get to see what they do day in and day out. The what they do day in and day out. The what they do day in and day out. The Steph Curryries of the world, the LeBron Steph Curryries of the world, the LeBron Steph Curryries of the world, the LeBron James, Michael Phelps, Tiger Woods, all James, Michael Phelps, Tiger Woods, all James, Michael Phelps, Tiger Woods, all those people. those people. those people. >> Do you see parallels between what was >> Do you see parallels between what was >> Do you see parallels between what was constructed for you guys and what is constructed for you guys and what is constructed for you guys and what is constructed for them too? constructed for them too? constructed for them too? >> They just self-made it. They live in >> They just self-made it. They live in >> They just self-made it. They live in isolation. They broke out a routine that isolation. They broke out a routine that isolation. They broke out a routine that just super exceeds everybody else's just super exceeds everybody else's just super exceeds everybody else's minimum standard because nobody else can minimum standard because nobody else can minimum standard because nobody else can maintain it. So if you if I drop Steph maintain it. So if you if I drop Steph maintain it. So if you if I drop Steph Curry on that table right there and I Curry on that table right there and I Curry on that table right there and I was like walk me through a typical day was like walk me through a typical day was like walk me through a typical day in the life of Steph Curry. He's got a in the life of Steph Curry. He's got a in the life of Steph Curry. He's got a minimum shot routine. He's got his minimum shot routine. He's got his minimum shot routine. He's got his warm-ups, his workouts, his massage warm-ups, his workouts, his massage warm-ups, his workouts, his massage therapy, the cold plunges, like whatever therapy, the cold plunges, like whatever therapy, the cold plunges, like whatever he does, he just does it unbroken for so he does, he just does it unbroken for so he does, he just does it unbroken for so much longer than everybody else. That's much longer than everybody else. That's much longer than everybody else. That's why he's able to hit that level and why he's able to hit that level and why he's able to hit that level and maintain it maintain it maintain it >> for a 20 year career where the average >> for a 20 year career where the average >> for a 20 year career where the average lifespan of NBA guys 4 and a half years lifespan of NBA guys 4 and a half years lifespan of NBA guys 4 and a half years coming up on 20. It's not a fluke. coming up on 20. It's not a fluke. coming up on 20. It's not a fluke. That's not luck and it's not genetics. That's not luck and it's not genetics. That's not luck and it's not genetics. >> Yeah. Like at a certain point like >> Yeah. Like at a certain point like >> Yeah. Like at a certain point like people want to say must be nice. There people want to say must be nice. There people want to say must be nice. There ain't nothing nice about his schedule. ain't nothing nice about his schedule. ain't nothing nice about his schedule. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. >> He's been living that unbroken. That's >> He's been living that unbroken. That's >> He's been living that unbroken. That's why you know his name. But I also say why you know his name. But I also say why you know his name. But I also say like Michael Phelps he's a freak. He's a like Michael Phelps he's a freak. He's a like Michael Phelps he's a freak. He's a freak. Genetically gifted for sure. His freak. Genetically gifted for sure. His freak. Genetically gifted for sure. His discipline is why he has all the gold discipline is why he has all the gold discipline is why he has all the gold medals. If I would have given him a medals. If I would have given him a medals. If I would have given him a baseball bat at eight years old and baseball bat at eight years old and baseball bat at eight years old and never put him in a swimming pool, you'd never put him in a swimming pool, you'd never put him in a swimming pool, you'd still know the name. It's that's why you still know the name. It's that's why you still know the name. It's that's why you see him when they transition out, you're see him when they transition out, you're see him when they transition out, you're like Michael golfing. He's an amazing like Michael golfing. He's an amazing like Michael golfing. He's an amazing golfer. Just imagine if you doing it golfer. Just imagine if you doing it golfer. Just imagine if you doing it since he was four, he'd be Tiger Woods. since he was four, he'd be Tiger Woods. since he was four, he'd be Tiger Woods. The work ethic, the discipline, and the The work ethic, the discipline, and the The work ethic, the discipline, and the passion it takes to hit that level, it's passion it takes to hit that level, it's passion it takes to hit that level, it's a universal. a universal. a universal. >> There's a a cool thought experiment. >> There's a a cool thought experiment. >> There's a a cool thought experiment. Brian Class wrote a book called Fluke Brian Class wrote a book called Fluke Brian Class wrote a book called Fluke and he's talking about um realities that and he's talking about um realities that and he's talking about um realities that are convergent or uh coincident and he's are convergent or uh coincident and he's are convergent or uh coincident and he's basically saying uh if you were to run basically saying uh if you were to run basically saying uh if you were to run reality back a thousand times in all of reality back a thousand times in all of reality back a thousand times in all of the other universes in how many of them the other universes in how many of them the other universes in how many of them would you have got an extraordinary would you have got an extraordinary would you have got an extraordinary outcome for talking about this? outcome for talking about this? outcome for talking about this? >> Um >> Um >> Um I get the sense that someone like I get the sense that someone like I get the sense that someone like Michael Phelps is you like 900 of the Michael Phelps is you like 900 of the Michael Phelps is you like 900 of the thousand universes. he becomes world thousand universes. he becomes world thousand universes. he becomes world class in a thing. class in a thing. class in a thing. And the goal, I think, should be to try And the goal, I think, should be to try And the goal, I think, should be to try and construct a life where in as many and construct a life where in as many and construct a life where in as many universes as possible, you would have universes as possible, you would have universes as possible, you would have ended up with the kind of outcome that ended up with the kind of outcome that ended up with the kind of outcome that you're looking to have. you're looking to have. you're looking to have. >> I say the same thing. If you live the >> I say the same thing. If you live the >> I say the same thing. If you live the routine, if you look at every rep routine, if you look at every rep routine, if you look at every rep they've ever burnt throughout their they've ever burnt throughout their they've ever burnt throughout their entire life and you just replace with a entire life and you just replace with a entire life and you just replace with a different medium, that is the recipe for different medium, that is the recipe for different medium, that is the recipe for success. If there's 10,000 hours, success. If there's 10,000 hours, success. If there's 10,000 hours, they've logged so much more than I mean. they've logged so much more than I mean. they've logged so much more than I mean. You break 10,000 hours down, four hours You break 10,000 hours down, four hours You break 10,000 hours down, four hours a day. Was that roughly eight years? a day. Was that roughly eight years? a day. Was that roughly eight years? Break down eight hours a day, roughly Break down eight hours a day, roughly Break down eight hours a day, roughly four years. That's why I tell guys, once four years. That's why I tell guys, once four years. That's why I tell guys, once you get into your lane, if you sacrifice you get into your lane, if you sacrifice you get into your lane, if you sacrifice everything else for the first four everything else for the first four everything else for the first four years, you lay down those 10,000 hours, years, you lay down those 10,000 hours, years, you lay down those 10,000 hours, you can find a balance point for the you can find a balance point for the you can find a balance point for the rest of your career. That's just not rest of your career. That's just not rest of your career. That's just not what I did. That's what most of the guys what I did. That's what most of the guys what I did. That's what most of the guys didn't do. drinking, partying, chasing didn't do. drinking, partying, chasing didn't do. drinking, partying, chasing women, doing the whole thing. Just, you women, doing the whole thing. Just, you women, doing the whole thing. Just, you know, set your hair on fire and run know, set your hair on fire and run know, set your hair on fire and run around throughout your early 20s. Not around throughout your early 20s. Not around throughout your early 20s. Not what I wish I would have done. So, you what I wish I would have done. So, you what I wish I would have done. So, you got to make up that time on the got to make up that time on the got to make up that time on the backside. [sighs and gasps] backside. [sighs and gasps] backside. [sighs and gasps] Just be a pro. Be a pro early. Yeah. A Just be a pro. Be a pro early. Yeah. A Just be a pro. Be a pro early. Yeah. A lot of the time, uh, at the live shows lot of the time, uh, at the live shows lot of the time, uh, at the live shows that I do, young guys typically come up that I do, young guys typically come up that I do, young guys typically come up and they hear me talking about, well, and they hear me talking about, well, and they hear me talking about, well, I'm I'm trying to use other fuel sources I'm I'm trying to use other fuel sources I'm I'm trying to use other fuel sources than just putting my foot on the gas than just putting my foot on the gas than just putting my foot on the gas pedal. I'm trying to give myself time to pedal. I'm trying to give myself time to pedal. I'm trying to give myself time to be creative because uh there's leverage be creative because uh there's leverage be creative because uh there's leverage in creativity that there isn't in white in creativity that there isn't in white in creativity that there isn't in white knuckling it. In fact, we did manage to knuckling it. In fact, we did manage to knuckling it. In fact, we did manage to white knuckle something today, which is white knuckle something today, which is white knuckle something today, which is one of the few times in my history that one of the few times in my history that one of the few times in my history that I've white knuckled creativity, but it's I've white knuckled creativity, but it's I've white knuckled creativity, but it's very rare. Um and that's huge step very rare. Um and that's huge step very rare. Um and that's huge step changes because of what I do. Um maybe changes because of what I do. Um maybe changes because of what I do. Um maybe if you are uh somebody that's doing a if you are uh somebody that's doing a if you are uh somebody that's doing a special kind of battle plan for you guys special kind of battle plan for you guys special kind of battle plan for you guys that's in the intelligence side uh and that's in the intelligence side uh and that's in the intelligence side uh and they're trying to come up with the they're trying to come up with the they're trying to come up with the perfect operation to reverse engineer perfect operation to reverse engineer perfect operation to reverse engineer exactly that's it. You know that's the exactly that's it. You know that's the exactly that's it. You know that's the guy that you probably actually need in a guy that you probably actually need in a guy that you probably actually need in a hammock for a couple of hours a day just hammock for a couple of hours a day just hammock for a couple of hours a day just thinking about [ __ ] Mhm. thinking about [ __ ] Mhm. thinking about [ __ ] Mhm. >> But for the most part and in most >> But for the most part and in most >> But for the most part and in most industries and even him back in the day industries and even him back in the day industries and even him back in the day when he was learning exactly how when he was learning exactly how when he was learning exactly how intelligence assets move and what the intelligence assets move and what the intelligence assets move and what the different ways that this geographic different ways that this geographic different ways that this geographic region relates to this particular region relates to this particular region relates to this particular culture and what this guy did in his culture and what this guy did in his culture and what this guy did in his background, he was doing his 8 hours a background, he was doing his 8 hours a background, he was doing his 8 hours a day and young guys come and ask because day and young guys come and ask because day and young guys come and ask because they're hearing me talk about I'm I'm they're hearing me talk about I'm I'm they're hearing me talk about I'm I'm trying to use different um leverage trying to use different um leverage trying to use different um leverage functions as opposed to what I did for functions as opposed to what I did for functions as opposed to what I did for best part of two decades which was like best part of two decades which was like best part of two decades which was like nose grindstoneone just like just doing nose grindstoneone just like just doing nose grindstoneone just like just doing that eating [ __ ] Mhm. that eating [ __ ] Mhm. that eating [ __ ] Mhm. >> Um, and I'd be I'd typically ask them, >> Um, and I'd be I'd typically ask them, >> Um, and I'd be I'd typically ask them, "You look pretty young. How old are "You look pretty young. How old are "You look pretty young. How old are you?" He goes, "I'm 22." Like, "Bro, I you?" He goes, "I'm 22." Like, "Bro, I you?" He goes, "I'm 22." Like, "Bro, I don't mean to be that patronizing don't mean to be that patronizing don't mean to be that patronizing [ __ ] that was to me when I was 22, [ __ ] that was to me when I was 22, [ __ ] that was to me when I was 22, but you're made of rubber and magic at but you're made of rubber and magic at but you're made of rubber and magic at the moment. Like, you're indestructible. the moment. Like, you're indestructible. the moment. Like, you're indestructible. You can do you can do 14 16 hour days You can do you can do 14 16 hour days You can do you can do 14 16 hour days for multiple days in a row, then have for multiple days in a row, then have for multiple days in a row, then have one day where you have a bit more sleep, one day where you have a bit more sleep, one day where you have a bit more sleep, and then run it back and run it back and and then run it back and run it back and and then run it back and run it back and run it back." And yeah, the the gains of run it back." And yeah, the the gains of run it back." And yeah, the the gains of frontloading your skill acquisition uh frontloading your skill acquisition uh frontloading your skill acquisition uh and setting down those and setting down those and setting down those paths of least resistance. What do I paths of least resistance. What do I paths of least resistance. What do I expect? You know, how many uh guys that expect? You know, how many uh guys that expect? You know, how many uh guys that end up in the SEALs were probably in end up in the SEALs were probably in end up in the SEALs were probably in some form of sport as a kid, some degree some form of sport as a kid, some degree some form of sport as a kid, some degree of disciplined of disciplined of disciplined uh routine. uh routine. uh routine. Probably many. Now I know that there's Probably many. Now I know that there's Probably many. Now I know that there's some Andy's told me that he just total some Andy's told me that he just total some Andy's told me that he just total tearways seemed like how the [ __ ] is tearways seemed like how the [ __ ] is tearways seemed like how the [ __ ] is this redneck guy that never did but even this redneck guy that never did but even this redneck guy that never did but even within them you can see something within them you can see something within them you can see something there's some sort of spark that seems to there's some sort of spark that seems to there's some sort of spark that seems to sort of lock them in. But yeah defining sort of lock them in. But yeah defining sort of lock them in. But yeah defining your path of least resistance by setting your path of least resistance by setting your path of least resistance by setting your habits early I think is uh it's a your habits early I think is uh it's a your habits early I think is uh it's a superpower. It's it's a way it's a superpower. It's it's a way it's a superpower. It's it's a way it's a superpower that you can give yourself superpower that you can give yourself superpower that you can give yourself >> and it becomes routine. It becomes easy. >> and it becomes routine. It becomes easy. >> and it becomes routine. It becomes easy. You don't even realize you're doing it. You don't even realize you're doing it. You don't even realize you're doing it. I [clears throat] I have an I have an amazing support group on I have an amazing support group on social. It's amazing. social. It's amazing. social. It's amazing. I'm shocked with the amount of people I'm shocked with the amount of people I'm shocked with the amount of people that hit me up and they say this phrase, that hit me up and they say this phrase, that hit me up and they say this phrase, "I just can't get up that early. "I just can't get up that early. "I just can't get up that early. You have a $1,200 phone in your pocket. You have a $1,200 phone in your pocket. You have a $1,200 phone in your pocket. The simplest feature on it is the alarm. The simplest feature on it is the alarm. The simplest feature on it is the alarm. Just set it." And he goes, "I can't, Just set it." And he goes, "I can't, Just set it." And he goes, "I can't, man. I always hit snooze." man. I always hit snooze." man. I always hit snooze." I've never hit snooze my whole life. I I've never hit snooze my whole life. I I've never hit snooze my whole life. I have no idea what you mean. So, I'll have no idea what you mean. So, I'll have no idea what you mean. So, I'll give him a tip. Instead of putting next give him a tip. Instead of putting next give him a tip. Instead of putting next to your nightstand, because I know it's to your nightstand, because I know it's to your nightstand, because I know it's where it is, put it in the wall 8 ft off where it is, put it in the wall 8 ft off where it is, put it in the wall 8 ft off your bed. Once you swing your feet out your bed. Once you swing your feet out your bed. Once you swing your feet out to unplug the phone, just continue the to unplug the phone, just continue the to unplug the phone, just continue the movement. Next day, lay out your clothes movement. Next day, lay out your clothes movement. Next day, lay out your clothes the night before. Get your bottle of the night before. Get your bottle of the night before. Get your bottle of water next to your bed. Get your pills water next to your bed. Get your pills water next to your bed. Get your pills all laid out. Everything you have to do all laid out. Everything you have to do all laid out. Everything you have to do in the exact order you're going to get in the exact order you're going to get in the exact order you're going to get dressed and watch how fast your morning dressed and watch how fast your morning dressed and watch how fast your morning routine closes. Like, I can be in and routine closes. Like, I can be in and routine closes. Like, I can be in and out of that house, rushed or not rushed, out of that house, rushed or not rushed, out of that house, rushed or not rushed, 4 and a half minutes. I mean, fast. 4 and a half minutes. I mean, fast. 4 and a half minutes. I mean, fast. But I've also had to live my life like But I've also had to live my life like But I've also had to live my life like that the whole time. M that the whole time. M that the whole time. M >> like as soon as you feel the momentum >> like as soon as you feel the momentum >> like as soon as you feel the momentum get created, you're like, I'm I just get created, you're like, I'm I just get created, you're like, I'm I just have to follow the routine. Very easy. have to follow the routine. Very easy. have to follow the routine. Very easy. Like I got to get here early. I jumped Like I got to get here early. I jumped Like I got to get here early. I jumped in an Uber and I drove here last night in an Uber and I drove here last night in an Uber and I drove here last night just to make sure I knew where the just to make sure I knew where the just to make sure I knew where the building was. Make sure I knew where the building was. Make sure I knew where the building was. Make sure I knew where the stairs were, right? I don't want to walk stairs were, right? I don't want to walk stairs were, right? I don't want to walk around. I don't want to be unprepared. around. I don't want to be unprepared. around. I don't want to be unprepared. So that's why I'm not late for anything. So that's why I'm not late for anything. So that's why I'm not late for anything. I show up. I dirt dive the night before. I show up. I dirt dive the night before. I show up. I dirt dive the night before. I know the traffic patterns. I know I know the traffic patterns. I know I know the traffic patterns. I know everything's going to happen. 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I talk a lot about dial. about dial. about dial. >> Doesn't sound like it. [laughter] >> Doesn't sound like it. [laughter] >> Doesn't sound like it. [laughter] >> You should have seen me before. >> You should have seen me before. >> You should have seen me before. >> Tell me what what was before like. >> Tell me what what was before like. >> Tell me what what was before like. >> You want to see a panic attack? Grab >> You want to see a panic attack? Grab >> You want to see a panic attack? Grab somebody who is living that alert. somebody who is living that alert. somebody who is living that alert. Surgeons have it. ER docs have it. Like Surgeons have it. ER docs have it. Like Surgeons have it. ER docs have it. Like if that phone rings, you have to go if that phone rings, you have to go if that phone rings, you have to go watch a dude who lives his life like watch a dude who lives his life like watch a dude who lives his life like that go to zero bars or his phone dies. that go to zero bars or his phone dies. that go to zero bars or his phone dies. Panic at the disco. Cuz if that thing Panic at the disco. Cuz if that thing Panic at the disco. Cuz if that thing goes off and your phone is dead, there's goes off and your phone is dead, there's goes off and your phone is dead, there's no excuse for it. You're just constantly no excuse for it. You're just constantly no excuse for it. You're just constantly checking it all day. If if your phone checking it all day. If if your phone checking it all day. If if your phone goes off in next room, I jump in and goes off in next room, I jump in and goes off in next room, I jump in and grab my phone. Everybody else does, too. grab my phone. Everybody else does, too. grab my phone. Everybody else does, too. Put it back away. 2:30 in the morning, Put it back away. 2:30 in the morning, Put it back away. 2:30 in the morning, try to fall back asleep. It's so hard to try to fall back asleep. It's so hard to try to fall back asleep. It's so hard to sleep because you're such on edge. sleep because you're such on edge. sleep because you're such on edge. You're waiting for that moment to come. You're waiting for that moment to come. You're waiting for that moment to come. You're waiting to spring out of it. You're waiting to spring out of it. You're waiting to spring out of it. >> Just got to learn how to power it down. >> Just got to learn how to power it down. >> Just got to learn how to power it down. It takes a long time though. It takes a long time though. It takes a long time though. >> How how exciting is being on a plane >> How how exciting is being on a plane >> How how exciting is being on a plane going out to do an operation when you've going out to do an operation when you've going out to do an operation when you've only had 30 minutes to get ready but only had 30 minutes to get ready but only had 30 minutes to get ready but you've been thinking about it for a you've been thinking about it for a you've been thinking about it for a couple of months or years. couple of months or years. couple of months or years. >> It's amazing. I mean even on the Hilo >> It's amazing. I mean even on the Hilo >> It's amazing. I mean even on the Hilo flight on a normal deployment it's the flight on a normal deployment it's the flight on a normal deployment it's the greatest thing you'll ever do. It is greatest thing you'll ever do. It is greatest thing you'll ever do. It is like there is nothing more s nothing like there is nothing more s nothing like there is nothing more s nothing that I found so far that can replace that I found so far that can replace that I found so far that can replace that feeling of sitting on the Hilo that feeling of sitting on the Hilo that feeling of sitting on the Hilo flying 30 seconds out you get the call flying 30 seconds out you get the call flying 30 seconds out you get the call and you just watch all the guys and you just watch all the guys and you just watch all the guys thousandy stairs. I mean, they might as thousandy stairs. I mean, they might as thousandy stairs. I mean, they might as well be smoking cigarettes with their well be smoking cigarettes with their well be smoking cigarettes with their feet kicked up. They are so calm, so feet kicked up. They are so calm, so feet kicked up. They are so calm, so ready to send it. It makes you feel ready to send it. It makes you feel ready to send it. It makes you feel eerily comfortable. I don't care what eerily comfortable. I don't care what eerily comfortable. I don't care what happens when that ram drops, we are happens when that ram drops, we are happens when that ram drops, we are golden. This is great. But the pressure golden. This is great. But the pressure golden. This is great. But the pressure to get there. That's all it is. Like a to get there. That's all it is. Like a to get there. That's all it is. Like a lot of it's kind of like meditating. You sit on that kind of like meditating. You sit on that Hilo, the wine of the engines, the smell Hilo, the wine of the engines, the smell Hilo, the wine of the engines, the smell of the fuel, nobody's talking. guys will of the fuel, nobody's talking. guys will of the fuel, nobody's talking. guys will put in iPods or they won't they'll just put in iPods or they won't they'll just put in iPods or they won't they'll just sit there and they'll kind of just blink sit there and they'll kind of just blink sit there and they'll kind of just blink stare out and you'll think about stare out and you'll think about stare out and you'll think about everything you're about to do the moment everything you're about to do the moment everything you're about to do the moment you land when you get off the Hilo where you land when you get off the Hilo where you land when you get off the Hilo where you going to sit the Hilo back blast you going to sit the Hilo back blast you going to sit the Hilo back blast blowing all the dust all over your hair blowing all the dust all over your hair blowing all the dust all over your hair everything you think about every single everything you think about every single everything you think about every single detail so when you get there if anything detail so when you get there if anything detail so when you get there if anything happens I've rehearsed this 50,000 times happens I've rehearsed this 50,000 times happens I've rehearsed this 50,000 times it feels like I've it feels like you're it feels like I've it feels like you're it feels like I've it feels like you're omnipotent at a point there's not a omnipotent at a point there's not a omnipotent at a point there's not a single detail you have not thought of single detail you have not thought of single detail you have not thought of that I haven't thought of that we all that I haven't thought of that we all that I haven't thought of that we all collectively have not thought of so if collectively have not thought of so if collectively have not thought of so if anything goes anything goes anything goes switch to make it happen. switch to make it happen. switch to make it happen. But you have to think about it a lot. But you have to think about it a lot. But you have to think about it a lot. You have to be obsessed. You don't find You have to be obsessed. You don't find You have to be obsessed. You don't find a lot of guys that do that job who have a lot of guys that do that job who have a lot of guys that do that job who have extracurricular activities. I mean, when extracurricular activities. I mean, when extracurricular activities. I mean, when I got there, they made you sign a piece I got there, they made you sign a piece I got there, they made you sign a piece of paperwork. Not going to try to get a of paperwork. Not going to try to get a of paperwork. Not going to try to get a college degree. You're not going to try college degree. You're not going to try college degree. You're not going to try to get a real estate license for your to get a real estate license for your to get a real estate license for your first four or five years. I forget what first four or five years. I forget what first four or five years. I forget what it was. We just want you to do this, it was. We just want you to do this, it was. We just want you to do this, nothing else. nothing else. nothing else. >> Mhm. Right. >> Mhm. Right. >> Mhm. Right. >> So, they realize the price of obsession >> So, they realize the price of obsession >> So, they realize the price of obsession and the benefits of of obsession. And and the benefits of of obsession. And and the benefits of of obsession. And even if you don't, once you get there, even if you don't, once you get there, even if you don't, once you get there, when you see the guys that have been when you see the guys that have been when you see the guys that have been doing it, it confirms it. They are doing it, it confirms it. They are doing it, it confirms it. They are amazing. They just are. amazing. They just are. amazing. They just are. >> You think growing up, you know, in that >> You think growing up, you know, in that >> You think growing up, you know, in that community, spending all that time in the community, spending all that time in the community, spending all that time in the teams and then getting to the, you know, teams and then getting to the, you know, teams and then getting to the, you know, the varsity level that it would be the varsity level that it would be the varsity level that it would be roughly the same. It couldn't be further roughly the same. It couldn't be further roughly the same. It couldn't be further apart. apart. apart. Everything they do is purpose-built. Everything they do is purpose-built. Everything they do is purpose-built. Everything they don't do is Everything they don't do is Everything they don't do is purpose-built. their morning routine, purpose-built. their morning routine, purpose-built. their morning routine, the workouts, the recovery, what they the workouts, the recovery, what they the workouts, the recovery, what they drink or don't drink, and then how they drink or don't drink, and then how they drink or don't drink, and then how they compartmentalize stress. I've never seen compartmentalize stress. I've never seen compartmentalize stress. I've never seen anybody do it better. anybody do it better. anybody do it better. >> How so? >> How so? >> How so? >> They can block it out. No matter what >> They can block it out. No matter what >> They can block it out. No matter what happens, you're on, you're on the middle happens, you're on, you're on the middle happens, you're on, you're on the middle of an op, you come back, you've been of an op, you come back, you've been of an op, you come back, you've been gone for four and a half months, and you gone for four and a half months, and you gone for four and a half months, and you have an email, your wife just left, you have an email, your wife just left, you have an email, your wife just left, you took two kids and moved to Missouri, took two kids and moved to Missouri, took two kids and moved to Missouri, they go right back to work. I'll solve they go right back to work. I'll solve they go right back to work. I'll solve that when I get home. They won't even that when I get home. They won't even that when I get home. They won't even care. They don't even think about it. care. They don't even think about it. care. They don't even think about it. You've seen that happen. You've seen that happen. You've seen that happen. >> More times than I can count. >> More times than I can count. >> More times than I can count. Compartmentalization is like the number Compartmentalization is like the number Compartmentalization is like the number one strength. How bad's it going right one strength. How bad's it going right one strength. How bad's it going right now? I don't know. I don't even think now? I don't know. I don't even think now? I don't know. I don't even think about it. Just block it out. It's hard about it. Just block it out. It's hard about it. Just block it out. It's hard to do though when you get a family and to do though when you get a family and to do though when you get a family and you get all the other people that are you get all the other people that are you get all the other people that are drawing your time and attention, your drawing your time and attention, your drawing your time and attention, your bandwidth. It becomes hard to block out. bandwidth. It becomes hard to block out. bandwidth. It becomes hard to block out. >> I'm surprised in some degrees that there >> I'm surprised in some degrees that there >> I'm surprised in some degrees that there isn't a rule that you are not going to isn't a rule that you are not going to isn't a rule that you are not going to get married or start a family while get married or start a family while get married or start a family while you're inside of the the forces. I said you're inside of the the forces. I said you're inside of the the forces. I said that for years. In a perfect world, they that for years. In a perfect world, they that for years. In a perfect world, they wouldn't. wouldn't. wouldn't. >> K-pop K-pop stars aren't allowed. They >> K-pop K-pop stars aren't allowed. They >> K-pop K-pop stars aren't allowed. They sign away on their contract when they go sign away on their contract when they go sign away on their contract when they go get created as a a group. Um, I think it get created as a a group. Um, I think it get created as a a group. Um, I think it might even be to be celibate, but it's might even be to be celibate, but it's might even be to be celibate, but it's certainly to not have a partner. certainly to not have a partner. certainly to not have a partner. Absolutely. To not get married, Absolutely. To not get married, Absolutely. To not get married, absolutely to not have kids. One of the absolutely to not have kids. One of the absolutely to not have kids. One of the interesting things, South Korea's got interesting things, South Korea's got interesting things, South Korea's got the lowest birth rate in the world. And the lowest birth rate in the world. And the lowest birth rate in the world. And one of the reasons that some demographer one of the reasons that some demographer one of the reasons that some demographer friends of mine think that that's the friends of mine think that that's the friends of mine think that that's the case is that the single most powerful case is that the single most powerful case is that the single most powerful cultural export and cultural influence cultural export and cultural influence cultural export and cultural influence in Korea is K-pop. And all of the K-pop in Korea is K-pop. And all of the K-pop in Korea is K-pop. And all of the K-pop stars are by contract unpartnered and stars are by contract unpartnered and stars are by contract unpartnered and childless. But if you can do it to childless. But if you can do it to childless. But if you can do it to people that do coordinated dances on people that do coordinated dances on people that do coordinated dances on stage, I would expect that there would stage, I would expect that there would stage, I would expect that there would be a tier that you would get to where be a tier that you would get to where be a tier that you would get to where the government says, "Hey, while you're the government says, "Hey, while you're the government says, "Hey, while you're here, I'm afraid you're in K-pop mode." here, I'm afraid you're in K-pop mode." here, I'm afraid you're in K-pop mode." I used to always say, [gasps] I used to always say, [gasps] I used to always say, [gasps] "If you could build a lab and you could "If you could build a lab and you could "If you could build a lab and you could build nothing but premium assaulters, build nothing but premium assaulters, build nothing but premium assaulters, what would you want them to be like?" what would you want them to be like?" what would you want them to be like?" James Bond, orphans, no wife, no kids, James Bond, orphans, no wife, no kids, James Bond, orphans, no wife, no kids, no external commitments, just focus on no external commitments, just focus on no external commitments, just focus on this craft. I mean, that's why when you this craft. I mean, that's why when you this craft. I mean, that's why when you look at James Bond, he's look at James Bond, he's look at James Bond, he's >> No, he's focused on [ __ ] women. >> No, he's focused on [ __ ] women. >> No, he's focused on [ __ ] women. >> He is, but he's not he's not getting >> He is, but he's not he's not getting >> He is, but he's not he's not getting married. He has nothing. So, you get the married. He has nothing. So, you get the married. He has nothing. So, you get the hybrid between him and Neil McCauley hybrid between him and Neil McCauley hybrid between him and Neil McCauley from Heat. Can't get attached to from Heat. Can't get attached to from Heat. Can't get attached to anything. You can't walk away from 30 anything. You can't walk away from 30 anything. You can't walk away from 30 seconds. You feel heat coming around the seconds. You feel heat coming around the seconds. You feel heat coming around the corner. It's that kind of comparison. corner. It's that kind of comparison. corner. It's that kind of comparison. But then, what do you want them to be But then, what do you want them to be But then, what do you want them to be able to do? Because you can't have it able to do? Because you can't have it able to do? Because you can't have it both. You can't have people that have no both. You can't have people that have no both. You can't have people that have no empathy because you want this Captain empathy because you want this Captain empathy because you want this Captain America, this superhero figure that America, this superhero figure that America, this superhero figure that saving babies and killing the bad guy saving babies and killing the bad guy saving babies and killing the bad guy and rescuing the princess and all this and rescuing the princess and all this and rescuing the princess and all this nonsense. Is that really what you want? nonsense. Is that really what you want? nonsense. Is that really what you want? >> It's not what the enemy have. They don't >> It's not what the enemy have. They don't >> It's not what the enemy have. They don't have it at all. What do you want? And I have it at all. What do you want? And I have it at all. What do you want? And I feel like people can't make up their feel like people can't make up their feel like people can't make up their mind. mind. mind. >> It's really interesting. You know, the >> It's really interesting. You know, the >> It's really interesting. You know, the last few years we've seen war get that last few years we've seen war get that last few years we've seen war get that in you. Go on. Uh [laughter] in you. Go on. Uh [laughter] in you. Go on. Uh [laughter] >> I've been waiting so long to drink one. >> I've been waiting so long to drink one. >> I've been waiting so long to drink one. >> Yeah. I'm going to I'm going to allow >> Yeah. I'm going to I'm going to allow >> Yeah. I'm going to I'm going to allow you to enjoy this without me distracting you to enjoy this without me distracting you to enjoy this without me distracting you. And then you. And then you. And then >> just in case you're wonder you can't >> just in case you're wonder you can't >> just in case you're wonder you can't find these in Virginia Beach. >> There it is. >> There it is. >> Cuz not good. Good for you. Congrats. >> Cuz not good. Good for you. Congrats. >> Cuz not good. Good for you. Congrats. >> Thank you. Um you know, we've never seen kinetic encounters be as widely kinetic encounters be as widely broadcast as Russia, Ukraine, Middle broadcast as Russia, Ukraine, Middle broadcast as Russia, Ukraine, Middle East. I even this year. this year East. I even this year. this year East. I even this year. this year [ __ ] rockets going through Dubai [ __ ] rockets going through Dubai [ __ ] rockets going through Dubai hotel windows and stuff being shot down hotel windows and stuff being shot down hotel windows and stuff being shot down over airports. I'm kind of fascinated by the collateral I'm kind of fascinated by the collateral damage that is has always been a part of damage that is has always been a part of damage that is has always been a part of uh war. Uh uh the or another way to put uh war. Uh uh the or another way to put uh war. Uh uh the or another way to put it would be sort of the the ugliness it would be sort of the the ugliness it would be sort of the the ugliness even forget the collateral damage even forget the collateral damage even forget the collateral damage because I'm aware that with modern war because I'm aware that with modern war because I'm aware that with modern war techniques you would like to think we techniques you would like to think we techniques you would like to think we can minimize those. There can be can minimize those. There can be can minimize those. There can be precision that's done and I think you precision that's done and I think you precision that's done and I think you get into a discussion that that's get into a discussion that that's get into a discussion that that's probably pretty pretty honest there. But probably pretty pretty honest there. But probably pretty pretty honest there. But another one would just be there are another one would just be there are another one would just be there are certain elements of war many elements of certain elements of war many elements of certain elements of war many elements of war that are are just messy and very war that are are just messy and very war that are are just messy and very ugly and that includes the people that ugly and that includes the people that ugly and that includes the people that are doing it. Uh and are doing it. Uh and are doing it. Uh and it's strange now to think that there's a it's strange now to think that there's a it's strange now to think that there's a level of sort of sanitization level of sort of sanitization level of sort of sanitization that many people from a country who want to many people from a country who want to who wouldn't want to be invaded or who wouldn't want to be invaded or who wouldn't want to be invaded or attacked are also unhappy with their the attacked are also unhappy with their the attacked are also unhappy with their the people who are doing it on their behalf people who are doing it on their behalf people who are doing it on their behalf who are the shield uh or the spear that who are the shield uh or the spear that who are the shield uh or the spear that are ensuring that they stay safe. are ensuring that they stay safe. are ensuring that they stay safe. I don't like the way that they're doing I don't like the way that they're doing I don't like the way that they're doing it. It's being done in a a manner that it. It's being done in a a manner that it. It's being done in a a manner that seems uncou or barbaric or uh seems uncou or barbaric or uh seems uncou or barbaric or uh insufficiently empathetic. And um I I'm insufficiently empathetic. And um I I'm insufficiently empathetic. And um I I'm just interested in what you think about just interested in what you think about just interested in what you think about this additional level of of scrutiny this additional level of of scrutiny this additional level of of scrutiny around not just what happens, which is around not just what happens, which is around not just what happens, which is one part of it, but the way that it one part of it, but the way that it one part of it, but the way that it happens, too. Like I I I want you to I happens, too. Like I I I want you to I happens, too. Like I I I want you to I want you to care more about this. and want you to care more about this. and want you to care more about this. and you go for every percent that I care my you go for every percent that I care my you go for every percent that I care my effectiveness goes down by however much effectiveness goes down by however much effectiveness goes down by however much more than a percent I would imagine. Um, more than a percent I would imagine. Um, more than a percent I would imagine. Um, how do you kind of think about that how do you kind of think about that how do you kind of think about that [sighs] [sighs] [sighs] >> from the US side? And I'll say from the >> from the US side? And I'll say from the >> from the US side? And I'll say from the five eye side. So UK, same way. You put five eye side. So UK, same way. You put five eye side. So UK, same way. You put these soldiers at such a disadvantage these soldiers at such a disadvantage these soldiers at such a disadvantage tactically because you're trying to tactically because you're trying to tactically because you're trying to mitigate all the risk to civilian mitigate all the risk to civilian mitigate all the risk to civilian populace. They put that first and populace. They put that first and populace. They put that first and foremost. foremost. foremost. >> So anything collateral damage, that is >> So anything collateral damage, that is >> So anything collateral damage, that is the number one thing they're concerned the number one thing they're concerned the number one thing they're concerned with. They don't want to kill women. with. They don't want to kill women. with. They don't want to kill women. They don't want to kill kids. They don't They don't want to kill kids. They don't They don't want to kill kids. They don't want to kill innocent bystanders. and want to kill innocent bystanders. and want to kill innocent bystanders. and they put you at significant risk to try they put you at significant risk to try they put you at significant risk to try to avoid that. They didn't do it in to avoid that. They didn't do it in to avoid that. They didn't do it in World War II. They didn't do it anywhere World War II. They didn't do it anywhere World War II. They didn't do it anywhere else. But they're doing it now. else. But they're doing it now. else. But they're doing it now. I just wish people would shut their TV I just wish people would shut their TV I just wish people would shut their TV off and just say, "Thanks." Like, you off and just say, "Thanks." Like, you off and just say, "Thanks." Like, you don't really want to see what happens. don't really want to see what happens. don't really want to see what happens. You don't. You're not going to pick up a You don't. You're not going to pick up a You don't. You're not going to pick up a gun, and go do it. You want to sit here gun, and go do it. You want to sit here gun, and go do it. You want to sit here and shine a bright light at us and point and shine a bright light at us and point and shine a bright light at us and point fingers. I see what they're doing in fingers. I see what they're doing in fingers. I see what they're doing in Australia to Ben Robert Smith and I've Australia to Ben Robert Smith and I've Australia to Ben Robert Smith and I've watching I watch the UK do with my buddy watching I watch the UK do with my buddy watching I watch the UK do with my buddy Jamie Jamie Jamie >> and just you string these guys up like >> and just you string these guys up like >> and just you string these guys up like they're criminals. they're criminals. they're criminals. >> What What is it that's happening with >> What What is it that's happening with >> What What is it that's happening with this example? war crimes and stuff like this example? war crimes and stuff like this example? war crimes and stuff like that. Like my buddy J22 SAS, him and his that. Like my buddy J22 SAS, him and his that. Like my buddy J22 SAS, him and his whole team got wrapped up on a triple whole team got wrapped up on a triple whole team got wrapped up on a triple murder charge, saying they killed murder charge, saying they killed murder charge, saying they killed innocent Afghans who had AKs were innocent Afghans who had AKs were innocent Afghans who had AKs were shooting at them and enemy fighters and shooting at them and enemy fighters and shooting at them and enemy fighters and they spent up this whole campaign. They they spent up this whole campaign. They they spent up this whole campaign. They gave him a Silver Star equivalent for gave him a Silver Star equivalent for gave him a Silver Star equivalent for the operation. And then two years later, the operation. And then two years later, the operation. And then two years later, they he can't come to the US they he can't come to the US they he can't come to the US >> because he's got a record. >> because he's got a record. >> because he's got a record. >> Yeah. So, we've been trying to we're >> Yeah. So, we've been trying to we're >> Yeah. So, we've been trying to we're trying to fight it right now. We're trying to fight it right now. We're trying to fight it right now. We're trying to get someone to give him a visa trying to get someone to give him a visa trying to get someone to give him a visa to let him come to the US and right now to let him come to the US and right now to let him come to the US and right now they won't. they won't. they won't. It's crazy. Now, Ben Robert Smith and It's crazy. Now, Ben Robert Smith and It's crazy. Now, Ben Robert Smith and SASR in Australia, they're doing the SASR in Australia, they're doing the SASR in Australia, they're doing the same. He got the Medal of Honor. Like, same. He got the Medal of Honor. Like, same. He got the Medal of Honor. Like, he is a He is a legitimate war hero. And he is a He is a legitimate war hero. And he is a He is a legitimate war hero. And they're trying to string him up because they're trying to string him up because they're trying to string him up because they're saying he murdered Afghan they're saying he murdered Afghan they're saying he murdered Afghan civilians. civilians. civilians. I haven't seen any anybody get I've I haven't seen any anybody get I've I haven't seen any anybody get I've never seen a murder. Never. People don't never seen a murder. Never. People don't never seen a murder. Never. People don't do that. It's not a thing. And people do that. It's not a thing. And people do that. It's not a thing. And people think it is. World War II is a thing. think it is. World War II is a thing. think it is. World War II is a thing. World War I was a thing for sure. World War I was a thing for sure. World War I was a thing for sure. Vietnam probably a thing. It's not a Vietnam probably a thing. It's not a Vietnam probably a thing. It's not a thing now. Why? Just thing now. Why? Just thing now. Why? Just >> too much technology, too many eyes in >> too much technology, too many eyes in >> too much technology, too many eyes in the sky, and you can't do it. the sky, and you can't do it. the sky, and you can't do it. >> You feel like you're under CCTV >> You feel like you're under CCTV >> You feel like you're under CCTV surveillance the whole time. surveillance the whole time. surveillance the whole time. >> 100%. >> 100%. >> 100%. >> So, you're saying that it's not it's not >> So, you're saying that it's not it's not >> So, you're saying that it's not it's not necessarily that guy that guys wouldn't necessarily that guy that guys wouldn't necessarily that guy that guys wouldn't want to or that guys wouldn't. It's that want to or that guys wouldn't. It's that want to or that guys wouldn't. It's that the likelihood of you being caught is so the likelihood of you being caught is so the likelihood of you being caught is so high that, you know, if I do this. high that, you know, if I do this. high that, you know, if I do this. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. And I don't want to confuse murder with And I don't want to confuse murder with And I don't want to confuse murder with actual war, but what you would classify actual war, but what you would classify actual war, but what you would classify as murder to me isn't murder. That guy as murder to me isn't murder. That guy as murder to me isn't murder. That guy has an AK. He's shooting out of a second has an AK. He's shooting out of a second has an AK. He's shooting out of a second story window at us. And if we go in story window at us. And if we go in story window at us. And if we go in there and kill him and he threw the gun there and kill him and he threw the gun there and kill him and he threw the gun 6 feet that way, you're saying he's 6 feet that way, you're saying he's 6 feet that way, you're saying he's unarmed. No, cousin. He was just unarmed. No, cousin. He was just unarmed. No, cousin. He was just shooting at that window. He just shot shooting at that window. He just shot shooting at that window. He just shot one of our dudes. And now you're saying one of our dudes. And now you're saying one of our dudes. And now you're saying because I plugged him that gun six feet because I plugged him that gun six feet because I plugged him that gun six feet over there that he's not an enemy over there that he's not an enemy over there that he's not an enemy combatant. Yes, he is. They know how to combatant. Yes, he is. They know how to combatant. Yes, he is. They know how to play the game. play the game. play the game. >> They're screwing with you because you've >> They're screwing with you because you've >> They're screwing with you because you've never played it. the the Okay, tell me never played it. the the Okay, tell me never played it. the the Okay, tell me tell me about what's happening from a tell me about what's happening from a tell me about what's happening from a enemy combatant standpoint where they're enemy combatant standpoint where they're enemy combatant standpoint where they're trying to manipulate those rules trying to manipulate those rules trying to manipulate those rules >> because now they know the because we >> because now they know the because we >> because now they know the because we fought that war for way too long. fought that war for way too long. fought that war for way too long. Started in Afghanistan, it spilled over Started in Afghanistan, it spilled over Started in Afghanistan, it spilled over to Iraq. So you'd see these guys, they'd to Iraq. So you'd see these guys, they'd to Iraq. So you'd see these guys, they'd shoot out of the windows, you'd run in, shoot out of the windows, you'd run in, shoot out of the windows, you'd run in, you do a whole raid, you can't find a you do a whole raid, you can't find a you do a whole raid, you can't find a single gun in the house and you're like, single gun in the house and you're like, single gun in the house and you're like, "How is this?" "How is this?" "How is this?" >> When I was outside the house, I saw you >> When I was outside the house, I saw you >> When I was outside the house, I saw you with a gun. Now I'm inside the house. I with a gun. Now I'm inside the house. I with a gun. Now I'm inside the house. I don't know where the [ __ ] they are. don't know where the [ __ ] they are. don't know where the [ __ ] they are. >> I don't know where it is. And you find a >> I don't know where it is. And you find a >> I don't know where it is. And you find a false wall with RPGs, explosives, false wall with RPGs, explosives, false wall with RPGs, explosives, everything in there. like, "Oh, well, everything in there. like, "Oh, well, everything in there. like, "Oh, well, yeah, he's got a drop cloth. Pulls it yeah, he's got a drop cloth. Pulls it yeah, he's got a drop cloth. Pulls it down, throws it on there, slams it back down, throws it on there, slams it back down, throws it on there, slams it back up, there's a big poster, a painting up, there's a big poster, a painting up, there's a big poster, a painting behind it, and you just don't check." behind it, and you just don't check." behind it, and you just don't check." And now we get really, really good at And now we get really, really good at And now we get really, really good at searching houses. Now we really get to searching houses. Now we really get to searching houses. Now we really get to see him. But somebody else comes in see him. But somebody else comes in see him. But somebody else comes in there, you plug a guy in the corner, you there, you plug a guy in the corner, you there, you plug a guy in the corner, you take your photos, there's no gun next to take your photos, there's no gun next to take your photos, there's no gun next to him. You're going to jail for that. him. You're going to jail for that. him. You're going to jail for that. There was a gun in here. No, his wife There was a gun in here. No, his wife There was a gun in here. No, his wife grabbed it and shoved it in there. grabbed it and shoved it in there. grabbed it and shoved it in there. That's how it happened. Like, That's how it happened. Like, That's how it happened. Like, >> why do you need to take photos to >> why do you need to take photos to >> why do you need to take photos to justify the kill? justify the kill? justify the kill? >> Yeah, because ultimately you're going to >> Yeah, because ultimately you're going to >> Yeah, because ultimately you're going to pay them money at the end of the day. pay them money at the end of the day. pay them money at the end of the day. Every person you shoot in Iraq or Every person you shoot in Iraq or Every person you shoot in Iraq or Afghanistan gets a cash payout. Afghanistan gets a cash payout. Afghanistan gets a cash payout. >> Well, they don't. >> Well, they don't. >> Well, they don't. >> The family does, >> The family does, >> The family does, >> right? >> right? >> right? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> It's crazy. >> It's crazy. >> It's crazy. >> Whether they're a combatant or not. >> Whether they're a combatant or not. >> Whether they're a combatant or not. >> Whether a combatant or not. >> Whether a combatant or not. >> Whether a combatant or not. >> How much was the money? >> How much was the money? >> How much was the money? >> I don't remember off the top of my head. >> I don't remember off the top of my head. >> I don't remember off the top of my head. I mean, for a while, I think we were I mean, for a while, I think we were I mean, for a while, I think we were paying like $5,000 for a door. If you paying like $5,000 for a door. If you paying like $5,000 for a door. If you blew their door, you had to pay them blew their door, you had to pay them blew their door, you had to pay them money. It might money. It might money. It might >> expensive door. I've seen some of the >> expensive door. I've seen some of the >> expensive door. I've seen some of the doors on video in Afghanistan. They doors on video in Afghanistan. They doors on video in Afghanistan. They don't look like $5,000. don't look like $5,000. don't look like $5,000. >> No, they don't. But, I mean, to them, >> No, they don't. But, I mean, to them, >> No, they don't. But, I mean, to them, it's monopoly money. They just throw it it's monopoly money. They just throw it it's monopoly money. They just throw it out there. winning hearts and minds. out there. winning hearts and minds. out there. winning hearts and minds. Winning hearts and minds. Why? Why are Winning hearts and minds. Why? Why are Winning hearts and minds. Why? Why are we winning hearts and minds? I'm not we winning hearts and minds? I'm not we winning hearts and minds? I'm not here to win hearts and minds. I'm not here to win hearts and minds. I'm not here to win hearts and minds. I'm not here for that at all. I'm not not a bit. here for that at all. I'm not not a bit. here for that at all. I'm not not a bit. I don't care about hearts and minds. And I don't care about hearts and minds. And I don't care about hearts and minds. And I know that makes me sound cruel. I'm I know that makes me sound cruel. I'm I know that makes me sound cruel. I'm not cruel. I'm one of the nicest people not cruel. I'm one of the nicest people not cruel. I'm one of the nicest people I know. But you can't play the game like I know. But you can't play the game like I know. But you can't play the game like that. You can't go both hands tied that. You can't go both hands tied that. You can't go both hands tied behind your back. It's crazy because now behind your back. It's crazy because now behind your back. It's crazy because now they've been in the system so long. They they've been in the system so long. They they've been in the system so long. They know exactly how to manipulate it. They know exactly how to manipulate it. They know exactly how to manipulate it. They know exactly what to say. They're going know exactly what to say. They're going know exactly what to say. They're going to get thrown in jail for 2 weeks. get to get thrown in jail for 2 weeks. get to get thrown in jail for 2 weeks. get three. They're gonna get fed three times three. They're gonna get fed three times three. They're gonna get fed three times a day, more than they ever have in their a day, more than they ever have in their a day, more than they ever have in their whole life. Hot shower, clean bed, air whole life. Hot shower, clean bed, air whole life. Hot shower, clean bed, air conditioning, TV. They'll get conditioning, TV. They'll get conditioning, TV. They'll get [clears throat] released. And now they [clears throat] released. And now they [clears throat] released. And now they know the exact process. know the exact process. know the exact process. >> When do they get thrown in jail? >> When do they get thrown in jail? >> When do they get thrown in jail? >> Whenever you arrest them. >> Whenever you arrest them. >> Whenever you arrest them. >> Right. Okay. So, you're basically you're >> Right. Okay. So, you're basically you're >> Right. Okay. So, you're basically you're basically glorified police. basically glorified police. basically glorified police. >> Yes. Unless you unless it's a >> Yes. Unless you unless it's a >> Yes. Unless you unless it's a Osama bin Laden, like somebody else like Osama bin Laden, like somebody else like Osama bin Laden, like somebody else like an actual terrorist network. You're just an actual terrorist network. You're just an actual terrorist network. You're just out there door to door gangbuster style out there door to door gangbuster style out there door to door gangbuster style Baghdad 2005 just hitting every house. Baghdad 2005 just hitting every house. Baghdad 2005 just hitting every house. You're just wrapping up as many military You're just wrapping up as many military You're just wrapping up as many military age males as you can. You find the AKs, age males as you can. You find the AKs, age males as you can. You find the AKs, you have all the atmospherics, you know you have all the atmospherics, you know you have all the atmospherics, you know what they're up to. And if they don't what they're up to. And if they don't what they're up to. And if they don't have a gun, you're wrapping them up. have a gun, you're wrapping them up. have a gun, you're wrapping them up. >> What's atmospherics? >> What's atmospherics? >> What's atmospherics? >> Well, I mean, all their deep. So, >> Well, I mean, all their deep. So, >> Well, I mean, all their deep. So, everything they're saying on cell everything they're saying on cell everything they're saying on cell phones, emails, radios, you have all phones, emails, radios, you have all phones, emails, radios, you have all that. So, you build out your profile. that. So, you build out your profile. that. So, you build out your profile. So, I know exactly who you are. I know So, I know exactly who you are. I know So, I know exactly who you are. I know exactly who your neighbor is. I know exactly who your neighbor is. I know exactly who your neighbor is. I know you're banging his wife. I know you're banging his wife. I know you're banging his wife. I know everything. So, when I get there, you everything. So, when I get there, you everything. So, when I get there, you don't have a gun. I wrap you in, take don't have a gun. I wrap you in, take don't have a gun. I wrap you in, take you in for questioning. You don't give you in for questioning. You don't give you in for questioning. You don't give us anything. But now, you know exactly us anything. But now, you know exactly us anything. But now, you know exactly what our tactics are. You know where I what our tactics are. You know where I what our tactics are. You know where I have to put you. you know exactly what have to put you. you know exactly what have to put you. you know exactly what to say to get released in 48, 72, 2 to say to get released in 48, 72, 2 to say to get released in 48, 72, 2 weeks, whatever it is. They go back out weeks, whatever it is. They go back out weeks, whatever it is. 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It's a weird one because I understand that because I understand that because I understand that you're supposed to be better, right? you're supposed to be better, right? you're supposed to be better, right? You're supposed to go in adhering to the You're supposed to go in adhering to the You're supposed to go in adhering to the law. It's the same reason that um seeing law. It's the same reason that um seeing law. It's the same reason that um seeing a police officer who's texting while he a police officer who's texting while he a police officer who's texting while he drives feels particularly egregious. drives feels particularly egregious. drives feels particularly egregious. >> Like, hey, dude, you enforce the law. >> Like, hey, dude, you enforce the law. >> Like, hey, dude, you enforce the law. Okay. I feel like you're supposed to Okay. I feel like you're supposed to Okay. I feel like you're supposed to adhere to it. adhere to it. adhere to it. >> Come on, baby. You're better than that. >> Come on, baby. You're better than that. >> Come on, baby. You're better than that. Yes. Yes. Yes. >> Put the phone down. >> Put the phone down. >> Put the phone down. >> Yes. Uh, however, I wonder whether or not the modern world I wonder whether or not the modern world is incompatible is incompatible is incompatible with some of the ugly things that need with some of the ugly things that need with some of the ugly things that need to happen in war. to happen in war. to happen in war. >> Mhm. And anybody who's been to >> Mhm. And anybody who's been to >> Mhm. And anybody who's been to Afghanistan, anybody who's been to Iraq Afghanistan, anybody who's been to Iraq Afghanistan, anybody who's been to Iraq or any other wars, they know if we or any other wars, they know if we or any other wars, they know if we really wanted to win that war, we could really wanted to win that war, we could really wanted to win that war, we could win it fast. win it fast. win it fast. They don't want us to win it fast. I They don't want us to win it fast. I They don't want us to win it fast. I don't know who doesn't. don't know who doesn't. don't know who doesn't. >> Tell me more about this. What do you >> Tell me more about this. What do you >> Tell me more about this. What do you mean? mean? mean? >> If you grabbed all the five eyes, so >> If you grabbed all the five eyes, so >> If you grabbed all the five eyes, so US, UK, Australia, Canada, New Zealand, US, UK, Australia, Canada, New Zealand, US, UK, Australia, Canada, New Zealand, if you just grabbed us and dropped us if you just grabbed us and dropped us if you just grabbed us and dropped us into Iraq and said you have 6 months to into Iraq and said you have 6 months to into Iraq and said you have 6 months to close out the entire thing, could we? close out the entire thing, could we? close out the entire thing, could we? 100%. 100%. 100%. They don't want us to. And I think They don't want us to. And I think They don't want us to. And I think that's for a bunch of different reasons, that's for a bunch of different reasons, that's for a bunch of different reasons, but one of them is you don't want to see but one of them is you don't want to see but one of them is you don't want to see what that actually looks like. Like you what that actually looks like. Like you what that actually looks like. Like you don't want to watch special operations don't want to watch special operations don't want to watch special operations and all of this the the whole military and all of this the the whole military and all of this the the whole military might push through Fallujah and clear it might push through Fallujah and clear it might push through Fallujah and clear it all out. They don't want to see what all out. They don't want to see what all out. They don't want to see what clearing Fallujah actually means. Like clearing Fallujah actually means. Like clearing Fallujah actually means. Like when you hear the Marines cleared when you hear the Marines cleared when you hear the Marines cleared Fallujah, they don't know what that Fallujah, they don't know what that Fallujah, they don't know what that means. means. means. >> What does it mean? >> What does it mean? >> What does it mean? >> They went door to door and killed every >> They went door to door and killed every >> They went door to door and killed every single male that was still there. single male that was still there. single male that was still there. Everybody who's willing to fight, they Everybody who's willing to fight, they Everybody who's willing to fight, they killed them all. That's how you clear killed them all. That's how you clear killed them all. That's how you clear the village. the village. the village. >> So they gave him told him the time, get >> So they gave him told him the time, get >> So they gave him told him the time, get out by this day. If not, we're pushing out by this day. If not, we're pushing out by this day. If not, we're pushing through and anybody who's left the through and anybody who's left the through and anybody who's left the fight, we're going to kill. fight, we're going to kill. fight, we're going to kill. >> And that's what he did until you do it. >> And that's what he did until you do it. >> And that's what he did until you do it. People don't want to see that. People People don't want to see that. People People don't want to see that. People don't want to live that. They don't want don't want to live that. They don't want don't want to live that. They don't want to realize that's a reality. So all your to realize that's a reality. So all your to realize that's a reality. So all your grandfathers are fighting in World War grandfathers are fighting in World War grandfathers are fighting in World War II, I promise you they weren't handing II, I promise you they weren't handing II, I promise you they weren't handing out Hershey kisses and handshakes. It's out Hershey kisses and handshakes. It's out Hershey kisses and handshakes. It's not what they did. They had not what they did. They had not what they did. They had flamethrowers for God's sake. flamethrowers for God's sake. flamethrowers for God's sake. You think they're going to give us a You think they're going to give us a You think they're going to give us a flamethrower now? flamethrower now? flamethrower now? >> No. >> No. >> No. >> We can't even use Playmore minds. Just a >> We can't even use Playmore minds. Just a >> We can't even use Playmore minds. Just a whole bunch of stuff we used to use back whole bunch of stuff we used to use back whole bunch of stuff we used to use back in the day. because it's now it's too in the day. because it's now it's too in the day. because it's now it's too cruel and unusual. GE convention threw cruel and unusual. GE convention threw cruel and unusual. GE convention threw it out. Bunch of munitions you can't it out. Bunch of munitions you can't it out. Bunch of munitions you can't use, rounds you can't shoot people with, use, rounds you can't shoot people with, use, rounds you can't shoot people with, a bunch of different weird stuff. a bunch of different weird stuff. a bunch of different weird stuff. >> Is that being adhered to by the other >> Is that being adhered to by the other >> Is that being adhered to by the other side? side? side? >> No. No. They're blowing you up. They're >> No. No. They're blowing you up. They're >> No. No. They're blowing you up. They're doing whatever they want to. The suicide doing whatever they want to. The suicide doing whatever they want to. The suicide vest on children. Like they do whatever vest on children. Like they do whatever vest on children. Like they do whatever they want to. That makes it very, very they want to. That makes it very, very they want to. That makes it very, very hard to fight. So for you, you run in, hard to fight. So for you, you run in, hard to fight. So for you, you run in, you're a dad, you're a husband, you're a you're a dad, you're a husband, you're a you're a dad, you're a husband, you're a friend, you're an uncle, little kids all friend, you're an uncle, little kids all friend, you're an uncle, little kids all around. You have no idea if they have a around. You have no idea if they have a around. You have no idea if they have a suicide vest on now or they holding suicide vest on now or they holding suicide vest on now or they holding grenades for their father. You have no grenades for their father. You have no grenades for their father. You have no idea. idea. idea. It really makes you lose trust in people It really makes you lose trust in people It really makes you lose trust in people cuz now you don't know. As soon as you cuz now you don't know. As soon as you cuz now you don't know. As soon as you drop your guard, one thing happens. drop your guard, one thing happens. drop your guard, one thing happens. You're like, I'll never let that happen You're like, I'll never let that happen You're like, I'll never let that happen again. again. again. Technology advances. You get new pieces Technology advances. You get new pieces Technology advances. You get new pieces of tech and now you can see through of tech and now you can see through of tech and now you can see through clothing. You can buy down the risk a clothing. You can buy down the risk a clothing. You can buy down the risk a little bit. But they get very, very little bit. But they get very, very little bit. But they get very, very smart. See the smart bombs? They try to smart. See the smart bombs? They try to smart. See the smart bombs? They try to sneak through TSA all the time. sneak through TSA all the time. sneak through TSA all the time. they understand exactly what we're they understand exactly what we're they understand exactly what we're trying to do and you're trying to trying to do and you're trying to trying to do and you're trying to counter it every single day. counter it every single day. counter it every single day. >> How frustrating is that as someone whose >> How frustrating is that as someone whose >> How frustrating is that as someone whose life's on the line and also is trying to life's on the line and also is trying to life's on the line and also is trying to dedicate their career to doing this? dedicate their career to doing this? dedicate their career to doing this? Well, Well, Well, >> it's a big cat and mouse game. I move my >> it's a big cat and mouse game. I move my >> it's a big cat and mouse game. I move my piece here, you move your piece here. piece here, you move your piece here. piece here, you move your piece here. >> So, you've just you've kind of accepted >> So, you've just you've kind of accepted >> So, you've just you've kind of accepted this as the cost of doing business that this as the cost of doing business that this as the cost of doing business that you're going to have to adhere by a set you're going to have to adhere by a set you're going to have to adhere by a set of rules that the other side doesn't of rules that the other side doesn't of rules that the other side doesn't have to. You're not allowed to pick the have to. You're not allowed to pick the have to. You're not allowed to pick the ball up. You have to kick it. ball up. You have to kick it. ball up. You have to kick it. >> Yes. >> Yes. >> Yes. >> But they're allowed to pick it up and >> But they're allowed to pick it up and >> But they're allowed to pick it up and run with it. run with it. run with it. >> Mhm. That's exactly what it was. >> Mhm. That's exactly what it was. >> Mhm. That's exactly what it was. [snorts] It's like, do you really want [snorts] It's like, do you really want [snorts] It's like, do you really want us to win or do you really want us to us to win or do you really want us to us to win or do you really want us to engage in this 20-year war because of engage in this 20-year war because of engage in this 20-year war because of all the technological advancements that all the technological advancements that all the technological advancements that are going to come out of that war? are going to come out of that war? are going to come out of that war? Advancements in armorament, ISR Advancements in armorament, ISR Advancements in armorament, ISR platforms, body armor, life-saving platforms, body armor, life-saving platforms, body armor, life-saving medical devices. But really, war creates medical devices. But really, war creates medical devices. But really, war creates a lot of money. A lot of people became a lot of money. A lot of people became a lot of money. A lot of people became billionaires really, really fast because billionaires really, really fast because billionaires really, really fast because of the war. of the war. of the war. >> That's it. All these companies sprung up >> That's it. All these companies sprung up >> That's it. All these companies sprung up and Rathon, Boeing, everybody is and Rathon, Boeing, everybody is and Rathon, Boeing, everybody is involved. Everybody is making just piles involved. Everybody is making just piles involved. Everybody is making just piles and piles of money. And he's saying that and piles of money. And he's saying that and piles of money. And he's saying that uh protracting out uh extending uh an uh protracting out uh extending uh an uh protracting out uh extending uh an inshment between two different sides, inshment between two different sides, inshment between two different sides, that's the sort of thing that would that's the sort of thing that would that's the sort of thing that would continue to grease the wheels of that continue to grease the wheels of that continue to grease the wheels of that and blasting through quickly would end and blasting through quickly would end and blasting through quickly would end the money printer. the money printer. the money printer. >> Yeah. I mean, it's like what it's like >> Yeah. I mean, it's like what it's like >> Yeah. I mean, it's like what it's like what Trump's doing in Iran right now. He what Trump's doing in Iran right now. He what Trump's doing in Iran right now. He doesn't want to be in there for 20 doesn't want to be in there for 20 doesn't want to be in there for 20 years. I want to go in. I want to smash years. I want to go in. I want to smash years. I want to go in. I want to smash you. Show you I'm not going to take this you. Show you I'm not going to take this you. Show you I'm not going to take this [ __ ] anymore. And then I want to leave. [ __ ] anymore. And then I want to leave. [ __ ] anymore. And then I want to leave. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Is it going to work? I have no idea. >> Is it going to work? I have no idea. >> Is it going to work? I have no idea. We've never tried it before. We always We've never tried it before. We always We've never tried it before. We always get put in these long drawn out get put in these long drawn out get put in these long drawn out conflicts that we know you don't need conflicts that we know you don't need conflicts that we know you don't need to. to. to. >> What would you do if you wanted to end >> What would you do if you wanted to end >> What would you do if you wanted to end the war in Iran quickly? the war in Iran quickly? the war in Iran quickly? >> Well, you don't know what I do. >> Well, you don't know what I do. >> Well, you don't know what I do. Well, [snorts] you're allowed to, dude. Well, [snorts] you're allowed to, dude. Well, [snorts] you're allowed to, dude. This is hypothetical only. We're playing This is hypothetical only. We're playing This is hypothetical only. We're playing Sydney as civilizations and Sydney as civilizations and Sydney as civilizations and you need to end it quickly. you need to end it quickly. you need to end it quickly. >> Nobody's going to like my answer. It's just not. It's not. If I say one It's just not. It's not. If I say one thing, then I'm on the Israel side. If I thing, then I'm on the Israel side. If I thing, then I'm on the Israel side. If I say this and I'm against it. say this and I'm against it. say this and I'm against it. >> Okay. Let's forget that. Let's forget >> Okay. Let's forget that. Let's forget >> Okay. Let's forget that. Let's forget that. Let's say uh imaginary country that. Let's say uh imaginary country that. Let's say uh imaginary country >> in somewhere that's in the Middle East >> in somewhere that's in the Middle East >> in somewhere that's in the Middle East that doesn't exist that doesn't exist that doesn't exist >> or the ability nuclear weapons. Sure. >> or the ability nuclear weapons. Sure. >> or the ability nuclear weapons. Sure. Threat to use them. Threat to use them. Threat to use them. >> Sure. >> Sure. >> Sure. >> And we know they have them. >> And we know they have them. >> And we know they have them. >> Sure. >> Sure. >> Sure. Press a button. Mhm. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. There's no other way. Just isn't Yeah. There's no other way. Just isn't Yeah. There's no other way. Just isn't drawn into a 20-year campaign doing the drawn into a 20-year campaign doing the drawn into a 20-year campaign doing the entire thing or all the countries all entire thing or all the countries all entire thing or all the countries all coming to align like we can't let this coming to align like we can't let this coming to align like we can't let this happen. We can't we can't everybody in happen. We can't we can't everybody in happen. We can't we can't everybody in agreeance. Okay. Can't do it anymore. agreeance. Okay. Can't do it anymore. agreeance. Okay. Can't do it anymore. >> And what if you what if that's not a >> And what if you what if that's not a >> And what if you what if that's not a threat? threat? threat? [sighs] [sighs] [sighs] >> How would it not be a threat? >> How would it not be a threat? >> How would it not be a threat? >> They don't have it. They don't have the >> They don't have it. They don't have the >> They don't have it. They don't have the materials. They're not able to make it. materials. They're not able to make it. materials. They're not able to make it. The nuclear uh armaments on the other The nuclear uh armaments on the other The nuclear uh armaments on the other side's not a concern. It seems to me side's not a concern. It seems to me side's not a concern. It seems to me like if you're unable to use that and like if you're unable to use that and like if you're unable to use that and unless you can drop the uh Fat Man unless you can drop the uh Fat Man unless you can drop the uh Fat Man equivalent, uh equivalent, uh equivalent, uh then it becomes a much more difficult then it becomes a much more difficult then it becomes a much more difficult operation because then it does look a operation because then it does look a operation because then it does look a lot more like presumably doortodoor lot more like presumably doortodoor lot more like presumably doortodoor stuff. stuff. stuff. >> Well, you could just fly in Black Ops >> Well, you could just fly in Black Ops >> Well, you could just fly in Black Ops with some really cool dudes in multicam, with some really cool dudes in multicam, with some really cool dudes in multicam, snatch a present out of their house in snatch a present out of their house in snatch a present out of their house in the middle of the night and call it a the middle of the night and call it a the middle of the night and call it a day. That's happened recently. day. That's happened recently. day. That's happened recently. >> Pretty cool job. >> Pretty cool job. >> Pretty cool job. >> Do you know much about Did you Were you >> Do you know much about Did you Were you >> Do you know much about Did you Were you excited sort of tracking that? excited sort of tracking that? excited sort of tracking that? >> Oh, I was. No, but nobody jumped up >> Oh, I was. No, but nobody jumped up >> Oh, I was. No, but nobody jumped up faster out of the chair and cheered than faster out of the chair and cheered than faster out of the chair and cheered than I did. I was so stoked for him. That is I did. I was so stoked for him. That is I did. I was so stoked for him. That is a That's a cool optitude. a That's a cool optitude. a That's a cool optitude. >> Why? >> Why? >> Why? >> Snatch the president out of his house in >> Snatch the president out of his house in >> Snatch the president out of his house in the middle of the night like no one else the middle of the night like no one else the middle of the night like no one else is pulling that off. Nobody. is pulling that off. Nobody. is pulling that off. Nobody. Do you think anybody's going to fly a Do you think anybody's going to fly a Do you think anybody's going to fly a Blackhawk and land in the White House Blackhawk and land in the White House Blackhawk and land in the White House lawn and run in and grab Donald Trump lawn and run in and grab Donald Trump lawn and run in and grab Donald Trump and bring him out? No. Yeah, and bring him out? No. Yeah, and bring him out? No. Yeah, >> I think lots of people have probably >> I think lots of people have probably >> I think lots of people have probably thought about doing that. thought about doing that. thought about doing that. >> Nobody's going to pull that off. >> Nobody's going to pull that off. >> Nobody's going to pull that off. Nobody's pulling that off. That That is Nobody's pulling that off. That That is Nobody's pulling that off. That That is a unicorn raid. a unicorn raid. a unicorn raid. >> Are you Yeah. Are you surprised by >> Are you Yeah. Are you surprised by >> Are you Yeah. Are you surprised by what was done? What you know about how what was done? What you know about how what was done? What you know about how it was done? it was done? it was done? >> No. >> No. >> No. >> Pretty standard procedure just done at a >> Pretty standard procedure just done at a >> Pretty standard procedure just done at a very very elite precise level. very very elite precise level. very very elite precise level. >> Mhm. That's what they do. >> Mhm. That's what they do. >> Mhm. That's what they do. That's what they do. Everybody Everybody That's what they do. Everybody Everybody That's what they do. Everybody Everybody who was involved in that was like me and who was involved in that was like me and who was involved in that was like me and everybody else who ever did that job. everybody else who ever did that job. everybody else who ever did that job. You are praying that that is going to You are praying that that is going to You are praying that that is going to happen. You are praying your Super Bowl. happen. You are praying your Super Bowl. happen. You are praying your Super Bowl. >> Oh my god. If if you had an opportunity >> Oh my god. If if you had an opportunity >> Oh my god. If if you had an opportunity and I promise you they'd all say the and I promise you they'd all say the and I promise you they'd all say the same. No. Andy say the same thing right same. No. Andy say the same thing right same. No. Andy say the same thing right now. You want to be on the Hilo. Yep. now. You want to be on the Hilo. Yep. now. You want to be on the Hilo. Yep. Cut off a finger. Done. Cut off a finger. Done. Cut off a finger. Done. >> I'd cut it off right now. Jump on Hilo >> I'd cut it off right now. Jump on Hilo >> I'd cut it off right now. Jump on Hilo and I [laughter] 100%. and I [laughter] 100%. and I [laughter] 100%. Yeah. I mean, that's the only reason Yeah. I mean, that's the only reason Yeah. I mean, that's the only reason you're on the planet. You want to do you're on the planet. You want to do you're on the planet. You want to do things like that because no one else can things like that because no one else can things like that because no one else can pull him off. pull him off. pull him off. >> It is. But it shows the >> It is. But it shows the >> It is. But it shows the really the strength in military. He will really the strength in military. He will really the strength in military. He will do it. He will. do it. He will. do it. He will. My last my last rotation was Trump's My last my last rotation was Trump's My last my last rotation was Trump's first one. And I don't know what he says first one. And I don't know what he says first one. And I don't know what he says on those phone calls. I don't know how on those phone calls. I don't know how on those phone calls. I don't know how he he avoids conflict. And I think he he avoids conflict. And I think he he avoids conflict. And I think everybody thinks he just wants to go to everybody thinks he just wants to go to everybody thinks he just wants to go to war. Wants to go to war. We got spun up war. Wants to go to war. We got spun up war. Wants to go to war. We got spun up on a really big op, but I ain't going to on a really big op, but I ain't going to on a really big op, but I ain't going to talk about so don't ask me. He canled us talk about so don't ask me. He canled us talk about so don't ask me. He canled us on the ramp. We were getting ready to on the ramp. We were getting ready to on the ramp. We were getting ready to jump in and send it and they canled us jump in and send it and they canled us jump in and send it and they canled us on the ramp because he worked it out on the ramp because he worked it out on the ramp because he worked it out with a phone call. I don't know what he with a phone call. I don't know what he with a phone call. I don't know what he says. I don't know what he does, but he says. I don't know what he does, but he says. I don't know what he does, but he does something. does something. does something. Probably says something like, "Don't Probably says something like, "Don't Probably says something like, "Don't make me do it. I'll do it. Don't make make me do it. I'll do it. Don't make make me do it. I'll do it. Don't make me." Somehow they come their senses and me." Somehow they come their senses and me." Somehow they come their senses and somehow they solve it. somehow they solve it. somehow they solve it. >> That's one of the >> That's one of the >> That's one of the like kind of catch 22s of having a a like kind of catch 22s of having a a like kind of catch 22s of having a a leader who seems to be at least somewhat leader who seems to be at least somewhat leader who seems to be at least somewhat predictable and a bit bombastic predictable and a bit bombastic predictable and a bit bombastic >> that >> that >> that you he actually might press the button. you he actually might press the button. you he actually might press the button. >> Yeah. you know, people are >> Yeah. you know, people are >> Yeah. you know, people are severely concerned that he might run for severely concerned that he might run for severely concerned that he might run for a third term, right? That would be kind a third term, right? That would be kind a third term, right? That would be kind of the domestic equivalent of doing of the domestic equivalent of doing of the domestic equivalent of doing this. But even the fact that you think this. But even the fact that you think this. But even the fact that you think that he might be the sort of guy that he might be the sort of guy that he might be the sort of guy >> that would go for a third term, that's >> that would go for a third term, that's >> that would go for a third term, that's internally, internally, internally, and what do you think he would do to and what do you think he would do to and what do you think he would do to someone that's the enemy? someone that's the enemy? someone that's the enemy? And I And I And I I don't know whether anybody on the I don't know whether anybody on the I don't know whether anybody on the planet has the IQ to play like planet has the IQ to play like planet has the IQ to play like seven-dimensional chess of I'm going to seven-dimensional chess of I'm going to seven-dimensional chess of I'm going to construct this incredibly unpredictable, construct this incredibly unpredictable, construct this incredibly unpredictable, very gregarious outgoing guy who seems very gregarious outgoing guy who seems very gregarious outgoing guy who seems to say things that almost might be like to say things that almost might be like to say things that almost might be like a WWE character if they were the a WWE character if they were the a WWE character if they were the president. And then what that means by president. And then what that means by president. And then what that means by playing that game is that people will playing that game is that people will playing that game is that people will believe that I'm going to be like that. believe that I'm going to be like that. believe that I'm going to be like that. So that then I don't actually need to So that then I don't actually need to So that then I don't actually need to use the threat because they believe the use the threat because they believe the use the threat because they believe the threat more. Not because they think that threat more. Not because they think that threat more. Not because they think that I'm aggressive, but because they think I'm aggressive, but because they think I'm aggressive, but because they think that I'm kind of crazy. that I'm kind of crazy. that I'm kind of crazy. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> I mean, >> I mean, >> I mean, >> that's what I don't realize. Is he crazy >> that's what I don't realize. Is he crazy >> that's what I don't realize. Is he crazy or is he just crazy enough to make you or is he just crazy enough to make you or is he just crazy enough to make you believe that he'll really do it? believe that he'll really do it? believe that he'll really do it? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Crazy or genius is is the question. >> Crazy or genius is is the question. >> Crazy or genius is is the question. >> It's hard to know, but I mean, you know, >> It's hard to know, but I mean, you know, >> It's hard to know, but I mean, you know, we said we said we said >> effective is what matters most, right? >> effective is what matters most, right? >> effective is what matters most, right? >> Effective. He's avoided more conflicts >> Effective. He's avoided more conflicts >> Effective. He's avoided more conflicts than anybody I ever served under. than anybody I ever served under. than anybody I ever served under. He just has. If people knew the amount He just has. If people knew the amount He just has. If people knew the amount of conflicts he's avoided, they'd give of conflicts he's avoided, they'd give of conflicts he's avoided, they'd give him more praise than I do. him more praise than I do. him more praise than I do. >> But he's not able to talk about them. >> But he's not able to talk about them. >> But he's not able to talk about them. >> He just doesn't. I don't know why. >> He just doesn't. I don't know why. >> He just doesn't. I don't know why. >> He You think that it would be something >> He You think that it would be something >> He You think that it would be something that he could flex that he would be able that he could flex that he would be able that he could flex that he would be able to talk about this is how close we got to talk about this is how close we got to talk about this is how close we got to this thing. We have come to a deal. to this thing. We have come to a deal. to this thing. We have come to a deal. Da da da da. Da da da da. Da da da da. >> I think he's done that so many times. >> I think he's done that so many times. >> I think he's done that so many times. It's just lost in the ether. Like he It's just lost in the ether. Like he It's just lost in the ether. Like he didn't even think about it. didn't even think about it. didn't even think about it. >> It's just a Thursday. >> It's just a Thursday. >> It's just a Thursday. >> Yeah. He's like >> Yeah. He's like >> Yeah. He's like the whole Maduro raid thing. I He's the whole Maduro raid thing. I He's the whole Maduro raid thing. I He's like, "Yeah, send him." Do I think he like, "Yeah, send him." Do I think he like, "Yeah, send him." Do I think he lost sleep over that? No. lost sleep over that? No. lost sleep over that? No. I mean, like, he has full trust and I mean, like, he has full trust and I mean, like, he has full trust and confidence in the force. Yeah. You You confidence in the force. Yeah. You You confidence in the force. Yeah. You You know what? I'm sick of it. Send him. know what? I'm sick of it. Send him. know what? I'm sick of it. Send him. Knocks him out. Great job. Gives him all Knocks him out. Great job. Gives him all Knocks him out. Great job. Gives him all cheeseburgers and Yep. See you guys on cheeseburgers and Yep. See you guys on cheeseburgers and Yep. See you guys on Tuesday. I think it's Yeah. I don't Tuesday. I think it's Yeah. I don't Tuesday. I think it's Yeah. I don't based on what I know about Trump, he's based on what I know about Trump, he's based on what I know about Trump, he's not the picture of health. Uh, from a a not the picture of health. Uh, from a a not the picture of health. Uh, from a a physical training standpoint, physical training standpoint, physical training standpoint, >> no. >> no. >> no. >> Psychologically, do you think that he >> Psychologically, do you think that he >> Psychologically, do you think that he would make a good special forces would make a good special forces would make a good special forces operator? operator? operator? >> No. >> No. >> No. >> Why? >> Why? >> Why? His His His ego gets him in trouble quite a bit. I ego gets him in trouble quite a bit. I ego gets him in trouble quite a bit. I don't know if if he wasn't a leader, I don't know how if he wasn't a leader, I don't know how good he'd be as a follower. good he'd be as a follower. good he'd be as a follower. If you don't have overall say, how well If you don't have overall say, how well If you don't have overall say, how well can you get in line and perform? can you get in line and perform? can you get in line and perform? >> That's why the ego gets in the way. >> That's why the ego gets in the way. >> That's why the ego gets in the way. >> Yeah. If it's not your plan, will you >> Yeah. If it's not your plan, will you >> Yeah. If it's not your plan, will you still adopt it as your plan? That's still adopt it as your plan? That's still adopt it as your plan? That's that's the thing a lot of guys have an that's the thing a lot of guys have an that's the thing a lot of guys have an issue with. And that's where you see the issue with. And that's where you see the issue with. And that's where you see the ego come in. And ego come in. And ego come in. And I had a mentor, actually, really good I had a mentor, actually, really good I had a mentor, actually, really good friend, his name is Brad Gary, retired friend, his name is Brad Gary, retired friend, his name is Brad Gary, retired out of the teams not too long ago, an out of the teams not too long ago, an out of the teams not too long ago, an amazing guy, but he says a quote, amazing guy, but he says a quote, amazing guy, but he says a quote, "Culture eat strategy for breakfast "Culture eat strategy for breakfast "Culture eat strategy for breakfast every day." It does. You can have the every day." It does. You can have the every day." It does. You can have the >> Does he mind gym? >> Does he mind gym? >> Does he mind gym? >> Does he run the Navy Seals mind gym? >> Does he run the Navy Seals mind gym? >> Does he run the Navy Seals mind gym? >> Um, he was definitely there when it >> Um, he was definitely there when it >> Um, he was definitely there when it came. Brad Garry, he was on Sean Ryan came. Brad Garry, he was on Sean Ryan came. Brad Garry, he was on Sean Ryan not too long ago, [gasps] not too long ago, [gasps] not too long ago, [gasps] >> I want to say. Is it Brad Jacobs that >> I want to say. Is it Brad Jacobs that >> I want to say. Is it Brad Jacobs that did some mental training stuff? We had did some mental training stuff? We had did some mental training stuff? We had we had uh we had uh we had uh no who's the guy that uh works with no who's the guy that uh works with no who's the guy that uh works with SYCOM Rob Moore helped to publish his SYCOM Rob Moore helped to publish his SYCOM Rob Moore helped to publish his book. [ __ ] Brad someone. Anyway, um book. [ __ ] Brad someone. Anyway, um book. [ __ ] Brad someone. Anyway, um yeah, culture strategy for breakfast is yeah, culture strategy for breakfast is yeah, culture strategy for breakfast is so true. It's just aligning the so true. It's just aligning the so true. It's just aligning the incentives, but it's aligning the incentives, but it's aligning the incentives, but it's aligning the incentives at a group level. incentives at a group level. incentives at a group level. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Right. Hey, this is how we do things. >> Right. Hey, this is how we do things. >> Right. Hey, this is how we do things. Not we need to just enforce these Not we need to just enforce these Not we need to just enforce these things. This isn't happening top down. things. This isn't happening top down. things. This isn't happening top down. It's happening bottom up. But we also It's happening bottom up. But we also It's happening bottom up. But we also have the routines that are built in top have the routines that are built in top have the routines that are built in top down. down. down. Exactly. I don't know how well he'd do Exactly. I don't know how well he'd do Exactly. I don't know how well he'd do if he wasn't the one coming up with the if he wasn't the one coming up with the if he wasn't the one coming up with the plan. If he disagreed at all, how loud plan. If he disagreed at all, how loud plan. If he disagreed at all, how loud would he vocalize it? I don't know. would he vocalize it? I don't know. would he vocalize it? I don't know. >> As an only child, I can fully empathize >> As an only child, I can fully empathize >> As an only child, I can fully empathize with Donald Trump in that regard. If with Donald Trump in that regard. If with Donald Trump in that regard. If it's my way or the toys are going out of it's my way or the toys are going out of it's my way or the toys are going out of the prem I've had to learn to, you know, the prem I've had to learn to, you know, the prem I've had to learn to, you know, desensitize, deprogram that. Uh what do desensitize, deprogram that. Uh what do desensitize, deprogram that. Uh what do you think is the biggest misconception you think is the biggest misconception you think is the biggest misconception that civilians have about what special that civilians have about what special that civilians have about what special operations looks like dayto-day? operations looks like dayto-day? operations looks like dayto-day? >> [sighs and gasps] >> I think a lot of them watch the >> I think a lot of them watch the Expendables and think that's what you do Expendables and think that's what you do Expendables and think that's what you do all day. Picking your TE's with a Bowie all day. Picking your TE's with a Bowie all day. Picking your TE's with a Bowie knife, throwing stuff in there, or it knife, throwing stuff in there, or it knife, throwing stuff in there, or it looks like Zero Dark 30 walking around looks like Zero Dark 30 walking around looks like Zero Dark 30 walking around playing horseshoes with pop collars and playing horseshoes with pop collars and playing horseshoes with pop collars and camies. Just more routine than you think it was. more routine than you think it was. More structured than you think it was, More structured than you think it was, More structured than you think it was, but a lot more lawless than you think it but a lot more lawless than you think it but a lot more lawless than you think it would be. like more like a um would be. like more like a um would be. like more like a um [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] more like a professional sports team more like a professional sports team more like a professional sports team than a military organization. than a military organization. than a military organization. >> That's what it feels like. >> That's what it feels like. >> That's what it feels like. >> Oh yeah. I mean, you're rarely in >> Oh yeah. I mean, you're rarely in >> Oh yeah. I mean, you're rarely in uniform unless it's a promotion or uniform unless it's a promotion or uniform unless it's a promotion or unless you're at a funeral. You don't unless you're at a funeral. You don't unless you're at a funeral. You don't put them on. Most guys are relaxed put them on. Most guys are relaxed put them on. Most guys are relaxed grooming standards, long hair, big grooming standards, long hair, big grooming standards, long hair, big beards, you don't take your photo, beards, you don't take your photo, beards, you don't take your photo, you're not on social media, you're not you're not on social media, you're not you're not on social media, you're not writing books, you're not you just live writing books, you're not you just live writing books, you're not you just live that life. And to them, it's no that life. And to them, it's no that life. And to them, it's no different than playing on a professional different than playing on a professional different than playing on a professional baseball team, football team. They show baseball team, football team. They show baseball team, football team. They show up every single day trying to earn their up every single day trying to earn their up every single day trying to earn their seat at the table every single day and seat at the table every single day and seat at the table every single day and they put the group before themselves and they put the group before themselves and they put the group before themselves and everything to do. If you do that, you'll everything to do. If you do that, you'll everything to do. If you do that, you'll be a successful player. be a successful player. be a successful player. And I've never met anybody that was And I've never met anybody that was And I've never met anybody that was worth his weight that was not obsessed. worth his weight that was not obsessed. worth his weight that was not obsessed. Nobody that I would ever clone that Nobody that I would ever clone that Nobody that I would ever clone that didn't wake up every day go, I can't didn't wake up every day go, I can't didn't wake up every day go, I can't believe I get paid to do this. You don't believe I get paid to do this. You don't believe I get paid to do this. You don't get paid a lot, but if I'm honest now, get paid a lot, but if I'm honest now, get paid a lot, but if I'm honest now, and I think everybody would say it too, and I think everybody would say it too, and I think everybody would say it too, 90% of the time, if you had the 90% of the time, if you had the 90% of the time, if you had the financial means, you'd pay to do that financial means, you'd pay to do that financial means, you'd pay to do that job. Like, if there was a if there was a job. Like, if there was a if there was a job. Like, if there was a if there was a club you could join and do that, club you could join and do that, club you could join and do that, >> y >> y >> y >> I'd swipe plastic so fast. It's an >> I'd swipe plastic so fast. It's an >> I'd swipe plastic so fast. It's an amazing experience. amazing experience. amazing experience. But [sighs and gasps] But [sighs and gasps] But [sighs and gasps] I think a lot of people think that um I think a lot of people think that um I think a lot of people think that um you're kind of like a caveman. There's you're kind of like a caveman. There's you're kind of like a caveman. There's no empathy. no empathy. no empathy. You know, people aren't well educated. You know, people aren't well educated. You know, people aren't well educated. They're not well read. They're just They're not well read. They're just They're not well read. They're just grunts. Too many tattoos, say too many grunts. Too many tattoos, say too many grunts. 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Have you been in a physical fight or deliberately been in a physical fight or deliberately been in a physical fight or deliberately hit anyone in the past 5 years? That's hit anyone in the past 5 years? That's hit anyone in the past 5 years? That's the question. And the prevalence as a the question. And the prevalence as a the question. And the prevalence as a percentage is linear going down. And percentage is linear going down. And percentage is linear going down. And when you get to the middle of the when you get to the middle of the when you get to the middle of the distribution, it's somewhere between distribution, it's somewhere between distribution, it's somewhere between 11.4 and 7.9%. So what's that? Let's 11.4 and 7.9%. So what's that? Let's 11.4 and 7.9%. So what's that? Let's call it 10%. Something like that. 10% of call it 10%. Something like that. 10% of call it 10%. Something like that. 10% of people with 100 IQ have hit somebody or people with 100 IQ have hit somebody or people with 100 IQ have hit somebody or been in a physical fight within the last been in a physical fight within the last been in a physical fight within the last 5 years and it goes down and down. But 5 years and it goes down and down. But 5 years and it goes down and down. But if you're talking about wanting somebody if you're talking about wanting somebody if you're talking about wanting somebody who has got quite elite mental who has got quite elite mental who has got quite elite mental capacities as well, capacities as well, capacities as well, 5.2% between 110 and 119, 2.9% between 5.2% between 110 and 119, 2.9% between 5.2% between 110 and 119, 2.9% between 120 and 129. And I saw this tweet that 120 and 129. And I saw this tweet that 120 and 129. And I saw this tweet that said, "The percentage of guys with 130 said, "The percentage of guys with 130 said, "The percentage of guys with 130 plus IQ who both enjoy books and bar plus IQ who both enjoy books and bar plus IQ who both enjoy books and bar fights is incredibly small, and that is fights is incredibly small, and that is fights is incredibly small, and that is why you can't massproduce elite special why you can't massproduce elite special why you can't massproduce elite special operators for the military." >> Yeah, it tracks. I don't have 130 IQ for >> Yeah, it tracks. I don't have 130 IQ for sure, but I do like reading books and sure, but I do like reading books and sure, but I do like reading books and punch people in the face for sure. punch people in the face for sure. punch people in the face for sure. [laughter] [laughter] [laughter] Nothing wrong with that. Nothing wrong Nothing wrong with that. Nothing wrong Nothing wrong with that. Nothing wrong with that. with that. with that. They're way more constrained than you They're way more constrained than you They're way more constrained than you would imagine. would imagine. would imagine. And then sometimes they um a lot of times you don't want them to be a lot of times you don't want them to be like to me my special operations guys like to me my special operations guys like to me my special operations guys don't have flat top haircuts. They don't don't have flat top haircuts. They don't don't have flat top haircuts. They don't blouse their boots. They don't say sir. blouse their boots. They don't say sir. blouse their boots. They don't say sir. They don't salute. They have all the They don't salute. They have all the They don't salute. They have all the ability to do those things but the job's ability to do those things but the job's ability to do those things but the job's filthy. Like why would why do I don't filthy. Like why would why do I don't filthy. Like why would why do I don't want a kind doll doing that job? Is it want a kind doll doing that job? Is it want a kind doll doing that job? Is it seen as sort of unnecessary seen as sort of unnecessary seen as sort of unnecessary pump and circumstance and uh ritual that doesn't contribute to the ritual that doesn't contribute to the outcome like to to jump through those outcome like to to jump through those outcome like to to jump through those hoops to do the hoops to do the hoops to do the >> Oh, you mean play the song and dance? >> Oh, you mean play the song and dance? >> Oh, you mean play the song and dance? >> Yeah, of course. Yeah. Yeah. Yes, sir. >> Yeah, of course. Yeah. Yeah. Yes, sir. >> Yeah, of course. Yeah. Yeah. Yes, sir. No, sir. The clean shaven and the no No, sir. The clean shaven and the no No, sir. The clean shaven and the no tattoos and stuff like that. tattoos and stuff like that. tattoos and stuff like that. >> They only do that as a punishment. >> They only do that as a punishment. >> They only do that as a punishment. Anytime anybody does anything wrong, cut Anytime anybody does anything wrong, cut Anytime anybody does anything wrong, cut your hair, shave your face. That's why your hair, shave your face. That's why your hair, shave your face. That's why we hate it. That's why most guys when we hate it. That's why most guys when we hate it. That's why most guys when they get out, they grow a beard, grow they get out, they grow a beard, grow they get out, they grow a beard, grow their hair out. They're like, "I am sick their hair out. They're like, "I am sick their hair out. They're like, "I am sick of this. I'm never doing that again." of this. I'm never doing that again." of this. I'm never doing that again." >> Okay. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> They run that for a year and then they >> They run that for a year and then they >> They run that for a year and then they shave it all and whatever. They go back shave it all and whatever. They go back shave it all and whatever. They go back to normal. to normal. to normal. >> But no, I mean, >> But no, I mean, >> But no, I mean, >> it's the you can't tell me what to wear, >> it's the you can't tell me what to wear, >> it's the you can't tell me what to wear, mom equivalent of being in the special mom equivalent of being in the special mom equivalent of being in the special forces. forces. forces. >> Have you ever seen the meme? It's got a >> Have you ever seen the meme? It's got a >> Have you ever seen the meme? It's got a bunch of green breeze sitting around. bunch of green breeze sitting around. bunch of green breeze sitting around. Hands in pockets. Hands in pockets. The Hands in pockets. Hands in pockets. The Hands in pockets. Hands in pockets. The only reason I went through selection. I only reason I went through selection. I only reason I went through selection. I want to be able to put my hands in my want to be able to put my hands in my want to be able to put my hands in my pockets and spit Copenhagen on your pockets and spit Copenhagen on your pockets and spit Copenhagen on your floor and grow a beard and No. Like I'm floor and grow a beard and No. Like I'm floor and grow a beard and No. Like I'm I want to be a 1enter. I want to be a 1enter. I want to be a 1enter. >> Mhm. Yeah. >> Mhm. Yeah. >> Mhm. Yeah. >> And you're allowed to do special things. >> And you're allowed to do special things. >> And you're allowed to do special things. You said uh it's more lawless than You said uh it's more lawless than You said uh it's more lawless than people might realize. What do you mean people might realize. What do you mean people might realize. What do you mean by that? by that? by that? [sighs] [sighs] [sighs] >> Everything's black and white. >> Everything's black and white. >> Everything's black and white. Special operations find a way to live in Special operations find a way to live in Special operations find a way to live in that gray area, but gray area navigation that gray area, but gray area navigation that gray area, but gray area navigation tours running every 30 minutes. We will tours running every 30 minutes. We will tours running every 30 minutes. We will find a way to navigate through the gray find a way to navigate through the gray find a way to navigate through the gray area to get to the instate. As long as area to get to the instate. As long as area to get to the instate. As long as we know what the why is, what we have to we know what the why is, what we have to we know what the why is, what we have to get accomplished, we'll find a way to get accomplished, we'll find a way to get accomplished, we'll find a way to get there. And sometimes it's not get there. And sometimes it's not get there. And sometimes it's not pretty. But I mean, I'm I'm pretty pretty. But I mean, I'm I'm pretty pretty. But I mean, I'm I'm pretty honest. I'll break every rule in the honest. I'll break every rule in the honest. I'll break every rule in the book right now if it puts the team in a book right now if it puts the team in a book right now if it puts the team in a better position. Even if it puts myself better position. Even if it puts myself better position. Even if it puts myself at a disadvantage or threatens my at a disadvantage or threatens my at a disadvantage or threatens my career, maybe my life. If it's good for career, maybe my life. If it's good for career, maybe my life. If it's good for the group, I'll do it anyway. But not the group, I'll do it anyway. But not the group, I'll do it anyway. But not lawless in a sense like people don't lawless in a sense like people don't lawless in a sense like people don't people aren't murdering people. There's people aren't murdering people. There's people aren't murdering people. There's no rape, not a lot of drugs anymore. no rape, not a lot of drugs anymore. no rape, not a lot of drugs anymore. Like Like Like but not uh but not uh but not uh there's not a whole lot of guys who there's not a whole lot of guys who there's not a whole lot of guys who transition to be police officers. transition to be police officers. transition to be police officers. >> Too constraining. >> Too constraining. >> Too constraining. >> Too constraining. I don't want to be >> Too constraining. I don't want to be >> Too constraining. I don't want to be constrained. I I don't like it because constrained. I I don't like it because constrained. I I don't like it because everybody asked me when I got out, like everybody asked me when I got out, like everybody asked me when I got out, like I don't want to be a cop. You can go to I don't want to be a cop. You can go to I don't want to be a cop. You can go to FBI. Absolutely not. I love those guys. FBI. Absolutely not. I love those guys. FBI. Absolutely not. I love those guys. They're amazing. Nothing to respect. I They're amazing. Nothing to respect. I They're amazing. Nothing to respect. I can't do that job. I'm in the gray area can't do that job. I'm in the gray area can't do that job. I'm in the gray area too much. too much. too much. >> You understand? But I'm open and honest >> You understand? But I'm open and honest >> You understand? But I'm open and honest about it. I don't hide that a bit. about it. I don't hide that a bit. about it. I don't hide that a bit. >> I think this is what I was trying to get >> I think this is what I was trying to get >> I think this is what I was trying to get at before when I said um the modern at before when I said um the modern at before when I said um the modern world being incompatible with some of world being incompatible with some of world being incompatible with some of the ugly parts of war. that um if you're the ugly parts of war. that um if you're the ugly parts of war. that um if you're focused on outcome, if you're focused on focused on outcome, if you're focused on focused on outcome, if you're focused on the ends, the means can sometimes become the ends, the means can sometimes become the ends, the means can sometimes become up for debate and up for debate and up for debate and the ends are often not scrutinized, but the ends are often not scrutinized, but the ends are often not scrutinized, but the means are by people. Does that make the means are by people. Does that make the means are by people. Does that make sense? sense? sense? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> And [sighs] >> And [sighs] >> And [sighs] I'm trying to think of a way to word I'm trying to think of a way to word I'm trying to think of a way to word this. I've never seen anything in my military I've never seen anything in my military career that I would even put morally career that I would even put morally career that I would even put morally questionable on any level. Not for a questionable on any level. Not for a questionable on any level. Not for a cop, not for a fireman, not for a school cop, not for a fireman, not for a school cop, not for a fireman, not for a school teacher. Everything has always been teacher. Everything has always been teacher. Everything has always been above board. But there are times where above board. But there are times where above board. But there are times where you just want to hoist a black flag and you just want to hoist a black flag and you just want to hoist a black flag and start slitting throats. You just do. start slitting throats. You just do. start slitting throats. You just do. Like, Like, Like, >> I can't believe we're going to put this >> I can't believe we're going to put this >> I can't believe we're going to put this dude in the back of his helicopter and dude in the back of his helicopter and dude in the back of his helicopter and let him loose. I I I can't believe we're let him loose. I I I can't believe we're let him loose. I I I can't believe we're gonna let him do it gonna let him do it gonna let him do it >> because you know that he's a bad guy. >> because you know that he's a bad guy. >> because you know that he's a bad guy. >> Yeah. or some of the things you see, >> Yeah. or some of the things you see, >> Yeah. or some of the things you see, some of the things you know that you're some of the things you know that you're some of the things you know that you're doing, you have because it's not an doing, you have because it's not an doing, you have because it's not an assault on you, but some of the stuff assault on you, but some of the stuff assault on you, but some of the stuff they do with children, it's it's so they do with children, it's it's so they do with children, it's it's so disgusting disgusting disgusting that if I if I didn't have that flag in that if I if I didn't have that flag in that if I if I didn't have that flag in my arm and I was just a tourist, I'd my arm and I was just a tourist, I'd my arm and I was just a tourist, I'd kill you. If I get away with it right kill you. If I get away with it right kill you. If I get away with it right now, I'd just kill you. But because I now, I'd just kill you. But because I now, I'd just kill you. But because I have this flag on my shoulder now, I have this flag on my shoulder now, I have this flag on my shoulder now, I can't. And now I resent the flag because can't. And now I resent the flag because can't. And now I resent the flag because I can't do to you what I know needs to I can't do to you what I know needs to I can't do to you what I know needs to happen to you. How does that feel that >> uh systemic constraint when you've got >> uh systemic constraint when you've got righteous anger? righteous anger? righteous anger? >> It's hard, man. It is. It's hard. >> It's hard, man. It is. It's hard. >> It's hard, man. It is. It's hard. Especially when you've lost friends or, Especially when you've lost friends or, Especially when you've lost friends or, you know, extortion 17 happened in you know, extortion 17 happened in you know, extortion 17 happened in August of uh Extortion 17. August of uh Extortion 17. August of uh Extortion 17. >> Had a whole troop get killed. Kilo got >> Had a whole troop get killed. Kilo got >> Had a whole troop get killed. Kilo got shot down, killed everybody on board, 31 shot down, killed everybody on board, 31 shot down, killed everybody on board, 31 guys. having to back those guys up on guys. having to back those guys up on guys. having to back those guys up on deployment in that exact same place deployment in that exact same place deployment in that exact same place living in their beds. living in their beds. living in their beds. If I'm being totally honest, I just If I'm being totally honest, I just If I'm being totally honest, I just wanted to kill everybody. And to not be wanted to kill everybody. And to not be wanted to kill everybody. And to not be able to do it, it's hard because you able to do it, it's hard because you able to do it, it's hard because you have the opportunity. It's like, have the opportunity. It's like, have the opportunity. It's like, he's not doing anything bad now. he's not doing anything bad now. he's not doing anything bad now. Okay, I guess I got to put you in Okay, I guess I got to put you in Okay, I guess I got to put you in handcuffs. They're on a Hilo, drop you handcuffs. They're on a Hilo, drop you handcuffs. They're on a Hilo, drop you off here. They'll put you in detention off here. They'll put you in detention off here. They'll put you in detention center for 10 days. They'll release you. center for 10 days. They'll release you. center for 10 days. They'll release you. >> Like, >> Like, >> Like, okay. They wouldn't do that to me. If okay. They wouldn't do that to me. If okay. They wouldn't do that to me. If they wrapped me up and put me in they wrapped me up and put me in they wrapped me up and put me in handcuffs, they would saw my head off in handcuffs, they would saw my head off in handcuffs, they would saw my head off in 15 minutes. Now we all know it. [snorts] 15 minutes. Now we all know it. [snorts] 15 minutes. Now we all know it. [snorts] It's not fair. It's not fair. It's not fair. >> Have you been tracking this uh fallout >> Have you been tracking this uh fallout >> Have you been tracking this uh fallout after Rob was on Andy's show talking after Rob was on Andy's show talking after Rob was on Andy's show talking about the Assama raid? about the Assama raid? about the Assama raid? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> What do you make of that? I hate the fact we're even talking about I hate the fact we're even talking about it if I'm being honest. Like they did it if I'm being honest. Like they did it if I'm being honest. Like they did such a good job about not talking about such a good job about not talking about such a good job about not talking about it. I mean, Rob was my first team it. I mean, Rob was my first team it. I mean, Rob was my first team leader. leader. leader. So, I know Rob. I owe a lot to Rob So, I know Rob. I owe a lot to Rob So, I know Rob. I owe a lot to Rob because Rob drafted me and brought me because Rob drafted me and brought me because Rob drafted me and brought me in. I wish nobody would have ever said a I wish nobody would have ever said a word. When they left to go on the raid, word. When they left to go on the raid, word. When they left to go on the raid, I didn't know where they were going. I didn't know where they were going. I didn't know where they were going. >> Were you on compound or whatever it's >> Were you on compound or whatever it's >> Were you on compound or whatever it's called? called? called? >> I was in his team. >> I was in his team. >> I was in his team. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> So, you didn't get chosen? >> So, you didn't get chosen? >> So, you didn't get chosen? >> No. >> No. >> No. >> [ __ ] >> [ __ ] >> [ __ ] >> Two junior. Yeah. >> Two junior. Yeah. >> Two junior. Yeah. >> How? How? >> How? How? >> How? How? >> You know, we'll say we rack all the >> You know, we'll say we rack all the >> You know, we'll say we rack all the teams. We'll say there's seven guys. One teams. We'll say there's seven guys. One teams. We'll say there's seven guys. One to seven. They took twos and above and to seven. They took twos and above and to seven. They took twos and above and took them all from every team. Those the took them all from every team. Those the took them all from every team. Those the guys guys guys >> Oh, interesting. >> Oh, interesting. >> Oh, interesting. >> It's the first time they ever did it. >> It's the first time they ever did it. >> It's the first time they ever did it. >> So, it's closer to being in How many How >> So, it's closer to being in How many How >> So, it's closer to being in How many How many people in total are many people in total are many people in total are >> Can't talk about it. Not fine. >> Can't talk about it. Not fine. >> Can't talk about it. Not fine. >> We'll talk about off screen way less >> We'll talk about off screen way less >> We'll talk about off screen way less than you think. than you think. than you think. >> Cool. Um, so it's closer to me what it >> Cool. Um, so it's closer to me what it >> Cool. Um, so it's closer to me what it sounds like. I'm loving the sports sounds like. I'm loving the sports sounds like. I'm loving the sports analogy. Uh, it's more like analogy. Uh, it's more like analogy. Uh, it's more like having a league of teams. having a league of teams. having a league of teams. >> Mhm. And then you've got the Steph Curry >> Mhm. And then you've got the Steph Curry >> Mhm. And then you've got the Steph Curry or the Kevin Durant from each team. or the Kevin Durant from each team. or the Kevin Durant from each team. >> Yep. >> Yep. >> Yep. >> And then you're able to take the top >> And then you're able to take the top >> And then you're able to take the top filtering. Does that not create that? filtering. Does that not create that? filtering. Does that not create that? Surely that must create a um a Surely that must create a um a Surely that must create a um a >> lot of animosity, a lot of resentment. >> lot of animosity, a lot of resentment. >> lot of animosity, a lot of resentment. >> Uh some of that, but complex. Yes. Yeah. >> Uh some of that, but complex. Yes. Yeah. >> Uh some of that, but complex. Yes. Yeah. Because you know, hang on. Who the [ __ ] Because you know, hang on. Who the [ __ ] Because you know, hang on. Who the [ __ ] What? I'm number [ __ ] six. Am I? Um What? I'm number [ __ ] six. Am I? Um What? I'm number [ __ ] six. Am I? Um more so complexity that the verticals of more so complexity that the verticals of more so complexity that the verticals of the teams have got culture the teams have got culture the teams have got culture >> Mhm. baked in and as you start to take >> Mhm. baked in and as you start to take >> Mhm. baked in and as you start to take people I'm I mean people I'm I mean people I'm I mean perfect example when players come perfect example when players come perfect example when players come together to play for their national team together to play for their national team together to play for their national team when they've played for rivalous when they've played for rivalous when they've played for rivalous >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. uh local teams. uh local teams. uh local teams. >> That doesn't always work well. Like, and >> That doesn't always work well. Like, and >> That doesn't always work well. Like, and sometimes sometimes sometimes >> a team which has the maximum >> a team which has the maximum >> a team which has the maximum player stats for each individual player, player stats for each individual player, player stats for each individual player, but not the cohesion but not the cohesion but not the cohesion doesn't necessarily perform as well as a doesn't necessarily perform as well as a doesn't necessarily perform as well as a vertical team that does have the vertical team that does have the vertical team that does have the cohesion with somebody that's got less cohesion with somebody that's got less cohesion with somebody that's got less experience or whatever. Look at me sat experience or whatever. Look at me sat experience or whatever. Look at me sat in the stands talking about how the in the stands talking about how the in the stands talking about how the special forces should be run. I mean, special forces should be run. I mean, special forces should be run. I mean, that's how it's always been ran. Take a that's how it's always been ran. Take a that's how it's always been ran. Take a team, take a troop, take a squadron, team, take a troop, take a squadron, team, take a troop, take a squadron, whatever it is, and you go out and do whatever it is, and you go out and do whatever it is, and you go out and do the thing. They cherry picked from the thing. They cherry picked from the thing. They cherry picked from inside of the same squadron. And none of inside of the same squadron. And none of inside of the same squadron. And none of us knew. I didn't know if we knew they us knew. I didn't know if we knew they us knew. I didn't know if we knew they were spinning up on something, and they were spinning up on something, and they were spinning up on something, and they would tell us like, "It's some [ __ ] would tell us like, "It's some [ __ ] would tell us like, "It's some [ __ ] training mission." Like, it was my first training mission." Like, it was my first training mission." Like, it was my first cycle. I had just gotten through cycle. I had just gotten through cycle. I had just gotten through selection. And all of them are like, selection. And all of them are like, selection. And all of them are like, "Enjoy your first rotation." He's like, "Enjoy your first rotation." He's like, "Enjoy your first rotation." He's like, "You ain't missing [ __ ] Trust me, this "You ain't missing [ __ ] Trust me, this "You ain't missing [ __ ] Trust me, this is going to be a dog and pony. We're is going to be a dog and pony. We're is going to be a dog and pony. We're going to waste our time and nothing's going to waste our time and nothing's going to waste our time and nothing's going to happen. promise you about 5 going to happen. promise you about 5 going to happen. promise you about 5 days before they went to go do the thing days before they went to go do the thing days before they went to go do the thing we all came in had a big blowout you we all came in had a big blowout you we all came in had a big blowout you know dudes are buying new watches buying know dudes are buying new watches buying know dudes are buying new watches buying thousand sunglasses because they didn't thousand sunglasses because they didn't thousand sunglasses because they didn't think they were going to come home we think they were going to come home we think they were going to come home we all thought they were going to go get all thought they were going to go get all thought they were going to go get Gaddafi Gaddafi Gaddafi so when Obama walked out and did no so when Obama walked out and did no so when Obama walked out and did no announcement I was in my living room announcement I was in my living room announcement I was in my living room with my wife with my shooting buddy on with my wife with my shooting buddy on with my wife with my shooting buddy on speakerphone and as soon as they said it speakerphone and as soon as they said it speakerphone and as soon as they said it screaming like so proud screaming like so proud screaming like so proud >> because you knew that that was >> because you knew that that was >> because you knew that that was >> oh yeah so happy never been more proud >> oh yeah so happy never been more proud >> oh yeah so happy never been more proud in my [ __ ] life oh my god in my [ __ ] life oh my god in my [ __ ] life oh my god And then we came back and everything And then we came back and everything And then we came back and everything started to roll out. News cameras started to roll out. News cameras started to roll out. News cameras everywhere. They're coming to people's everywhere. They're coming to people's everywhere. They're coming to people's houses. They're out in town. You go get houses. They're out in town. You go get houses. They're out in town. You go get a beer. They bump into you. Like they're a beer. They bump into you. Like they're a beer. They bump into you. Like they're constantly trying to dig in to see who constantly trying to dig in to see who constantly trying to dig in to see who you are. They're trying to film you. I you are. They're trying to film you. I you are. They're trying to film you. I mean, it it became a zoo. And it stayed mean, it it became a zoo. And it stayed mean, it it became a zoo. And it stayed like that for a long time. like that for a long time. like that for a long time. >> Has it ever been more >> Has it ever been more >> Has it ever been more highly scrutinized than around then? highly scrutinized than around then? highly scrutinized than around then? >> No. It was unlike anything else I've >> No. It was unlike anything else I've >> No. It was unlike anything else I've ever seen. ever seen. ever seen. >> That kind of launched the seals to some >> That kind of launched the seals to some >> That kind of launched the seals to some degree, I think, in the public degree, I think, in the public degree, I think, in the public consciousness. I mean they had a couple consciousness. I mean they had a couple consciousness. I mean they had a couple big ones before then. You know they had big ones before then. You know they had big ones before then. You know they had June 28th with Marcus Latrell Lone June 28th with Marcus Latrell Lone June 28th with Marcus Latrell Lone Survivor that got into fanfare. I mean Survivor that got into fanfare. I mean Survivor that got into fanfare. I mean that was an operation gone wrong in that was an operation gone wrong in that was an operation gone wrong in 2009. They had Captain Phillips. They 2009. They had Captain Phillips. They 2009. They had Captain Phillips. They rescued MCK Alabama. That was another rescued MCK Alabama. That was another rescued MCK Alabama. That was another huge one. Same squadron. So yeah, like huge one. Same squadron. So yeah, like huge one. Same squadron. So yeah, like been knocking these things out for a been knocking these things out for a been knocking these things out for a bit. So when that thing happened, the bit. So when that thing happened, the bit. So when that thing happened, the thing that pissed us off the most is thing that pissed us off the most is thing that pissed us off the most is right after. So you got to think May right after. So you got to think May right after. So you got to think May 2011 that happened. August 2011, another 2011 that happened. August 2011, another 2011 that happened. August 2011, another squadron gets shot in an RPG. Whole squadron gets shot in an RPG. Whole squadron gets shot in an RPG. Whole troop goes down. The amount of people troop goes down. The amount of people troop goes down. The amount of people and the people today that say that was and the people today that say that was and the people today that say that was an inside job. an inside job. an inside job. I wish I could launch you in Afghanistan I wish I could launch you in Afghanistan I wish I could launch you in Afghanistan to a raid and kill you. It is the most to a raid and kill you. It is the most to a raid and kill you. It is the most disrespectful thing I've ever seen. disrespectful thing I've ever seen. disrespectful thing I've ever seen. >> Why do they think it was an inside job? >> Why do they think it was an inside job? >> Why do they think it was an inside job? >> Because apparently that squadron knew >> Because apparently that squadron knew >> Because apparently that squadron knew too much about the UBL raid and we got too much about the UBL raid and we got too much about the UBL raid and we got to kill them off. The fact that people to kill them off. The fact that people to kill them off. The fact that people say that say that say that you got 95% of those guys are all you got 95% of those guys are all you got 95% of those guys are all married. So now all their kids, they all married. So now all their kids, they all married. So now all their kids, they all read that [ __ ] read that [ __ ] read that [ __ ] >> They read those comments. They watch >> They read those comments. They watch >> They read those comments. They watch those YouTube videos, these disgruntled those YouTube videos, these disgruntled those YouTube videos, these disgruntled fat army guys talking all this nonsense fat army guys talking all this nonsense fat army guys talking all this nonsense and now they don't know. It's like, and now they don't know. It's like, and now they don't know. It's like, "Mom, did did the government kill dad?" "Mom, did did the government kill dad?" "Mom, did did the government kill dad?" >> No, no, no. He's like, "This guy's a >> No, no, no. He's like, "This guy's a >> No, no, no. He's like, "This guy's a green brain. He says he did." You're green brain. He says he did." You're green brain. He says he did." You're like, "Oh my god, here we go." like, "Oh my god, here we go." like, "Oh my god, here we go." >> It's the >> It's the >> It's the >> spins his hateful narrative. It's the uh >> spins his hateful narrative. It's the uh >> spins his hateful narrative. It's the uh Sandy Hook parents equivalent Sandy Hook parents equivalent Sandy Hook parents equivalent >> in reverse for war. >> in reverse for war. >> in reverse for war. >> It is. Causes a lot of doubt though. >> It is. Causes a lot of doubt though. >> It is. Causes a lot of doubt though. Causes a lot of doubt in people. You're Causes a lot of doubt in people. You're Causes a lot of doubt in people. You're like like like that's absolutely not possible. It's not that's absolutely not possible. It's not that's absolutely not possible. It's not possible. No one would ever do it. possible. No one would ever do it. possible. No one would ever do it. >> Nobody. >> Nobody. >> Nobody. >> Yeah. It seems to me I mean again sat in >> Yeah. It seems to me I mean again sat in >> Yeah. It seems to me I mean again sat in the rosette of the stand talking about the rosette of the stand talking about the rosette of the stand talking about what the [ __ ] goes on in the American what the [ __ ] goes on in the American what the [ __ ] goes on in the American military a country that I've only just military a country that I've only just military a country that I've only just moved to. Uh the fact that things are heavily the fact that things are heavily scrutinized, that war stories have got a scrutinized, that war stories have got a scrutinized, that war stories have got a kind of allure and romance and and sort kind of allure and romance and and sort kind of allure and romance and and sort of sexiness to them means that the dose of sexiness to them means that the dose of sexiness to them means that the dose response of information being put out is response of information being put out is response of information being put out is so unusually magnified. And yeah, with so unusually magnified. And yeah, with so unusually magnified. And yeah, with the Osama bin Laden raid, you have every the Osama bin Laden raid, you have every the Osama bin Laden raid, you have every single second of potential information single second of potential information single second of potential information is going to be just it's game tape. It is going to be just it's game tape. It is going to be just it's game tape. It is like game tape in some World Cup is like game tape in some World Cup is like game tape in some World Cup final. final. final. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Um >> Um >> Um and there's a critical mass that you can and there's a critical mass that you can and there's a critical mass that you can reach of information and when you get reach of information and when you get reach of information and when you get even close to that, you basically have a even close to that, you basically have a even close to that, you basically have a kind of nuclear self- sustaining kind of nuclear self- sustaining kind of nuclear self- sustaining reaction where it just generates more reaction where it just generates more reaction where it just generates more and more and more. And um yeah, I and more and more. And um yeah, I and more and more. And um yeah, I watched I watched Rob talk on on Andy watched I watched Rob talk on on Andy watched I watched Rob talk on on Andy show and I'm like show and I'm like show and I'm like if nothing else, this is going to create if nothing else, this is going to create if nothing else, this is going to create an awful lot more nuclear reactions. an awful lot more nuclear reactions. an awful lot more nuclear reactions. >> Really wish you wouldn't have said it. >> Really wish you wouldn't have said it. >> Really wish you wouldn't have said it. You think about all those guys that are You think about all those guys that are You think about all those guys that are still in. They're the ones that are still in. They're the ones that are still in. They're the ones that are going to have to deal with that. I had going to have to deal with that. I had going to have to deal with that. I had to deal with it. And to deal with it. And to deal with it. And Rob does Rob things, you know, guys got Rob does Rob things, you know, guys got Rob does Rob things, you know, guys got out and they wrote books. If you weren't out and they wrote books. If you weren't out and they wrote books. If you weren't in that command when those books in that command when those books in that command when those books dropped, you have no idea the hell we dropped, you have no idea the hell we dropped, you have no idea the hell we all went through. all went through. all went through. >> Why? >> Why? >> Why? Anybody who had association with them, Anybody who had association with them, Anybody who had association with them, we had guys combing the ceilings for we had guys combing the ceilings for we had guys combing the ceilings for bugs. You know, they leave listening bugs. You know, they leave listening bugs. You know, they leave listening devices. I mean, it was it was so devices. I mean, it was it was so devices. I mean, it was it was so because nobody knew who was feeding them because nobody knew who was feeding them because nobody knew who was feeding them information. So, once they separated out information. So, once they separated out information. So, once they separated out and they started writing the book, and they started writing the book, and they started writing the book, they're like, "Okay, well, somebody's they're like, "Okay, well, somebody's they're like, "Okay, well, somebody's communicating with them. They know too communicating with them. They know too communicating with them. They know too much active information that is much active information that is much active information that is happening now." And you could tell with happening now." And you could tell with happening now." And you could tell with some of the emails going back and forth, some of the emails going back and forth, some of the emails going back and forth, they were following guys home. they were following guys home. they were following guys home. >> Oh, there was there was I didn't realize >> Oh, there was there was I didn't realize >> Oh, there was there was I didn't realize this. Uh, this. Uh, this. Uh, >> some of the people who had been in and >> some of the people who had been in and >> some of the people who had been in and then got out and were then allowed to then got out and were then allowed to then got out and were then allowed to talk about what had happened talk about what had happened talk about what had happened included information that they couldn't included information that they couldn't included information that they couldn't have known had it not have been passed have known had it not have been passed have known had it not have been passed on from people who were still inside. on from people who were still inside. on from people who were still inside. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> So, now you got everybody just pointing >> So, now you got everybody just pointing >> So, now you got everybody just pointing fingers at each other like you're fingers at each other like you're fingers at each other like you're talking to him. You're talking like, talking to him. You're talking like, talking to him. You're talking like, "Can we just go back to work, man? Let's "Can we just go back to work, man? Let's "Can we just go back to work, man? Let's just go back to work." I wish nobody just go back to work." I wish nobody just go back to work." I wish nobody would have ever said a thing. Just kill would have ever said a thing. Just kill would have ever said a thing. Just kill him. Put it up on news. He's dead. Don't him. Put it up on news. He's dead. Don't him. Put it up on news. He's dead. Don't say how. Don't say it was a compound say how. Don't say it was a compound say how. Don't say it was a compound raid. Don't do any of that. raid. Don't do any of that. raid. Don't do any of that. >> Don't say how. Don't say who. >> Don't say how. Don't say who. >> Don't say how. Don't say who. >> But then on the same side, we got to be >> But then on the same side, we got to be >> But then on the same side, we got to be honest. Everybody who's in special honest. Everybody who's in special honest. Everybody who's in special operations right now today serving, the operations right now today serving, the operations right now today serving, the only reason you're in there is because only reason you're in there is because only reason you're in there is because you read a book, you watched a movie or you read a book, you watched a movie or you read a book, you watched a movie or something from somebody in Vietnam, something from somebody in Vietnam, something from somebody in Vietnam, Grenada, Panama, Blackhawk Down. That's Grenada, Panama, Blackhawk Down. That's Grenada, Panama, Blackhawk Down. That's the only reason. Isn't that strange that the only reason. Isn't that strange that the only reason. Isn't that strange that you got you got you got >> you're telling them not to? But the only >> you're telling them not to? But the only >> you're telling them not to? But the only reason we're all in this building is reason we're all in this building is reason we're all in this building is because somebody because somebody because somebody >> How many people have wanted to become >> How many people have wanted to become >> How many people have wanted to become Navy Seal? How many people have become Navy Seal? How many people have become Navy Seal? How many people have become Navy Seals? Because Navy Seals? Because Navy Seals? Because >> Well, not many, but a lot of people have >> Well, not many, but a lot of people have >> Well, not many, but a lot of people have tried. tried. tried. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> I mean, somebody asked me the other day >> I mean, somebody asked me the other day >> I mean, somebody asked me the other day about uh David Gogggins, and like what about uh David Gogggins, and like what about uh David Gogggins, and like what do you think about David Gogggins? I'm do you think about David Gogggins? I'm do you think about David Gogggins? I'm like, when I was in the teams, he was like, when I was in the teams, he was like, when I was in the teams, he was different because he was a he was a different because he was a he was a different because he was a he was a poster child. He was an athlete for the poster child. He was an athlete for the poster child. He was an athlete for the Navy. I'll say between David Gogggins Navy. I'll say between David Gogggins Navy. I'll say between David Gogggins and Jaco, those two people have probably and Jaco, those two people have probably and Jaco, those two people have probably put more people in the services over the put more people in the services over the put more people in the services over the last 10 years than anybody else in the last 10 years than anybody else in the last 10 years than anybody else in the last 50. last 50. last 50. >> They just have millions and millions of >> They just have millions and millions of >> They just have millions and millions of people have read their books, seen all people have read their books, seen all people have read their books, seen all of that. They've become cops, firemen, of that. They've become cops, firemen, of that. They've become cops, firemen, Navy Seals, they've joined. Navy Seals, they've joined. Navy Seals, they've joined. >> Yeah, they all do. Like they did it >> Yeah, they all do. Like they did it >> Yeah, they all do. Like they did it right. They did a good job. They put right. They did a good job. They put right. They did a good job. They put them up on a pedestal. They weren't them up on a pedestal. They weren't them up on a pedestal. They weren't talking about war stories. They weren't talking about war stories. They weren't talking about war stories. They weren't doing all this stuff. Yeah, but you take doing all this stuff. Yeah, but you take doing all this stuff. Yeah, but you take that and then you take the actual that and then you take the actual that and then you take the actual operational side of it and you're like, operational side of it and you're like, operational side of it and you're like, well, you're okay with they do that, but well, you're okay with they do that, but well, you're okay with they do that, but you can't do that. Why? you can't do that. Why? you can't do that. Why? >> I don't know if people are okay with >> I don't know if people are okay with >> I don't know if people are okay with anyone. There's a there's a degree of anyone. There's a there's a degree of anyone. There's a there's a degree of and I only I'm on the real periphery of and I only I'm on the real periphery of and I only I'm on the real periphery of this [ __ ] but my YouTube every so often this [ __ ] but my YouTube every so often this [ __ ] but my YouTube every so often feeds me veterans talking about veteran feeds me veterans talking about veteran feeds me veterans talking about veteran drama [ __ ] And drama [ __ ] And drama [ __ ] And it seems like there is a kind of noble it seems like there is a kind of noble it seems like there is a kind of noble silence that's expected of anybody, silence that's expected of anybody, silence that's expected of anybody, especially as you get up toward the especially as you get up toward the especially as you get up toward the higher tiers, too. Um, and it would be higher tiers, too. Um, and it would be higher tiers, too. Um, and it would be an interesting question to ask those an interesting question to ask those an interesting question to ask those people. people. people. Would you rather people adhere to the Would you rather people adhere to the Would you rather people adhere to the noble s? Would you rather veterans noble s? Would you rather veterans noble s? Would you rather veterans adhere to the noble silence? adhere to the noble silence? adhere to the noble silence? Or would you rather have Or would you rather have Or would you rather have however many more million however many more million however many more million able-bodied men trying to serve their able-bodied men trying to serve their able-bodied men trying to serve their country or their community and the country or their community and the country or their community and the police or the FBI or the special forces? It's hard to figure out because if you It's hard to figure out because if you look at like the UK, very very small. look at like the UK, very very small. look at like the UK, very very small. >> They're only very small. Not very very >> They're only very small. Not very very >> They're only very small. Not very very small. small. small. >> Very very small. Small. >> Very very small. Small. >> Very very small. Small. >> I'm not going to disagree with you. >> I'm not going to disagree with you. >> I'm not going to disagree with you. >> But England is small. And how they >> But England is small. And how they >> But England is small. And how they conquered all of that. Pretty pretty conquered all of that. Pretty pretty conquered all of that. Pretty pretty incredible. incredible. incredible. >> Yep. The accent helps. >> Yep. The accent helps. >> Yep. The accent helps. >> They do. The accent helps. They don't >> They do. The accent helps. They don't >> They do. The accent helps. They don't give their military enough credit. give their military enough credit. give their military enough credit. There's not enough people growing up in There's not enough people growing up in There's not enough people growing up in England that want to grow up to be in England that want to grow up to be in England that want to grow up to be in the services. Dude, there isn't this I the services. Dude, there isn't this I the services. Dude, there isn't this I need to need to need to >> It is unbelievable to me. I remember the >> It is unbelievable to me. I remember the >> It is unbelievable to me. I remember the first time that I started coming to first time that I started coming to first time that I started coming to America and the first time that I got on America and the first time that I got on America and the first time that I got on an internal domestic flight from an internal domestic flight from an internal domestic flight from somewhere in America to somewhere else somewhere in America to somewhere else somewhere in America to somewhere else in America and you hear them come over in America and you hear them come over in America and you hear them come over the Tanoi and they say uh we would like the Tanoi and they say uh we would like the Tanoi and they say uh we would like to invite uh active military and first to invite uh active military and first to invite uh active military and first responders uh to to or whatever it is to responders uh to to or whatever it is to responders uh to to or whatever it is to get on the plane first. I'm thinking get on the plane first. I'm thinking get on the plane first. I'm thinking I have never ever heard that. the idea I have never ever heard that. the idea I have never ever heard that. the idea of a veteran community. Uh I once wore a of a veteran community. Uh I once wore a of a veteran community. Uh I once wore a a black rifle coffee shirt uh getting a black rifle coffee shirt uh getting a black rifle coffee shirt uh getting onto a plane. This is a few years ago onto a plane. This is a few years ago onto a plane. This is a few years ago and um it's uh khaki green with gold and um it's uh khaki green with gold and um it's uh khaki green with gold print like classic sort of military kind print like classic sort of military kind print like classic sort of military kind of thing and it's got the American flag of thing and it's got the American flag of thing and it's got the American flag on one arm and as I walk past there was on one arm and as I walk past there was on one arm and as I walk past there was a older gentleman really nicely dressed a older gentleman really nicely dressed a older gentleman really nicely dressed one of the early rows and as I walked one of the early rows and as I walked one of the early rows and as I walked past a bigger guy short hair said thank past a bigger guy short hair said thank past a bigger guy short hair said thank you for your service. I'm like, you for your service. I'm like, you for your service. I'm like, and you know, there's all of these and you know, there's all of these and you know, there's all of these people behind me and I'm like, I my people behind me and I'm like, I my people behind me and I'm like, I my t-shirt has just given me stolen valor t-shirt has just given me stolen valor t-shirt has just given me stolen valor and I have no idea how to [ __ ] wipe and I have no idea how to [ __ ] wipe and I have no idea how to [ __ ] wipe this. I wanted to I I must I'm actually this. I wanted to I I must I'm actually this. I wanted to I I must I'm actually British. Like there was no way for me British. Like there was no way for me British. Like there was no way for me to. But I remember thinking there is to. But I remember thinking there is to. But I remember thinking there is such a reflexive response, especially such a reflexive response, especially such a reflexive response, especially maybe among older generations, to just maybe among older generations, to just maybe among older generations, to just revere people who served in the revere people who served in the revere people who served in the military. And it is whatever the military. And it is whatever the military. And it is whatever the opposite of that is opposite of that is opposite of that is >> like actively ignored uh or kind of >> like actively ignored uh or kind of >> like actively ignored uh or kind of looked down on as if you did something a looked down on as if you did something a looked down on as if you did something a bit stupid like uh you weren't smart bit stupid like uh you weren't smart bit stupid like uh you weren't smart enough to go into whatever else. enough to go into whatever else. enough to go into whatever else. >> That's why you join the military. >> That's why you join the military. >> That's why you join the military. >> That's precisely that is exactly how the >> That's precisely that is exactly how the >> That's precisely that is exactly how the British military veterans are seen. British military veterans are seen. British military veterans are seen. Exactly how they're seen. Exactly how they're seen. Exactly how they're seen. >> Big population in America same thing. >> Big population in America same thing. >> Big population in America same thing. >> But now they appreciate it because we >> But now they appreciate it because we >> But now they appreciate it because we got attacked here and 9/11. A lot of got attacked here and 9/11. A lot of got attacked here and 9/11. A lot of people have forgotten about that, but I people have forgotten about that, but I people have forgotten about that, but I mean I try to remind the guys often the mean I try to remind the guys often the mean I try to remind the guys often the only reason we're not speaking German is only reason we're not speaking German is only reason we're not speaking German is because of a military. because of a military. because of a military. Like we are the only reason we're all Like we are the only reason we're all Like we are the only reason we're all actually free is just because the actually free is just because the actually free is just because the military. Nobody really wants to uncork military. Nobody really wants to uncork military. Nobody really wants to uncork that. So the reason we're free right now that. So the reason we're free right now that. So the reason we're free right now is because nobody really wants to fly is because nobody really wants to fly is because nobody really wants to fly over here and find out. over here and find out. over here and find out. >> That's it. >> That's it. >> That's it. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> They just don't. If we did not have the >> They just don't. If we did not have the >> They just don't. 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Do has the number two navy in the world? Do has the number two navy in the world? Do you know who has the number three air you know who has the number three air you know who has the number three air force in the world and the number one force in the world and the number one force in the world and the number one and the number two? It's a guy kind of and the number two? It's a guy kind of and the number two? It's a guy kind of ranking all of the different uh things. ranking all of the different uh things. ranking all of the different uh things. He's on a podcast and it is so [ __ ] He's on a podcast and it is so [ __ ] He's on a podcast and it is so [ __ ] cool. I think like the US Coast Guard cool. I think like the US Coast Guard cool. I think like the US Coast Guard >> is the fourth biggest navy in the world >> is the fourth biggest navy in the world >> is the fourth biggest navy in the world and then the Navy is the first biggest and then the Navy is the first biggest and then the Navy is the first biggest navy in the world navy in the world navy in the world >> and then the something else is the >> and then the something else is the >> and then the something else is the second biggest. It's like this country second biggest. It's like this country second biggest. It's like this country has got and he basically makes the point has got and he basically makes the point has got and he basically makes the point the reason the reason the reason America as a country is so overpowered America as a country is so overpowered America as a country is so overpowered militarily. Uh and every time that I militarily. Uh and every time that I militarily. Uh and every time that I think about that I also think about that think about that I also think about that think about that I also think about that video. I can't remember who the admiral video. I can't remember who the admiral video. I can't remember who the admiral is. Uh but the someone else will raise is. Uh but the someone else will raise is. Uh but the someone else will raise your mothers and daughters for you. your mothers and daughters for you. your mothers and daughters for you. >> You know that video >> You know that video >> You know that video >> heard. Yeah. It is. There's a a metro >> heard. Yeah. It is. There's a a metro >> heard. Yeah. It is. There's a a metro booming like hip-hop edit of that which booming like hip-hop edit of that which booming like hip-hop edit of that which is kind of a bit gratuitous, but it's is kind of a bit gratuitous, but it's is kind of a bit gratuitous, but it's holy [ __ ] I mean, if you want to talk holy [ __ ] I mean, if you want to talk holy [ __ ] I mean, if you want to talk about about about what the sort of best elements of what the sort of best elements of what the sort of best elements of American culture, uh, yeah, let's go American culture, uh, yeah, let's go American culture, uh, yeah, let's go let's go on that one actually with the let's go on that one actually with the let's go on that one actually with the Black Rifle Edit. I'm sure this will be Black Rifle Edit. I'm sure this will be Black Rifle Edit. I'm sure this will be good. We have been honed into a machine good. We have been honed into a machine good. We have been honed into a machine of lethal moving parts that you would be of lethal moving parts that you would be of lethal moving parts that you would be wise to avoid if you know what's good wise to avoid if you know what's good wise to avoid if you know what's good for you. We will not be intimidated. We for you. We will not be intimidated. We for you. We will not be intimidated. We will not back down. We've seen war. We will not back down. We've seen war. We will not back down. We've seen war. We don't want war. But if you want war with don't want war. But if you want war with don't want war. But if you want war with the United States of America, there's the United States of America, there's the United States of America, there's one thing I can promise you. So help me one thing I can promise you. So help me one thing I can promise you. So help me God. Someone else will raise your God. Someone else will raise your God. Someone else will raise your [music] sons and daughters. [music] sons and daughters. [music] sons and daughters. [laughter] [laughter] [laughter] >> Bro. Bro, I got goosebumps. >> Bro. Bro, I got goosebumps. >> Bro. Bro, I got goosebumps. Oh, burn him to the ground, dude. I love Oh, burn him to the ground, dude. I love Oh, burn him to the ground, dude. I love that. that. that. >> Yeah, that's it. Uh, >> Yeah, that's it. Uh, >> Yeah, that's it. Uh, >> bro, >> bro, >> bro, >> fix bayonets. >> fix bayonets. >> fix bayonets. >> That's one of the That's one of the >> That's one of the That's one of the >> That's one of the That's one of the sickest lines. sickest lines. sickest lines. >> Yeah. I mean, freedom isn't free. >> Yeah. I mean, freedom isn't free. >> Yeah. I mean, freedom isn't free. Freedom ain't free. You have to be a Freedom ain't free. You have to be a Freedom ain't free. You have to be a formidable adversary. If not, they're formidable adversary. If not, they're formidable adversary. If not, they're going to take everything you have. going to take everything you have. going to take everything you have. >> They're just You got to be ready. Stay >> They're just You got to be ready. Stay >> They're just You got to be ready. Stay ready. ready. ready. >> [snorts] >> [snorts] >> [snorts] >> What are some of the adaptations that >> What are some of the adaptations that >> What are some of the adaptations that normal people might not realize special normal people might not realize special normal people might not realize special forces operators go through when you forces operators go through when you forces operators go through when you become hyper optimized for combat? become hyper optimized for combat? become hyper optimized for combat? Depends on how far they take it. Some Depends on how far they take it. Some Depends on how far they take it. Some guys adjust their entire lifestyle, guys adjust their entire lifestyle, guys adjust their entire lifestyle, everything. People they associate with everything. People they associate with everything. People they associate with the time they wake up, the time they go the time they wake up, the time they go the time they wake up, the time they go to bed. to bed. to bed. The majority of the guys are suffering The majority of the guys are suffering The majority of the guys are suffering through something. It could be alcohol, through something. It could be alcohol, through something. It could be alcohol, it could be prescription pills, it could it could be prescription pills, it could it could be prescription pills, it could be injuries, be injuries, be injuries, everything. everything. everything. >> And what are they typically >> And what are they typically >> And what are they typically coping with? What what's the thing that coping with? What what's the thing that coping with? What what's the thing that is causing them to use injuries? is causing them to use injuries? is causing them to use injuries? Obviously makes sense, but Obviously makes sense, but Obviously makes sense, but psychologically, psychologically, psychologically, >> um, >> um, >> um, I'd say for me, I'd say for me, I'd say for me, >> I'm probably the quintessential dude. >> I'm probably the quintessential dude. >> I'm probably the quintessential dude. Kind of represent everybody. I'm not a Kind of represent everybody. I'm not a Kind of represent everybody. I'm not a unicorn by any means. I'm a product of unicorn by any means. I'm a product of unicorn by any means. I'm a product of the culture. hard time sleeping. So you the culture. hard time sleeping. So you the culture. hard time sleeping. So you start taking ambient every night and start taking ambient every night and start taking ambient every night and then that doesn't work. then that doesn't work. then that doesn't work. [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] Your memory starts getting shot. Too Your memory starts getting shot. Too Your memory starts getting shot. Too many TBIs. You get put on aderall. Now many TBIs. You get put on aderall. Now many TBIs. You get put on aderall. Now you're taking uppers and downers and you're taking uppers and downers and you're taking uppers and downers and then all the pain elements and start then all the pain elements and start then all the pain elements and start avoiding surgery. And then avoiding surgery. And then avoiding surgery. And then you have a hard time trying to balance you have a hard time trying to balance you have a hard time trying to balance being a full-time husband, a full-time being a full-time husband, a full-time being a full-time husband, a full-time father, being a full-time Navy Seal or father, being a full-time Navy Seal or father, being a full-time Navy Seal or pilot or whatever else you're trying to pilot or whatever else you're trying to pilot or whatever else you're trying to do. So you start to compartmentalize do. So you start to compartmentalize do. So you start to compartmentalize everything. I can't be a husband. And I everything. I can't be a husband. And I everything. I can't be a husband. And I can't be a father right now. I can't be can't be a father right now. I can't be can't be a father right now. I can't be a best friend. I can't be an uncle. I a best friend. I can't be an uncle. I a best friend. I can't be an uncle. I can't be a son. I can only do this one can't be a son. I can only do this one can't be a son. I can only do this one thing. So, I'm going to compartmentalize thing. So, I'm going to compartmentalize thing. So, I'm going to compartmentalize everything else. I'm going to shift it everything else. I'm going to shift it everything else. I'm going to shift it away. And then when I get done, I'll away. And then when I get done, I'll away. And then when I get done, I'll reintegrate. As soon as you try to reintegrate. As soon as you try to reintegrate. As soon as you try to reintegrate, you can't. The wife's off reintegrate, you can't. The wife's off reintegrate, you can't. The wife's off her routine. You're late for the bus her routine. You're late for the bus her routine. You're late for the bus stop. She's got her whole schedule set stop. She's got her whole schedule set stop. She's got her whole schedule set and now you drop back in and you just and now you drop back in and you just and now you drop back in and you just screwed it all up. screwed it all up. screwed it all up. >> Now you don't feel like you're at home. >> Now you don't feel like you're at home. >> Now you don't feel like you're at home. So, what do you do? You just run back So, what do you do? You just run back So, what do you do? You just run back into work. Start pouring all your time into work. Start pouring all your time into work. Start pouring all your time back in there. And you feel this big back in there. And you feel this big back in there. And you feel this big dissociation between the thing you're dissociation between the thing you're dissociation between the thing you're actually fighting for because now I actually fighting for because now I actually fighting for because now I can't even be around it because I don't can't even be around it because I don't can't even be around it because I don't feel at home there. I feel like I'm feel at home there. I feel like I'm feel at home there. I feel like I'm seeing an Airbnb. I feel like I'm seeing seeing an Airbnb. I feel like I'm seeing seeing an Airbnb. I feel like I'm seeing my aunt's house. Like I'm trying to keep my aunt's house. Like I'm trying to keep my aunt's house. Like I'm trying to keep creep through the kitchen. Like I open creep through the kitchen. Like I open creep through the kitchen. Like I open up the refrigerator. It doesn't have up the refrigerator. It doesn't have up the refrigerator. It doesn't have anything that I want in here cuz I anything that I want in here cuz I anything that I want in here cuz I haven't been grocery shopping in 8 haven't been grocery shopping in 8 haven't been grocery shopping in 8 months. [gasps] months. [gasps] months. [gasps] Well, now I'm too ashamed to ask her to Well, now I'm too ashamed to ask her to Well, now I'm too ashamed to ask her to buy this or buy that. Like buy this or buy that. Like buy this or buy that. Like and you're on another trip. I think and you're on another trip. I think and you're on another trip. I think people would be shocked with how much people would be shocked with how much people would be shocked with how much the guys are on the road. the guys are on the road. the guys are on the road. minimum 270 days, 325, 350 a year. I minimum 270 days, 325, 350 a year. I minimum 270 days, 325, 350 a year. I mean, they are gone, gone, gone. And mean, they are gone, gone, gone. And mean, they are gone, gone, gone. And even when you're there, like that even when you're there, like that even when you're there, like that typical morning, we'll call it day in a typical morning, we'll call it day in a typical morning, we'll call it day in a life, random Tuesday in Virginia Beach, life, random Tuesday in Virginia Beach, life, random Tuesday in Virginia Beach, up at 5, clearing the gym 5:30, workout up at 5, clearing the gym 5:30, workout up at 5, clearing the gym 5:30, workout 5:30 to 6:30, eat breakfast, go do a 5:30 to 6:30, eat breakfast, go do a 5:30 to 6:30, eat breakfast, go do a recovery session. That could be a float recovery session. That could be a float recovery session. That could be a float tank, a cryo chamber, E stem, cold tank, a cryo chamber, E stem, cold tank, a cryo chamber, E stem, cold plunge, whatever. Go back up 10:00 a.m. plunge, whatever. Go back up 10:00 a.m. plunge, whatever. Go back up 10:00 a.m. briefing. Train for 3 4 hours, eat briefing. Train for 3 4 hours, eat briefing. Train for 3 4 hours, eat lunch. train 3 4 hours, eat dinner, lunch. train 3 4 hours, eat dinner, lunch. train 3 4 hours, eat dinner, drink a couple beers in the team room, drink a couple beers in the team room, drink a couple beers in the team room, go back home 9:00 p.m. Kids already in go back home 9:00 p.m. Kids already in go back home 9:00 p.m. Kids already in bed, your wife's already taking a bed, your wife's already taking a bed, your wife's already taking a shower, she's watching Netflix. You go shower, she's watching Netflix. You go shower, she's watching Netflix. You go in, you're asleep 20, 30 minutes or at in, you're asleep 20, 30 minutes or at in, you're asleep 20, 30 minutes or at least half asleep. You wake up four or least half asleep. You wake up four or least half asleep. You wake up four or five, six times a night, can't really five, six times a night, can't really five, six times a night, can't really fall asleep. Wake up 5:00, do it again fall asleep. Wake up 5:00, do it again fall asleep. Wake up 5:00, do it again over and over. So, your kids don't see over and over. So, your kids don't see over and over. So, your kids don't see you for pretty much the entire week. If you for pretty much the entire week. If you for pretty much the entire week. If you're lucky, you'll come in 6:30 at you're lucky, you'll come in 6:30 at you're lucky, you'll come in 6:30 at night, they're in bed by 8, you're night, they're in bed by 8, you're night, they're in bed by 8, you're two-hand texting, frantic, you're trying two-hand texting, frantic, you're trying two-hand texting, frantic, you're trying to pack your stuff, trying to do to pack your stuff, trying to do to pack your stuff, trying to do laundry, about to leave in a day. Like, laundry, about to leave in a day. Like, laundry, about to leave in a day. Like, you're just never really truly present. you're just never really truly present. you're just never really truly present. And that's when everything else starts And that's when everything else starts And that's when everything else starts to happen. The injuries stack up. Sleep to happen. The injuries stack up. Sleep to happen. The injuries stack up. Sleep deprivation stacks up. You're on a deprivation stacks up. You're on a deprivation stacks up. You're on a shitty diet. Now, you're drinking too shitty diet. Now, you're drinking too shitty diet. Now, you're drinking too much. You're popping these pills. And it much. You're popping these pills. And it much. You're popping these pills. And it doesn't feel like you're doing to doesn't feel like you're doing to doesn't feel like you're doing to excess. The doctors have given you this excess. The doctors have given you this excess. The doctors have given you this stuff. You just keep eating them. Like, stuff. You just keep eating them. Like, stuff. You just keep eating them. Like, oh, I feel better. Three or four days, oh, I feel better. Three or four days, oh, I feel better. Three or four days, you feel worse. night, [sighs and gasps] you feel worse. night, [sighs and gasps] you feel worse. night, [sighs and gasps] eat another, wake up and do it again, do eat another, wake up and do it again, do eat another, wake up and do it again, do it again, do it again. And a lot of it it again, do it again. And a lot of it it again, do it again. And a lot of it is, it is egocentric because everybody is, it is egocentric because everybody is, it is egocentric because everybody around you is better than you are. And around you is better than you are. And around you is better than you are. And you feel like I have to see them, see me you feel like I have to see them, see me you feel like I have to see them, see me work. Like, I want you to notice that I work. Like, I want you to notice that I work. Like, I want you to notice that I am in here before you. I'm staying here am in here before you. I'm staying here am in here before you. I'm staying here after you. And I want you to know that I after you. And I want you to know that I after you. And I want you to know that I know I'm not great, but god damn, I'm know I'm not great, but god damn, I'm know I'm not great, but god damn, I'm trying. trying. trying. >> It won't be for a lack of effort. It >> It won't be for a lack of effort. It >> It won't be for a lack of effort. It won't be for a lack of commitment or won't be for a lack of commitment or won't be for a lack of commitment or discipline. I'm going to show up every discipline. I'm going to show up every discipline. I'm going to show up every day trying to be better than I was day trying to be better than I was day trying to be better than I was yesterday. And that's what everybody yesterday. And that's what everybody yesterday. And that's what everybody has. You just get really used to just has. You just get really used to just has. You just get really used to just being inside of that thing and you sacri being inside of that thing and you sacri being inside of that thing and you sacri guys become the best at hiding injuries. guys become the best at hiding injuries. guys become the best at hiding injuries. Catastrophic injuries. Catastrophic injuries. Catastrophic injuries. >> What are the most common injuries? >> What are the most common injuries? >> What are the most common injuries? >> Shoulders, hips, knees, TBI, neck, low >> Shoulders, hips, knees, TBI, neck, low >> Shoulders, hips, knees, TBI, neck, low back. back. back. >> And what's this from? From shooting, >> And what's this from? From shooting, >> And what's this from? From shooting, from from from >> everything. Skydiving. Skydiving, >> everything. Skydiving. Skydiving, >> everything. Skydiving. Skydiving, climbing, the boats, everything. It just climbing, the boats, everything. It just climbing, the boats, everything. It just It's rough, man. It's rough on the body. It's rough, man. It's rough on the body. It's rough, man. It's rough on the body. >> And now you don't sleep. When I say >> And now you don't sleep. When I say >> And now you don't sleep. When I say don't sleep, I mean realistically don't sleep, I mean realistically don't sleep, I mean realistically like actual sleep, two hours a night, like actual sleep, two hours a night, like actual sleep, two hours a night, like you you don't sleep. And a lot of like you you don't sleep. And a lot of like you you don't sleep. And a lot of that is you think when you get overseas, that is you think when you get overseas, that is you think when you get overseas, we're on vampire hour, so you don't see we're on vampire hour, so you don't see we're on vampire hour, so you don't see the sun for the sun for the sun for >> 3 to 6 months, however long you're going >> 3 to 6 months, however long you're going >> 3 to 6 months, however long you're going to be overseas, but you wake up at 5 in to be overseas, but you wake up at 5 in to be overseas, but you wake up at 5 in the afternoon and you drink coffee all the afternoon and you drink coffee all the afternoon and you drink coffee all night. You get back home at 5:00 a.m., night. You get back home at 5:00 a.m., night. You get back home at 5:00 a.m., you eat breakfast, and you try to go to you eat breakfast, and you try to go to you eat breakfast, and you try to go to sleep. Now the sun's up, your body gets sleep. Now the sun's up, your body gets sleep. Now the sun's up, your body gets that dose of vitamin D, and now you're that dose of vitamin D, and now you're that dose of vitamin D, and now you're just chasing it. Are you using uh light just chasing it. Are you using uh light just chasing it. Are you using uh light therapy uh SAD lamps or any sort of therapy uh SAD lamps or any sort of therapy uh SAD lamps or any sort of equivalent when you're over there? No, equivalent when you're over there? No, equivalent when you're over there? No, >> we didn't have Wi-Fi for my first three >> we didn't have Wi-Fi for my first three >> we didn't have Wi-Fi for my first three or four deployments. No, or four deployments. No, or four deployments. No, >> it should be better now, but back in the >> it should be better now, but back in the >> it should be better now, but back in the day, they couldn't even they couldn't day, they couldn't even they couldn't day, they couldn't even they couldn't even prescribe you vitamin D because it even prescribe you vitamin D because it even prescribe you vitamin D because it was a hormone replacement. That's what was a hormone replacement. That's what was a hormone replacement. That's what they classified in the military. they classified in the military. they classified in the military. >> Now it's different. But I mean, >> Now it's different. But I mean, >> Now it's different. But I mean, fingernails falling out, hair falling fingernails falling out, hair falling fingernails falling out, hair falling out. out. out. >> Why? >> Why? >> Why? >> Not seeing the sun for 6 months. Like >> Not seeing the sun for 6 months. Like >> Not seeing the sun for 6 months. Like literally not seeing it. literally not seeing it. literally not seeing it. >> You turn into a bat. >> You turn into a bat. >> You turn into a bat. >> Yeah. And you feel like death. Face all >> Yeah. And you feel like death. Face all >> Yeah. And you feel like death. Face all sucked in. Food's terrible. Like you got sucked in. Food's terrible. Like you got sucked in. Food's terrible. Like you got a food allergy or like dude I can't I a food allergy or like dude I can't I a food allergy or like dude I can't I couldn't eat a boiled egg right now if couldn't eat a boiled egg right now if couldn't eat a boiled egg right now if you gave me a million dollars. I've you gave me a million dollars. I've you gave me a million dollars. I've eaten thousands and thousands of eaten thousands and thousands of eaten thousands and thousands of hardboiled eggs. Thou I'm not ex hardboiled eggs. Thou I'm not ex hardboiled eggs. Thou I'm not ex thousands of them. You get a receipt. thousands of them. You get a receipt. thousands of them. You get a receipt. You're like I can't eat this food dude. You're like I can't eat this food dude. You're like I can't eat this food dude. I can't. What are you eating? I can't. What are you eating? I can't. What are you eating? >> Hard-boiled eggs and white rice three >> Hard-boiled eggs and white rice three >> Hard-boiled eggs and white rice three times a day. I'm just going to keep times a day. I'm just going to keep times a day. I'm just going to keep going. going. going. >> It's exhausting, man. >> It's exhausting, man. >> It's exhausting, man. It's surprising to me that everything It's surprising to me that everything It's surprising to me that everything would be so optimized would be so optimized would be so optimized >> in the buildup >> in the buildup >> in the buildup and then seemingly so and then seemingly so and then seemingly so like underoptimized once you get out like underoptimized once you get out like underoptimized once you get out there like and also why why is no one there like and also why why is no one there like and also why why is no one the probably the single biggest the probably the single biggest the probably the single biggest performance enhancer for anybody is performance enhancer for anybody is performance enhancer for anybody is sleep. sleep. sleep. >> Uh because you don't always get to >> Uh because you don't always get to >> Uh because you don't always get to dictate when you're going to go. dictate when you're going to go. dictate when you're going to go. >> But when you're at home and you're >> But when you're at home and you're >> But when you're at home and you're training, how come that's not more training, how come that's not more training, how come that's not more prioritized? prioritized? prioritized? you got to think about. So, say on a you got to think about. So, say on a you got to think about. So, say on a training schedule, we'll say you get up training schedule, we'll say you get up training schedule, we'll say you get up at 5, you run through the entire day, at 5, you run through the entire day, at 5, you run through the entire day, and we'll say you're doing a night and we'll say you're doing a night and we'll say you're doing a night profile at night. You're not even going profile at night. You're not even going profile at night. You're not even going to get geared up for that night profile to get geared up for that night profile to get geared up for that night profile until 8:30 at night. That's going to go until 8:30 at night. That's going to go until 8:30 at night. That's going to go until 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. until 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. until 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. >> So, when you wake up, you're still going >> So, when you wake up, you're still going >> So, when you wake up, you're still going to clock in and do a full normal day. to clock in and do a full normal day. to clock in and do a full normal day. So, you can either come in at 6:00, you So, you can either come in at 6:00, you So, you can either come in at 6:00, you can come in at 7:00, or you can come in can come in at 7:00, or you can come in can come in at 7:00, or you can come in at 5:00 and just live the exact same at 5:00 and just live the exact same at 5:00 and just live the exact same routine. routine. routine. >> So, a lot of guys have hammocks in their >> So, a lot of guys have hammocks in their >> So, a lot of guys have hammocks in their cage area. They'll sleep in the cage. cage area. They'll sleep in the cage. cage area. They'll sleep in the cage. No, the cage No, the cage No, the cage >> probably a quarter size of this room. >> probably a quarter size of this room. >> probably a quarter size of this room. Everybody has their own. So all your Everybody has their own. So all your Everybody has their own. So all your gear is in it. Guns, bullets, bombs, all gear is in it. Guns, bullets, bombs, all gear is in it. Guns, bullets, bombs, all the stuff is in there. But they'll the stuff is in there. But they'll the stuff is in there. But they'll string up a hammock and they'll just string up a hammock and they'll just string up a hammock and they'll just sleep in it. Got tempropedic mattresses sleep in it. Got tempropedic mattresses sleep in it. Got tempropedic mattresses on the floor and they'll just sleep in on the floor and they'll just sleep in on the floor and they'll just sleep in it. it. it. >> It's easier than having to commute to go >> It's easier than having to commute to go >> It's easier than having to commute to go back home to then come back cuz you're back home to then come back cuz you're back home to then come back cuz you're losing half an hour each way or maybe. losing half an hour each way or maybe. losing half an hour each way or maybe. >> Exactly. I go in, I wake up my wife, my >> Exactly. I go in, I wake up my wife, my >> Exactly. I go in, I wake up my wife, my alarm clock goes off. She's like, "Why alarm clock goes off. She's like, "Why alarm clock goes off. She's like, "Why are you getting up? You got to have this are you getting up? You got to have this are you getting up? You got to have this awkward conversation, jump back in the awkward conversation, jump back in the awkward conversation, jump back in the car, just drive back in, rinse and car, just drive back in, rinse and car, just drive back in, rinse and repeat again." So a lot of time guys repeat again." So a lot of time guys repeat again." So a lot of time guys just stay there. just stay there. just stay there. You get used to it but when it's You get used to it but when it's You get used to it but when it's happening in the moment you don't happening in the moment you don't happening in the moment you don't realize what it's doing. Like you'll realize what it's doing. Like you'll realize what it's doing. Like you'll watch your weight fluctuate like you watch your weight fluctuate like you watch your weight fluctuate like you know everybody gets overseas. Everybody know everybody gets overseas. Everybody know everybody gets overseas. Everybody tries to get big and jacked on tries to get big and jacked on tries to get big and jacked on unemployment. You come back home and unemployment. You come back home and unemployment. You come back home and it's like I can't maintain this. I'm not it's like I can't maintain this. I'm not it's like I can't maintain this. I'm not sleeping. I'm not eating right. All the sleeping. I'm not eating right. All the sleeping. I'm not eating right. All the stuff starts to happen to you. You start stuff starts to happen to you. You start stuff starts to happen to you. You start to erode a little bit of yourself. You to erode a little bit of yourself. You to erode a little bit of yourself. You go on these stints where you get really go on these stints where you get really go on these stints where you get really really jacked in great shape like oh I really jacked in great shape like oh I really jacked in great shape like oh I can maintain this but your sleep is can maintain this but your sleep is can maintain this but your sleep is garbage. Yeah. Like garbage. Yeah. Like garbage. Yeah. Like >> we keep pushing too hard. >> we keep pushing too hard. >> we keep pushing too hard. >> Yeah. And it's one of like if I talk to >> Yeah. And it's one of like if I talk to >> Yeah. And it's one of like if I talk to anybody else like you're doing too much. anybody else like you're doing too much. anybody else like you're doing too much. You need to break it down. You need to You need to break it down. You need to You need to break it down. You need to take two weeks off. Don't do anything take two weeks off. Don't do anything take two weeks off. Don't do anything physical. My mental health will just physical. My mental health will just physical. My mental health will just spiral out of control so fast. I have to spiral out of control so fast. I have to spiral out of control so fast. I have to stay on the routine cuz if not then my stay on the routine cuz if not then my stay on the routine cuz if not then my confidence drops. So I know I need to confidence drops. So I know I need to confidence drops. So I know I need to sleep. I know I shouldn't do anything in sleep. I know I shouldn't do anything in sleep. I know I shouldn't do anything in the gym today. I know I shouldn't. But the gym today. I know I shouldn't. But the gym today. I know I shouldn't. But if I don't, my confidence drops. Then if I don't, my confidence drops. Then if I don't, my confidence drops. Then what? Then what do you want me to do? what? Then what do you want me to do? what? Then what do you want me to do? Constantly chasing your own Constantly chasing your own Constantly chasing your own >> feedback loop. >> feedback loop. >> feedback loop. >> Vicious. Is your mood and health better >> Vicious. Is your mood and health better >> Vicious. Is your mood and health better when because it seems like being when because it seems like being when because it seems like being overseas in some ways might be a little overseas in some ways might be a little overseas in some ways might be a little bit easier bit easier bit easier >> because there aren't the distractions. >> because there aren't the distractions. >> because there aren't the distractions. You're sort of locked in. You're sort of locked in. You're sort of locked in. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> But you're also vampire mode uh with >> But you're also vampire mode uh with >> But you're also vampire mode uh with shitty food and all of the other issues. shitty food and all of the other issues. shitty food and all of the other issues. >> Best time you ever had in your life >> Best time you ever had in your life >> Best time you ever had in your life >> being overseas. Most guys will tell you >> being overseas. Most guys will tell you >> being overseas. Most guys will tell you they sleep better now when I now because they sleep better now when I now because they sleep better now when I now because I'm out. I've got a bunch of different I'm out. I've got a bunch of different I'm out. I've got a bunch of different modalities that help me sleep better modalities that help me sleep better modalities that help me sleep better now. I sleep way better overseas than I now. I sleep way better overseas than I now. I sleep way better overseas than I do when I'm in town. do when I'm in town. do when I'm in town. >> Even now? >> Even now? >> Even now? >> Yeah. [laughter] >> Yeah. [laughter] >> Yeah. [laughter] >> Way better. Always. You just do. >> Way better. Always. You just do. >> Way better. Always. You just do. >> I can't remember what movie it is. Maybe >> I can't remember what movie it is. Maybe >> I can't remember what movie it is. Maybe it's Rambo or maybe it's the Expendables it's Rambo or maybe it's the Expendables it's Rambo or maybe it's the Expendables or something. And I know it's a cliche, or something. And I know it's a cliche, or something. And I know it's a cliche, but it sounds like it might be true that but it sounds like it might be true that but it sounds like it might be true that there's a guy who comes back home after there's a guy who comes back home after there's a guy who comes back home after he's been on deployment or he's been on he's been on deployment or he's been on he's been on deployment or he's been on some sort of operation and he's some sort of operation and he's some sort of operation and he's struggling to sleep in the bed. So, he struggling to sleep in the bed. So, he struggling to sleep in the bed. So, he decides to sleep on the floor and just decides to sleep on the floor and just decides to sleep on the floor and just put his arm under his head. And it kind put his arm under his head. And it kind put his arm under his head. And it kind of feels a little bit like that. You of feels a little bit like that. You of feels a little bit like that. You become conditioned to have one become conditioned to have one become conditioned to have one particular type of environment and one particular type of environment and one particular type of environment and one that's objectively better. Yeah. that's objectively better. Yeah. that's objectively better. Yeah. >> Is subjectively like alien. >> Is subjectively like alien. >> Is subjectively like alien. >> Yeah, >> Yeah, >> Yeah, man. I miss it. You make me time travel man. I miss it. You make me time travel man. I miss it. You make me time travel right now. God, right now. God, right now. God, it is the most fun you'll ever have in it is the most fun you'll ever have in it is the most fun you'll ever have in your entire life. It is like even all your entire life. It is like even all your entire life. It is like even all the [ __ ] the sleepless nights, the [ __ ] the sleepless nights, the [ __ ] the sleepless nights, ambient, whatever else. I wouldn't trade ambient, whatever else. I wouldn't trade ambient, whatever else. I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Give me it for anything in the world. Give me it for anything in the world. Give me $10 million right now to erase those $10 million right now to erase those $10 million right now to erase those memories. I wouldn't touch it. Not a memories. I wouldn't touch it. Not a memories. I wouldn't touch it. Not a chance, dude. [gasps] chance, dude. [gasps] chance, dude. [gasps] But in the moment, it all seems like But in the moment, it all seems like But in the moment, it all seems like it's worth it. I just wish I was able to it's worth it. I just wish I was able to it's worth it. I just wish I was able to find a better balance point because for find a better balance point because for find a better balance point because for me, I wasn't able to. I had I had too me, I wasn't able to. I had I had too me, I wasn't able to. I had I had too many things were weighing on me, too many things were weighing on me, too many things were weighing on me, too many things in a family. And it it many things in a family. And it it many things in a family. And it it became so much easier to be overseas and became so much easier to be overseas and became so much easier to be overseas and to isolate, not throw up family photos, to isolate, not throw up family photos, to isolate, not throw up family photos, limit the times you're going to limit the times you're going to limit the times you're going to FaceTime, limit the times you're going FaceTime, limit the times you're going FaceTime, limit the times you're going to call home, to call home, to call home, >> because in the moment, the last thing I >> because in the moment, the last thing I >> because in the moment, the last thing I want is for that window to light up. want is for that window to light up. want is for that window to light up. I've got to run over there and deal with I've got to run over there and deal with I've got to run over there and deal with it. And I don't [clears throat] want to it. And I don't [clears throat] want to it. And I don't [clears throat] want to think about orphaning my kids, making my think about orphaning my kids, making my think about orphaning my kids, making my wife a two-time widow. I don't want to wife a two-time widow. I don't want to wife a two-time widow. I don't want to do that. do that. do that. >> I can't have that inside of me. So, it >> I can't have that inside of me. So, it >> I can't have that inside of me. So, it sounds selfish, but I've had a lot of sounds selfish, but I've had a lot of sounds selfish, but I've had a lot of amazing mentors that have said the same amazing mentors that have said the same amazing mentors that have said the same thing. If you think that I'm thinking thing. If you think that I'm thinking thing. If you think that I'm thinking about my wife on that Hilo flight in, about my wife on that Hilo flight in, about my wife on that Hilo flight in, I'm not. If you think I'm wondering what I'm not. If you think I'm wondering what I'm not. If you think I'm wondering what my kids are doing, I'm not. I'm only my kids are doing, I'm not. I'm only my kids are doing, I'm not. I'm only thinking about that dude because I've thinking about that dude because I've thinking about that dude because I've been staring his face for the last 72 been staring his face for the last 72 been staring his face for the last 72 hours. That's the only thing I'm hours. That's the only thing I'm hours. That's the only thing I'm thinking about. thinking about. thinking about. >> The Hilo flight in the walk-in, the >> The Hilo flight in the walk-in, the >> The Hilo flight in the walk-in, the patrol, atmospherics, everything. That's patrol, atmospherics, everything. That's patrol, atmospherics, everything. That's the only thing I'm thinking about. the only thing I'm thinking about. the only thing I'm thinking about. >> So, compartmentalization. Mhm. >> So, compartmentalization. Mhm. >> So, compartmentalization. Mhm. >> There's an interesting study that I >> There's an interesting study that I >> There's an interesting study that I learned about um that was looking at learned about um that was looking at learned about um that was looking at attachment styles and they brought attachment styles and they brought attachment styles and they brought people into a lab and in classic people into a lab and in classic people into a lab and in classic psychological study fashion. The study psychological study fashion. The study psychological study fashion. The study began before people realized the study began before people realized the study began before people realized the study began. They're in this waiting room began. They're in this waiting room began. They're in this waiting room together and over the far side is a together and over the far side is a together and over the far side is a computer and the computer begins to just computer and the computer begins to just computer and the computer begins to just drift a little bit of smoke out just drift a little bit of smoke out just drift a little bit of smoke out just small amount like it might be about to small amount like it might be about to small amount like it might be about to catch fire something like that. Before catch fire something like that. Before catch fire something like that. Before they'd gone in, they' done an attachment they'd gone in, they' done an attachment they'd gone in, they' done an attachment style assessment on all of the people style assessment on all of the people style assessment on all of the people that were in there. And there was some that were in there. And there was some that were in there. And there was some that were anxious, some that were that were anxious, some that were that were anxious, some that were avoidant, and there was some that were avoidant, and there was some that were avoidant, and there was some that were securely attached. What was interesting securely attached. What was interesting securely attached. What was interesting was the anxious people were the first was the anxious people were the first was the anxious people were the first ones that noticed that the smoke was ones that noticed that the smoke was ones that noticed that the smoke was coming out of the computer, but the coming out of the computer, but the coming out of the computer, but the avoidant people were the first ones out avoidant people were the first ones out avoidant people were the first ones out the door. the door. the door. >> And that explains why you need in a, you >> And that explains why you need in a, you >> And that explains why you need in a, you know, Dunar number 150 person tribe, why know, Dunar number 150 person tribe, why know, Dunar number 150 person tribe, why you need a variety of attachment styles. you need a variety of attachment styles. you need a variety of attachment styles. You need someone the hyper vigilant You need someone the hyper vigilant You need someone the hyper vigilant who's always watching that ridge where who's always watching that ridge where who's always watching that ridge where sometimes the animals or the enemies sometimes the animals or the enemies sometimes the animals or the enemies come over. But you need other people come over. But you need other people come over. But you need other people that are decisive. And one of the skills that are decisive. And one of the skills that are decisive. And one of the skills that the avoidant sides seem to have is that the avoidant sides seem to have is that the avoidant sides seem to have is an ability to compartmentalize. So the an ability to compartmentalize. So the an ability to compartmentalize. So the anxious people would be more likely to anxious people would be more likely to anxious people would be more likely to think I is it okay? Should we can we think I is it okay? Should we can we think I is it okay? Should we can we leave? Are we allowed to? Whereas the leave? Are we allowed to? Whereas the leave? Are we allowed to? Whereas the avant people like it's just a wy coyote. avant people like it's just a wy coyote. avant people like it's just a wy coyote. It's just a puff of dust and they're It's just a puff of dust and they're It's just a puff of dust and they're gone. And um what I thought was gone. And um what I thought was gone. And um what I thought was interesting about that was I imagined interesting about that was I imagined interesting about that was I imagined that I was putting together a a police that I was putting together a a police that I was putting together a a police force or something and you want force or something and you want force or something and you want the SWAT guys and the ERS, you want them the SWAT guys and the ERS, you want them the SWAT guys and the ERS, you want them on average to be avoidant. You want them on average to be avoidant. You want them on average to be avoidant. You want them to be able to compartmentalize what it to be able to compartmentalize what it to be able to compartmentalize what it is that they've got going on. Like, is that they've got going on. Like, is that they've got going on. Like, nope, I don't need you right now. This nope, I don't need you right now. This nope, I don't need you right now. This person needs me to look after them. But person needs me to look after them. But person needs me to look after them. But you want the detective to be anxious. you want the detective to be anxious. you want the detective to be anxious. You want him to pay a level of attention You want him to pay a level of attention You want him to pay a level of attention to things where they can't switch over. to things where they can't switch over. to things where they can't switch over. They're thinking and ruminating and They're thinking and ruminating and They're thinking and ruminating and ruminating. ruminating. ruminating. >> It was behind a kitchen door. You know, >> It was behind a kitchen door. You know, >> It was behind a kitchen door. You know, like that's and it's it's just like that's and it's it's just like that's and it's it's just interesting to me that interesting to me that interesting to me that the things which you are praised for in the things which you are praised for in the things which you are praised for in public, you pay for in private. and your public, you pay for in private. and your public, you pay for in private. and your inability to switch that sort of stuff inability to switch that sort of stuff inability to switch that sort of stuff off, you know, like those adaptations off, you know, like those adaptations off, you know, like those adaptations that you've gone through and the same that you've gone through and the same that you've gone through and the same traits and focus that make elite traits and focus that make elite traits and focus that make elite operators effective can probably make operators effective can probably make operators effective can probably make normal life and relationships normal life and relationships normal life and relationships extremely difficult. extremely difficult. extremely difficult. >> It does because at a certain point you >> It does because at a certain point you >> It does because at a certain point you start to think that everything is just a start to think that everything is just a start to think that everything is just a time suck or a bandwidth suck. time suck or a bandwidth suck. time suck or a bandwidth suck. >> Like right now this conversation we're >> Like right now this conversation we're >> Like right now this conversation we're having, it doesn't make me better at having, it doesn't make me better at having, it doesn't make me better at work. It doesn't. In fact, it just makes work. It doesn't. In fact, it just makes work. It doesn't. In fact, it just makes me want to go to work to avoid this me want to go to work to avoid this me want to go to work to avoid this right now. It really makes you just want right now. It really makes you just want right now. It really makes you just want to stay on deployment and not come home to stay on deployment and not come home to stay on deployment and not come home so I don't have to deal with this [ __ ] so I don't have to deal with this [ __ ] so I don't have to deal with this [ __ ] And then you start to spit venom. Talk And then you start to spit venom. Talk And then you start to spit venom. Talk about trauma. Like it sacks up inside of about trauma. Like it sacks up inside of about trauma. Like it sacks up inside of you, gets the right. You guys got yards you, gets the right. You guys got yards you, gets the right. You guys got yards beer in the UK. Yeah. beer in the UK. Yeah. beer in the UK. Yeah. >> That's just trauma starts to come out of >> That's just trauma starts to come out of >> That's just trauma starts to come out of your mouth. It's it's hate. It's your mouth. It's it's hate. It's your mouth. It's it's hate. It's hostility. It's all this stuff. Before hostility. It's all this stuff. Before hostility. It's all this stuff. Before you know it, you can't control it every you know it, you can't control it every you know it, you can't control it every time you go home. Just launching it. time you go home. Just launching it. time you go home. Just launching it. >> Well, the only place I never launch it >> Well, the only place I never launch it >> Well, the only place I never launch it is at work because everybody else is the is at work because everybody else is the is at work because everybody else is the same as me. We talk about the same same as me. We talk about the same same as me. We talk about the same things. We only speak in movie quotes. things. We only speak in movie quotes. things. We only speak in movie quotes. We're on the same workout routine. We We're on the same workout routine. We We're on the same workout routine. We fight together, shoes together, sleep fight together, shoes together, sleep fight together, shoes together, sleep together, do everything together. And I together, do everything together. And I together, do everything together. And I never feel like I'm outside the group. I never feel like I'm outside the group. I never feel like I'm outside the group. I never feel like I'm a bothers ever. never feel like I'm a bothers ever. never feel like I'm a bothers ever. Every time I come home, I feel like this Every time I come home, I feel like this Every time I come home, I feel like this is not my place. It's not my place is not my place. It's not my place is not my place. It's not my place because I'm never here. You don't because I'm never here. You don't because I'm never here. You don't realize that where you're inside it. realize that where you're inside it. realize that where you're inside it. Like I don't realize that I've been gone Like I don't realize that I've been gone Like I don't realize that I've been gone for 300 days this year. I wonder why I for 300 days this year. I wonder why I for 300 days this year. I wonder why I don't feel like this is my house. Like don't feel like this is my house. Like don't feel like this is my house. Like every time I come home, you change the every time I come home, you change the every time I come home, you change the you change. Why do I have all these you change. Why do I have all these you change. Why do I have all these pillows? Every time I come home, there's pillows? Every time I come home, there's pillows? Every time I come home, there's another pillow. Change the bed spread another pillow. Change the bed spread another pillow. Change the bed spread and all this stuff. Like you just you and all this stuff. Like you just you and all this stuff. Like you just you never really feel like you're there. You never really feel like you're there. You never really feel like you're there. You just recompartmentalize right back to just recompartmentalize right back to just recompartmentalize right back to work. work. work. >> Also, you're asking an awful lot of a >> Also, you're asking an awful lot of a >> Also, you're asking an awful lot of a partner, right? You're saying, "Hey, partner, right? You're saying, "Hey, partner, right? You're saying, "Hey, this connection that is going to be this connection that is going to be this connection that is going to be almost entirely severed except for a few almost entirely severed except for a few almost entirely severed except for a few brief moments here and there across an brief moments here and there across an brief moments here and there across an entire year. Uh when I come back, I want entire year. Uh when I come back, I want entire year. Uh when I come back, I want you to immediately drop into this. I've you to immediately drop into this. I've you to immediately drop into this. I've got my problems to go through, but I got my problems to go through, but I got my problems to go through, but I don't want to have to deal with the don't want to have to deal with the don't want to have to deal with the problems that you've got because that's problems that you've got because that's problems that you've got because that's additional capacity that I've already additional capacity that I've already additional capacity that I've already blown. blown. blown. >> Well said. It's exactly what it is. So >> Well said. It's exactly what it is. So >> Well said. It's exactly what it is. So now when I talk to the guys, I tell them now when I talk to the guys, I tell them now when I talk to the guys, I tell them like unless you lasso a unicorn, which I like unless you lasso a unicorn, which I like unless you lasso a unicorn, which I did. I mean, she was into it. She was in did. I mean, she was into it. She was in did. I mean, she was into it. She was in a Navy. She was married to a seal that a Navy. She was married to a seal that a Navy. She was married to a seal that got killed. Her dad was a seal. She knew got killed. Her dad was a seal. She knew got killed. Her dad was a seal. She knew the culture. She knew what she was the culture. She knew what she was the culture. She knew what she was getting into. I wanted getting into. I wanted getting into. I wanted >> It's like she was bred to be the wife of >> It's like she was bred to be the wife of >> It's like she was bred to be the wife of a seal a seal a seal >> for sure. >> for sure. >> for sure. >> Yeah. It's like I wanted that picture >> Yeah. It's like I wanted that picture >> Yeah. It's like I wanted that picture perfect life. I wanted my dream job. I perfect life. I wanted my dream job. I perfect life. I wanted my dream job. I wanted the house, the 2.5 kids, the wanted the house, the 2.5 kids, the wanted the house, the 2.5 kids, the Labrador, the white picket fence. I want Labrador, the white picket fence. I want Labrador, the white picket fence. I want everything taken care of. And every time everything taken care of. And every time everything taken care of. And every time I come home, I just resent it. Like, I I come home, I just resent it. Like, I I come home, I just resent it. Like, I know this is what I want, but you need know this is what I want, but you need know this is what I want, but you need so much attention from me that I cannot so much attention from me that I cannot so much attention from me that I cannot give you. And she just kept going. She'd give you. And she just kept going. She'd give you. And she just kept going. She'd show up. If tree fell on the house, show up. If tree fell on the house, show up. If tree fell on the house, she'd fix it. she'd fix it. she'd fix it. >> Navy Seal of Wives. >> Navy Seal of Wives. >> Navy Seal of Wives. >> I don't know how to do anything. Like, I >> I don't know how to do anything. Like, I >> I don't know how to do anything. Like, I don't know who cuts my grass. I don't don't know who cuts my grass. I don't don't know who cuts my grass. I don't know who to call if a tree does fall in know who to call if a tree does fall in know who to call if a tree does fall in the house. She does. She handles it all. the house. She does. She handles it all. the house. She does. She handles it all. So, I got to focus on my craft the whole So, I got to focus on my craft the whole So, I got to focus on my craft the whole time. What sucked is trying to time. What sucked is trying to time. What sucked is trying to reintegrate cuz now it's like, "Hey, reintegrate cuz now it's like, "Hey, reintegrate cuz now it's like, "Hey, job's done. I've got a couple weeks off. job's done. I've got a couple weeks off. job's done. I've got a couple weeks off. Let's all be a happy family." And I Let's all be a happy family." And I Let's all be a happy family." And I don't know how to do it because I can't don't know how to do it because I can't don't know how to do it because I can't shut off. You're too hypervigilant. I'm shut off. You're too hypervigilant. I'm shut off. You're too hypervigilant. I'm on a 10 all day long. I'm too hand on a 10 all day long. I'm too hand on a 10 all day long. I'm too hand texting just checking my phone. Checking texting just checking my phone. Checking texting just checking my phone. Checking my phone. Checking my phone. Hey, let's my phone. Checking my phone. Hey, let's my phone. Checking my phone. Hey, let's go on a vacation. I can't go on a go on a vacation. I can't go on a go on a vacation. I can't go on a vacation. Like, no. You just came back vacation. Like, no. You just came back vacation. Like, no. You just came back from deployment. Let's go on a vacation. from deployment. Let's go on a vacation. from deployment. Let's go on a vacation. I'm not going on a vacation. I'm going I'm not going on a vacation. I'm going I'm not going on a vacation. I'm going on a jump trip. on a jump trip. on a jump trip. I got to get better at skydiving. Not I got to get better at skydiving. Not I got to get better at skydiving. Not sitting in the Bahamas. I don't know sitting in the Bahamas. I don't know sitting in the Bahamas. I don't know what that does. Doesn't make me better what that does. Doesn't make me better what that does. Doesn't make me better at CQB. No, not doing that. So, we at CQB. No, not doing that. So, we at CQB. No, not doing that. So, we avoided that for the majority of our avoided that for the majority of our avoided that for the majority of our marriage. We just did. They couldn't marriage. We just did. They couldn't marriage. We just did. They couldn't justify it. That doesn't make me better justify it. That doesn't make me better justify it. That doesn't make me better at work. That's I wish I would have done at work. That's I wish I would have done at work. That's I wish I would have done it. But I tell the guys, if I would have it. But I tell the guys, if I would have it. But I tell the guys, if I would have spent my first four years really focused spent my first four years really focused spent my first four years really focused on the craft, I probably wouldn't have on the craft, I probably wouldn't have on the craft, I probably wouldn't have thought that I needed to burn all that thought that I needed to burn all that thought that I needed to burn all that time and all those reps later on in my time and all those reps later on in my time and all those reps later on in my career. career. career. >> I don't know, man. I I I I understand what you're saying. I get the understand what you're saying. I get the feeling that that might be a comforting feeling that that might be a comforting feeling that that might be a comforting myth myth myth >> to tell yourself that if only I'd done >> to tell yourself that if only I'd done >> to tell yourself that if only I'd done it another way, I could have made it it another way, I could have made it it another way, I could have made it work in this manner later on. Uh I I get work in this manner later on. Uh I I get work in this manner later on. Uh I I get the sense that it is less like the the sense that it is less like the the sense that it is less like the pursuit of mastery and more like an pursuit of mastery and more like an pursuit of mastery and more like an addiction to work that I just need to addiction to work that I just need to addiction to work that I just need to keep it going. I'm obviously again I'm keep it going. I'm obviously again I'm keep it going. I'm obviously again I'm now in road trip at the [ __ ] back of now in road trip at the [ __ ] back of now in road trip at the [ __ ] back of the stadium. Um I I know enough people I the stadium. Um I I know enough people I the stadium. Um I I know enough people I know people in bands and bands are the know people in bands and bands are the know people in bands and bands are the same. You're on the road for 180 200 250 same. You're on the road for 180 200 250 same. You're on the road for 180 200 250 days of the year. Jimmy Carr is I think days of the year. Jimmy Carr is I think days of the year. Jimmy Carr is I think he's doing he's doing he's doing 425 shows this year. 425 shows this year. 425 shows this year. >> What? >> What? >> What? >> Cuz he matineese the shows. So he'll do >> Cuz he matineese the shows. So he'll do >> Cuz he matineese the shows. So he'll do a 6 p.m. show and then an 8 p.m. show. a 6 p.m. show and then an 8 p.m. show. a 6 p.m. show and then an 8 p.m. show. He did How many [ __ ] dates did he do? He did How many [ __ ] dates did he do? He did How many [ __ ] dates did he do? He did likeund something dates just in He did likeund something dates just in He did likeund something dates just in Australia. Uh it's absurd. It's absurd. Australia. Uh it's absurd. It's absurd. Australia. Uh it's absurd. It's absurd. Uh but Uh but Uh but >> it has to be obsessed. Have to be. >> it has to be obsessed. Have to be. >> it has to be obsessed. Have to be. >> You do. Uh and the same thing goes for >> You do. Uh and the same thing goes for >> You do. Uh and the same thing goes for the interesting thing about the comedian the interesting thing about the comedian the interesting thing about the comedian thing is typically they're traveling on thing is typically they're traveling on thing is typically they're traveling on their own are traveling with one their own are traveling with one their own are traveling with one warm-up, warm-up, and tour manager. And warm-up, warm-up, and tour manager. And warm-up, warm-up, and tour manager. And I think there's a minimum I think there's a minimum I think there's a minimum uh uh minimum sort of group size that uh uh minimum sort of group size that uh uh minimum sort of group size that you need in order to be able to make a you need in order to be able to make a you need in order to be able to make a micro culture. And I think that's what micro culture. And I think that's what micro culture. And I think that's what really embeds people into. to it. Might really embeds people into. to it. Might really embeds people into. to it. Might make it easier in some ways, but make it easier in some ways, but make it easier in some ways, but probably makes it harder to integrate. probably makes it harder to integrate. probably makes it harder to integrate. Makes it easier when they're on the Makes it easier when they're on the Makes it easier when they're on the road, but harder to integrate when you road, but harder to integrate when you road, but harder to integrate when you get back. Uh and that's where if you get back. Uh and that's where if you get back. Uh and that's where if you look at uh people that are in bands, look at uh people that are in bands, look at uh people that are in bands, people that are in sports teams, people that are in sports teams, people that are in sports teams, professional sports teams, uh that is professional sports teams, uh that is professional sports teams, uh that is what's particularly difficult, I think, what's particularly difficult, I think, what's particularly difficult, I think, because you have created this new life. because you have created this new life. because you have created this new life. It's you and your five bandmates. It's It's you and your five bandmates. It's It's you and your five bandmates. It's you and the squad of 15 and that's us you and the squad of 15 and that's us you and the squad of 15 and that's us and this is what we do. And that and this is what we do. And that and this is what we do. And that reintegration is incredibly difficult. I reintegration is incredibly difficult. I reintegration is incredibly difficult. I think to bring that back across, I think think to bring that back across, I think think to bring that back across, I think that's where that's where the struggle that's where that's where the struggle that's where that's where the struggle comes in. Uh but yeah, man. I comes in. Uh but yeah, man. I comes in. Uh but yeah, man. I the prospect of trying to come back and the prospect of trying to come back and the prospect of trying to come back and doing this thing that you know that you doing this thing that you know that you doing this thing that you know that you care about and that you know is noble care about and that you know is noble care about and that you know is noble and that you're doing for the right and that you're doing for the right and that you're doing for the right reasons and that you're trying to make reasons and that you're trying to make reasons and that you're trying to make the world and your country a safer place the world and your country a safer place the world and your country a safer place and to then come back and to then come back and to then come back >> and to have struggled to I mean again as >> and to have struggled to I mean again as >> and to have struggled to I mean again as you said you've got as it sounds like as you said you've got as it sounds like as you said you've got as it sounds like as close to a gold standard close to a gold standard close to a gold standard >> partner [ __ ] bred for this uh maybe >> partner [ __ ] bred for this uh maybe >> partner [ __ ] bred for this uh maybe bred more to be a seal's wife than you bred more to be a seal's wife than you bred more to be a seal's wife than you were to be a seal uh by the sounds of It really does surprise me. I'm not I'm It really does surprise me. I'm not I'm not suggesting this, but it does not suggesting this, but it does not suggesting this, but it does surprise me that surprise me that surprise me that if the military care that much about if the military care that much about if the military care that much about the integration and the performance, cuz the integration and the performance, cuz the integration and the performance, cuz presumably if there'd been if everybody presumably if there'd been if everybody presumably if there'd been if everybody had had a a partner like yours, which had had a a partner like yours, which had had a a partner like yours, which still had [ __ ] ton of difficulties, the still had [ __ ] ton of difficulties, the still had [ __ ] ton of difficulties, the guys there have to be many many levels guys there have to be many many levels guys there have to be many many levels of hell below the one that you did when of hell below the one that you did when of hell below the one that you did when it comes to what's happening. it comes to what's happening. it comes to what's happening. relationally that can't improve their relationally that can't improve their relationally that can't improve their performance when they're away. So if performance when they're away. So if performance when they're away. So if that's the case, why why aren't the army that's the case, why why aren't the army that's the case, why why aren't the army trying to have some sort of X factor pop trying to have some sort of X factor pop trying to have some sort of X factor pop idle thing for hey, we are going to help idle thing for hey, we are going to help idle thing for hey, we are going to help you find a partner and we're actually you find a partner and we're actually you find a partner and we're actually going to help you and your partner to going to help you and your partner to going to help you and your partner to make sure that for the person that gets make sure that for the person that gets make sure that for the person that gets into a relationship with a special into a relationship with a special into a relationship with a special operator, they have the psychological operator, they have the psychological operator, they have the psychological accutrants that are appropriate for them accutrants that are appropriate for them accutrants that are appropriate for them to actually be able to deal with this to actually be able to deal with this to actually be able to deal with this and they're going to be able to support and they're going to be able to support and they're going to be able to support you, which would make you into a better you, which would make you into a better you, which would make you into a better person. It seems to me in very few areas person. It seems to me in very few areas person. It seems to me in very few areas it's such an overbearing uh um uh like it's such an overbearing uh um uh like it's such an overbearing uh um uh like incursion into somebody's life, right? incursion into somebody's life, right? incursion into somebody's life, right? Like who the [ __ ] you mean that you're Like who the [ __ ] you mean that you're Like who the [ __ ] you mean that you're going to try and like like screen going to try and like like screen going to try and like like screen partners? So that I get that. partners? So that I get that. partners? So that I get that. when you're talking about oh the most when you're talking about oh the most when you're talking about oh the most important military operations important military operations important military operations on the planet. I mean if you're covering on the planet. I mean if you're covering on the planet. I mean if you're covering everything from you said eyes are dotted everything from you said eyes are dotted everything from you said eyes are dotted teas across every single bullet and bomb teas across every single bullet and bomb teas across every single bullet and bomb and tactic and I've worked thousands and and tactic and I've worked thousands and and tactic and I've worked thousands and thousands and thousands of jumps and thousands and thousands of jumps and thousands and thousands of jumps and I've drilled this thing over and over I've drilled this thing over and over I've drilled this thing over and over again. again. again. How a huge impact on your performance is How a huge impact on your performance is How a huge impact on your performance is going to be your relationship to your going to be your relationship to your going to be your relationship to your kids. what reintegration looks like when kids. what reintegration looks like when kids. what reintegration looks like when you get off duty, who it is that you you get off duty, who it is that you you get off duty, who it is that you choose as a partner, all of those choose as a partner, all of those choose as a partner, all of those things. So, I don't know. Maybe this is things. So, I don't know. Maybe this is things. So, I don't know. Maybe this is two softly softy skills and you can two softly softy skills and you can two softly softy skills and you can always just like spit and sawdust and always just like spit and sawdust and always just like spit and sawdust and grit your teeth and ambient and add all grit your teeth and ambient and add all grit your teeth and ambient and add all your way through it and it kind of your way through it and it kind of your way through it and it kind of doesn't really matter that much cuz like doesn't really matter that much cuz like doesn't really matter that much cuz like okay, whatever. There's going to be some okay, whatever. There's going to be some okay, whatever. There's going to be some collateral damage that occurs collateral damage that occurs collateral damage that occurs relationally, but [ __ ] it. The guys will relationally, but [ __ ] it. The guys will relationally, but [ __ ] it. The guys will just show up anyway. That's why we just show up anyway. That's why we just show up anyway. That's why we select people who can compartmentalize select people who can compartmentalize select people who can compartmentalize and put that stuff to one side. But it and put that stuff to one side. But it and put that stuff to one side. But it seems to me that even the capacity for seems to me that even the capacity for seems to me that even the capacity for compartmentalization could be used more compartmentalization could be used more compartmentalization could be used more effectively if it wasn't being drained effectively if it wasn't being drained effectively if it wasn't being drained relationally. Does that all make sense? relationally. Does that all make sense? relationally. Does that all make sense? >> Yeah. Do you know what the divorce rate >> Yeah. Do you know what the divorce rate >> Yeah. Do you know what the divorce rate in the seal teams are? in the seal teams are? in the seal teams are? >> No. >> No. >> No. >> Over 100%. >> Over 100%. >> Over 100%. >> Cuz people get remarried and then run it >> Cuz people get remarried and then run it >> Cuz people get remarried and then run it back and then get out again. back and then get out again. back and then get out again. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Brilliant. >> Brilliant. >> Brilliant. >> The first guy, first troop chief I had >> The first guy, first troop chief I had >> The first guy, first troop chief I had on his fifth. on his fifth. on his fifth. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> That's impressive. >> That's impressive. >> That's impressive. >> My business partner now is on his third. >> My business partner now is on his third. >> My business partner now is on his third. Totally normal. Most guys have been Totally normal. Most guys have been Totally normal. Most guys have been divorced at least once. at least once. divorced at least once. at least once. divorced at least once. at least once. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> It just it's cost doing business. And a >> It just it's cost doing business. And a >> It just it's cost doing business. And a lot of that is because guys come in so lot of that is because guys come in so lot of that is because guys come in so young. Like we did a thing where we young. Like we did a thing where we young. Like we did a thing where we didn't take any guys that were in the didn't take any guys that were in the didn't take any guys that were in the Navy prior. You had to come in basically Navy prior. You had to come in basically Navy prior. You had to come in basically off the street or straight out of off the street or straight out of off the street or straight out of college. We didn't want guys had any college. We didn't want guys had any college. We didn't want guys had any fleet time. So you think the majority of fleet time. So you think the majority of fleet time. So you think the majority of the kids that show up are between 18 and the kids that show up are between 18 and the kids that show up are between 18 and 21, 22 years old. What do the majority 21, 22 years old. What do the majority 21, 22 years old. What do the majority of those guys do? They marry their high of those guys do? They marry their high of those guys do? They marry their high school sweetheart. Some chick they met school sweetheart. Some chick they met school sweetheart. Some chick they met in college. Some chick they met in San in college. Some chick they met in San in college. Some chick they met in San Diego who's there on college, whatever. Diego who's there on college, whatever. Diego who's there on college, whatever. And then you move her to a place she's And then you move her to a place she's And then you move her to a place she's never been, no support system. And then never been, no support system. And then never been, no support system. And then you leave her there for an entire year you leave her there for an entire year you leave her there for an entire year by herself. You come back home, you're by herself. You come back home, you're by herself. You come back home, you're distant, you're not connected with her, distant, you're not connected with her, distant, you're not connected with her, and you just keep putting her through it and you just keep putting her through it and you just keep putting her through it over and over. She has one deployment, over and over. She has one deployment, over and over. She has one deployment, maybe two, and she's like, "I need for maybe two, and she's like, "I need for maybe two, and she's like, "I need for you to get out. He ain't getting out for you to get out. He ain't getting out for you to get out. He ain't getting out for you." No, he didn't even know your you." No, he didn't even know your you." No, he didn't even know your middle name if we're being honest. Beat middle name if we're being honest. Beat middle name if we're being honest. Beat it. Get a divorce. it. Get a divorce. it. Get a divorce. >> Like, you're not worth it right now. I'm >> Like, you're not worth it right now. I'm >> Like, you're not worth it right now. I'm on this speeding bullet train on my on this speeding bullet train on my on this speeding bullet train on my fingertips right now. I'm not jumping fingertips right now. I'm not jumping fingertips right now. I'm not jumping because of you. I'm not. because of you. I'm not. because of you. I'm not. [gasps and sighs] [gasps and sighs] [gasps and sighs] sacrifice must be made and usually you sacrifice must be made and usually you sacrifice must be made and usually you sacrifice the ones you love the most. sacrifice the ones you love the most. sacrifice the ones you love the most. That's what I did. Those are the times I That's what I did. Those are the times I That's what I did. Those are the times I regret it. I wish I would have had a regret it. I wish I would have had a regret it. I wish I would have had a better balance point. But in that time, better balance point. But in that time, better balance point. But in that time, I couldn't justify it. I couldn't I I couldn't justify it. I couldn't I I couldn't justify it. I couldn't I didn't have it in me. And I think that's didn't have it in me. And I think that's didn't have it in me. And I think that's kind of the excuse I come up with if I kind of the excuse I come up with if I kind of the excuse I come up with if I would have lived if I would have had the would have lived if I would have had the would have lived if I would have had the mentors I had later in my career when I mentors I had later in my career when I mentors I had later in my career when I first got in first got in first got in >> and I would have followed their path, >> and I would have followed their path, >> and I would have followed their path, would have found the role models, I'm would have found the role models, I'm would have found the role models, I'm going to sit there, I'm going to ride going to sit there, I'm going to ride going to sit there, I'm going to ride your coattails and I'm going to live your coattails and I'm going to live your coattails and I'm going to live your routine. I think I would have found your routine. I think I would have found your routine. I think I would have found a balance point. a balance point. a balance point. >> What would have been the biggest >> What would have been the biggest >> What would have been the biggest differences? >> Really just being a pro. I'm in a live >> Really just being a pro. I'm in a live routine from the day I show up to the routine from the day I show up to the routine from the day I show up to the day I leave. Not going to drink to day I leave. Not going to drink to day I leave. Not going to drink to excess. And that's really the difference excess. And that's really the difference excess. And that's really the difference is there was so much 80s and 90s special is there was so much 80s and 90s special is there was so much 80s and 90s special operations spill over when I came in the operations spill over when I came in the operations spill over when I came in the early 2000s. early 2000s. early 2000s. Drinking, fighting, [ __ ] that's what Drinking, fighting, [ __ ] that's what Drinking, fighting, [ __ ] that's what you did. You you traveled around like you did. You you traveled around like you did. You you traveled around like you were in the Rolling Stones. M you were in the Rolling Stones. M you were in the Rolling Stones. M >> every bar you went into beating up >> every bar you went into beating up >> every bar you went into beating up college kids, stealing their college kids, stealing their college kids, stealing their girlfriends, doing that over and over girlfriends, doing that over and over girlfriends, doing that over and over and over cuz you're single, it's fun, and over cuz you're single, it's fun, and over cuz you're single, it's fun, it's normal, it's normal, it's normal, but you're not training at full but you're not training at full but you're not training at full capacity. Like we're training hard and capacity. Like we're training hard and capacity. Like we're training hard and then we're going to burn this thing to then we're going to burn this thing to then we're going to burn this thing to the ground. Later on my career, the guys the ground. Later on my career, the guys the ground. Later on my career, the guys that were just they set the standard for that were just they set the standard for that were just they set the standard for the most lethal people you have never the most lethal people you have never the most lethal people you have never met in your life. met in your life. met in your life. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Two drinks in a single sitting. That's >> Two drinks in a single sitting. That's >> Two drinks in a single sitting. That's it. You never saw them drunk. They never it. You never saw them drunk. They never it. You never saw them drunk. They never wore flip-flops. They beat the brakes wore flip-flops. They beat the brakes wore flip-flops. They beat the brakes off you 24/7, 365. They could always off you 24/7, 365. They could always off you 24/7, 365. They could always perform on demand and they they truly perform on demand and they they truly perform on demand and they they truly just lived it. Were they the best just lived it. Were they the best just lived it. Were they the best husbands and fathers? No. I hope they husbands and fathers? No. I hope they husbands and fathers? No. I hope they are now. But it certainly appeared that are now. But it certainly appeared that are now. But it certainly appeared that a lot of them had a balance point. But a lot of them had a balance point. But a lot of them had a balance point. But they had been living this professional they had been living this professional they had been living this professional life like a LeBron James or Kobe Bryant life like a LeBron James or Kobe Bryant life like a LeBron James or Kobe Bryant the whole time from 19 years old. the whole time from 19 years old. the whole time from 19 years old. >> Rockstar life. >> Rockstar life. >> Rockstar life. >> Exactly. They were a monk. Like you >> Exactly. They were a monk. Like you >> Exactly. They were a monk. Like you never saw them at a bar. They were never never saw them at a bar. They were never never saw them at a bar. They were never shitfaced. They never got a DUI and they shitfaced. They never got a DUI and they shitfaced. They never got a DUI and they could send it. could send it. could send it. >> You don't need to say who it is that >> You don't need to say who it is that >> You don't need to say who it is that might be active or out now. Who is the might be active or out now. Who is the might be active or out now. Who is the person that what is the archetype of the person that what is the archetype of the person that what is the archetype of the person that's been most impressive to person that's been most impressive to person that's been most impressive to you? The single operator that you've you? The single operator that you've you? The single operator that you've seen. What are they like? [snorts] >> Probably the most clon I can't even say >> Probably the most clon I can't even say that. Like the best guy. I don't know how um I don't know how I don't know how um I don't know how they are at home. You think you know how they are at home. You think you know how they are at home. You think you know how they are at home because of how they they are at home because of how they they are at home because of how they interact. Cuz you got to think, man, the interact. Cuz you got to think, man, the interact. Cuz you got to think, man, the majority of those people you spend a majority of those people you spend a majority of those people you spend a decade together with. New guys will come decade together with. New guys will come decade together with. New guys will come in and out, but most of the guys you're in and out, but most of the guys you're in and out, but most of the guys you're spending 7 to 8 years unbroken just spending 7 to 8 years unbroken just spending 7 to 8 years unbroken just together. Hopefully he gets a 10 year together. Hopefully he gets a 10 year together. Hopefully he gets a 10 year mark and then you have to rotate out. mark and then you have to rotate out. mark and then you have to rotate out. The best guy I have ever seen, the most The best guy I have ever seen, the most The best guy I have ever seen, the most well-rounded, well-rounded, well-rounded, amazing shape, an amazing high school amazing shape, an amazing high school amazing shape, an amazing high school wrestler, transitioned over to MMA, an wrestler, transitioned over to MMA, an wrestler, transitioned over to MMA, an amazing skydiver, amazing shooter. amazing skydiver, amazing shooter. amazing skydiver, amazing shooter. Culturally, if you could massproduce and Culturally, if you could massproduce and Culturally, if you could massproduce and make a thousand of him, I would press make a thousand of him, I would press make a thousand of him, I would press that button right now and I'd drop him that button right now and I'd drop him that button right now and I'd drop him on every corner of the earth. Just the on every corner of the earth. Just the on every corner of the earth. Just the best. But he lived that routine. His best. But he lived that routine. His best. But he lived that routine. His routine, and here's where you know the routine, and here's where you know the routine, and here's where you know the difference. Everybody, difference. Everybody, difference. Everybody, you talk to anybody's ever worked with a you talk to anybody's ever worked with a you talk to anybody's ever worked with a SEAL. If we get overseas, we come to a SEAL. If we get overseas, we come to a SEAL. If we get overseas, we come to a new base, very first thing we ask for, new base, very first thing we ask for, new base, very first thing we ask for, where's the chow hall? Where's the gym? where's the chow hall? Where's the gym? where's the chow hall? Where's the gym? Chow hall and gym. I'll figure out Chow hall and gym. I'll figure out Chow hall and gym. I'll figure out everything else after that. Chow hall, everything else after that. Chow hall, everything else after that. Chow hall, gym, where is it? Everybody shows up and gym, where is it? Everybody shows up and gym, where is it? Everybody shows up and everybody does a lift. Everybody. I everybody does a lift. Everybody. I everybody does a lift. Everybody. I don't care if you're a marathon runner, don't care if you're a marathon runner, don't care if you're a marathon runner, whatever. They all do fitness first whatever. They all do fitness first whatever. They all do fitness first thing in the morning and then we focus thing in the morning and then we focus thing in the morning and then we focus on hard skills the rest of the day. That on hard skills the rest of the day. That on hard skills the rest of the day. That dude and a bunch of other guys would dude and a bunch of other guys would dude and a bunch of other guys would show up. They would get that lift in. show up. They would get that lift in. show up. They would get that lift in. They'd go straight over to Fight Club. They'd go straight over to Fight Club. They'd go straight over to Fight Club. They do Muay Thai BJJ for an hour. They They do Muay Thai BJJ for an hour. They They do Muay Thai BJJ for an hour. They jump in a cryo chamber. They jump in a jump in a cryo chamber. They jump in a jump in a cryo chamber. They jump in a float tank. They get E stem work done, float tank. They get E stem work done, float tank. They get E stem work done, soft tissue work. They'd go eat soft tissue work. They'd go eat soft tissue work. They'd go eat breakfast. Then go upstairs for the 10 breakfast. Then go upstairs for the 10 breakfast. Then go upstairs for the 10 a.m. meeting. Then do CQB for a 4-hour a.m. meeting. Then do CQB for a 4-hour a.m. meeting. Then do CQB for a 4-hour block, eat lunch, another CQB for a block, eat lunch, another CQB for a block, eat lunch, another CQB for a 4-hour block, eat dinner, and go home 4-hour block, eat dinner, and go home 4-hour block, eat dinner, and go home and be a husband or father. and be a husband or father. and be a husband or father. They did that unbroken the entire time They did that unbroken the entire time They did that unbroken the entire time I've known them. Long before it was I've known them. Long before it was I've known them. Long before it was cool. Long before you could look at guys cool. Long before you could look at guys cool. Long before you could look at guys like Michael Phelps or Steph Curry for like Michael Phelps or Steph Curry for like Michael Phelps or Steph Curry for inspiration. They lived that routine inspiration. They lived that routine inspiration. They lived that routine unbroken. unbroken. unbroken. Because you go on these pockets like you Because you go on these pockets like you Because you go on these pockets like you go on these trips, shooting trips, jump go on these trips, shooting trips, jump go on these trips, shooting trips, jump trips, whatever. And we'll say you go to trips, whatever. And we'll say you go to trips, whatever. And we'll say you go to Arizona on a 3-we trip. The guys who Arizona on a 3-we trip. The guys who Arizona on a 3-we trip. The guys who hate jumping might do hate jumping might do hate jumping might do 50 to 75 jumps in 3 weeks. The guys who 50 to 75 jumps in 3 weeks. The guys who 50 to 75 jumps in 3 weeks. The guys who are really into it will do 250. They are really into it will do 250. They are really into it will do 250. They jump all weekend, 10, 12 jumps a day, jump all weekend, 10, 12 jumps a day, jump all weekend, 10, 12 jumps a day, every single day, unbroken. And they're every single day, unbroken. And they're every single day, unbroken. And they're just stacking the resume over and over just stacking the resume over and over just stacking the resume over and over and over. So when you call them, you're and over. So when you call them, you're and over. So when you call them, you're like, "Hey, I need you to pull this like, "Hey, I need you to pull this like, "Hey, I need you to pull this off." There's no warm-up. There's no off." There's no warm-up. There's no off." There's no warm-up. There's no mulligan. I can't go back and rejock. mulligan. I can't go back and rejock. mulligan. I can't go back and rejock. Like, I can just send it all day long. Like, I can just send it all day long. Like, I can just send it all day long. That's how they live. And when you look That's how they live. And when you look That's how they live. And when you look at them like, "If I could just press the at them like, "If I could just press the at them like, "If I could just press the clone button and make a thousand of you, clone button and make a thousand of you, clone button and make a thousand of you, I could do anything." Yeah. I could do anything." Yeah. I could do anything." Yeah. >> You want to end You want to end the Iran >> You want to end You want to end the Iran >> You want to end You want to end the Iran regime regime regime >> done right there. It's over. >> done right there. It's over. >> done right there. It's over. >> That's a good question. for most uh for >> That's a good question. for most uh for >> That's a good question. for most uh for most conflicts, what is the number of most conflicts, what is the number of most conflicts, what is the number of special operators, tier one special special operators, tier one special special operators, tier one special operators that you need to be able to operators that you need to be able to operators that you need to be able to topple pretty much any regime in the topple pretty much any regime in the topple pretty much any regime in the world? world? world? >> How big is the regime? >> How big is the regime? >> How big is the regime? >> Uh >> Uh >> Uh let's say the size of it's it can't be let's say the size of it's it can't be let's say the size of it's it can't be Russia or China cuz it's going to be Russia or China cuz it's going to be Russia or China cuz it's going to be insane. Like the size of any normal insane. Like the size of any normal insane. Like the size of any normal midsized country with a like midsized country with a like midsized country with a like semicompetent military like Middle Easty semicompetent military like Middle Easty semicompetent military like Middle Easty type stuff. It's not even really the type stuff. It's not even really the type stuff. It's not even really the operator. It's the supporting assets. operator. It's the supporting assets. operator. It's the supporting assets. It's the Hilo pilots. It's the drone It's the Hilo pilots. It's the drone It's the Hilo pilots. It's the drone pilots. It's the air coverage overhead. pilots. It's the air coverage overhead. pilots. It's the air coverage overhead. It's everybody in between that makes the It's everybody in between that makes the It's everybody in between that makes the whole mechanism roll. But when we get whole mechanism roll. But when we get whole mechanism roll. But when we get off camera, I'll tell you how many guys off camera, I'll tell you how many guys off camera, I'll tell you how many guys there are. there are. there are. >> It's so very small. Like if people knew >> It's so very small. Like if people knew >> It's so very small. Like if people knew how small it was, they wouldn't even how small it was, they wouldn't even how small it was, they wouldn't even think it's cool. They're like, "It can't think it's cool. They're like, "It can't think it's cool. They're like, "It can't be like that." be like that." be like that." >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Like it's somewhere in between >> Like it's somewhere in between >> Like it's somewhere in between astronauts and F1. astronauts and F1. astronauts and F1. >> There ain't many, dude. I mean, there's >> There ain't many, dude. I mean, there's >> There ain't many, dude. I mean, there's not. If you look at the whole scope of not. If you look at the whole scope of not. If you look at the whole scope of the military, 00001%. the military, 00001%. the military, 00001%. Like, we're not talking hundreds of Like, we're not talking hundreds of Like, we're not talking hundreds of people. It's very small. people. It's very small. people. It's very small. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> So, when you get them in there, it's >> So, when you get them in there, it's >> So, when you get them in there, it's like you don't need a whole lot. I mean, like you don't need a whole lot. I mean, like you don't need a whole lot. I mean, on your typical, you know, I'm dating on your typical, you know, I'm dating on your typical, you know, I'm dating myself with Afghanistan and Iraq, but I myself with Afghanistan and Iraq, but I myself with Afghanistan and Iraq, but I mean, your typical assault on however mean, your typical assault on however mean, your typical assault on however many people in a four-story compound, 12 many people in a four-story compound, 12 many people in a four-story compound, 12 people. people. people. 12 people. You can do anything. You 12 people. You can do anything. You 12 people. You can do anything. You don't need a lot. You just need 12 don't need a lot. You just need 12 don't need a lot. You just need 12 really badass dudes. They can get it really badass dudes. They can get it really badass dudes. They can get it done. done. done. >> Just let them loose. >> Just let them loose. >> Just let them loose. >> Who were you the day after you retired? >> Who were you the day after you retired? >> Who were you the day after you retired? >> Hm. Who were you the day after you >> Hm. Who were you the day after you >> Hm. Who were you the day after you retired? retired? retired? >> Lost and alone. I was coming off a >> Lost and alone. I was coming off a >> Lost and alone. I was coming off a pretty bad injury. I had a really cool pretty bad injury. I had a really cool pretty bad injury. I had a really cool transition. transition. transition. Got out on a Friday and on Monday Got out on a Friday and on Monday Got out on a Friday and on Monday morning, I was starting a contract with morning, I was starting a contract with morning, I was starting a contract with the Air Force. the Air Force. the Air Force. 3 weeks before that, I'd been 3 weeks before that, I'd been 3 weeks before that, I'd been electrocuted. So, went through a bunch electrocuted. So, went through a bunch electrocuted. So, went through a bunch of surgeries and got really been of surgeries and got really been of surgeries and got really been electrocuted. Oh, electrocuted. Oh, electrocuted. Oh, >> God. Have you not heard that [ __ ] >> God. Have you not heard that [ __ ] >> God. Have you not heard that [ __ ] story? story? story? >> No. Tell me the story. God. [snorts] >> No. Tell me the story. God. [snorts] >> No. Tell me the story. God. [snorts] >> Okay. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> [sighs and gasps] >> I get in a bad jump accident, >> I get in a bad jump accident, dislocate my shoulder, it spins through, dislocate my shoulder, it spins through, dislocate my shoulder, it spins through, shreds the entire thing, and now I'm on shreds the entire thing, and now I'm on shreds the entire thing, and now I'm on a medical retirement board, so I've got a medical retirement board, so I've got a medical retirement board, so I've got to get all these surgeries. In the to get all these surgeries. In the to get all these surgeries. In the process of that, they found out I was process of that, they found out I was process of that, they found out I was taking all these medications. A bunch of taking all these medications. A bunch of taking all these medications. A bunch of them you couldn't take together. So this them you couldn't take together. So this them you couldn't take together. So this new doc comes in. He's like, "Hey, we new doc comes in. He's like, "Hey, we new doc comes in. He's like, "Hey, we got a serious problem, dude." I was got a serious problem, dude." I was got a serious problem, dude." I was like, "What?" He goes, "You [snorts] like, "What?" He goes, "You [snorts] like, "What?" He goes, "You [snorts] can't take these four medications can't take these four medications can't take these four medications together. It'll give you a stroke and together. It'll give you a stroke and together. It'll give you a stroke and you'll die." you'll die." you'll die." Well, I've been taking those for nine Well, I've been taking those for nine Well, I've been taking those for nine years now. I ain't had a stroke yet. And years now. I ain't had a stroke yet. And years now. I ain't had a stroke yet. And he went, "Okay, here's the deal. I'm he went, "Okay, here's the deal. I'm he went, "Okay, here's the deal. I'm going to send you to Walter Reed. It's going to send you to Walter Reed. It's going to send you to Walter Reed. It's this nice program. You'll love it. It's this nice program. You'll love it. It's this nice program. You'll love it. It's a It's a medical detox facility. So, a It's a medical detox facility. So, a It's a medical detox facility. So, you're going to go there. We're going to you're going to go there. We're going to you're going to go there. We're going to wash you out all the meds. We'll put you wash you out all the meds. We'll put you wash you out all the meds. We'll put you on a couple ones. You maintain long on a couple ones. You maintain long on a couple ones. You maintain long term. We got to get you off these meds." term. We got to get you off these meds." term. We got to get you off these meds." What it really is is a psych ward. What it really is is a psych ward. What it really is is a psych ward. [gasps] So, I show up there brighteyed, [gasps] So, I show up there brighteyed, [gasps] So, I show up there brighteyed, bushy tailed, really just a shell of bushy tailed, really just a shell of bushy tailed, really just a shell of myself, but not realizing what I'm going myself, but not realizing what I'm going myself, but not realizing what I'm going to do. And they start taking my to do. And they start taking my to do. And they start taking my shoestrings, take all my stuff. And I'm shoestrings, take all my stuff. And I'm shoestrings, take all my stuff. And I'm looking around. I'm like, what is going looking around. I'm like, what is going looking around. I'm like, what is going on here? And then, you know, had these on here? And then, you know, had these on here? And then, you know, had these nice nurses, but they there were fighter nice nurses, but they there were fighter nice nurses, but they there were fighter pilots in there. There were green brace pilots in there. There were green brace pilots in there. There were green brace in there. There were all these people in in there. There were all these people in in there. There were all these people in there. And you could see him. Like, one there. And you could see him. Like, one there. And you could see him. Like, one of the guys had really bad Parkinson's. of the guys had really bad Parkinson's. of the guys had really bad Parkinson's. He had an injection ride out of a He had an injection ride out of a He had an injection ride out of a fighter jet. I mean, jammed up. Like fighter jet. I mean, jammed up. Like fighter jet. I mean, jammed up. Like couldn't speak nonverbal. And I'm couldn't speak nonverbal. And I'm couldn't speak nonverbal. And I'm looking around like, why am I in this looking around like, why am I in this looking around like, why am I in this room? Like, I'm good, dude. Like, I room? Like, I'm good, dude. Like, I room? Like, I'm good, dude. Like, I didn't realize how far I had fallen. didn't realize how far I had fallen. didn't realize how far I had fallen. like what I look like at the time. Face like what I look like at the time. Face like what I look like at the time. Face all sunk in, 185 pounds, just like not all sunk in, 185 pounds, just like not all sunk in, 185 pounds, just like not who I used to be. So, they put me in who I used to be. So, they put me in who I used to be. So, they put me in this hospital bed, essentially strap me this hospital bed, essentially strap me this hospital bed, essentially strap me down for 31 consecutive days, and I do a down for 31 consecutive days, and I do a down for 31 consecutive days, and I do a full med wash out. By day three or four, full med wash out. By day three or four, full med wash out. By day three or four, I'm in full detox mode. I don't realize I'm in full detox mode. I don't realize I'm in full detox mode. I don't realize it. I think I have food poisoning. I'm it. I think I have food poisoning. I'm it. I think I have food poisoning. I'm throwing up in bed. I piss all over throwing up in bed. I piss all over throwing up in bed. I piss all over myself. They're changing my sheets, myself. They're changing my sheets, myself. They're changing my sheets, blotting me with the wet napkins. I blotting me with the wet napkins. I blotting me with the wet napkins. I mean, doing the whole thing. I just keep mean, doing the whole thing. I just keep mean, doing the whole thing. I just keep apologizing. I'm so sorry. I don't know apologizing. I'm so sorry. I don't know apologizing. I'm so sorry. I don't know what I ate. I don't know what I ate. You what I ate. I don't know what I ate. You what I ate. I don't know what I ate. You know, day four, five, six. Got this know, day four, five, six. Got this know, day four, five, six. Got this pretty black nurse and she's like, "Oh, pretty black nurse and she's like, "Oh, pretty black nurse and she's like, "Oh, honey, you don't know what this is." honey, you don't know what this is." honey, you don't know what this is." No. And she's like, "It's going to be No. And she's like, "It's going to be No. And she's like, "It's going to be okay." I was washing out of all those okay." I was washing out of all those okay." I was washing out of all those medications I was on. medications I was on. medications I was on. >> Can you say what the meds were? >> Can you say what the meds were? >> Can you say what the meds were? >> Everything from Adabol, Symbalta, Zolaf, >> Everything from Adabol, Symbalta, Zolaf, >> Everything from Adabol, Symbalta, Zolaf, Przisonin, Przisonin, Przisonin, um, um, um, what were the big pain meds? Tramodol, what were the big pain meds? Tramodol, what were the big pain meds? Tramodol, Tordol, Percoet, Vicodin, everything. Tordol, Percoet, Vicodin, everything. Tordol, Percoet, Vicodin, everything. Everything and anything you could be put Everything and anything you could be put Everything and anything you could be put on, I was taking. on, I was taking. on, I was taking. >> That sounds like something that might >> That sounds like something that might >> That sounds like something that might give you a stroke. Yeah. give you a stroke. Yeah. give you a stroke. Yeah. >> Yeah. Well, I wasn't taking them in >> Yeah. Well, I wasn't taking them in >> Yeah. Well, I wasn't taking them in excess. I wasn't chewing them up. I excess. I wasn't chewing them up. I excess. I wasn't chewing them up. I wasn't snoring them, but I'd wake up and wasn't snoring them, but I'd wake up and wasn't snoring them, but I'd wake up and I'd take them all day long. But I had I'd take them all day long. But I had I'd take them all day long. But I had such bad TBI after this injury. Really such bad TBI after this injury. Really such bad TBI after this injury. Really phototohobic. I wore sunglasses phototohobic. I wore sunglasses phototohobic. I wore sunglasses basically all day every day. If I looked basically all day every day. If I looked basically all day every day. If I looked up those things, I get a crazy headache. up those things, I get a crazy headache. up those things, I get a crazy headache. I'd get sick. I'd throw up. So, we're I'd get sick. I'd throw up. So, we're I'd get sick. I'd throw up. So, we're going through all these different going through all these different going through all these different protocols. protocols. protocols. They wash me out of these meds. And I They wash me out of these meds. And I They wash me out of these meds. And I wanted to die. When I finally felt what wanted to die. When I finally felt what wanted to die. When I finally felt what true sobriety was and because I was true sobriety was and because I was true sobriety was and because I was under this illusion because I'm not under this illusion because I'm not under this illusion because I'm not drinking excess like I did when I was in drinking excess like I did when I was in drinking excess like I did when I was in my teens and 20s, I'm good. I didn't my teens and 20s, I'm good. I didn't my teens and 20s, I'm good. I didn't realize popping all these pills is the realize popping all these pills is the realize popping all these pills is the equivalent of drinking a 12-pack every 3 equivalent of drinking a 12-pack every 3 equivalent of drinking a 12-pack every 3 hours. And that's what it is. I was hours. And that's what it is. I was hours. And that's what it is. I was stoned under the influence of a narcotic stoned under the influence of a narcotic stoned under the influence of a narcotic or under a prescription medication 24/7 or under a prescription medication 24/7 or under a prescription medication 24/7 365 365 365 >> from 10 until 22. So this is this is uh >> from 10 until 22. So this is this is uh >> from 10 until 22. So this is this is uh 2018 2019 now something like that. 2018 2019 now something like that. 2018 2019 now something like that. We get washed out these meds and while We get washed out these meds and while We get washed out these meds and while I'm in there, it's probably day 15 or I'm in there, it's probably day 15 or I'm in there, it's probably day 15 or 20, the Red Cross comes in. They're 20, the Red Cross comes in. They're 20, the Red Cross comes in. They're bringing in dogs. I mean, dog therapy, bringing in dogs. I mean, dog therapy, bringing in dogs. I mean, dog therapy, all this stuff. And she goes, "Can I get all this stuff. And she goes, "Can I get all this stuff. And she goes, "Can I get you anything?" And I was like, [gasps] you anything?" And I was like, [gasps] you anything?" And I was like, [gasps] "I don't know." She's like, "Hey, we're "I don't know." She's like, "Hey, we're "I don't know." She's like, "Hey, we're doing art therapy next door." What about doing art therapy next door." What about doing art therapy next door." What about a skateboard? Can you get me a a skateboard? Can you get me a a skateboard? Can you get me a skateboard? She's like, "Yeah." She skateboard? She's like, "Yeah." She skateboard? She's like, "Yeah." She brings me a change of clothes. They brings me a change of clothes. They brings me a change of clothes. They sneaked me out of the hospital. And sneaked me out of the hospital. And sneaked me out of the hospital. And there's a skateboard shop right outside there's a skateboard shop right outside there's a skateboard shop right outside of Bethesda, Maryland. I can't remember of Bethesda, Maryland. I can't remember of Bethesda, Maryland. I can't remember the name. I think it's Siren or the name. I think it's Siren or the name. I think it's Siren or something. We walk in there. He sees my something. We walk in there. He sees my something. We walk in there. He sees my arm bandage. He's like, "What's going arm bandage. He's like, "What's going arm bandage. He's like, "What's going on?" I was like, "You have a skateboard on?" I was like, "You have a skateboard on?" I was like, "You have a skateboard in here?" He gave me two off the wall. I in here?" He gave me two off the wall. I in here?" He gave me two off the wall. I sanded them down, went back, painted sanded them down, went back, painted sanded them down, went back, painted them, paperier-mâché, all this stuff. them, paperier-mâché, all this stuff. them, paperier-mâché, all this stuff. And that's what started into what Tribe And that's what started into what Tribe And that's what started into what Tribe Skates was. It was my transition out of Skates was. It was my transition out of Skates was. It was my transition out of the military. I'm going to make the military. I'm going to make the military. I'm going to make my mental health version was instead of my mental health version was instead of my mental health version was instead of painting mask or anything else, I'm painting mask or anything else, I'm painting mask or anything else, I'm going to paint skateboards. So, going to going to paint skateboards. So, going to going to paint skateboards. So, going to get a skateboard team, going to start get a skateboard team, going to start get a skateboard team, going to start mass-producing these things, all this mass-producing these things, all this mass-producing these things, all this stuff. But for me, it was the creativity stuff. But for me, it was the creativity stuff. But for me, it was the creativity of doing that. In that process, I found of doing that. In that process, I found of doing that. In that process, I found fracture burning. You ever seen that? fracture burning. You ever seen that? fracture burning. You ever seen that? [gasps] [gasps] [gasps] You take a microwave transformer, you You take a microwave transformer, you You take a microwave transformer, you pop it out, and you splice jumper cables pop it out, and you splice jumper cables pop it out, and you splice jumper cables into it. And then you hooked it to an into it. And then you hooked it to an into it. And then you hooked it to an octopus outlet, and you flicked a octopus outlet, and you flicked a octopus outlet, and you flicked a switch. So, if I sanded down all the switch. So, if I sanded down all the switch. So, if I sanded down all the lacquer off this table, and I drove a 10 lacquer off this table, and I drove a 10 lacquer off this table, and I drove a 10 penny nail in there and there, I clipped penny nail in there and there, I clipped penny nail in there and there, I clipped these two things on and I poured these two things on and I poured these two things on and I poured Coca-Cola across this table, it would Coca-Cola across this table, it would Coca-Cola across this table, it would burn the wood grain, and they would all burn the wood grain, and they would all burn the wood grain, and they would all connect, right? Cool pattern. connect, right? Cool pattern. connect, right? Cool pattern. >> Oh, a sick pattern, right? I've burnt >> Oh, a sick pattern, right? I've burnt >> Oh, a sick pattern, right? I've burnt everything. So, I'm burning these everything. So, I'm burning these everything. So, I'm burning these skateboards and I am I'm knocking out skateboards and I am I'm knocking out skateboards and I am I'm knocking out some of the coolest piece I've ever some of the coolest piece I've ever some of the coolest piece I've ever seen. Ever. seen. Ever. seen. Ever. Getting really good at it. I don't Getting really good at it. I don't Getting really good at it. I don't realize how dangerous it is, though. I'm realize how dangerous it is, though. I'm realize how dangerous it is, though. I'm not an electrician. I don't know. not an electrician. I don't know. not an electrician. I don't know. >> I'm not an electrician either, but it >> I'm not an electrician either, but it >> I'm not an electrician either, but it sounds dangerous. sounds dangerous. sounds dangerous. >> It looks more dangerous than it sounds. >> It looks more dangerous than it sounds. >> It looks more dangerous than it sounds. If you see the machine I was running If you see the machine I was running If you see the machine I was running with, it is so sketchy. But, you know, with, it is so sketchy. But, you know, with, it is so sketchy. But, you know, I'm not on Google. I'm not on YouTube. I'm not on Google. I'm not on YouTube. I'm not on Google. I'm not on YouTube. I'm not looking how dangerous it is. I'm not looking how dangerous it is. I'm not looking how dangerous it is. There's no chat. GBT. There's no chat. GBT. There's no chat. GBT. >> Where are you doing this? anywhere and >> Where are you doing this? anywhere and >> Where are you doing this? anywhere and everywhere in my garage, in my backyard, everywhere in my garage, in my backyard, everywhere in my garage, in my backyard, everywhere. I'm just burning hundreds of everywhere. I'm just burning hundreds of everywhere. I'm just burning hundreds of skateboards at this point. And I've got skateboards at this point. And I've got skateboards at this point. And I've got my retirement date. It's supposed to be my retirement date. It's supposed to be my retirement date. It's supposed to be like August 31st, 2019. We're on like August 31st, 2019. We're on like August 31st, 2019. We're on Father's Day. So, what is that? July. Father's Day. So, what is that? July. Father's Day. So, what is that? July. June. July. Whatever that is. June. June. July. Whatever that is. June. June. July. Whatever that is. June. It's Father's Day morning. I've been It's Father's Day morning. I've been It's Father's Day morning. I've been burning since 4 burning since 4 burning since 4 5:30 in the morning, something like 5:30 in the morning, something like 5:30 in the morning, something like that. Got up early, knocking them all that. Got up early, knocking them all that. Got up early, knocking them all out. I mean, I got stacks of these out. I mean, I got stacks of these out. I mean, I got stacks of these things. And around I'll call it eight things. And around I'll call it eight things. And around I'll call it eight o'clock in the morning, my mind isn't o'clock in the morning, my mind isn't o'clock in the morning, my mind isn't the sharpest anymore. I get a call from the sharpest anymore. I get a call from the sharpest anymore. I get a call from an EOD guy. He's a bomb tech in the an EOD guy. He's a bomb tech in the an EOD guy. He's a bomb tech in the Navy, explosive ordinance disposal. They Navy, explosive ordinance disposal. They Navy, explosive ordinance disposal. They have a retirement ceremony that's going have a retirement ceremony that's going have a retirement ceremony that's going on and he's got these huge paddles, like on and he's got these huge paddles, like on and he's got these huge paddles, like these 8ft ores, and they wrap them all these 8ft ores, and they wrap them all these 8ft ores, and they wrap them all up this decorative string and do all up this decorative string and do all up this decorative string and do all this stuff. And he's like, "Hey, can you this stuff. And he's like, "Hey, can you this stuff. And he's like, "Hey, can you burn them for me?" I was like, "Yeah, burn them for me?" I was like, "Yeah, burn them for me?" I was like, "Yeah, dude. Come over." He comes over. One of dude. Come over." He comes over. One of dude. Come over." He comes over. One of the critical elements on fracture the critical elements on fracture the critical elements on fracture burning is you can't have lacquer, no burning is you can't have lacquer, no burning is you can't have lacquer, no stain. It's got to be bare wood. If not, stain. It's got to be bare wood. If not, stain. It's got to be bare wood. If not, it'll melt the lacquer. It screws up the it'll melt the lacquer. It screws up the it'll melt the lacquer. It screws up the entire piece. He comes over with this entire piece. He comes over with this entire piece. He comes over with this 8ft ore. I'm like, "Oh, brother, you got 8ft ore. I'm like, "Oh, brother, you got 8ft ore. I'm like, "Oh, brother, you got to you got to sand that off." So, I to you got to sand that off." So, I to you got to sand that off." So, I unplug my machine. He plugs in a sander unplug my machine. He plugs in a sander unplug my machine. He plugs in a sander and starts sanding it down, getting it and starts sanding it down, getting it and starts sanding it down, getting it all off. I'm cleaning up my boards. And all off. I'm cleaning up my boards. And all off. I'm cleaning up my boards. And part of that process, I've got them on part of that process, I've got them on part of that process, I've got them on easels, and I'm spraying with a hose. I easels, and I'm spraying with a hose. I easels, and I'm spraying with a hose. I got a big wire brush, and I'm knocking got a big wire brush, and I'm knocking got a big wire brush, and I'm knocking off the ash out of them to clean them off the ash out of them to clean them off the ash out of them to clean them all out. Hose them off, hose them off, all out. Hose them off, hose them off, all out. Hose them off, hose them off, hose them off. So, you can imagine my hose them off. So, you can imagine my hose them off. So, you can imagine my backyard. I've just got skateboards backyard. I've just got skateboards backyard. I've just got skateboards everywhere drying in the sun. and I've everywhere drying in the sun. and I've everywhere drying in the sun. and I've already washed off. There's standing already washed off. There's standing already washed off. There's standing water all over it. I'm essentially water all over it. I'm essentially water all over it. I'm essentially sitting on a concrete pad burning these sitting on a concrete pad burning these sitting on a concrete pad burning these things. And we get done. My wife bangs things. And we get done. My wife bangs things. And we get done. My wife bangs on a window and she's like, "Hey, it's on a window and she's like, "Hey, it's on a window and she's like, "Hey, it's Father's Day. Got to go eat breakfast." Father's Day. Got to go eat breakfast." Father's Day. Got to go eat breakfast." Last burn. Both my kids are in a bay Last burn. Both my kids are in a bay Last burn. Both my kids are in a bay window for me to that TV away watching window for me to that TV away watching window for me to that TV away watching me. [sighs and gasps] me. [sighs and gasps] me. [sighs and gasps] I turned around. He had finished I turned around. He had finished I turned around. He had finished sanding. He'd unplugged his machine and sanding. He'd unplugged his machine and sanding. He'd unplugged his machine and plugged mine back in and it flicked the plugged mine back in and it flicked the plugged mine back in and it flicked the breaker. So, they're laying on the breaker. So, they're laying on the breaker. So, they're laying on the ground live. I don't know it because I ground live. I don't know it because I ground live. I don't know it because I never let anybody be around me when I never let anybody be around me when I never let anybody be around me when I burn. So, I mean, you can put these burn. So, I mean, you can put these burn. So, I mean, you can put these things in your mouth. It's not hooked to things in your mouth. It's not hooked to things in your mouth. It's not hooked to any electricity. So, I grab them. I go any electricity. So, I grab them. I go any electricity. So, I grab them. I go to readjust THEM AND to readjust THEM AND to readjust THEM AND lights me up. I got them in both hands. lights me up. I got them in both hands. lights me up. I got them in both hands. I contracted so hard it shattered my I contracted so hard it shattered my I contracted so hard it shattered my collar bone. It shattered my scapula. It collar bone. It shattered my scapula. It collar bone. It shattered my scapula. It blew out of my finger. Blew out of my blew out of my finger. Blew out of my blew out of my finger. Blew out of my palm, top of my head, came out of my palm, top of my head, came out of my palm, top of my head, came out of my thighs, one next to my ass. And right thighs, one next to my ass. And right thighs, one next to my ass. And right when I held it, right when it popped, it when I held it, right when it popped, it when I held it, right when it popped, it took a step back and I landed in that took a step back and I landed in that took a step back and I landed in that giant pool of water ankle deep. Blew me giant pool of water ankle deep. Blew me giant pool of water ankle deep. Blew me up in the air and shot me across the up in the air and shot me across the up in the air and shot me across the yard still holding on to these things. yard still holding on to these things. yard still holding on to these things. Him, because he's an EOD guy and he's Him, because he's an EOD guy and he's Him, because he's an EOD guy and he's smarter than me, had the wherewithal to smarter than me, had the wherewithal to smarter than me, had the wherewithal to unplug the machine. So when I wake up, unplug the machine. So when I wake up, unplug the machine. So when I wake up, I'm on the flat of my back. He's right I'm on the flat of my back. He's right I'm on the flat of my back. He's right in my face. He's like, "Do you know in my face. He's like, "Do you know in my face. He's like, "Do you know where you are?" On the ground. And I where you are?" On the ground. And I where you are?" On the ground. And I remember exhaling [sighs and gasps] remember exhaling [sighs and gasps] remember exhaling [sighs and gasps] and seeing smoke come out of my mouth. and seeing smoke come out of my mouth. and seeing smoke come out of my mouth. My hair was real long at the time. It's My hair was real long at the time. It's My hair was real long at the time. It's all standing up. hair smoking, hands are all standing up. hair smoking, hands are all standing up. hair smoking, hands are all smoked out. I'm like, Jesus Christ. all smoked out. I'm like, Jesus Christ. all smoked out. I'm like, Jesus Christ. He's like, "How do you feel?" I was He's like, "How do you feel?" I was He's like, "How do you feel?" I was like, "Shoulders dislocated, something." like, "Shoulders dislocated, something." like, "Shoulders dislocated, something." I mean, shoulders like hanging down the I mean, shoulders like hanging down the I mean, shoulders like hanging down the hair. The whole thing shattered pieces. hair. The whole thing shattered pieces. hair. The whole thing shattered pieces. I stand up. I try to walk uh I try to I stand up. I try to walk uh I try to I stand up. I try to walk uh I try to walk around for a bit. I tell the old walk around for a bit. I tell the old walk around for a bit. I tell the old lady, "Go get my keys. I'm going to lady, "Go get my keys. I'm going to lady, "Go get my keys. I'm going to drive myself to the hospital." Typical drive myself to the hospital." Typical drive myself to the hospital." Typical team die fashion. She's like, "You're an team die fashion. She's like, "You're an team die fashion. She's like, "You're an idiot." She's yelling at me. I'm telling idiot." She's yelling at me. I'm telling idiot." She's yelling at me. I'm telling her to shut up. Kids are running around. her to shut up. Kids are running around. her to shut up. Kids are running around. Everybody's screaming. She's trying to Everybody's screaming. She's trying to Everybody's screaming. She's trying to break down the machine so my kids don't break down the machine so my kids don't break down the machine so my kids don't run out. We get around to the corner and run out. We get around to the corner and run out. We get around to the corner and I've probably got to walk maybe 30 40 I've probably got to walk maybe 30 40 I've probably got to walk maybe 30 40 feet to my car. Not far, feet to my car. Not far, feet to my car. Not far, date myself a movie quote. You seen Kill date myself a movie quote. You seen Kill date myself a movie quote. You seen Kill Bill? Bill? Bill? >> Do you know the five finger death touch >> Do you know the five finger death touch >> Do you know the five finger death touch he does? She takes five steps and he he does? She takes five steps and he he does? She takes five steps and he follows her and dies. That's what follows her and dies. That's what follows her and dies. That's what happened to me. I stood up. I walked on happened to me. I stood up. I walked on happened to me. I stood up. I walked on the side of my house. I took one big the side of my house. I took one big the side of my house. I took one big step. She's inside. I can hear her run step. She's inside. I can hear her run step. She's inside. I can hear her run around with the kids trying to tell them around with the kids trying to tell them around with the kids trying to tell them all like, "Hey, dad got hurt. Got to all like, "Hey, dad got hurt. Got to all like, "Hey, dad got hurt. Got to take him to the hospital. Your mom or take him to the hospital. Your mom or take him to the hospital. Your mom or grandma's going to come over. He's grandma's going to come over. He's grandma's going to come over. He's trying to break down the machine." I trying to break down the machine." I trying to break down the machine." I take a step and everything goes take a step and everything goes take a step and everything goes jet black on the periphery. I'm like, jet black on the periphery. I'm like, jet black on the periphery. I'm like, [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] I take another one [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] I take another one [ __ ] [ __ ] [ __ ] I take another one close in again. I'm like, close in again. I'm like, close in again. I'm like, [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] I don't want to die in Virginia Beach. I don't want to die in Virginia Beach. I don't want to die in Virginia Beach. If you ask anybody who's ever met me, If you ask anybody who's ever met me, If you ask anybody who's ever met me, that is my number one fear. I do not that is my number one fear. I do not that is my number one fear. I do not want to die in Virginia Beach, no matter want to die in Virginia Beach, no matter want to die in Virginia Beach, no matter what. Don't let me die there. I take my what. Don't let me die there. I take my what. Don't let me die there. I take my third step. I'm in a toilet paper, too. third step. I'm in a toilet paper, too. third step. I'm in a toilet paper, too. This is going to be it. I take one more This is going to be it. I take one more This is going to be it. I take one more total blindness. I can't see anything. total blindness. I can't see anything. total blindness. I can't see anything. And my eyes are as open as big as I can And my eyes are as open as big as I can And my eyes are as open as big as I can get them. I can't see anything, dude. get them. I can't see anything, dude. get them. I can't see anything, dude. Ears start roaring. I'm on the side of Ears start roaring. I'm on the side of Ears start roaring. I'm on the side of this house. Panic at the disco. I'm not this house. Panic at the disco. I'm not this house. Panic at the disco. I'm not screaming. I'm just freaking out. Like, screaming. I'm just freaking out. Like, screaming. I'm just freaking out. Like, I'm looking up. I can't see an ounce of I'm looking up. I can't see an ounce of I'm looking up. I can't see an ounce of daylight. Oh my [ __ ] god. This is it. daylight. Oh my [ __ ] god. This is it. daylight. Oh my [ __ ] god. This is it. I'm blind. Oh my god. I start I'm blind. Oh my god. I start I'm blind. Oh my god. I start hyperventilating over and over and as hyperventilating over and over and as hyperventilating over and over and as loud and as deep as I can. Probably 30, loud and as deep as I can. Probably 30, loud and as deep as I can. Probably 30, 40 seconds in my mind. It's kind of 40 seconds in my mind. It's kind of 40 seconds in my mind. It's kind of drifting off and I see a little pinhole drifting off and I see a little pinhole drifting off and I see a little pinhole of light. Yep. I just stare at I keep of light. Yep. I just stare at I keep of light. Yep. I just stare at I keep power breathe. power breathe. power breathe. >> [snorts] >> [snorts] >> [snorts] >> And it opens up, opens up, opens up, and >> And it opens up, opens up, opens up, and >> And it opens up, opens up, opens up, and then boom. Like I have superhuman then boom. Like I have superhuman then boom. Like I have superhuman vision. I can see everything. I can see vision. I can see everything. I can see vision. I can see everything. I can see the texture from the brick from 40t the texture from the brick from 40t the texture from the brick from 40t away. I mean, I can see anything and away. I mean, I can see anything and away. I mean, I can see anything and everything. And I can feel everything. everything. And I can feel everything. everything. And I can feel everything. Like, I can feel my wife walking through Like, I can feel my wife walking through Like, I can feel my wife walking through the house. Live in a big brick house. I the house. Live in a big brick house. I the house. Live in a big brick house. I can feel her walking through it. Like, can feel her walking through it. Like, can feel her walking through it. Like, it's it's it's Ask anybody who's ever been Ask anybody who's ever been Ask anybody who's ever been electrocuted. You start to feel weird electrocuted. You start to feel weird electrocuted. You start to feel weird stuff. He gets me up in that car, not stuff. He gets me up in that car, not stuff. He gets me up in that car, not let me drive to the hospital. let me drive to the hospital. let me drive to the hospital. We drive, it's probably three miles from We drive, it's probably three miles from We drive, it's probably three miles from me to our local hospital, like the big me to our local hospital, like the big me to our local hospital, like the big one. Hit every single pothole in one. Hit every single pothole in one. Hit every single pothole in Virginia Beach. It was like he doubled Virginia Beach. It was like he doubled Virginia Beach. It was like he doubled back to try to get it. If you've ever back to try to get it. If you've ever back to try to get it. If you've ever had a collar bone broken or shattered, had a collar bone broken or shattered, had a collar bone broken or shattered, that's the move, man. You can feel it. that's the move, man. You can feel it. that's the move, man. You can feel it. You're even moving around. [laughter] You're even moving around. [laughter] You're even moving around. [laughter] The whole thing's just hinging. Your arm The whole thing's just hinging. Your arm The whole thing's just hinging. Your arm is basically just swinging around. It's is basically just swinging around. It's is basically just swinging around. It's terrible. We get in, get into the burn terrible. We get in, get into the burn terrible. We get in, get into the burn unit, and that was the time during CO. unit, and that was the time during CO. unit, and that was the time during CO. So, everybody in there has a mask on. So, everybody in there has a mask on. So, everybody in there has a mask on. Virginia Beach has probably the most Virginia Beach has probably the most Virginia Beach has probably the most gorgeous nurses that on the planet, but gorgeous nurses that on the planet, but gorgeous nurses that on the planet, but you can only see their eyes. Beautiful you can only see their eyes. Beautiful you can only see their eyes. Beautiful mascara, crystal blue eyes, and now I mascara, crystal blue eyes, and now I mascara, crystal blue eyes, and now I can see it all now. So, I'm processing can see it all now. So, I'm processing can see it all now. So, I'm processing it. Fingers are inside you. I mean, it. Fingers are inside you. I mean, it. Fingers are inside you. I mean, they're doing all this stuff. They're they're doing all this stuff. They're they're doing all this stuff. They're moving my shoulders around. I'm moving my shoulders around. I'm moving my shoulders around. I'm screaming at them, tell them to stop. screaming at them, tell them to stop. screaming at them, tell them to stop. And I'll never forget. And I'll never forget. And I'll never forget. I tell this, they all laugh me. This I tell this, they all laugh me. This I tell this, they all laugh me. This nurse swings her beautiful eyes in front nurse swings her beautiful eyes in front nurse swings her beautiful eyes in front of me and she goes, "Mr. Shipley, I am of me and she goes, "Mr. Shipley, I am of me and she goes, "Mr. Shipley, I am so surprised you still have a penis." so surprised you still have a penis." so surprised you still have a penis." Jesus Christ. And she's like, "Oh, Jesus Christ. And she's like, "Oh, Jesus Christ. And she's like, "Oh, honey, when guys get electrocuted, honey, when guys get electrocuted, honey, when guys get electrocuted, everything comes off. Fingers go off, everything comes off. Fingers go off, everything comes off. Fingers go off, your nose, your ears. Like, if you hit your nose, your ears. Like, if you hit your nose, your ears. Like, if you hit it with one side, your whole opposite it with one side, your whole opposite it with one side, your whole opposite arm will get blown off. Like, it opens arm will get blown off. Like, it opens arm will get blown off. Like, it opens up your rib cage." She goes, "And what up your rib cage." She goes, "And what up your rib cage." She goes, "And what we can tell right now, outside of what's we can tell right now, outside of what's we can tell right now, outside of what's blown up on you, like you're good." blown up on you, like you're good." blown up on you, like you're good." So, I make it through that, make it So, I make it through that, make it So, I make it through that, make it three or four more hours, they've got to three or four more hours, they've got to three or four more hours, they've got to lift me to a different burn unit, very lift me to a different burn unit, very lift me to a different burn unit, very specific. And when I get inside that specific. And when I get inside that specific. And when I get inside that one, this um this ER doc comes in. He's one, this um this ER doc comes in. He's one, this um this ER doc comes in. He's like, "Hey, dude. I'm probably two 230 like, "Hey, dude. I'm probably two 230 like, "Hey, dude. I'm probably two 230 pounds at the time. I just rebuilt from pounds at the time. I just rebuilt from pounds at the time. I just rebuilt from this gnarly shoulder surgery. I've been this gnarly shoulder surgery. I've been this gnarly shoulder surgery. I've been in the best shape I've been in very long in the best shape I've been in very long in the best shape I've been in very long time. So, I feel like Superman except time. So, I feel like Superman except time. So, I feel like Superman except now I'm in a hospital bed. He comes in, now I'm in a hospital bed. He comes in, now I'm in a hospital bed. He comes in, he goes, "Hey, do you know what Rabbdo he goes, "Hey, do you know what Rabbdo he goes, "Hey, do you know what Rabbdo is?" I said, "Yeah." And he goes, "When is?" I said, "Yeah." And he goes, "When is?" I said, "Yeah." And he goes, "When you get electrocuted, your body goes you get electrocuted, your body goes you get electrocuted, your body goes through it produces an enzyme very through it produces an enzyme very through it produces an enzyme very similar to Rabdo. All your muscles similar to Rabdo. All your muscles similar to Rabdo. All your muscles liquefy. They go septic. I got to cut liquefy. They go septic. I got to cut liquefy. They go septic. I got to cut them out or you'll die." them out or you'll die." them out or you'll die." Okay. And he goes, "So I got to come Okay. And he goes, "So I got to come Okay. And he goes, "So I got to come back every hour and when your blood back every hour and when your blood back every hour and when your blood marker, that enzyme hits a certain marker, that enzyme hits a certain marker, that enzyme hits a certain level, I got to start cutting you up." level, I got to start cutting you up." level, I got to start cutting you up." [gasps] [gasps] [gasps] And I'm sitting there, I'd been through And I'm sitting there, I'd been through And I'm sitting there, I'd been through so much, so many injuries, so many so much, so many injuries, so many so much, so many injuries, so many surgeries, and all this stuff. I'm like, surgeries, and all this stuff. I'm like, surgeries, and all this stuff. I'm like, "When you say cut me up, what does that "When you say cut me up, what does that "When you say cut me up, what does that mean?" He goes, "Pcs, lats, quads, mean?" He goes, "Pcs, lats, quads, mean?" He goes, "Pcs, lats, quads, hamstrings, delts, biceps, triceps, hamstrings, delts, biceps, triceps, hamstrings, delts, biceps, triceps, shoulders, everything has to go. The shoulders, everything has to go. The shoulders, everything has to go. The bigger I got to get it out quick cuz bigger I got to get it out quick cuz bigger I got to get it out quick cuz once it liquefies, it's going to go once it liquefies, it's going to go once it liquefies, it's going to go fast." I'm like, "How sure?" And he fast." I'm like, "How sure?" And he fast." I'm like, "How sure?" And he goes, "As sure as I know the sun's about goes, "As sure as I know the sun's about goes, "As sure as I know the sun's about to set in 3 hours." Like happens to to set in 3 hours." Like happens to to set in 3 hours." Like happens to everybody. Like, everybody. Like, everybody. Like, oh my god. He leaves the room. I start oh my god. He leaves the room. I start oh my god. He leaves the room. I start hysterically crying. My wife is balling. hysterically crying. My wife is balling. hysterically crying. My wife is balling. And I just wanted a gun next to me so I And I just wanted a gun next to me so I And I just wanted a gun next to me so I could shoot myself. I'm the lowest I'd could shoot myself. I'm the lowest I'd could shoot myself. I'm the lowest I'd ever been. I was already struggling with ever been. I was already struggling with ever been. I was already struggling with depression, everything. I'd lay down depression, everything. I'd lay down depression, everything. I'd lay down hospital bed. Comes back in an hour hospital bed. Comes back in an hour hospital bed. Comes back in an hour later, checks my blood. Like, so far so later, checks my blood. Like, so far so later, checks my blood. Like, so far so good. Be back in an hour. Back in an good. Be back in an hour. Back in an good. Be back in an hour. Back in an hour, back in an hour, back in an hour. hour, back in an hour, back in an hour. hour, back in an hour, back in an hour. doing the whole thing and he came back doing the whole thing and he came back doing the whole thing and he came back in probably 5 6 hours later and he's in probably 5 6 hours later and he's in probably 5 6 hours later and he's like, "Hey dude, for whatever reason, like, "Hey dude, for whatever reason, like, "Hey dude, for whatever reason, not only is your enzyme marker not not only is your enzyme marker not not only is your enzyme marker not getting bitter, um there's not a trace getting bitter, um there's not a trace getting bitter, um there's not a trace of it in your whole body." He's like, of it in your whole body." He's like, of it in your whole body." He's like, "We scheduled you for surgery next "We scheduled you for surgery next "We scheduled you for surgery next Tuesday. Going to put in a plate and Tuesday. Going to put in a plate and Tuesday. Going to put in a plate and like 15 screws in your collarbone. You like 15 screws in your collarbone. You like 15 screws in your collarbone. You can go home." I mean, I was in the can go home." I mean, I was in the can go home." I mean, I was in the hospital for four or five days, but hospital for four or five days, but hospital for four or five days, but yeah, survived that. Survived the yeah, survived that. Survived the yeah, survived that. Survived the electrocution. Did all that stuff. And electrocution. Did all that stuff. And electrocution. Did all that stuff. And that was really kind of the premise for that was really kind of the premise for that was really kind of the premise for Tribe Skates. That's how the whole thing Tribe Skates. That's how the whole thing Tribe Skates. That's how the whole thing started was all art therapy. And yeah, started was all art therapy. And yeah, started was all art therapy. And yeah, that um that was the worst, man. I had that um that was the worst, man. I had that um that was the worst, man. I had to rebuild my thumb. My tendon got to rebuild my thumb. My tendon got to rebuild my thumb. My tendon got attached to the nerve bundle. So my attached to the nerve bundle. So my attached to the nerve bundle. So my thumb got fused like this for about a thumb got fused like this for about a thumb got fused like this for about a year. We had to do a Zlength, open the year. We had to do a Zlength, open the year. We had to do a Zlength, open the whole thing up so I could actually move whole thing up so I could actually move whole thing up so I could actually move my thumb again. Caught my shorts on my thumb again. Caught my shorts on my thumb again. Caught my shorts on fire. Like it was um it was dicey, dude. fire. Like it was um it was dicey, dude. fire. Like it was um it was dicey, dude. That was um that was my transition. So That was um that was my transition. So That was um that was my transition. So when I transitioned out of the military, when I transitioned out of the military, when I transitioned out of the military, that's what I had to do. that's what I had to do. that's what I had to do. So by the time I actually got my DD214, So by the time I actually got my DD214, So by the time I actually got my DD214, you are retired on a Friday. Here's your you are retired on a Friday. Here's your you are retired on a Friday. Here's your retirement paperwork. I started a job retirement paperwork. I started a job retirement paperwork. I started a job the very next Monday. I couldn't even the very next Monday. I couldn't even the very next Monday. I couldn't even put on body armor cuz I had just had put on body armor cuz I had just had put on body armor cuz I had just had surgery. So I had foam plates and trying surgery. So I had foam plates and trying surgery. So I had foam plates and trying to teach these guys CQB arms and two to teach these guys CQB arms and two to teach these guys CQB arms and two slings just trying to pretend like it slings just trying to pretend like it slings just trying to pretend like it wasn't there. So I' I'd show up with wasn't there. So I' I'd show up with wasn't there. So I' I'd show up with double slings. I'd take them both off double slings. I'd take them both off double slings. I'd take them both off and I'd just stand there holding my kit and I'd just stand there holding my kit and I'd just stand there holding my kit like this cuz I couldn't move my arms. like this cuz I couldn't move my arms. like this cuz I couldn't move my arms. M. M. M. >> That's all I had to teach. That was my >> That's all I had to teach. That was my >> That's all I had to teach. That was my transition. transition. transition. Just hiding injuries. Just hiding injuries. Just hiding injuries. >> About as gold standard as you could get >> About as gold standard as you could get >> About as gold standard as you could get for making it worse than it already was. for making it worse than it already was. for making it worse than it already was. >> The worst thing that's ever happened to >> The worst thing that's ever happened to >> The worst thing that's ever happened to me. I had the best transition. You know, me. I had the best transition. You know, me. I had the best transition. You know, working with the Air Force was an working with the Air Force was an working with the Air Force was an amazing experience. That transition, amazing experience. That transition, amazing experience. That transition, that fall from grace was that fall from grace was that fall from grace was nothing I've ever seen. No one ever told nothing I've ever seen. No one ever told nothing I've ever seen. No one ever told you about it. I thought it was going to you about it. I thought it was going to you about it. I thought it was going to be the best thing ever happened to me. be the best thing ever happened to me. be the best thing ever happened to me. Gy long hair. I'm going to smoke weed. Gy long hair. I'm going to smoke weed. Gy long hair. I'm going to smoke weed. I'm going to do whatever I want to. I'm going to do whatever I want to. I'm going to do whatever I want to. Military doesn't own me. Yes. Yes. Yes. Military doesn't own me. Yes. Yes. Yes. Military doesn't own me. Yes. Yes. Yes. I've never craved anything more than I I've never craved anything more than I I've never craved anything more than I wanted to be back in. I know exactly wanted to be back in. I know exactly wanted to be back in. I know exactly what everybody did. I do not want to be what everybody did. I do not want to be what everybody did. I do not want to be a civilian. I need to get back into work a civilian. I need to get back into work a civilian. I need to get back into work as soon as humanly possible. And it as soon as humanly possible. And it as soon as humanly possible. And it wasn't an option. [gasps] wasn't an option. [gasps] wasn't an option. [gasps] Now, what do I do? What do I do now? I Now, what do I do? What do I do now? I Now, what do I do? What do I do now? I don't know how to do anything else. And don't know how to do anything else. And don't know how to do anything else. And that's when you really realize I've been that's when you really realize I've been that's when you really realize I've been developing a skill set that is useless developing a skill set that is useless developing a skill set that is useless to everyone else. Nobody needs this. You to everyone else. Nobody needs this. You to everyone else. Nobody needs this. You think Elon Musk's going to call me like, think Elon Musk's going to call me like, think Elon Musk's going to call me like, "Hey, I'm thinking about building a a "Hey, I'm thinking about building a a "Hey, I'm thinking about building a a tier one assault team. Want to be on tier one assault team. Want to be on tier one assault team. Want to be on it?" I'm like, "That phone call's not it?" I'm like, "That phone call's not it?" I'm like, "That phone call's not coming, dude. Nobody needs you." And now coming, dude. Nobody needs you." And now coming, dude. Nobody needs you." And now if you get out and you get on social if you get out and you get on social if you get out and you get on social media and you ever talk while you did, media and you ever talk while you did, media and you ever talk while you did, then you get bastardized by the then you get bastardized by the then you get bastardized by the community. You write a book, now community. You write a book, now community. You write a book, now everybody hates you. everybody hates you. everybody hates you. >> Open up a podcast, everybody hates you. >> Open up a podcast, everybody hates you. >> Open up a podcast, everybody hates you. >> What am I supposed to do? I don't know >> What am I supposed to do? I don't know >> What am I supposed to do? I don't know how to do anything. I didn't go to how to do anything. I didn't go to how to do anything. I didn't go to college, didn't get a real estate college, didn't get a real estate college, didn't get a real estate license, I don't have a relationship license, I don't have a relationship license, I don't have a relationship with my wife, don't have a relationship with my wife, don't have a relationship with my wife, don't have a relationship with my kids. I've sacrificed everything with my kids. I've sacrificed everything with my kids. I've sacrificed everything to try to be as good at this one thing to try to be as good at this one thing to try to be as good at this one thing as humanly possible. And I was trying to as humanly possible. And I was trying to as humanly possible. And I was trying to do it for 30 years. And now at 17, I do it for 30 years. And now at 17, I do it for 30 years. And now at 17, I don't have it. I don't have any don't have it. I don't have any don't have it. I don't have any transferable skill set. What do I do? transferable skill set. What do I do? transferable skill set. What do I do? Spiral, spiral, spiral. Spiral, spiral, spiral. Spiral, spiral, spiral. Yeah, you didn't have any sanity check. Yeah, you didn't have any sanity check. Yeah, you didn't have any sanity check. I had no group, no reason to get out of I had no group, no reason to get out of I had no group, no reason to get out of bed at 5:00 a.m. I didn't have anything bed at 5:00 a.m. I didn't have anything bed at 5:00 a.m. I didn't have anything else. So, when I'm laying there in else. So, when I'm laying there in else. So, when I'm laying there in rehab, I'm at my house all gimped up. I rehab, I'm at my house all gimped up. I rehab, I'm at my house all gimped up. I get a knock at the door. get a knock at the door. get a knock at the door. I answer the door. It's my strength I answer the door. It's my strength I answer the door. It's my strength coach, Vernon Griffith. Best strength coach, Vernon Griffith. Best strength coach, Vernon Griffith. Best strength coach in the [ __ ] world. Oh, I love coach in the [ __ ] world. Oh, I love coach in the [ __ ] world. Oh, I love this guy. He was my guy that brought me this guy. He was my guy that brought me this guy. He was my guy that brought me back after the um the shoulder injury back after the um the shoulder injury back after the um the shoulder injury from skydiving. Brought me all back and from skydiving. Brought me all back and from skydiving. Brought me all back and he shows up and he's like, "Oh god, he's he shows up and he's like, "Oh god, he's he shows up and he's like, "Oh god, he's still milking it." Shut up. With like still milking it." Shut up. With like still milking it." Shut up. With like [ __ ] in my kitchen. I sit down and I am [ __ ] in my kitchen. I sit down and I am [ __ ] in my kitchen. I sit down and I am I'm really feeling sorry for myself. I'm really feeling sorry for myself. I'm really feeling sorry for myself. Like I do not want to play the game. If Like I do not want to play the game. If Like I do not want to play the game. If my hands weren't as bad as they were, I my hands weren't as bad as they were, I my hands weren't as bad as they were, I probably would have killed myself. I probably would have killed myself. I probably would have killed myself. I couldn't do anything. Like I couldn't couldn't do anything. Like I couldn't couldn't do anything. Like I couldn't even pull a trigger. My I don't even even pull a trigger. My I don't even even pull a trigger. My I don't even know how I do it. And he's like, "Well, know how I do it. And he's like, "Well, know how I do it. And he's like, "Well, if you're done making excuses, what can if you're done making excuses, what can if you're done making excuses, what can you do?" I was like, "Nothing, dude. I you do?" I was like, "Nothing, dude. I you do?" I was like, "Nothing, dude. I can do nothing." He's like, "Bro, can can do nothing." He's like, "Bro, can can do nothing." He's like, "Bro, can you walk?" I was like, "I can barely you walk?" I was like, "I can barely you walk?" I was like, "I can barely walk." Yeah. I mean, I can walk. He's walk." Yeah. I mean, I can walk. He's walk." Yeah. I mean, I can walk. He's like, "Can you move your hands?" Hands like, "Can you move your hands?" Hands like, "Can you move your hands?" Hands are all bandaged up. And I was like, are all bandaged up. And I was like, are all bandaged up. And I was like, "Yeah." He's like, "Can you curl your "Yeah." He's like, "Can you curl your "Yeah." He's like, "Can you curl your wrist?" I said, "Yeah, but I'm in double wrist?" I said, "Yeah, but I'm in double wrist?" I said, "Yeah, but I'm in double swings." Like, "I can't do a bicep curl. swings." Like, "I can't do a bicep curl. swings." Like, "I can't do a bicep curl. I can't do anything." He's like, "Cool." I can't do anything." He's like, "Cool." I can't do anything." He's like, "Cool." Pulls out this blue two-lb dumbbell Pulls out this blue two-lb dumbbell Pulls out this blue two-lb dumbbell about that big and puts it in my hand. about that big and puts it in my hand. about that big and puts it in my hand. He goes, "Extend it. Curl it up. He goes, "Extend it. Curl it up. He goes, "Extend it. Curl it up. print your wrist. Same thing. Looks like print your wrist. Same thing. Looks like print your wrist. Same thing. Looks like we can do wrist curls in 20-minute we can do wrist curls in 20-minute we can do wrist curls in 20-minute walks. And we did that every single day, walks. And we did that every single day, walks. And we did that every single day, multiple times a day until I could multiple times a day until I could multiple times a day until I could pressurize my upper body. And then we pressurize my upper body. And then we pressurize my upper body. And then we got back in the gym, belt squatting, got back in the gym, belt squatting, got back in the gym, belt squatting, doing nothing but belt squats and lunges doing nothing but belt squats and lunges doing nothing but belt squats and lunges for [gasps] eight weeks. for [gasps] eight weeks. for [gasps] eight weeks. Surgery all healed. Now we can do upper Surgery all healed. Now we can do upper Surgery all healed. Now we can do upper body. And then we just stayed on that body. And then we just stayed on that body. And then we just stayed on that exact same routine. So as low as I was, exact same routine. So as low as I was, exact same routine. So as low as I was, the only reason I was as low as I was is the only reason I was as low as I was is the only reason I was as low as I was is I didn't have a group. I don't have a I didn't have a group. I don't have a I didn't have a group. I don't have a group now. What do I have? Well, I've group now. What do I have? Well, I've group now. What do I have? Well, I've got my family now. I don't have my got my family now. I don't have my got my family now. I don't have my routine. Get back on the routine. Back routine. Get back on the routine. Back routine. Get back on the routine. Back in the gym, living the exact same in the gym, living the exact same in the gym, living the exact same routine I've lived my entire life. routine I've lived my entire life. routine I've lived my entire life. Surrounded myself with people better Surrounded myself with people better Surrounded myself with people better than me. Naturally started to pull me than me. Naturally started to pull me than me. Naturally started to pull me out of the depression. out of the depression. out of the depression. >> Anytime I've ever hit that bottom again, >> Anytime I've ever hit that bottom again, >> Anytime I've ever hit that bottom again, it's because I've been outside of my it's because I've been outside of my it's because I've been outside of my routine where I put my individual needs routine where I put my individual needs routine where I put my individual needs needs my group and the guilt started to needs my group and the guilt started to needs my group and the guilt started to really affect me. really affect me. really affect me. >> So, I don't try to over complicate >> So, I don't try to over complicate >> So, I don't try to over complicate anymore. So, my transition out was anymore. So, my transition out was anymore. So, my transition out was terrible. My rebuild looked exactly like terrible. My rebuild looked exactly like terrible. My rebuild looked exactly like it's been every day since I was 15 or it's been every day since I was 15 or it's been every day since I was 15 or 16. back on the routine. Don't break it 16. back on the routine. Don't break it 16. back on the routine. Don't break it no matter what. no matter what. no matter what. >> Yeah, but that's me uh that's me getting >> Yeah, but that's me uh that's me getting >> Yeah, but that's me uh that's me getting electrocuted. Terrible. electrocuted. Terrible. electrocuted. Terrible. >> And what about the psychological >> And what about the psychological >> And what about the psychological changes? You know, I understand that changes? You know, I understand that changes? You know, I understand that physiology and psychology are physiology and psychology are physiology and psychology are >> very closely linked for you, but I think >> very closely linked for you, but I think >> very closely linked for you, but I think uh uh uh 50% of proathletes get divorced within 50% of proathletes get divorced within 50% of proathletes get divorced within one year one year one year >> of retiring from their sport. >> of retiring from their sport. >> of retiring from their sport. >> Uh I would imagine that the same thing >> Uh I would imagine that the same thing >> Uh I would imagine that the same thing is true for bankruptcy. I would imagine is true for bankruptcy. I would imagine is true for bankruptcy. I would imagine that the same thing is true for drug that the same thing is true for drug that the same thing is true for drug use, for reckless driving incidents or use, for reckless driving incidents or use, for reckless driving incidents or deaths. Uh, what were the biggest challenges that what were the biggest challenges that you were facing psychologically? you were facing psychologically? you were facing psychologically? I wanted to kill myself from probably I wanted to kill myself from probably I wanted to kill myself from probably 2013 up until 2013 up until 2013 up until 2020, 2021. Every day, every day, all 2020, 2021. Every day, every day, all 2020, 2021. Every day, every day, all day. And I didn't have a reason for it. day. And I didn't have a reason for it. day. And I didn't have a reason for it. I didn't know why. I was always a guy I I didn't know why. I was always a guy I I didn't know why. I was always a guy I always looked down on people that always looked down on people that always looked down on people that committed suicide. Just always. I'm committed suicide. Just always. I'm committed suicide. Just always. I'm like, what a selfish thing to do. Like, like, what a selfish thing to do. Like, like, what a selfish thing to do. Like, cry me a river. Cuz you see these guys, cry me a river. Cuz you see these guys, cry me a river. Cuz you see these guys, you're like, you've got your dream job. you're like, you've got your dream job. you're like, you've got your dream job. Your wife's a 10 10 fingers, 10 toes on Your wife's a 10 10 fingers, 10 toes on Your wife's a 10 10 fingers, 10 toes on both your kids. Like, they're star both your kids. Like, they're star both your kids. Like, they're star athletes. Like, there's nothing for you athletes. Like, there's nothing for you athletes. Like, there's nothing for you to be upset with. Like, how could you do to be upset with. Like, how could you do to be upset with. Like, how could you do that? Why would you do that? And they that? Why would you do that? And they that? Why would you do that? And they never even know. You never know. Until never even know. You never know. Until never even know. You never know. Until it happens to you, it happens to you, it happens to you, it's just so hard to wrap your head it's just so hard to wrap your head it's just so hard to wrap your head around. I just woke up every day. I just around. I just woke up every day. I just around. I just woke up every day. I just didn't want to play the game. I want to didn't want to play the game. I want to didn't want to play the game. I want to hit the big reset button on Nintendo and hit the big reset button on Nintendo and hit the big reset button on Nintendo and start over in a different life. start over in a different life. start over in a different life. >> And that was both in service and out of >> And that was both in service and out of >> And that was both in service and out of service and during transition. service and during transition. service and during transition. >> The medication helped for a little bit. >> The medication helped for a little bit. >> The medication helped for a little bit. So it was like it was that quiet noise So it was like it was that quiet noise So it was like it was that quiet noise in the back of your head just kind of in the back of your head just kind of in the back of your head just kind of subsided. It was always there. I'd wake subsided. It was always there. I'd wake subsided. It was always there. I'd wake up in the morning like, "Nope, nope. up in the morning like, "Nope, nope. up in the morning like, "Nope, nope. Just override. Go to the gym. Override Just override. Go to the gym. Override Just override. Go to the gym. Override and go to the gym. Go to the range. Do and go to the gym. Go to the range. Do and go to the gym. Go to the range. Do this. Stay active like a shark. Just this. Stay active like a shark. Just this. Stay active like a shark. Just keep swimming. Every time I stop, things keep swimming. Every time I stop, things keep swimming. Every time I stop, things got bad. Don't stop. Just keep going." got bad. Don't stop. Just keep going." got bad. Don't stop. Just keep going." >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. But once everything happened, we came But once everything happened, we came But once everything happened, we came off all those meds. I still had to be on off all those meds. I still had to be on off all those meds. I still had to be on quite a few of them. I wasn't, it wasn't quite a few of them. I wasn't, it wasn't quite a few of them. I wasn't, it wasn't a full med wash out. We came off the a full med wash out. We came off the a full med wash out. We came off the hard like painkillers. So I could feel hard like painkillers. So I could feel hard like painkillers. So I could feel all the pain. I was still on sabalta, all the pain. I was still on sabalta, all the pain. I was still on sabalta, still on Adderall, still on a bunch of still on Adderall, still on a bunch of still on Adderall, still on a bunch of these things. Blood pressure medications these things. Blood pressure medications these things. Blood pressure medications to stop nightmares, all this stuff. It's hard to quantify with how bad it It's hard to quantify with how bad it was. Just was. Just was. Just everything you loved before you didn't everything you loved before you didn't everything you loved before you didn't have anymore. didn't have the group. have anymore. didn't have the group. have anymore. didn't have the group. There's no group chat. No one ever can There's no group chat. No one ever can There's no group chat. No one ever can tell you to put it on again. There's no tell you to put it on again. There's no tell you to put it on again. There's no purpose. purpose. purpose. >> And now [clears throat] >> And now [clears throat] >> And now [clears throat] I don't have a job. Like, what am I I don't have a job. Like, what am I I don't have a job. Like, what am I supposed to do now? I never planned on supposed to do now? I never planned on supposed to do now? I never planned on getting out. I never planned on not getting out. I never planned on not getting out. I never planned on not doing anything less than 30 years. I'm doing anything less than 30 years. I'm doing anything less than 30 years. I'm just going to do it forever because just going to do it forever because just going to do it forever because there's nothing else for me to do. I there's nothing else for me to do. I there's nothing else for me to do. I don't like anything else. I don't have don't like anything else. I don't have don't like anything else. I don't have another hobby. I'm not a scratch golfer. another hobby. I'm not a scratch golfer. another hobby. I'm not a scratch golfer. I don't want to be an entrepreneur. I don't want to be an entrepreneur. I don't want to be an entrepreneur. Like, I don't want to do a podcast. Like, I don't want to do a podcast. Like, I don't want to do a podcast. Don't want to write a book. I don't want Don't want to write a book. I don't want Don't want to write a book. I don't want to do any of that. I just want to do to do any of that. I just want to do to do any of that. I just want to do this. And now I can't. What do I do now? this. And now I can't. What do I do now? this. And now I can't. What do I do now? I don't know. Circling the drain over I don't know. Circling the drain over I don't know. Circling the drain over and over. and over. and over. But I mean, now they're out smoking a But I mean, now they're out smoking a But I mean, now they're out smoking a bunch of weed, doing a bunch of stupid bunch of weed, doing a bunch of stupid bunch of weed, doing a bunch of stupid [ __ ] started cheating on my wife, [ __ ] started cheating on my wife, [ __ ] started cheating on my wife, started doing all the things that I I started doing all the things that I I started doing all the things that I I shouldn't have done, all the things I shouldn't have done, all the things I shouldn't have done, all the things I didn't do in the past, I started doing didn't do in the past, I started doing didn't do in the past, I started doing during that transition. And it just it during that transition. And it just it during that transition. And it just it ruined everything. ruined everything. ruined everything. Everything I tried to avoid my whole Everything I tried to avoid my whole Everything I tried to avoid my whole time in, I did as soon as I got out. time in, I did as soon as I got out. time in, I did as soon as I got out. Right. Like everything like everything Right. Like everything like everything Right. Like everything like everything that everybody does to get them that everybody does to get them that everybody does to get them divorced, they've usually been doing divorced, they've usually been doing divorced, they've usually been doing their whole career. I'm the opposite. I their whole career. I'm the opposite. I their whole career. I'm the opposite. I didn't do any of it until I got out and didn't do any of it until I got out and didn't do any of it until I got out and I was like, "Yeah, I have no purpose. I was like, "Yeah, I have no purpose. I was like, "Yeah, I have no purpose. Might as well just burn it to the Might as well just burn it to the Might as well just burn it to the ground." ground." ground." I wanted to be divorced because I didn't I wanted to be divorced because I didn't I wanted to be divorced because I didn't know how to reintegrate with my family. know how to reintegrate with my family. know how to reintegrate with my family. I loved her, loved the kids, didn't want I loved her, loved the kids, didn't want I loved her, loved the kids, didn't want to lose what I had, but I didn't know to lose what I had, but I didn't know to lose what I had, but I didn't know how to integrate because I didn't have how to integrate because I didn't have how to integrate because I didn't have any practice and I never looked at it any practice and I never looked at it any practice and I never looked at it like obtaining a skill set. Let me talk like obtaining a skill set. Let me talk like obtaining a skill set. Let me talk about being a good husband, being a good about being a good husband, being a good about being a good husband, being a good father, being a good friend. It's a father, being a good friend. It's a father, being a good friend. It's a skill set. You need repetition to in skill set. You need repetition to in skill set. You need repetition to in order to be good at that. Like, how you order to be good at that. Like, how you order to be good at that. Like, how you going to how do you raise kids? You got going to how do you raise kids? You got going to how do you raise kids? You got to be there. You got to show up. How you to be there. You got to show up. How you to be there. You got to show up. How you going to be a good husband? You have to going to be a good husband? You have to going to be a good husband? You have to be there. Like, the pin pal thing be there. Like, the pin pal thing be there. Like, the pin pal thing doesn't work in reality. You have to doesn't work in reality. You have to doesn't work in reality. You have to live together. And I didn't have any live together. And I didn't have any live together. And I didn't have any experience doing it. So, when I experience doing it. So, when I experience doing it. So, when I transitioned, like, what's a job I can transitioned, like, what's a job I can transitioned, like, what's a job I can get right now that is going to get me get right now that is going to get me get right now that is going to get me out of Virginia Beach and away from out of Virginia Beach and away from out of Virginia Beach and away from this? Not because I don't want to be this? Not because I don't want to be this? Not because I don't want to be there, but because I don't know how. And there, but because I don't know how. And there, but because I don't know how. And in my in my in my in that version of myself in that in that version of myself in that in that version of myself in that moment, the easiest thing to do was to moment, the easiest thing to do was to moment, the easiest thing to do was to separate. Let me get a job that's got me separate. Let me get a job that's got me separate. Let me get a job that's got me back in Arizona skydiving as much as I back in Arizona skydiving as much as I back in Arizona skydiving as much as I can, working these contracts. Like, let can, working these contracts. Like, let can, working these contracts. Like, let me just stay busy. me just stay busy. me just stay busy. >> Yeah, it's safe. Let me get out of here. >> Yeah, it's safe. Let me get out of here. >> Yeah, it's safe. Let me get out of here. Worst thing could happen. Worst thing could happen. Worst thing could happen. Started a spiral. She got to the point Started a spiral. She got to the point Started a spiral. She got to the point where she was going to [ __ ] can me like where she was going to [ __ ] can me like where she was going to [ __ ] can me like she was over it all inside of a year she was over it all inside of a year she was over it all inside of a year just like everybody else. And that's just like everybody else. And that's just like everybody else. And that's when I found out about Mexico. I began when I found out about Mexico. I began when I found out about Mexico. I began five and neod and all the things and five and neod and all the things and five and neod and all the things and that was really like her last call for that was really like her last call for that was really like her last call for prayer. If you love me, you'll go to prayer. If you love me, you'll go to prayer. If you love me, you'll go to Mexico and do psychedelics. Mexico and do psychedelics. Mexico and do psychedelics. >> She find it or you? >> She find it or you? >> She find it or you? >> She found it. >> She found it. >> She found it. >> No way. >> No way. >> No way. >> Mhm. She sent over to me. It was a >> Mhm. She sent over to me. It was a >> Mhm. She sent over to me. It was a friend of mine, Mark and Amber Capone. friend of mine, Mark and Amber Capone. friend of mine, Mark and Amber Capone. Amazing. We were in teams together and Amazing. We were in teams together and Amazing. We were in teams together and he went out to the west coast and he went out to the west coast and he went out to the west coast and started preaching the gospel about IBA started preaching the gospel about IBA started preaching the gospel about IBA and 5 MO and everybody on the east coast and 5 MO and everybody on the east coast and 5 MO and everybody on the east coast said the same thing. You know, we're all said the same thing. You know, we're all said the same thing. You know, we're all wearing car hearts and flannels dip in wearing car hearts and flannels dip in wearing car hearts and flannels dip in Copenhagen. Like typical West Coast. Copenhagen. Like typical West Coast. Copenhagen. Like typical West Coast. Yep. He left the East Coast. He left the Yep. He left the East Coast. He left the Yep. He left the East Coast. He left the motherland. He went out west and now motherland. He went out west and now motherland. He went out west and now he's crazy. No. he's crazy. No. he's crazy. No. I'm so glad I went. So glad I went. We I'm so glad I went. So glad I went. We I'm so glad I went. So glad I went. We sit there and we watch this little sit there and we watch this little sit there and we watch this little infomercial. We knew their whole story. infomercial. We knew their whole story. infomercial. We knew their whole story. Like we knew the ugly truth and Like we knew the ugly truth and Like we knew the ugly truth and everything they had been through. And he everything they had been through. And he everything they had been through. And he was so open, so honest, so transparent. was so open, so honest, so transparent. was so open, so honest, so transparent. You're like, You're like, You're like, "Okay, well, he seems okay. He seems "Okay, well, he seems okay. He seems "Okay, well, he seems okay. He seems like he's got a really good balance like he's got a really good balance like he's got a really good balance point." And you call him on the phone point." And you call him on the phone point." And you call him on the phone and he sounds amazing. and he sounds amazing. and he sounds amazing. He was one of those dudes back in the He was one of those dudes back in the He was one of those dudes back in the days when I knew him, his eyes were as days when I knew him, his eyes were as days when I knew him, his eyes were as black as your shirt. If you wanted to black as your shirt. If you wanted to black as your shirt. If you wanted to topple a regime with just a single topple a regime with just a single topple a regime with just a single individual, like no rules, no mercy, you individual, like no rules, no mercy, you individual, like no rules, no mercy, you just slaunch him. just slaunch him. just slaunch him. >> He was vicious. Like one of those things >> He was vicious. Like one of those things >> He was vicious. Like one of those things like [gasps] like [gasps] like [gasps] you you ever walk through the SPCA and you you ever walk through the SPCA and you you ever walk through the SPCA and you see these pit bulls face all scarred you see these pit bulls face all scarred you see these pit bulls face all scarred up. You're not going to stick your hand up. You're not going to stick your hand up. You're not going to stick your hand in that cage and try to pet it. That's in that cage and try to pet it. That's in that cage and try to pet it. That's what he was. He ain't like that anymore. what he was. He ain't like that anymore. what he was. He ain't like that anymore. He can still be that guy, but he has He can still be that guy, but he has He can still be that guy, but he has full control over it. And I think that's full control over it. And I think that's full control over it. And I think that's what everybody wanted. Like, I don't what everybody wanted. Like, I don't what everybody wanted. Like, I don't want to lose my edge. I don't want to be want to lose my edge. I don't want to be want to lose my edge. I don't want to be a pacifist. I don't want to regret a pacifist. I don't want to regret a pacifist. I don't want to regret everything I've done, but I can't everything I've done, but I can't everything I've done, but I can't control this version of me that I've now control this version of me that I've now control this version of me that I've now created. created. created. >> I just don't want to be at the mercy of >> I just don't want to be at the mercy of >> I just don't want to be at the mercy of it. it. it. >> Exactly. He found control. I mean, if I >> Exactly. He found control. I mean, if I >> Exactly. He found control. I mean, if I go down there and lick this poison dart go down there and lick this poison dart go down there and lick this poison dart frog or whatever they're doing, maybe frog or whatever they're doing, maybe frog or whatever they're doing, maybe it'll work for me. it'll work for me. it'll work for me. >> So, that's why I went. >> So, that's why I went. >> So, that's why I went. >> What was that experience like? >> What was that experience like? >> What was that experience like? Um, [snorts] Um, [snorts] Um, [snorts] my life was unraveling in the moment. my life was unraveling in the moment. my life was unraveling in the moment. Like Like Like everything that could be going wrong in everything that could be going wrong in everything that could be going wrong in my life was going wrong right then. Like my life was going wrong right then. Like my life was going wrong right then. Like everything. I was leading multiple everything. I was leading multiple everything. I was leading multiple affairs. One of the girls was pregnant. affairs. One of the girls was pregnant. affairs. One of the girls was pregnant. Everything that could be going wrong in Everything that could be going wrong in Everything that could be going wrong in my life was happening right then. At my life was happening right then. At my life was happening right then. At that moment, I went down to Mexico with that moment, I went down to Mexico with that moment, I went down to Mexico with no intention of coming back. I didn't no intention of coming back. I didn't no intention of coming back. I didn't want to. I have a picture on my phone want to. I have a picture on my phone want to. I have a picture on my phone post Mexico of me standing on a cliff's post Mexico of me standing on a cliff's post Mexico of me standing on a cliff's edge looking down about 80 feet, jagged edge looking down about 80 feet, jagged edge looking down about 80 feet, jagged rocks underneath it. I came this close rocks underneath it. I came this close rocks underneath it. I came this close to jumping. That's after Mexico. After to jumping. That's after Mexico. After to jumping. That's after Mexico. After because I knew what I was going home to. because I knew what I was going home to. because I knew what I was going home to. I was like, "This isn't going to work. I was like, "This isn't going to work. I was like, "This isn't going to work. I'm just going to jump. There's no I'm just going to jump. There's no I'm just going to jump. There's no reason if I slip in a fall right now, reason if I slip in a fall right now, reason if I slip in a fall right now, she'll get all my all my medical. She'll she'll get all my all my medical. She'll she'll get all my all my medical. She'll get my life insurance. It'll just be an get my life insurance. It'll just be an get my life insurance. It'll just be an accident because I am not going home to accident because I am not going home to accident because I am not going home to face this music." [gasps and snorts] face this music." [gasps and snorts] face this music." [gasps and snorts] But we went down there. I went down with But we went down there. I went down with But we went down there. I went down with a bunch of heavy hitters, probably a bunch of heavy hitters, probably a bunch of heavy hitters, probably eight, 10 guys. This little compound in eight, 10 guys. This little compound in eight, 10 guys. This little compound in Tijana, they had a bunch of team guys. Tijana, they had a bunch of team guys. Tijana, they had a bunch of team guys. We call it holding space. They're We call it holding space. They're We call it holding space. They're cooking the meals. They're sitting with cooking the meals. They're sitting with cooking the meals. They're sitting with you, kind of walking you all through it. you, kind of walking you all through it. you, kind of walking you all through it. But it's a 5-day process. But it's a 5-day process. But it's a 5-day process. [gasps] You get down the first day, they give You get down the first day, they give you a drug test, which is kind of you a drug test, which is kind of you a drug test, which is kind of ironic. They'll make sure you're not on ironic. They'll make sure you're not on ironic. They'll make sure you're not on aderall stimulus. So, you have to come aderall stimulus. So, you have to come aderall stimulus. So, you have to come off of all the meds. That was the thing off of all the meds. That was the thing off of all the meds. That was the thing that I didn't realize was going to be that I didn't realize was going to be that I didn't realize was going to be just like being back in that detox just like being back in that detox just like being back in that detox hospital coming off Simbalta. If you've hospital coming off Simbalta. If you've hospital coming off Simbalta. If you've ever been on ever been on ever been on >> What is that? >> What is that? >> What is that? >> It's an SSRI, but it's um it's really >> It's an SSRI, but it's um it's really >> It's an SSRI, but it's um it's really for pain management for everything else. for pain management for everything else. for pain management for everything else. But I was on that heavy doses of But I was on that heavy doses of But I was on that heavy doses of gabapentin. So when you're on that gabapentin. So when you're on that gabapentin. So when you're on that combination of gabapentin symbalta, they combination of gabapentin symbalta, they combination of gabapentin symbalta, they call it the jolt. When you come off of call it the jolt. When you come off of call it the jolt. When you come off of it, your nervous system starts firing it, your nervous system starts firing it, your nervous system starts firing again. So you'll sit there and you'll again. So you'll sit there and you'll again. So you'll sit there and you'll just do this. just do this. just do this. >> Just driving around just >> Just driving around just >> Just driving around just >> hypnic jerks in a way. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, >> hypnic jerks in a way. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, >> hypnic jerks in a way. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, >> but it's super frightening because you >> but it's super frightening because you >> but it's super frightening because you can't control it and you don't know can't control it and you don't know can't control it and you don't know they're coming on. So you like go to get they're coming on. So you like go to get they're coming on. So you like go to get a cup of coffee and you just jolt. She's a cup of coffee and you just jolt. She's a cup of coffee and you just jolt. She's like, "What the is going on with you?" like, "What the is going on with you?" like, "What the is going on with you?" And I was like, "I don't know. I don't And I was like, "I don't know. I don't And I was like, "I don't know. I don't know. It's happening." But now there's know. It's happening." But now there's know. It's happening." But now there's no Adderall, there's no stimulants, no Adderall, there's no stimulants, no Adderall, there's no stimulants, there's no pain meds, there's no there's no pain meds, there's no there's no pain meds, there's no ambient, there's nothing. So now I'm a ambient, there's nothing. So now I'm a ambient, there's nothing. So now I'm a shell of who I thought I was. And now I shell of who I thought I was. And now I shell of who I thought I was. And now I know I am really truly dependent on know I am really truly dependent on know I am really truly dependent on these meds. I was probably on [snorts] these meds. I was probably on [snorts] these meds. I was probably on [snorts] at the time I went down there probably at the time I went down there probably at the time I went down there probably 40 to 50. The overall I was taking 60 40 to 50. The overall I was taking 60 40 to 50. The overall I was taking 60 pills a day. We weaned off a couple of pills a day. We weaned off a couple of pills a day. We weaned off a couple of those things. The privac for nightmares, those things. The privac for nightmares, those things. The privac for nightmares, a couple of those things. But the core a couple of those things. But the core a couple of those things. But the core remained a lot of pills. remained a lot of pills. remained a lot of pills. >> This is after you'd been washed out of >> This is after you'd been washed out of >> This is after you'd been washed out of them previously. them previously. them previously. >> Yeah. Because a lot of them you have to >> Yeah. Because a lot of them you have to >> Yeah. Because a lot of them you have to stay on them. Like for them like you're stay on them. Like for them like you're stay on them. Like for them like you're never getting off aderall, you're never never getting off aderall, you're never never getting off aderall, you're never getting off symbolic, you're never getting off symbolic, you're never getting off symbolic, you're never getting off this, never getting off getting off this, never getting off getting off this, never getting off that. So we're still on them all. But that. So we're still on them all. But that. So we're still on them all. But now I have washed off of everything now I have washed off of everything now I have washed off of everything completely. And when you're truly sober completely. And when you're truly sober completely. And when you're truly sober for the first time, you get to realize for the first time, you get to realize for the first time, you get to realize the life you've lived and the injuries the life you've lived and the injuries the life you've lived and the injuries you've taken because now there's nothing you've taken because now there's nothing you've taken because now there's nothing masking it. masking it. masking it. Feeling myself get up in the morning was Feeling myself get up in the morning was Feeling myself get up in the morning was humbling, humbling, humbling, gimping around, limping, just everything gimping around, limping, just everything gimping around, limping, just everything hurt, fibromyalgia, I could barely hold hurt, fibromyalgia, I could barely hold hurt, fibromyalgia, I could barely hold a pencil, like hands just shaking all a pencil, like hands just shaking all a pencil, like hands just shaking all day. Like I was embarrassing from who I day. Like I was embarrassing from who I day. Like I was embarrassing from who I was a year and a half ago to who I am was a year and a half ago to who I am was a year and a half ago to who I am now, a shell. Like I don't want to deal now, a shell. Like I don't want to deal now, a shell. Like I don't want to deal with this, dude. I don't I didn't want with this, dude. I don't I didn't want with this, dude. I don't I didn't want to go to Mexico. I kind of went just to to go to Mexico. I kind of went just to to go to Mexico. I kind of went just to to shut her up, but yeah, I had no to shut her up, but yeah, I had no to shut her up, but yeah, I had no intention of going back. intention of going back. intention of going back. We get down there, they give you the We get down there, they give you the We get down there, they give you the piss test, you get one night to sleep. piss test, you get one night to sleep. piss test, you get one night to sleep. The very next day is you're going to do The very next day is you're going to do The very next day is you're going to do I gain. So, it comes from the AOGA plant I gain. So, it comes from the AOGA plant I gain. So, it comes from the AOGA plant in West Africa. Grind this little shrub. in West Africa. Grind this little shrub. in West Africa. Grind this little shrub. You take these two pills. You write down You take these two pills. You write down You take these two pills. You write down some nonsense on a piece of paper you some nonsense on a piece of paper you some nonsense on a piece of paper you want to burn like things you're trying want to burn like things you're trying want to burn like things you're trying to get rid of. And I can't write down to get rid of. And I can't write down to get rid of. And I can't write down any of my stuff because nobody in my any of my stuff because nobody in my any of my stuff because nobody in my group knows that I've been cheating on group knows that I've been cheating on group knows that I've been cheating on my wife. Nobody. They don't know I got a my wife. Nobody. They don't know I got a my wife. Nobody. They don't know I got a girl pregnant. They don't know any of girl pregnant. They don't know any of girl pregnant. They don't know any of this stuff. It's just me now. I dropped this stuff. It's just me now. I dropped this stuff. It's just me now. I dropped that thing in a fire. that thing in a fire. that thing in a fire. >> Can you remember what you wrote? >> Can you remember what you wrote? >> Can you remember what you wrote? >> Um >> Um >> Um self like what am I trying to get rid self like what am I trying to get rid self like what am I trying to get rid of? Myself. Dropped in the fire and let of? Myself. Dropped in the fire and let of? Myself. Dropped in the fire and let it go. [snorts] it go. [snorts] it go. [snorts] So we go upstairs. They have got this So we go upstairs. They have got this So we go upstairs. They have got this sound booth going. It's like these disco sound booth going. It's like these disco sound booth going. It's like these disco lights are going crazy. They've got this lights are going crazy. They've got this lights are going crazy. They've got this yoga practitioner in this white linen yoga practitioner in this white linen yoga practitioner in this white linen thing. She's gorgeous. But she's playing thing. She's gorgeous. But she's playing thing. She's gorgeous. But she's playing these bowls. She reminds me of Ursula, a these bowls. She reminds me of Ursula, a these bowls. She reminds me of Ursula, a Little Mermaid, just Little Mermaid, just Little Mermaid, just doing the whole thing. Like, it's a lot doing the whole thing. Like, it's a lot doing the whole thing. Like, it's a lot to take in. And for us, it's so out to take in. And for us, it's so out to take in. And for us, it's so out there. It's so foofoo. Like, you're there. It's so foofoo. Like, you're there. It's so foofoo. Like, you're looking around the room at all the looking around the room at all the looking around the room at all the people that are in there, and people that are in there, and people that are in there, and everybody's from your old line of work. everybody's from your old line of work. everybody's from your old line of work. You're like, did you ever think we'd be You're like, did you ever think we'd be You're like, did you ever think we'd be doing this [ __ ] Like, I'm so glad doing this [ __ ] Like, I'm so glad doing this [ __ ] Like, I'm so glad nobody knows we're down here. nobody knows we're down here. nobody knows we're down here. I lay back down. And if you ask the I lay back down. And if you ask the I lay back down. And if you ask the guys, I probably made it 15 minutes, guys, I probably made it 15 minutes, guys, I probably made it 15 minutes, started snoring, dead asleep, thought I started snoring, dead asleep, thought I started snoring, dead asleep, thought I was asleep. That's when the whole thing was asleep. That's when the whole thing was asleep. That's when the whole thing started to happen. And it's so weird started to happen. And it's so weird started to happen. And it's so weird because some guys don't see anything, because some guys don't see anything, because some guys don't see anything, but the medicine goes through your body but the medicine goes through your body but the medicine goes through your body regardless. It kills all your addictions regardless. It kills all your addictions regardless. It kills all your addictions in a single shot. I don't care if it's in a single shot. I don't care if it's in a single shot. I don't care if it's heroin, gambling, sex, porn, women, heroin, gambling, sex, porn, women, heroin, gambling, sex, porn, women, whatever it is, all your addictions are whatever it is, all your addictions are whatever it is, all your addictions are gone in a minute. So, I dipped, just for gone in a minute. So, I dipped, just for gone in a minute. So, I dipped, just for reference, I dipped two cans of reference, I dipped two cans of reference, I dipped two cans of Copenhagen every single day from the Copenhagen every single day from the Copenhagen every single day from the time I was 18 up until that morning. time I was 18 up until that morning. time I was 18 up until that morning. Every single day, I dipped two cans of Every single day, I dipped two cans of Every single day, I dipped two cans of Copenhagen when I woke up from Ivagane. Copenhagen when I woke up from Ivagane. Copenhagen when I woke up from Ivagane. I've never touched it again. I love I've never touched it again. I love I've never touched it again. I love Copenhagen. I would put in Copenhagen Copenhagen. I would put in Copenhagen Copenhagen. I would put in Copenhagen right now. I can't even get it to form right now. I can't even get it to form right now. I can't even get it to form in my mouth. It's like my body is in my mouth. It's like my body is in my mouth. It's like my body is autorejected. I can't do it. I miss it. autorejected. I can't do it. I miss it. autorejected. I can't do it. I miss it. I didn't drink coffee for 6 months. I I didn't drink coffee for 6 months. I I didn't drink coffee for 6 months. I want to drink coffee. I'd get it right want to drink coffee. I'd get it right want to drink coffee. I'd get it right through my mouth like, "No, I just through my mouth like, "No, I just through my mouth like, "No, I just wouldn't drink it." Weird. [snorts] wouldn't drink it." Weird. [snorts] wouldn't drink it." Weird. [snorts] So, I'm laying there. This whole So, I'm laying there. This whole So, I'm laying there. This whole experience starts to happen. You hear experience starts to happen. You hear experience starts to happen. You hear these bees buzzing, all this stuff. And these bees buzzing, all this stuff. And these bees buzzing, all this stuff. And I remember parts of the dream, and it'll I remember parts of the dream, and it'll I remember parts of the dream, and it'll it'll flash back every now and then, but it'll flash back every now and then, but it'll flash back every now and then, but it was like I was free falling through a it was like I was free falling through a it was like I was free falling through a vertical wind tunnel and these dresser vertical wind tunnel and these dresser vertical wind tunnel and these dresser drawers were opening up and they were drawers were opening up and they were drawers were opening up and they were just distant memories, but you could just distant memories, but you could just distant memories, but you could shift your body over and fly and fall shift your body over and fly and fall shift your body over and fly and fall into it. And now you're inside like as into it. And now you're inside like as into it. And now you're inside like as real as studioish. Like I could feel the real as studioish. Like I could feel the real as studioish. Like I could feel the temperature, the humidity, the weight of temperature, the humidity, the weight of temperature, the humidity, the weight of the t-shirt, everything. It was so the t-shirt, everything. It was so the t-shirt, everything. It was so bizarre. And you could just sit there bizarre. And you could just sit there bizarre. And you could just sit there and relive it. Like whatever's happening and relive it. Like whatever's happening and relive it. Like whatever's happening right now, I could just sit here, be in right now, I could just sit here, be in right now, I could just sit here, be in third person, just watch it. I could third person, just watch it. I could third person, just watch it. I could drop into who I am and watch the drop into who I am and watch the drop into who I am and watch the interaction. I could drop into the other interaction. I could drop into the other interaction. I could drop into the other point of view and live it through their point of view and live it through their point of view and live it through their eyes. Even if they're yelling at me or eyes. Even if they're yelling at me or eyes. Even if they're yelling at me or whatever, I could be them and feel the whatever, I could be them and feel the whatever, I could be them and feel the rage, understand why they were that mad rage, understand why they were that mad rage, understand why they were that mad and agree with them like, "You [ __ ] and agree with them like, "You [ __ ] and agree with them like, "You [ __ ] that up. You deserve that. I'd be doing that up. You deserve that. I'd be doing that up. You deserve that. I'd be doing the exact same thing." And it builds a the exact same thing." And it builds a the exact same thing." And it builds a lot of empathy. You're like, "I totally lot of empathy. You're like, "I totally lot of empathy. You're like, "I totally get it now. I get why you were so mad. I get it now. I get why you were so mad. I get it now. I get why you were so mad. I get why I did this. I get why I did get why I did this. I get why I did get why I did this. I get why I did that." And it made you come to terms that." And it made you come to terms that." And it made you come to terms with a lot of your mistakes. [gasps] with a lot of your mistakes. [gasps] with a lot of your mistakes. [gasps] That lasts for 16 hours. I mean like you That lasts for 16 hours. I mean like you That lasts for 16 hours. I mean like you are in you are in the medicine. I woke are in you are in the medicine. I woke are in you are in the medicine. I woke up the very next day and I have never up the very next day and I have never up the very next day and I have never wanted to teleport home so bad in my wanted to teleport home so bad in my wanted to teleport home so bad in my whole life. I've never been homesick. whole life. I've never been homesick. whole life. I've never been homesick. I've said I'm homesick. I don't get I've said I'm homesick. I don't get I've said I'm homesick. I don't get homesick. I don't. Now I get homesick homesick. I don't. Now I get homesick homesick. I don't. Now I get homesick cuz I've got a good relationship, but cuz I've got a good relationship, but cuz I've got a good relationship, but back then never. And that was the back then never. And that was the back then never. And that was the weirdest thing because I knew how much weirdest thing because I knew how much weirdest thing because I knew how much chaos was waiting for me back at home chaos was waiting for me back at home chaos was waiting for me back at home because all this stuff is going to because all this stuff is going to because all this stuff is going to unccork, right? She's going to find out unccork, right? She's going to find out unccork, right? She's going to find out about all this stuff. There's no other about all this stuff. There's no other about all this stuff. There's no other way around it. And that was really the way around it. And that was really the way around it. And that was really the realization is I'm going to have to go realization is I'm going to have to go realization is I'm going to have to go home and if she doesn't know I'm going home and if she doesn't know I'm going home and if she doesn't know I'm going to have to tell her [gasps] that's just to have to tell her [gasps] that's just to have to tell her [gasps] that's just not going to be met well. They give you not going to be met well. They give you not going to be met well. They give you a full period. It's called the gray day a full period. It's called the gray day a full period. It's called the gray day where you're kind of navigating the where you're kind of navigating the where you're kind of navigating the medicine. You do group circles and all medicine. You do group circles and all medicine. You do group circles and all this stuff. And we sit around this big this stuff. And we sit around this big this stuff. And we sit around this big group. I woke up at like 8:00 a.m. the group. I woke up at like 8:00 a.m. the group. I woke up at like 8:00 a.m. the next morning like fired up, ready to go. next morning like fired up, ready to go. next morning like fired up, ready to go. I'm chatty Kathy now. Like I didn't want I'm chatty Kathy now. Like I didn't want I'm chatty Kathy now. Like I didn't want to talk before. Now I want to talk. I to talk before. Now I want to talk. I to talk before. Now I want to talk. I want to know what happened to you inside want to know what happened to you inside want to know what happened to you inside of that medicine because the [ __ ] that of that medicine because the [ __ ] that of that medicine because the [ __ ] that happened to me I got to let out. We sit happened to me I got to let out. We sit happened to me I got to let out. We sit around that room and all the guys around that room and all the guys around that room and all the guys started talking and I'd known most of started talking and I'd known most of started talking and I'd known most of these guys for my entire career. Like my these guys for my entire career. Like my these guys for my entire career. Like my best friend was in there, my business best friend was in there, my business best friend was in there, my business partners were in there. I mean like we partners were in there. I mean like we partners were in there. I mean like we really know each other and only a couple really know each other and only a couple really know each other and only a couple dudes knew how bad it was. Like I mean I dudes knew how bad it was. Like I mean I dudes knew how bad it was. Like I mean I had episodes while I was still active had episodes while I was still active had episodes while I was still active where I was sitting in my guest room where I was sitting in my guest room where I was sitting in my guest room with a trash bag sitting next to me. I with a trash bag sitting next to me. I with a trash bag sitting next to me. I was going to put over my head and shoot was going to put over my head and shoot was going to put over my head and shoot myself in the head to not make a mess so myself in the head to not make a mess so myself in the head to not make a mess so she could resell the house. Like I've she could resell the house. Like I've she could resell the house. Like I've told that in confidence to several told that in confidence to several told that in confidence to several people. They were all in that room and people. They were all in that room and people. They were all in that room and they were like, "Oh man, I'm so sorry. they were like, "Oh man, I'm so sorry. they were like, "Oh man, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I can't believe that was I'm so sorry. I can't believe that was I'm so sorry. I can't believe that was happening to you." Blah, blah, blah. happening to you." Blah, blah, blah. happening to you." Blah, blah, blah. That next morning, me too. Me too. Me That next morning, me too. Me too. Me That next morning, me too. Me too. Me too. And I was pissed. I was like, too. And I was pissed. I was like, too. And I was pissed. I was like, "You're going to let me shoot myself in "You're going to let me shoot myself in "You're going to let me shoot myself in my guest room and you were never going my guest room and you were never going my guest room and you were never going to say me too. What's going on with to say me too. What's going on with to say me too. What's going on with you?" And they start to open up and they you?" And they start to open up and they you?" And they start to open up and they start to talk about past trauma, start to talk about past trauma, start to talk about past trauma, childhood stuff, sexual abuse, childhood stuff, sexual abuse, childhood stuff, sexual abuse, everything. everything. everything. You've been carrying that for 40 years. You've been carrying that for 40 years. You've been carrying that for 40 years. He's like, "My wife doesn't know. My He's like, "My wife doesn't know. My He's like, "My wife doesn't know. My kids don't know. My parents don't know." kids don't know. My parents don't know." kids don't know. My parents don't know." Oh, you start to see the correlation, Oh, you start to see the correlation, Oh, you start to see the correlation, the compartmentalization to the ultra the compartmentalization to the ultra the compartmentalization to the ultra extreme. Like at a certain point, you extreme. Like at a certain point, you extreme. Like at a certain point, you have to be able to share something and have to be able to share something and have to be able to share something and we got so used to just not doing it, you we got so used to just not doing it, you we got so used to just not doing it, you just held it inside. [snorts and gasps] just held it inside. [snorts and gasps] just held it inside. [snorts and gasps] Then you do 5 MO DMT. You ever done five Then you do 5 MO DMT. You ever done five Then you do 5 MO DMT. You ever done five emo DMT? You should. emo DMT? You should. emo DMT? You should. You should. It's not like anything on You should. It's not like anything on You should. It's not like anything on this planet. It is uh it's super fast. this planet. It is uh it's super fast. this planet. It is uh it's super fast. It takes no time to build up, but they It takes no time to build up, but they It takes no time to build up, but they set you down and it's supposed to be a set you down and it's supposed to be a set you down and it's supposed to be a purge. And knowing everything I know purge. And knowing everything I know purge. And knowing everything I know now, and I've been down quite a few now, and I've been down quite a few now, and I've been down quite a few times now, and I've taken guys down and times now, and I've taken guys down and times now, and I've taken guys down and hosted a medicine forum. hosted a medicine forum. hosted a medicine forum. Everything that conjured up from Ibegan, Everything that conjured up from Ibegan, Everything that conjured up from Ibegan, if I would not have done 5 MO and I if I would not have done 5 MO and I if I would not have done 5 MO and I would have went home in that state, I would have went home in that state, I would have went home in that state, I probably wouldn't be here. probably wouldn't be here. probably wouldn't be here. I had not come to terms and accepted I had not come to terms and accepted I had not come to terms and accepted everything that I did. I wanted to go everything that I did. I wanted to go everything that I did. I wanted to go home and confess and do all this stuff. home and confess and do all this stuff. home and confess and do all this stuff. I was disgusted at myself. every every vile thing I had ever said every every vile thing I had ever said to my wife or my kids or relationships I to my wife or my kids or relationships I to my wife or my kids or relationships I had sacrificed and compartmentalization had sacrificed and compartmentalization had sacrificed and compartmentalization I felt so guilty for it and it was like I felt so guilty for it and it was like I felt so guilty for it and it was like that yard of beer just trauma was coming that yard of beer just trauma was coming that yard of beer just trauma was coming out of my mouth and it's like out of my mouth and it's like out of my mouth and it's like you know those moments where you're you know those moments where you're you know those moments where you're sitting there brushing your teeth sitting there brushing your teeth sitting there brushing your teeth looking yourself in the mirror and looking yourself in the mirror and looking yourself in the mirror and you're like DJ I can't believe you've you're like DJ I can't believe you've you're like DJ I can't believe you've done this done this done this >> I can't believe this is your reality >> I can't believe this is your reality >> I can't believe this is your reality like you've actually done this and you like you've actually done this and you like you've actually done this and you have to live with this [ __ ] now how how have to live with this [ __ ] now how how have to live with this [ __ ] now how how did you get so far off track from where did you get so far off track from where did you get so far off track from where you were to this point now and you you were to this point now and you you were to this point now and you sitting there literally staring in the sitting there literally staring in the sitting there literally staring in the mirror just like this in disbelief like mirror just like this in disbelief like mirror just like this in disbelief like I can't believe you [ __ ] did this I can't believe you [ __ ] did this I can't believe you [ __ ] did this like this is you're really going to have like this is you're really going to have like this is you're really going to have to live through this [gasps] to live through this [gasps] to live through this [gasps] I can't I can't do it I can't I can't do it I can't I can't do it >> I don't want to go home I don't want to >> I don't want to go home I don't want to >> I don't want to go home I don't want to look at her I don't want to break her look at her I don't want to break her look at her I don't want to break her heart I don't want to lose the things I heart I don't want to lose the things I heart I don't want to lose the things I have right now I don't want to face have right now I don't want to face have right now I don't want to face reality and it kind of gets you worked reality and it kind of gets you worked reality and it kind of gets you worked up in a five me DMT and we laid back up in a five me DMT and we laid back up in a five me DMT and we laid back there and you smoke out of this crap there and you smoke out of this crap there and you smoke out of this crap crackpipe and it looks so intimidating. crackpipe and it looks so intimidating. crackpipe and it looks so intimidating. Like it's in a little glass vial. I Like it's in a little glass vial. I Like it's in a little glass vial. I mean, you're heating up like you're mean, you're heating up like you're mean, you're heating up like you're smoking a crack rock and as soon as you smoking a crack rock and as soon as you smoking a crack rock and as soon as you lay your head back when you exhale, it's lay your head back when you exhale, it's lay your head back when you exhale, it's like your whole body consolidates into a like your whole body consolidates into a like your whole body consolidates into a single spark and then it explodes. It single spark and then it explodes. It single spark and then it explodes. It feels and it looks like, you know, when feels and it looks like, you know, when feels and it looks like, you know, when Star Trek is taking off those trails, Star Trek is taking off those trails, Star Trek is taking off those trails, it's like that. And then you end up in it's like that. And then you end up in it's like that. And then you end up in stratosphere just surrounded by stratosphere just surrounded by stratosphere just surrounded by whatever. It is the craziest thing. But whatever. It is the craziest thing. But whatever. It is the craziest thing. But the guy told me when you go, he's like, the guy told me when you go, he's like, the guy told me when you go, he's like, "Hey, whatever happens, let it happen. "Hey, whatever happens, let it happen. "Hey, whatever happens, let it happen. If you think you're going to die, die. If you think you're going to die, die. If you think you're going to die, die. If you think you're going to explode, If you think you're going to explode, If you think you're going to explode, explode. If you think you're going to explode. If you think you're going to explode. If you think you're going to drown, just drown. Just one big exhale drown, just drown. Just one big exhale drown, just drown. Just one big exhale and let it take you." In the moment, you and let it take you." In the moment, you and let it take you." In the moment, you don't do that. In the moment, you're don't do that. In the moment, you're don't do that. In the moment, you're like, you're trying to hold on to it. like, you're trying to hold on to it. like, you're trying to hold on to it. Hold on to it. So, I would throw my arms Hold on to it. So, I would throw my arms Hold on to it. So, I would throw my arms out. I would scream and then I'd ball up out. I would scream and then I'd ball up out. I would scream and then I'd ball up and I'd cry. 10, 15 minutes of like the and I'd cry. 10, 15 minutes of like the and I'd cry. 10, 15 minutes of like the ugliest crying you've ever seen. ugliest crying you've ever seen. ugliest crying you've ever seen. Uncontrollable like throwing up. Crying Uncontrollable like throwing up. Crying Uncontrollable like throwing up. Crying like cry. so hard you throw up. I woke like cry. so hard you throw up. I woke like cry. so hard you throw up. I woke up and I sit up and he looked at me and up and I sit up and he looked at me and up and I sit up and he looked at me and he went that wasn't it. [laughter] he went that wasn't it. [laughter] he went that wasn't it. [laughter] What do you mean that wasn't it? Like What do you mean that wasn't it? Like What do you mean that wasn't it? Like that was everything I had. He's like, that was everything I had. He's like, that was everything I had. He's like, "Hit him again." I was like, [laughter] "Hit him again." I was like, [laughter] "Hit him again." I was like, [laughter] "You want me to do that again?" He's "You want me to do that again?" He's "You want me to do that again?" He's like, "Hit him again." I did six rounds like, "Hit him again." I did six rounds like, "Hit him again." I did six rounds of that dude back to back to back over of that dude back to back to back over of that dude back to back to back over and over. And on the sixth one, this and over. And on the sixth one, this and over. And on the sixth one, this nurse came over, little Mexican nurse, nurse came over, little Mexican nurse, nurse came over, little Mexican nurse, super cool. And it was a team guy super cool. And it was a team guy super cool. And it was a team guy sitting off to my left or right. And sitting off to my left or right. And sitting off to my left or right. And he's like, "You want to die, right?" I he's like, "You want to die, right?" I he's like, "You want to die, right?" I said, "Yeah." He goes, "Then kill said, "Yeah." He goes, "Then kill said, "Yeah." He goes, "Then kill yourself. Do it right now with the yourself. Do it right now with the yourself. Do it right now with the medicine. Like, stop messing around. medicine. Like, stop messing around. medicine. Like, stop messing around. Stop with all the theatrics. Stop Stop with all the theatrics. Stop Stop with all the theatrics. Stop crying. Just do it. Kill yourself right crying. Just do it. Kill yourself right crying. Just do it. Kill yourself right now." now." now." It is true. I don't want to go home. I It is true. I don't want to go home. I It is true. I don't want to go home. I don't want to confess this. I am. I I'll don't want to confess this. I am. I I'll don't want to confess this. I am. I I'll do it right now. I'm going to smoke this do it right now. I'm going to smoke this do it right now. I'm going to smoke this with the intention to kill myself and with the intention to kill myself and with the intention to kill myself and I'm going to hold my breath until it I'm going to hold my breath until it I'm going to hold my breath until it kills me cuz I'm not going home. kills me cuz I'm not going home. kills me cuz I'm not going home. >> Give me that thing again. And now I went >> Give me that thing again. And now I went >> Give me that thing again. And now I went through with the intention I'm going to through with the intention I'm going to through with the intention I'm going to close this whole chapter out. So I close this whole chapter out. So I close this whole chapter out. So I envisioned the smoke was purple. And as envisioned the smoke was purple. And as envisioned the smoke was purple. And as I'm smoking this thing, I can feel it I'm smoking this thing, I can feel it I'm smoking this thing, I can feel it going through my whole body. I'm trying going through my whole body. I'm trying going through my whole body. I'm trying to push it down to my tippy toes. I'm to push it down to my tippy toes. I'm to push it down to my tippy toes. I'm trying to coat my whole self. I held trying to coat my whole self. I held trying to coat my whole self. I held back and I held that thing as long as I back and I held that thing as long as I back and I held that thing as long as I could. I could feel my eyes starting to could. I could feel my eyes starting to could. I could feel my eyes starting to flutter. Like it's really coming on. It flutter. Like it's really coming on. It flutter. Like it's really coming on. It feels like there's a It feels like feels like there's a It feels like feels like there's a It feels like there's a cell phone this big behind there's a cell phone this big behind there's a cell phone this big behind your sternum and the whole thing starts your sternum and the whole thing starts your sternum and the whole thing starts to vibrate and you're like, you can't to vibrate and you're like, you can't to vibrate and you're like, you can't take it anymore. Soon as you exhale, the take it anymore. Soon as you exhale, the take it anymore. Soon as you exhale, the whole blastoff happens. And when that whole blastoff happens. And when that whole blastoff happens. And when that one happened, it killed me. Killed my one happened, it killed me. Killed my one happened, it killed me. Killed my ego. It reset the whole baseline. And ego. It reset the whole baseline. And ego. It reset the whole baseline. And when I opened up from that one, she when I opened up from that one, she when I opened up from that one, she looked at me and goes, "That was it. How looked at me and goes, "That was it. How looked at me and goes, "That was it. How you feel now?" And I was like, "I've got you feel now?" And I was like, "I've got you feel now?" And I was like, "I've got to get home. I got to get home right to get home. I got to get home right to get home. I got to get home right now. I got to see my old lady. Got to now. I got to see my old lady. Got to now. I got to see my old lady. Got to see my old lady. Got to see my girls see my old lady. Got to see my girls see my old lady. Got to see my girls right now. I've got to get home. Got to right now. I've got to get home. Got to right now. I've got to get home. Got to get home right now." get home right now." get home right now." And then everything else kind of fell And then everything else kind of fell And then everything else kind of fell apart from there. And we brought it all apart from there. And we brought it all apart from there. And we brought it all back together. And back together. And back together. And it was rough, man. It was so rough. It it was rough, man. It was so rough. It it was rough, man. It was so rough. It was so worth it though. If I wouldn't was so worth it though. If I wouldn't was so worth it though. If I wouldn't have gone down there, I wouldn't be here have gone down there, I wouldn't be here have gone down there, I wouldn't be here 100%. There's not a chance. 100%. There's not a chance. 100%. There's not a chance. Not a chance. Not a chance. Not a chance. You got to go. You got to try. You got to go. You got to try. You got to go. You got to try. [laughter] You got to go. [laughter] You got to go. [laughter] You got to go. >> You're really not selling it to me, >> You're really not selling it to me, >> You're really not selling it to me, >> bro. >> bro. >> bro. >> Okay, let's say somebody's somebody's >> Okay, let's say somebody's somebody's >> Okay, let's say somebody's somebody's listening and they go, I'm not on 60 listening and they go, I'm not on 60 listening and they go, I'm not on 60 meds a day. meds a day. meds a day. >> You don't need to be. >> You don't need to be. >> You don't need to be. >> I'm not >> I'm not >> I'm not ex war veteran with a ton of PTSD from ex war veteran with a ton of PTSD from ex war veteran with a ton of PTSD from being shot out and shooting at people being shot out and shooting at people being shot out and shooting at people and stuff like I don't have PTSD from and stuff like I don't have PTSD from and stuff like I don't have PTSD from that at all. Not an ounce of my that at all. Not an ounce of my that at all. Not an ounce of my experience, not a single piece of it had experience, not a single piece of it had experience, not a single piece of it had anything in the military. It went from anything in the military. It went from anything in the military. It went from my childhood zero to 16. Gapped it and my childhood zero to 16. Gapped it and my childhood zero to 16. Gapped it and it picked me up when I transitioned up. it picked me up when I transitioned up. it picked me up when I transitioned up. Gap the entire experience. I've been Gap the entire experience. I've been Gap the entire experience. I've been down I've done I four or five times and down I've done I four or five times and down I've done I four or five times and five DMT. I've never had a military five DMT. I've never had a military five DMT. I've never had a military experience ever. Nothing. Trauma is experience ever. Nothing. Trauma is experience ever. Nothing. Trauma is trauma. The last time I went down with trauma. The last time I went down with trauma. The last time I went down with co-ed, males, females, civilians, women, co-ed, males, females, civilians, women, co-ed, males, females, civilians, women, everybody, everybody's on the exact same everybody, everybody's on the exact same everybody, everybody's on the exact same path. You got trauma, that's how you get path. You got trauma, that's how you get path. You got trauma, that's how you get through it. That is 15, 20 years of through it. That is 15, 20 years of through it. That is 15, 20 years of therapy in 5 days. It's unreal. therapy in 5 days. It's unreal. therapy in 5 days. It's unreal. >> We've recently seen Trump sign that bill >> We've recently seen Trump sign that bill >> We've recently seen Trump sign that bill to FastTrack research and he's got to FastTrack research and he's got to FastTrack research and he's got literally got X seals stood around him. literally got X seals stood around him. literally got X seals stood around him. >> Did you not watch our film? >> Did you not watch our film? >> Did you not watch our film? >> Okay. So, Marks and Amber, they're all >> Okay. So, Marks and Amber, they're all >> Okay. So, Marks and Amber, they're all part of that thing. They're really one part of that thing. They're really one part of that thing. They're really one that kicked off that whole initiative. that kicked off that whole initiative. that kicked off that whole initiative. We did a documentary, it's on Netflix, We did a documentary, it's on Netflix, We did a documentary, it's on Netflix, called in Ways in War. And that's really called in Ways in War. And that's really called in Ways in War. And that's really where the whole thing started from. where the whole thing started from. where the whole thing started from. Everybody got hooked up on there and got Everybody got hooked up on there and got Everybody got hooked up on there and got a bunch of Green Berets and a bunch of a bunch of Green Berets and a bunch of a bunch of Green Berets and a bunch of regular military fighter pilots are all regular military fighter pilots are all regular military fighter pilots are all in there and we just keep success after in there and we just keep success after in there and we just keep success after success after success and you see it and success after success and you see it and success after success and you see it and you're like, [gasps and sighs] why are you're like, [gasps and sighs] why are you're like, [gasps and sighs] why are we not doing this? They've been doing it we not doing this? They've been doing it we not doing this? They've been doing it for thousands of years. Like, why are we for thousands of years. Like, why are we for thousands of years. Like, why are we not letting us go? And it's often a not letting us go? And it's often a not letting us go? And it's often a bunch of spillover stuff from the 50s, bunch of spillover stuff from the 50s, bunch of spillover stuff from the 50s, 60s, and 70s. Psychedelics are bad and 60s, and 70s. Psychedelics are bad and 60s, and 70s. Psychedelics are bad and they'll rot your brain. And they'll rot your brain. And they'll rot your brain. And I don't know, man. I But I know it I don't know, man. I But I know it I don't know, man. I But I know it works. And I know that I'm not on a works. And I know that I'm not on a works. And I know that I'm not on a single medication. Nothing. Not a pain single medication. Nothing. Not a pain single medication. Nothing. Not a pain pill, not an SSRI, not an ambient, pill, not an SSRI, not an ambient, pill, not an SSRI, not an ambient, nothing. nothing. nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. >> What do you think happened? >> What do you think happened? >> What do you think happened? >> It killed everything I had inside me >> It killed everything I had inside me >> It killed everything I had inside me that was bad. [gasps] that was bad. [gasps] that was bad. [gasps] All my addictions, everything. So, I'm All my addictions, everything. So, I'm All my addictions, everything. So, I'm not addicted to anything. Anything I do not addicted to anything. Anything I do not addicted to anything. Anything I do now, it's because I want to, which isn't now, it's because I want to, which isn't now, it's because I want to, which isn't necessarily always a good thing because necessarily always a good thing because necessarily always a good thing because I like to do some bad [ __ ] too. But it I like to do some bad [ __ ] too. But it I like to do some bad [ __ ] too. But it resets the whole baseline. Like resets the whole baseline. Like resets the whole baseline. Like everything that I was struggling with, everything that I was struggling with, everything that I was struggling with, it swiped it all away. That becomes an it swiped it all away. That becomes an it swiped it all away. That becomes an issue if you try to reintegrate. And issue if you try to reintegrate. And issue if you try to reintegrate. And that's what I tell the guys now. The that's what I tell the guys now. The that's what I tell the guys now. The version of me that came back from Mexico version of me that came back from Mexico version of me that came back from Mexico was so far out from the person my wife was so far out from the person my wife was so far out from the person my wife had become accustomed to for the last 10 had become accustomed to for the last 10 had become accustomed to for the last 10 years, years, years, >> she didn't believe it. >> she didn't believe it. >> she didn't believe it. If you watch the film, you'll get to see If you watch the film, you'll get to see If you watch the film, you'll get to see it in real time. When I was going it in real time. When I was going it in real time. When I was going through the Ibegan, my wife hacked my through the Ibegan, my wife hacked my through the Ibegan, my wife hacked my phone and found out about all the phone and found out about all the phone and found out about all the affairs simultaneous. So I don't have my affairs simultaneous. So I don't have my affairs simultaneous. So I don't have my cell phone for 5 days. So the whole time cell phone for 5 days. So the whole time cell phone for 5 days. So the whole time I'm going through, she's getting lawyers I'm going through, she's getting lawyers I'm going through, she's getting lawyers and divorcing me. Boxed all my stuff, and divorcing me. Boxed all my stuff, and divorcing me. Boxed all my stuff, took it to the shop, dropped it off, took it to the shop, dropped it off, took it to the shop, dropped it off, drove divorce papers. drove divorce papers. drove divorce papers. >> A hell of a reintegration. >> A hell of a reintegration. >> A hell of a reintegration. >> Cousin got an ultrasound photo. She's >> Cousin got an ultrasound photo. She's >> Cousin got an ultrasound photo. She's got it all. She saw everything I had got it all. She saw everything I had got it all. She saw everything I had done. Now action. So when I come out of done. Now action. So when I come out of done. Now action. So when I come out of the medicine, they give you your cell the medicine, they give you your cell the medicine, they give you your cell phone right before you cross the border. phone right before you cross the border. phone right before you cross the border. They give you a little script to say They give you a little script to say They give you a little script to say like, "Hey, I'm like, "Hey, I'm like, "Hey, I'm I'm so happy to be on the other side of I'm so happy to be on the other side of I'm so happy to be on the other side of the medicine. I can't wait to come home the medicine. I can't wait to come home the medicine. I can't wait to come home and see you and explain everything. It's and see you and explain everything. It's and see you and explain everything. It's just too much to put into a text or into just too much to put into a text or into just too much to put into a text or into a phone call, so I'd rather just not a phone call, so I'd rather just not a phone call, so I'd rather just not talk until I see you live." That's what talk until I see you live." That's what talk until I see you live." That's what you're supposed to say. So everybody you're supposed to say. So everybody you're supposed to say. So everybody goes out, they all call their wives. goes out, they all call their wives. goes out, they all call their wives. Hey, hey, hey. Straight to voicemail. Hey, hey, hey. Straight to voicemail. Hey, hey, hey. Straight to voicemail. Like, well, typical. Like my wife never Like, well, typical. Like my wife never Like, well, typical. Like my wife never answers her phone anyway. Text her, answers her phone anyway. Text her, answers her phone anyway. Text her, doesn't go through. doesn't go through. doesn't go through. Call her. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Call her. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Call her. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Like 3 4 hours. Nothing. Like 3 4 hours. Nothing. Like 3 4 hours. Nothing. I'm getting ready to fly home. We're I'm getting ready to fly home. We're I'm getting ready to fly home. We're going from San Diego to Atlanta. Atlanta going from San Diego to Atlanta. Atlanta going from San Diego to Atlanta. Atlanta to Norfol. We leave. We land in Atlanta. to Norfol. We leave. We land in Atlanta. to Norfol. We leave. We land in Atlanta. As soon as I power my phone in Atlanta, As soon as I power my phone in Atlanta, As soon as I power my phone in Atlanta, I get a notification. The password your I get a notification. The password your I get a notification. The password your Instagram has been changed. Instagram has been changed. Instagram has been changed. And I flick it over and it's my ghost And I flick it over and it's my ghost And I flick it over and it's my ghost account. I'm like, account. I'm like, account. I'm like, [sighs] now the password email has been [sighs] now the password email has been [sighs] now the password email has been changed. I was like, "Oh no changed. I was like, "Oh no changed. I was like, "Oh no [ __ ] I'm not even going to have a [ __ ] I'm not even going to have a [ __ ] I'm not even going to have a chance to tell her now." Like, now chance to tell her now." Like, now chance to tell her now." Like, now there's no integration. Now I've lost there's no integration. Now I've lost there's no integration. Now I've lost everything. I went out to Mexico. I've everything. I went out to Mexico. I've everything. I went out to Mexico. I've got this new version of myself, but I'll got this new version of myself, but I'll got this new version of myself, but I'll never be able to show it to her. never be able to show it to her. never be able to show it to her. >> She's not taking me back after this. And >> She's not taking me back after this. And >> She's not taking me back after this. And then everything kind of went from there. then everything kind of went from there. then everything kind of went from there. Dicey, dude. Dicey. >> You want to hear about it? >> You want to hear about it? [clears throat] [clears throat] [clears throat] >> We land [snorts] in Norfol. We drive >> We land [snorts] in Norfol. We drive >> We land [snorts] in Norfol. We drive into the shop. into the shop. into the shop. I get out, my other two business I get out, my other two business I get out, my other two business partners time. All their families are partners time. All their families are partners time. All their families are out there, all the employees are out out there, all the employees are out out there, all the employees are out there, hugs and kisses, and I can feel there, hugs and kisses, and I can feel there, hugs and kisses, and I can feel the tension. The other wives know, a the tension. The other wives know, a the tension. The other wives know, a couple of the employees, they know couple of the employees, they know couple of the employees, they know because they've seen my wife bringing in because they've seen my wife bringing in because they've seen my wife bringing in boxes for the last 3 days stacked in my boxes for the last 3 days stacked in my boxes for the last 3 days stacked in my office. Still haven't got a hold of her, office. Still haven't got a hold of her, office. Still haven't got a hold of her, but I'm still not totally sure. Like, but I'm still not totally sure. Like, but I'm still not totally sure. Like, there's a chance that by some freak there's a chance that by some freak there's a chance that by some freak mystery. mystery. mystery. And then I get into the building and I And then I get into the building and I And then I get into the building and I walk upstairs and I open up my office walk upstairs and I open up my office walk upstairs and I open up my office and I mean floor two to ceiling. There and I mean floor two to ceiling. There and I mean floor two to ceiling. There must have been 25, 30 boxes. Everyone must have been 25, 30 boxes. Everyone must have been 25, 30 boxes. Everyone was perfectly folded. Socks, underwear, was perfectly folded. Socks, underwear, was perfectly folded. Socks, underwear, black t-shirts, normal t-shirts, jeans, black t-shirts, normal t-shirts, jeans, black t-shirts, normal t-shirts, jeans, this, this, milit, everything I own was this, this, milit, everything I own was this, this, milit, everything I own was in those boxes. in those boxes. in those boxes. Like Like Like I looked over and the other two wives I looked over and the other two wives I looked over and the other two wives are standing out there with my two are standing out there with my two are standing out there with my two business partners. I'm like, what's business partners. I'm like, what's business partners. I'm like, what's going on? They have no idea. I just going on? They have no idea. I just going on? They have no idea. I just looked him. I was like, looked him. I was like, looked him. I was like, gave him a hug, kissed him on the cheek. gave him a hug, kissed him on the cheek. gave him a hug, kissed him on the cheek. I was like, "See you on Monday." Fist I was like, "See you on Monday." Fist I was like, "See you on Monday." Fist bump knowing I was never going to see bump knowing I was never going to see bump knowing I was never going to see him on Monday. Went straight downstairs. him on Monday. Went straight downstairs. him on Monday. Went straight downstairs. We got a big armory. Grabbed my pistol, We got a big armory. Grabbed my pistol, We got a big armory. Grabbed my pistol, shoved in my waistband, jumped in my shoved in my waistband, jumped in my shoved in my waistband, jumped in my truck, and drove. Got in my car, and I truck, and drove. Got in my car, and I truck, and drove. Got in my car, and I was driving out to um it's a private was driving out to um it's a private was driving out to um it's a private beach on the back side of this military beach on the back side of this military beach on the back side of this military base. We used to have a house. We lived base. We used to have a house. We lived base. We used to have a house. We lived out there. It's a oneshot road, and it's out there. It's a oneshot road, and it's out there. It's a oneshot road, and it's probably about a 20-minute drive, and I probably about a 20-minute drive, and I probably about a 20-minute drive, and I was probably 10 minutes into this drive, was probably 10 minutes into this drive, was probably 10 minutes into this drive, and it terminates. It's a dead end. and it terminates. It's a dead end. and it terminates. It's a dead end. and she was tracking my cell phone. We and she was tracking my cell phone. We and she was tracking my cell phone. We had share my iPhone so she knew where I had share my iPhone so she knew where I had share my iPhone so she knew where I was going. And I got about 10 minutes was going. And I got about 10 minutes was going. And I got about 10 minutes down and she called my phone and my down and she called my phone and my down and she called my phone and my heart rate is at 190. It's like I can't heart rate is at 190. It's like I can't heart rate is at 190. It's like I can't pick it up. And I almost didn't. It's pick it up. And I almost didn't. It's pick it up. And I almost didn't. It's like like like pick it up and I was like hello. She pick it up and I was like hello. She pick it up and I was like hello. She goes, "Where are you and what are you goes, "Where are you and what are you goes, "Where are you and what are you doing?" And I said, "Paty, I I doing?" And I said, "Paty, I I doing?" And I said, "Paty, I I don't have the strength in me. I don't don't have the strength in me. I don't don't have the strength in me. I don't have the strength to see you right now." have the strength to see you right now." have the strength to see you right now." And she's like, "Where are you going?" I And she's like, "Where are you going?" I And she's like, "Where are you going?" I said, "I don't want to talk about it. said, "I don't want to talk about it. said, "I don't want to talk about it. Um, I'm just so [ __ ] sorry." And I Um, I'm just so [ __ ] sorry." And I Um, I'm just so [ __ ] sorry." And I hung up the phone. hung up the phone. hung up the phone. Made it down there and backed into a Made it down there and backed into a Made it down there and backed into a parking spot and I put on a song and I parking spot and I put on a song and I parking spot and I put on a song and I told myself at the end of the song, as told myself at the end of the song, as told myself at the end of the song, as soon as it was done, I was going to get soon as it was done, I was going to get soon as it was done, I was going to get out. I was going to walk down the beach out. I was going to walk down the beach out. I was going to walk down the beach to the water's edge, waste deep water. I to the water's edge, waste deep water. I to the water's edge, waste deep water. I was going to shoot myself in the head, was going to shoot myself in the head, was going to shoot myself in the head, close the whole thing out, and just be close the whole thing out, and just be close the whole thing out, and just be done. No goodbye, no sad story, no done. No goodbye, no sad story, no done. No goodbye, no sad story, no nothing. Just let me close this thing nothing. Just let me close this thing nothing. Just let me close this thing out and be done. And as soon as I backed out and be done. And as soon as I backed out and be done. And as soon as I backed in, she had already told two or three of in, she had already told two or three of in, she had already told two or three of the wives that lived on that road that I the wives that lived on that road that I the wives that lived on that road that I was driving down there. They had jumped was driving down there. They had jumped was driving down there. They had jumped out with their husbands and had flanked out with their husbands and had flanked out with their husbands and had flanked me and were staged all around the me and were staged all around the me and were staged all around the vehicle cuz they didn't know what I was vehicle cuz they didn't know what I was vehicle cuz they didn't know what I was going to do. I guess they were going to going to do. I guess they were going to going to do. I guess they were going to try to apprehend me or something. try to apprehend me or something. try to apprehend me or something. >> What was the song he chose? >> What was the song he chose? >> What was the song he chose? >> Experience by Ludico. >> Experience by Ludico. >> Experience by Ludico. You ever heard it? You ever heard it? You ever heard it? >> Yeah, you have. Guaranteed. We'll put it >> Yeah, you have. Guaranteed. We'll put it >> Yeah, you have. Guaranteed. We'll put it in a little bit. Um, in a little bit. Um, in a little bit. Um, that song had probably, that song had probably, that song had probably, God, man, 30 seconds left, maybe, maybe God, man, 30 seconds left, maybe, maybe God, man, 30 seconds left, maybe, maybe 30 seconds left. And she called again 30 seconds left. And she called again 30 seconds left. And she called again and I looked up and she was right there and I looked up and she was right there and I looked up and she was right there driving down the road. It's like, oh, driving down the road. It's like, oh, driving down the road. It's like, oh, [ __ ] Sit on the back of my truck, got a [ __ ] Sit on the back of my truck, got a [ __ ] Sit on the back of my truck, got a pistol right next to me, just waiting pistol right next to me, just waiting pistol right next to me, just waiting for the song. Then, here we go. She for the song. Then, here we go. She for the song. Then, here we go. She pulls right up, walks over. pulls right up, walks over. pulls right up, walks over. I've never seen anybody as strong as I've never seen anybody as strong as I've never seen anybody as strong as her, ever. and she walked right up, her, ever. and she walked right up, her, ever. and she walked right up, opened my legs up and walked up opened my legs up and walked up opened my legs up and walked up essentially crotch to crotch and leaned essentially crotch to crotch and leaned essentially crotch to crotch and leaned over and pulled my sunglasses off and over and pulled my sunglasses off and over and pulled my sunglasses off and then exploded in hysteria. My eyes were then exploded in hysteria. My eyes were then exploded in hysteria. My eyes were crystal clear. They were green for the crystal clear. They were green for the crystal clear. They were green for the first time in a decade. She saw it. She first time in a decade. She saw it. She first time in a decade. She saw it. She knew that something had happened and we knew that something had happened and we knew that something had happened and we just laid there or stood there held each just laid there or stood there held each just laid there or stood there held each other and just baldled and she backed up other and just baldled and she backed up other and just baldled and she backed up and she goes, "How the [ __ ] could you do and she goes, "How the [ __ ] could you do and she goes, "How the [ __ ] could you do this to me?" this to me?" this to me?" I don't know. I don't know. I don't have I don't know. I don't know. I don't have I don't know. I don't know. I don't have any excuse. [gasps] any excuse. [gasps] any excuse. [gasps] went through the whole thing and you I went through the whole thing and you I went through the whole thing and you I told her I was like, "I know there's no told her I was like, "I know there's no told her I was like, "I know there's no way we're gonna work this out. I know way we're gonna work this out. I know way we're gonna work this out. I know there's no way you're ever going to let there's no way you're ever going to let there's no way you're ever going to let me see my kids again. I know this. I me see my kids again. I know this. I me see my kids again. I know this. I know this. I know this. Um I just want know this. I know this. Um I just want know this. I know this. Um I just want an opportunity to say goodbye to them." an opportunity to say goodbye to them." an opportunity to say goodbye to them." And And And she said, "DJ, we've come so far right she said, "DJ, we've come so far right she said, "DJ, we've come so far right now. Like, we've been through so much now. Like, we've been through so much now. Like, we've been through so much together. We've been together since I together. We've been together since I together. We've been together since I was 22. We've been through so much right was 22. We've been through so much right was 22. We've been through so much right now. We don't have to stay married. You now. We don't have to stay married. You now. We don't have to stay married. You can't close this out right now. can't close this out right now. can't close this out right now. We'll solve it tomorrow. We'll solve it tomorrow. We'll solve it tomorrow. Let's go. Get in the car. Let's go home. Let's go. Get in the car. Let's go home. Let's go. Get in the car. Let's go home. Let's see the girls. Let's pretend like Let's see the girls. Let's pretend like Let's see the girls. Let's pretend like this hasn't happened and we'll deal with this hasn't happened and we'll deal with this hasn't happened and we'll deal with it tomorrow. Let's not ruin this for it tomorrow. Let's not ruin this for it tomorrow. Let's not ruin this for them. They're excited to see you. Let's them. They're excited to see you. Let's them. They're excited to see you. Let's just we'll shelf it. She put all that just we'll shelf it. She put all that just we'll shelf it. She put all that [ __ ] on the back burner. [ __ ] on the back burner. [ __ ] on the back burner. Right after that, she goes, "But before Right after that, she goes, "But before Right after that, she goes, "But before we do, we do, we do, I want to hear it. I want to hear I want to hear it. I want to hear I want to hear it. I want to hear everything. everything. everything. Everything. What? Every detail. Every Everything. What? Every detail. Every Everything. What? Every detail. Every ounce of it. every single person, every ounce of it. every single person, every ounce of it. every single person, every single date, tell me everything right single date, tell me everything right single date, tell me everything right now. That way, I never have to ask you now. That way, I never have to ask you now. That way, I never have to ask you again. [snorts] again. [snorts] again. [snorts] [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] [sighs and gasps] And I did. We sat down and we went And I did. We sat down and we went And I did. We sat down and we went through everything I had done, all the through everything I had done, all the through everything I had done, all the affairs, everything. And we got through affairs, everything. And we got through affairs, everything. And we got through it right then. We went back home that it right then. We went back home that it right then. We went back home that night, reintegrated with the kids, and night, reintegrated with the kids, and night, reintegrated with the kids, and we sat down on the edge of my bed, and I we sat down on the edge of my bed, and I we sat down on the edge of my bed, and I scrolled to my phone, and every person scrolled to my phone, and every person scrolled to my phone, and every person who was of conflict or potential who was of conflict or potential who was of conflict or potential conflict, I blocked and deleted their conflict, I blocked and deleted their conflict, I blocked and deleted their contact. everybody, family members, contact. everybody, family members, contact. everybody, family members, anybody, anybody who had been toxic in anybody, anybody who had been toxic in anybody, anybody who had been toxic in my life that I've been trying to foster my life that I've been trying to foster my life that I've been trying to foster that relationship or anything else. No that relationship or anything else. No that relationship or anything else. No different than SEAL teams. I need to different than SEAL teams. I need to different than SEAL teams. I need to control the controllables. And right control the controllables. And right control the controllables. And right now, all of this is a bandwidth suck. now, all of this is a bandwidth suck. now, all of this is a bandwidth suck. And I'm not doing it ever again. That And I'm not doing it ever again. That And I'm not doing it ever again. That one guy that every time he calls, my one guy that every time he calls, my one guy that every time he calls, my heart kind of drops a little bit like, heart kind of drops a little bit like, heart kind of drops a little bit like, God, what does this guy want? Block and God, what does this guy want? Block and God, what does this guy want? Block and delete. Block and delete. Probably 150 delete. Block and delete. Probably 150 delete. Block and delete. Probably 150 people gone. And then I told her, I was people gone. And then I told her, I was people gone. And then I told her, I was like, we don't have to stay married. We like, we don't have to stay married. We like, we don't have to stay married. We can get divorced. We can do whatever we can get divorced. We can do whatever we can get divorced. We can do whatever we want to. I'm just asking you for one want to. I'm just asking you for one want to. I'm just asking you for one singular day to show you that I've singular day to show you that I've singular day to show you that I've changed and then the day I don't I want changed and then the day I don't I want changed and then the day I don't I want you to [ __ ] can me as soon as it you to [ __ ] can me as soon as it you to [ __ ] can me as soon as it happens. We went and signed paperwork, happens. We went and signed paperwork, happens. We went and signed paperwork, signed a postnup, all this stuff. I'm signed a postnup, all this stuff. I'm signed a postnup, all this stuff. I'm like, as soon as I do anything, she's like, as soon as I do anything, she's like, as soon as I do anything, she's got the house, she's got this, all my got the house, she's got this, all my got the house, she's got this, all my assets, giving her take it all. I don't assets, giving her take it all. I don't assets, giving her take it all. I don't want a single thing. I just want one want a single thing. I just want one want a single thing. I just want one day. And I take it set I take it one day day. And I take it set I take it one day day. And I take it set I take it one day at a time every single day. It's been at a time every single day. It's been at a time every single day. It's been the greatest thing to ever happen to us. the greatest thing to ever happen to us. the greatest thing to ever happen to us. We our relationship is so badass now. If We our relationship is so badass now. If We our relationship is so badass now. If if you sit in a room with me and her if you sit in a room with me and her if you sit in a room with me and her together, we'll be your two favorite together, we'll be your two favorite together, we'll be your two favorite people. She is a [ __ ] unicorn, man. people. She is a [ __ ] unicorn, man. people. She is a [ __ ] unicorn, man. She is. She is truly my best friend now. She is. She is truly my best friend now. She is. She is truly my best friend now. And I feel so guilty because I put her And I feel so guilty because I put her And I feel so guilty because I put her on the back burner for so long because I on the back burner for so long because I on the back burner for so long because I knew that I could. knew that I could. knew that I could. >> She never left, never strayed away. She >> She never left, never strayed away. She >> She never left, never strayed away. She is the ultimate team wife. And I just I is the ultimate team wife. And I just I is the ultimate team wife. And I just I refuse to see it for the longest time. refuse to see it for the longest time. refuse to see it for the longest time. That is the thing that haunts me now. I That is the thing that haunts me now. I That is the thing that haunts me now. I don't have any PTSD. don't have any PTSD. don't have any PTSD. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> People like, "Oh, thank you for your >> People like, "Oh, thank you for your >> People like, "Oh, thank you for your service." Like, "Don't think of me for service." Like, "Don't think of me for service." Like, "Don't think of me for my service. Like, I would have paid to my service. Like, I would have paid to my service. Like, I would have paid to do that job." Like, "Oh, you must be so do that job." Like, "Oh, you must be so do that job." Like, "Oh, you must be so torn up on the things you had to do." torn up on the things you had to do." torn up on the things you had to do." Like, no, no, not a bit. I I loved every Like, no, no, not a bit. I I loved every Like, no, no, not a bit. I I loved every ounce of it. Even the bad stuff, I loved ounce of it. Even the bad stuff, I loved ounce of it. Even the bad stuff, I loved it. I loved the people I sacrificed to it. I loved the people I sacrificed to it. I loved the people I sacrificed to be able to do the selfish things I be able to do the selfish things I be able to do the selfish things I wanted to do. Her most of all hard, man. wanted to do. Her most of all hard, man. wanted to do. Her most of all hard, man. But I'll tell you what, that medicine But I'll tell you what, that medicine But I'll tell you what, that medicine that is that's the only reason. You that is that's the only reason. You that is that's the only reason. You don't get to navigate through that with don't get to navigate through that with don't get to navigate through that with marriage counseling and talk therapy and marriage counseling and talk therapy and marriage counseling and talk therapy and date nights every Tuesday. That ain't date nights every Tuesday. That ain't date nights every Tuesday. That ain't going to get you through that. It's not. going to get you through that. It's not. going to get you through that. It's not. And that was our big conflict is I had And that was our big conflict is I had And that was our big conflict is I had changed so much over those 5 days that changed so much over those 5 days that changed so much over those 5 days that she thought it was [ __ ] she thought it was [ __ ] she thought it was [ __ ] >> She's like, "There's no way. You went >> She's like, "There's no way. You went >> She's like, "There's no way. You went from that guy to this guy in 5 days." from that guy to this guy in 5 days." from that guy to this guy in 5 days." Like, I don't know how else to show you Like, I don't know how else to show you Like, I don't know how else to show you except you got to go do a journey. I got except you got to go do a journey. I got except you got to go do a journey. I got her to go down and do psilocybin and her to go down and do psilocybin and her to go down and do psilocybin and fibio DMT. fibio DMT. fibio DMT. >> Why the why not the ibane? >> Why the why not the ibane? >> Why the why not the ibane? >> She thought I gain would be too strong >> She thought I gain would be too strong >> She thought I gain would be too strong for her. I'm going to get her to go do I for her. I'm going to get her to go do I for her. I'm going to get her to go do I gain with me. We're going to do a gain with me. We're going to do a gain with me. We're going to do a couple's journey together at some point, couple's journey together at some point, couple's journey together at some point, but I got her to do but I got her to do but I got her to do essentially the same people. essentially the same people. essentially the same people. >> Psilocybin 5 MO and then we did it one >> Psilocybin 5 MO and then we did it one >> Psilocybin 5 MO and then we did it one together with psilocybin MDMA and 5 MO. together with psilocybin MDMA and 5 MO. together with psilocybin MDMA and 5 MO. By the time we finished those, she knew By the time we finished those, she knew By the time we finished those, she knew exactly what it was. She's like, "He's exactly what it was. She's like, "He's exactly what it was. She's like, "He's changed for sure." She's like, "You changed for sure." She's like, "You changed for sure." She's like, "You can't." Like, I just did psilocybin and can't." Like, I just did psilocybin and can't." Like, I just did psilocybin and she is so different from the person she she is so different from the person she she is so different from the person she was that everything made sense. Now, was that everything made sense. Now, was that everything made sense. Now, >> why are you continuing to go back to do >> why are you continuing to go back to do >> why are you continuing to go back to do more I gain if you think that you've more I gain if you think that you've more I gain if you think that you've already made the realizations that you already made the realizations that you already made the realizations that you needed. needed. needed. >> The second time I went down there is >> The second time I went down there is >> The second time I went down there is because I was taking somebody else. One because I was taking somebody else. One because I was taking somebody else. One of my buddies really on a struggle bus of my buddies really on a struggle bus of my buddies really on a struggle bus about to end it all and I was like, about to end it all and I was like, about to end it all and I was like, "Hey, man. I'll go with you." I had no "Hey, man. I'll go with you." I had no "Hey, man. I'll go with you." I had no intention of doing the medicine with intention of doing the medicine with intention of doing the medicine with him. And when I got down there, he's him. And when I got down there, he's him. And when I got down there, he's like, "What do you mean you're not gonna like, "What do you mean you're not gonna like, "What do you mean you're not gonna do it?" I'll do it. Give it to me. I do it?" I'll do it. Give it to me. I do it?" I'll do it. Give it to me. I threw it right down. No prep, no warm threw it right down. No prep, no warm threw it right down. No prep, no warm up, and just send it. [laughter] I was up, and just send it. [laughter] I was up, and just send it. [laughter] I was like, "Hey, man. I I told you like like, "Hey, man. I I told you like like, "Hey, man. I I told you like there's nothing to be afraid of." Like there's nothing to be afraid of." Like there's nothing to be afraid of." Like >> the cold bar I became. >> the cold bar I became. >> the cold bar I became. >> Send it. I've gone down there two or >> Send it. I've gone down there two or >> Send it. I've gone down there two or three times to host. Like you'll cook three times to host. Like you'll cook three times to host. Like you'll cook meals, you'll dish into it. meals, you'll dish into it. meals, you'll dish into it. >> And then this last time we did it for >> And then this last time we did it for >> And then this last time we did it for the film, I had a buddy of mine that got the film, I had a buddy of mine that got the film, I had a buddy of mine that got shot up really bad on my second shot up really bad on my second shot up really bad on my second deployment. He's like an idol to me. And deployment. He's like an idol to me. And deployment. He's like an idol to me. And he was just struggling really, really he was just struggling really, really he was just struggling really, really hard, man. And I convinced him to go hard, man. And I convinced him to go hard, man. And I convinced him to go down there. And I told him, I was like, down there. And I told him, I was like, down there. And I told him, I was like, I'll stop whatever I am doing. It's in I'll stop whatever I am doing. It's in I'll stop whatever I am doing. It's in the film, but I was like, "Anything. I the film, but I was like, "Anything. I the film, but I was like, "Anything. I don't care what I'm doing. If I'm gonna don't care what I'm doing. If I'm gonna don't care what I'm doing. If I'm gonna [ __ ] Rogan and you call me, I'll get [ __ ] Rogan and you call me, I'll get [ __ ] Rogan and you call me, I'll get up in the middle of the interview. I'll up in the middle of the interview. I'll up in the middle of the interview. I'll fly to San Diego and we'll go together." fly to San Diego and we'll go together." fly to San Diego and we'll go together." And he did. I I couldn't believe he did. And he did. I I couldn't believe he did. And he did. I I couldn't believe he did. He called me. He goes, "Whenever you're He called me. He goes, "Whenever you're He called me. He goes, "Whenever you're ready, I'm ready to go." ready, I'm ready to go." ready, I'm ready to go." How Saturday? He's like, "If you'll fly How Saturday? He's like, "If you'll fly How Saturday? He's like, "If you'll fly out here, I'll go." I was on a plane in out here, I'll go." I was on a plane in out here, I'll go." I was on a plane in 24 hours. I flew out there, took him 24 hours. I flew out there, took him 24 hours. I flew out there, took him down to Mexico, did the whole thing. down to Mexico, did the whole thing. down to Mexico, did the whole thing. >> It's funny they were on a hair trigger >> It's funny they were on a hair trigger >> It's funny they were on a hair trigger alert to go and kill people around the alert to go and kill people around the alert to go and kill people around the world for quite a while. in your hair world for quite a while. in your hair world for quite a while. in your hair trigger alert to go and save people and trigger alert to go and save people and trigger alert to go and save people and I began now. I began now. I began now. >> Amen. Like I get so much more benefit >> Amen. Like I get so much more benefit >> Amen. Like I get so much more benefit out of saving people through mental out of saving people through mental out of saving people through mental health than I ever did killing people. health than I ever did killing people. health than I ever did killing people. And I love killing people. Best job And I love killing people. Best job And I love killing people. Best job you'll ever have. But now, you know, he you'll ever have. But now, you know, he you'll ever have. But now, you know, he got through that whole experience and got through that whole experience and got through that whole experience and then we made it probably another year then we made it probably another year then we made it probably another year and a half and he was ready to go again. and a half and he was ready to go again. and a half and he was ready to go again. And it's the same thing. He's like, I And it's the same thing. He's like, I And it's the same thing. He's like, I don't know if I could do it again. I'll don't know if I could do it again. I'll don't know if I could do it again. I'll send it. It's all right. We went down send it. It's all right. We went down send it. It's all right. We went down again. I flew [snorts] out to San Diego again. I flew [snorts] out to San Diego again. I flew [snorts] out to San Diego and I I cold called him and I was like, and I I cold called him and I was like, and I I cold called him and I was like, "Hey, man. Do you remember when you said "Hey, man. Do you remember when you said "Hey, man. Do you remember when you said you needed me to go to Mexico with you? you needed me to go to Mexico with you? you needed me to go to Mexico with you? He's like, "Yeah, I'm in San Diego. The He's like, "Yeah, I'm in San Diego. The He's like, "Yeah, I'm in San Diego. The bus leaves for Mexico in 30 minutes. bus leaves for Mexico in 30 minutes. bus leaves for Mexico in 30 minutes. Don't let me down." He did. His Don't let me down." He did. His Don't let me down." He did. His girlfriend dropped him off, gave him to girlfriend dropped him off, gave him to girlfriend dropped him off, gave him to me. Nothing but a backpack. We went down me. Nothing but a backpack. We went down me. Nothing but a backpack. We went down to Mexico and he's never been better. to Mexico and he's never been better. to Mexico and he's never been better. I don't know, man. But I do know that I don't know, man. But I do know that I don't know, man. But I do know that it's magic. When you take that medicine, it's magic. When you take that medicine, it's magic. When you take that medicine, you cannot believe it grows in the you cannot believe it grows in the you cannot believe it grows in the earth. You can't believe it. I can't earth. You can't believe it. I can't earth. You can't believe it. I can't believe that people been using that for believe that people been using that for believe that people been using that for thousands of years and it has not been thousands of years and it has not been thousands of years and it has not been more mainstream. You can't quantify it. more mainstream. You can't quantify it. more mainstream. You can't quantify it. There's nothing on this planet. I've There's nothing on this planet. I've There's nothing on this planet. I've taken every drug there is everything. taken every drug there is everything. taken every drug there is everything. I've taken a bunch of weird stuff too I've taken a bunch of weird stuff too I've taken a bunch of weird stuff too during the transition. There's nothing during the transition. There's nothing during the transition. There's nothing like that. Every ounce of your addiction like that. Every ounce of your addiction like that. Every ounce of your addiction is gone instantly. It's crazy. is gone instantly. It's crazy. is gone instantly. It's crazy. >> What about for people who don't have >> What about for people who don't have >> What about for people who don't have addictions? addictions? addictions? >> Everybody has addictions. Sometimes it's >> Everybody has addictions. Sometimes it's >> Everybody has addictions. Sometimes it's your own ego. Whatever you have going your own ego. Whatever you have going your own ego. Whatever you have going on, depression, suicide, ideation, on, depression, suicide, ideation, on, depression, suicide, ideation, substance abuse, women, whatever it is, substance abuse, women, whatever it is, substance abuse, women, whatever it is, whatever your thing is, you just don't whatever your thing is, you just don't whatever your thing is, you just don't feel right anymore, feel right anymore, feel right anymore, I'd go do that. I'd go do that. I'd go do that. >> What's the case for not doing it? >> What's the case for not doing it? >> What's the case for not doing it? [snorts and gasps] [snorts and gasps] [snorts and gasps] >> If you're not healthy enough to do it, >> If you're not healthy enough to do it, >> If you're not healthy enough to do it, you got some pre-existing heart you got some pre-existing heart you got some pre-existing heart condition, you weigh 500 lb, can't go do condition, you weigh 500 lb, can't go do condition, you weigh 500 lb, can't go do it because it drops your heart rate it because it drops your heart rate it because it drops your heart rate really, really low. Like I got a low really, really low. Like I got a low really, really low. Like I got a low heart rate anyway, like in the low 40s heart rate anyway, like in the low 40s heart rate anyway, like in the low 40s and mine drops in the and mine drops in the and mine drops in the high 30s. I mean, it drops low. high 30s. I mean, it drops low. high 30s. I mean, it drops low. But man, I'm telling you, But man, I'm telling you, But man, I'm telling you, >> how many people come out and have had uh >> how many people come out and have had uh >> how many people come out and have had uh an experience that's so difficult that an experience that's so difficult that an experience that's so difficult that they're not themselves anymore in a bad they're not themselves anymore in a bad they're not themselves anymore in a bad way? Because I've heard about this way? Because I've heard about this way? Because I've heard about this psychic fracturing, why people take LSD psychic fracturing, why people take LSD psychic fracturing, why people take LSD or psilocybin, even THC can do this for or psilocybin, even THC can do this for or psilocybin, even THC can do this for some people. >> I've never seen that happen unless >> I've never seen that happen unless people reintegrate back into the same people reintegrate back into the same people reintegrate back into the same toxic situation. So, that's what I toxic situation. So, that's what I toxic situation. So, that's what I really try to encourage guys now. really try to encourage guys now. really try to encourage guys now. If you think you can go down and take If you think you can go down and take If you think you can go down and take these four pills I gain and smoke around these four pills I gain and smoke around these four pills I gain and smoke around a DMT and go back to that same toxic a DMT and go back to that same toxic a DMT and go back to that same toxic marriage and go back to drinking a marriage and go back to drinking a marriage and go back to drinking a 12-pack a day and it's going to iron 12-pack a day and it's going to iron 12-pack a day and it's going to iron out, it won't. So that's what a lot of out, it won't. So that's what a lot of out, it won't. So that's what a lot of guys don't realize is you get a lot of guys don't realize is you get a lot of guys don't realize is you get a lot of guys come back from there and they get guys come back from there and they get guys come back from there and they get they get divorced. They realize like they get divorced. They realize like they get divorced. They realize like I've been married to this toxic chick I've been married to this toxic chick I've been married to this toxic chick who hasn't been my partner for 20 years. who hasn't been my partner for 20 years. who hasn't been my partner for 20 years. They get back there and they're like it They get back there and they're like it They get back there and they're like it has been you. has been you. has been you. >> I've been miserable this whole time not >> I've been miserable this whole time not >> I've been miserable this whole time not because of me but because of you. And because of me but because of you. And because of me but because of you. And they get divorced and they flourish. or they get divorced and they flourish. or they get divorced and they flourish. or they come back and they realize that they come back and they realize that they come back and they realize that their addictions got there. Alcohol got their addictions got there. Alcohol got their addictions got there. Alcohol got there. Most of the guys quit drinking there. Most of the guys quit drinking there. Most of the guys quit drinking completely. Like Rob quit drinking completely. Like Rob quit drinking completely. Like Rob quit drinking completely. Like I was professional completely. Like I was professional completely. Like I was professional alcoholic for a long time and it doesn't alcoholic for a long time and it doesn't alcoholic for a long time and it doesn't serve you. It's not a superfood. It's serve you. It's not a superfood. It's serve you. It's not a superfood. It's not going to make you better. I'm about not going to make you better. I'm about not going to make you better. I'm about social drinking. Like I enjoy consuming social drinking. Like I enjoy consuming social drinking. Like I enjoy consuming alcohol. I just don't do it right now alcohol. I just don't do it right now alcohol. I just don't do it right now for variety of different reasons. for variety of different reasons. for variety of different reasons. But if you do the work, especially the But if you do the work, especially the But if you do the work, especially the work going up to it, talking with the work going up to it, talking with the work going up to it, talking with the therapist, really getting your mind therapist, really getting your mind therapist, really getting your mind right, really really thinking about your right, really really thinking about your right, really really thinking about your intention of what you're trying to get intention of what you're trying to get intention of what you're trying to get accomplished and really lean in heavy accomplished and really lean in heavy accomplished and really lean in heavy like no different going to a yoga like no different going to a yoga like no different going to a yoga retreat. Like really really live it like retreat. Like really really live it like retreat. Like really really live it like be a method actor like if Dana de Lewis be a method actor like if Dana de Lewis be a method actor like if Dana de Lewis was going to take IBA live it like that. was going to take IBA live it like that. was going to take IBA live it like that. The benefit far outweighs the risk. It The benefit far outweighs the risk. It The benefit far outweighs the risk. It just does. I could not imagine not just does. I could not imagine not just does. I could not imagine not having it. I couldn't imagine. having it. I couldn't imagine. having it. I couldn't imagine. You got to go. I'll go with you. You got to go. I'll go with you. You got to go. I'll go with you. >> [ __ ] you, dude. >> [ __ ] you, dude. >> [ __ ] you, dude. >> You me Huberman? Come on, baby. I told >> You me Huberman? Come on, baby. I told >> You me Huberman? Come on, baby. I told him the same thing. I was like, "You him the same thing. I was like, "You him the same thing. I was like, "You want to go down there? I'll snap my want to go down there? I'll snap my want to go down there? I'll snap my fingers. I'll get you down there." fingers. I'll get you down there." fingers. I'll get you down there." >> I've been talking to him. I mean, he uh >> I've been talking to him. I mean, he uh >> I've been talking to him. I mean, he uh he know he's been he know he's been he know he's been >> Conor McGregor just went. >> Conor McGregor just went. >> Conor McGregor just went. >> That is a really interesting one. So, I >> That is a really interesting one. So, I >> That is a really interesting one. So, I knew I knew first secondhand thirdand knew I knew first secondhand thirdand knew I knew first secondhand thirdand that Connor had gone. that Connor had gone. that Connor had gone. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> Mhm. >> And then >> And then >> And then I had it in the back of my mind. I was I had it in the back of my mind. I was I had it in the back of my mind. I was like, hm. like, hm. like, hm. I heard that the way that he was I heard that the way that he was I heard that the way that he was convinced to get across there wasn't convinced to get across there wasn't convinced to get across there wasn't that he was going to go and do I gain. I that he was going to go and do I gain. I that he was going to go and do I gain. I also heard that he didn't have a also heard that he didn't have a also heard that he didn't have a particularly good wash out period in particularly good wash out period in particularly good wash out period in advance of it. advance of it. advance of it. >> Uh, now >> Uh, now >> Uh, now what was interesting was what was interesting was what was interesting was that video, a bunch of videos that were that video, a bunch of videos that were that video, a bunch of videos that were on Twitter went pretty viral of Connor on Twitter went pretty viral of Connor on Twitter went pretty viral of Connor coming back. I have been saved. The Lord coming back. I have been saved. The Lord coming back. I have been saved. The Lord has spoken to me and da da da da. And I has spoken to me and da da da da. And I has spoken to me and da da da da. And I was like, was like, was like, that's my beginning talking. that's my beginning talking. that's my beginning talking. >> Everybody's like that when they get >> Everybody's like that when they get >> Everybody's like that when they get back. Everybody wants to become a back. Everybody wants to become a back. Everybody wants to become a psychic healer. Like they want to do all psychic healer. Like they want to do all psychic healer. Like they want to do all this weird. They they just do it. this weird. They they just do it. this weird. They they just do it. >> I'll be honest. 50% of the people that >> I'll be honest. 50% of the people that >> I'll be honest. 50% of the people that leave Ibagain, they get their coaching leave Ibagain, they get their coaching leave Ibagain, they get their coaching license license license >> to integrate people either >> to integrate people either >> to integrate people either pre-integration or post integration. pre-integration or post integration. pre-integration or post integration. >> Well, you've done it. And I mean, you're >> Well, you've done it. And I mean, you're >> Well, you've done it. And I mean, you're front end of the funnel for it now, front end of the funnel for it now, front end of the funnel for it now, right? right? right? >> Yeah. I mean, I didn't go to any I don't >> Yeah. I mean, I didn't go to any I don't >> Yeah. I mean, I didn't go to any I don't want to go down the rabbit hole with the want to go down the rabbit hole with the want to go down the rabbit hole with the whole I don't do the whole coaching whole I don't do the whole coaching whole I don't do the whole coaching thing, but I mean I've coached dozens of thing, but I mean I've coached dozens of thing, but I mean I've coached dozens of people to go down there now. people to go down there now. people to go down there now. >> Yep. >> Yep. >> Yep. >> Because I I know it works. I mean, I've >> Because I I know it works. I mean, I've >> Because I I know it works. I mean, I've tried everything. I've done so eight tried everything. I've done so eight tried everything. I've done so eight ganglen blocks. I mean, 14inch needles. ganglen blocks. I mean, 14inch needles. ganglen blocks. I mean, 14inch needles. >> I've done I've done two SGBs. >> I've done I've done two SGBs. >> I've done I've done two SGBs. >> I've done I've done everything. I've >> I've done I've done everything. I've >> I've done I've done everything. I've done everything that you could possibly done everything that you could possibly done everything that you could possibly do. do. do. >> [ __ ] nollie. >> [ __ ] nollie. >> [ __ ] nollie. >> Yeah, right. It >> Yeah, right. It >> Yeah, right. It >> That's better. That one actually worked. >> That's better. That one actually worked. >> That's better. That one actually worked. >> Still gangling block didn't do anything >> Still gangling block didn't do anything >> Still gangling block didn't do anything for me except give me a droopy eye for for me except give me a droopy eye for for me except give me a droopy eye for eight hours. eight hours. eight hours. >> It is kind of funny. The droopy eye is >> It is kind of funny. The droopy eye is >> It is kind of funny. The droopy eye is funny. Yeah, it funny. Yeah, it funny. Yeah, it >> Do you get both sides? Do you one after >> Do you get both sides? Do you one after >> Do you get both sides? Do you one after the other or do you just get one? the other or do you just get one? the other or do you just get one? >> You would have done it on separate days. >> You would have done it on separate days. >> You would have done it on separate days. You wouldn't have done them together. You wouldn't have done them together. You wouldn't have done them together. >> I did three total. >> I did three total. >> I did three total. >> You must have got both sides. There's no >> You must have got both sides. There's no >> You must have got both sides. There's no way that they would have done three on way that they would have done three on way that they would have done three on the same side. the same side. the same side. >> No, no, they didn't three on the same >> No, no, they didn't three on the same >> No, no, they didn't three on the same side. side. side. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Um, dude, [snorts] I didn't feel much >> Um, dude, [snorts] I didn't feel much >> Um, dude, [snorts] I didn't feel much benefit, but I was also heavy doped out benefit, but I was also heavy doped out benefit, but I was also heavy doped out then, too. then, too. then, too. >> That might have managed to counteract it >> That might have managed to counteract it >> That might have managed to counteract it a little bit. a little bit. a little bit. >> Yeah, >> Yeah, >> Yeah, >> it was an interesting one for me with >> it was an interesting one for me with >> it was an interesting one for me with the the stellar. One thing that I wish I the the stellar. One thing that I wish I the the stellar. One thing that I wish I hadn't done, I was using laughing gas. hadn't done, I was using laughing gas. hadn't done, I was using laughing gas. those knocks while it was happening. And those knocks while it was happening. And those knocks while it was happening. And uh I wish that I hadn't cuz I wish I was uh I wish that I hadn't cuz I wish I was uh I wish that I hadn't cuz I wish I was able to uh like feel the onset more. able to uh like feel the onset more. able to uh like feel the onset more. >> Um that transition I think would have >> Um that transition I think would have >> Um that transition I think would have been interesting. But uh I mean you're been interesting. But uh I mean you're been interesting. But uh I mean you're not able to think about much when you're not able to think about much when you're not able to think about much when you're like like like sucking on a hookah that's filled with sucking on a hookah that's filled with sucking on a hookah that's filled with [ __ ] NOS. [ __ ] NOS. [ __ ] NOS. >> Um >> Um >> Um >> do you remember the needle going in? >> do you remember the needle going in? >> do you remember the needle going in? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> The pop. >> The pop. >> The pop. >> Yeah. [gasps] >> Yeah. [gasps] >> Yeah. [gasps] >> Dicey. >> Dicey. >> Dicey. >> That'll wake you up. >> That'll wake you up. >> That'll wake you up. >> Dicey. He came in. He broke that needle >> Dicey. He came in. He broke that needle >> Dicey. He came in. He broke that needle out and showed it to me. I was like, out and showed it to me. I was like, out and showed it to me. I was like, "You're going to shove that through my "You're going to shove that through my "You're going to shove that through my throat." And he's like, "Oh, yeah. It's throat." And he's like, "Oh, yeah. It's throat." And he's like, "Oh, yeah. It's fine. I got it up on the TV screen." fine. I got it up on the TV screen." fine. I got it up on the TV screen." >> Yeah. Yeah. You can watch it. I was I >> Yeah. Yeah. You can watch it. I was I >> Yeah. Yeah. You can watch it. I was I was turned face to the ultrasound was turned face to the ultrasound was turned face to the ultrasound watching homeboy sloted in between two watching homeboy sloted in between two watching homeboy sloted in between two vertebrae. Um vertebrae. Um vertebrae. Um >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. It's fun. Uh one thing one thing >> Yeah. It's fun. Uh one thing one thing >> Yeah. It's fun. Uh one thing one thing that I did get from that which was that I did get from that which was that I did get from that which was interesting, uh my HIV went up by about interesting, uh my HIV went up by about interesting, uh my HIV went up by about 40% overnight and it held for months. 40% overnight and it held for months. 40% overnight and it held for months. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> Wow. >> That was pretty interesting. May also >> That was pretty interesting. May also >> That was pretty interesting. May also explain just how tuned up some bits of explain just how tuned up some bits of explain just how tuned up some bits of my nervous system were. my nervous system were. my nervous system were. >> Mhm. Um, >> Mhm. Um, >> Mhm. Um, it's interesting. It's interesting, man. it's interesting. It's interesting, man. it's interesting. It's interesting, man. You know, I I'm in Austin, which is kind You know, I I'm in Austin, which is kind You know, I I'm in Austin, which is kind of the home of the of the home of the of the home of the psychedelic spiritual tourist, psychedelic spiritual tourist, psychedelic spiritual tourist, >> and uh it's given me an interesting relationship, I think, to relationship, I think, to using psychedelics for healing. Uh, in using psychedelics for healing. Uh, in using psychedelics for healing. Uh, in some ways it has made it more some ways it has made it more some ways it has made it more normalized, but in other ways it's made normalized, but in other ways it's made normalized, but in other ways it's made it feel a little bit more like a fashion it feel a little bit more like a fashion it feel a little bit more like a fashion accessory. accessory. accessory. And to anyone else that's ever been in a And to anyone else that's ever been in a And to anyone else that's ever been in a communal sauna here in Austin, they know communal sauna here in Austin, they know communal sauna here in Austin, they know exactly what I'm talking about. I'm exactly what I'm talking about. I'm exactly what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the [ __ ] ancestral talking about the [ __ ] ancestral talking about the [ __ ] ancestral trauma that they felt through their trauma that they felt through their trauma that they felt through their animus. I'm like, h animus. I'm like, h animus. I'm like, h I saw you in here 2 months ago and I saw you in here 2 months ago and I saw you in here 2 months ago and you're the same [ __ ] that you were you're the same [ __ ] that you were you're the same [ __ ] that you were from back then. from back then. from back then. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Uh and that's the integration side, but >> Uh and that's the integration side, but >> Uh and that's the integration side, but I don't think I've ever heard anybody I don't think I've ever heard anybody I don't think I've ever heard anybody talking about Iberane. There may be a talking about Iberane. There may be a talking about Iberane. There may be a dose or a compound or a plant that you dose or a compound or a plant that you dose or a compound or a plant that you can take uh which is inescapable from a can take uh which is inescapable from a can take uh which is inescapable from a >> that one is >> that one is >> that one is >> from an integration perspective. Uh but >> from an integration perspective. Uh but >> from an integration perspective. Uh but what what made me think about the SGB what what made me think about the SGB what what made me think about the SGB was the integration window that you have was the integration window that you have was the integration window that you have for the SGB is real important right 6 for the SGB is real important right 6 for the SGB is real important right 6 weeks after that it within 6 weeks after weeks after that it within 6 weeks after weeks after that it within 6 weeks after that that's sort of reimprinting that that's sort of reimprinting that that's sort of reimprinting um yeah I yeah I it's interesting to me to think about it's interesting to me to think about it's interesting to me to think about this sort of stuff uh especially as this sort of stuff uh especially as this sort of stuff uh especially as someone who cares an awful lot about someone who cares an awful lot about someone who cares an awful lot about mental health who thinks about it a lot mental health who thinks about it a lot mental health who thinks about it a lot who is a proponent of people going and who is a proponent of people going and who is a proponent of people going and doing therapy of doing CBT or ACT uh of doing therapy of doing CBT or ACT uh of doing therapy of doing CBT or ACT uh of people doing talk therapy and getting in people doing talk therapy and getting in people doing talk therapy and getting in touch with their emotions. I wonder touch with their emotions. I wonder touch with their emotions. I wonder whether part of it is almost certainly whether part of it is almost certainly whether part of it is almost certainly part of it is fear. Like [ __ ] like that part of it is fear. Like [ __ ] like that part of it is fear. Like [ __ ] like that sounds scary. That sounds really scary. sounds scary. That sounds really scary. sounds scary. That sounds really scary. And what if something bad happens? Which And what if something bad happens? Which And what if something bad happens? Which is exactly what you're going to try and is exactly what you're going to try and is exactly what you're going to try and work through, which is the ambient fear work through, which is the ambient fear work through, which is the ambient fear of what if something bad happens, which of what if something bad happens, which of what if something bad happens, which is exactly how you're existing through is exactly how you're existing through is exactly how you're existing through the rest of your life. [sighs] [sighs] >> No balls, no blue chips. Anything worth >> No balls, no blue chips. Anything worth >> No balls, no blue chips. Anything worth doing, it's got to have a risk component doing, it's got to have a risk component doing, it's got to have a risk component to it. It's not worth doing at all. I to it. It's not worth doing at all. I to it. It's not worth doing at all. I mean, what are you afraid of? You're mean, what are you afraid of? You're mean, what are you afraid of? You're going to keep being the same depressed going to keep being the same depressed going to keep being the same depressed version of you that has been for the version of you that has been for the version of you that has been for the last decade. I mean, you got to be last decade. I mean, you got to be last decade. I mean, you got to be willing to make a change. And that's willing to make a change. And that's willing to make a change. And that's what a lot of people won't do. They what a lot of people won't do. They what a lot of people won't do. They won't drop their ego. They go to the won't drop their ego. They go to the won't drop their ego. They go to the medicine, they come back and they're medicine, they come back and they're medicine, they come back and they're like, there's nothing wrong with me. like, there's nothing wrong with me. like, there's nothing wrong with me. Like, I can drink. I can drink. I'm Like, I can drink. I can drink. I'm Like, I can drink. I can drink. I'm totally in control. Like, you probably totally in control. Like, you probably totally in control. Like, you probably shouldn't know. He's like, I'm only shouldn't know. He's like, I'm only shouldn't know. He's like, I'm only going to have two or three every now and going to have two or three every now and going to have two or three every now and then. Two to three turns to six really, then. Two to three turns to six really, then. Two to three turns to six really, really fast. Ask me how I know. really fast. Ask me how I know. really fast. Ask me how I know. >> Don't do it. If you're not really really >> Don't do it. If you're not really really >> Don't do it. If you're not really really going to lean in hard, don't waste your going to lean in hard, don't waste your going to lean in hard, don't waste your time. Don't take up somebody's slot. It time. Don't take up somebody's slot. It time. Don't take up somebody's slot. It already costs a lot of money. There's already costs a lot of money. There's already costs a lot of money. There's thousands of veterans and first thousands of veterans and first thousands of veterans and first responders that are on a lift to try to responders that are on a lift to try to responders that are on a lift to try to go down there right now. And you, go down there right now. And you, go down there right now. And you, because you have an AMX card, are going because you have an AMX card, are going because you have an AMX card, are going to jump the line and you're not going to to jump the line and you're not going to to jump the line and you're not going to take it serious and you're going to give take it serious and you're going to give take it serious and you're going to give Ibegan a bad name. Ibegan a bad name. Ibegan a bad name. >> Don't. If you really want to do it, do >> Don't. If you really want to do it, do >> Don't. If you really want to do it, do it like aing professional and go the it like aing professional and go the it like aing professional and go the whole way. Like really, really do it. whole way. Like really, really do it. whole way. Like really, really do it. I've never seen anybody who is really I've never seen anybody who is really I've never seen anybody who is really focused on all the all the training focused on all the all the training focused on all the all the training going up into it and really focused on going up into it and really focused on going up into it and really focused on the post- treatment integration who the post- treatment integration who the post- treatment integration who hasn't had a phenomenal outcome. hasn't had a phenomenal outcome. hasn't had a phenomenal outcome. >> What's the >> What's the >> What's the percentage of success and what's the percentage of success and what's the percentage of success and what's the amount of change? amount of change? amount of change? >> Ooh. Um, >> Ooh. Um, >> Ooh. Um, they have the numbers for sure. I would they have the numbers for sure. I would they have the numbers for sure. I would say say say depression is you probably put up on Chad GBT. I'd say you probably put up on Chad GBT. I'd say um I'd say as far as depression, PTSD um I'd say as far as depression, PTSD um I'd say as far as depression, PTSD symptoms, they're reduced by 80 or 90% symptoms, they're reduced by 80 or 90% symptoms, they're reduced by 80 or 90% instantly. Like people that they can't instantly. Like people that they can't instantly. Like people that they can't even get out of bed. They they couldn't even get out of bed. They they couldn't even get out of bed. They they couldn't even sit in this room because they're even sit in this room because they're even sit in this room because they're sitting behind him. I mean, just so sitting behind him. I mean, just so sitting behind him. I mean, just so hyper you can't even be around them. hyper you can't even be around them. hyper you can't even be around them. >> That to baseline normal, you'd never >> That to baseline normal, you'd never >> That to baseline normal, you'd never even tell who they are. Never tell. I even tell who they are. Never tell. I even tell who they are. Never tell. I mean, guys who mean, guys who mean, guys who >> they break out in hysteria just crying >> they break out in hysteria just crying >> they break out in hysteria just crying all day. They don't know why. They won't all day. They don't know why. They won't all day. They don't know why. They won't tell you why. baseline normal 12 hours. tell you why. baseline normal 12 hours. tell you why. baseline normal 12 hours. >> How long does it feel? >> How long does it feel? >> How long does it feel? >> It feels >> It feels >> It feels You mean how how long does the high last You mean how how long does the high last You mean how how long does the high last like when you're done like when you're done like when you're done >> the trip? >> the trip? >> the trip? >> Um depending on how you are your body >> Um depending on how you are your body >> Um depending on how you are your body weight 12 to 18 hours. Some guys go weight 12 to 18 hours. Some guys go weight 12 to 18 hours. Some guys go longer. longer. longer. >> What's the felt sense of that? Many >> What's the felt sense of that? Many >> What's the felt sense of that? Many years or does it feel like you're there years or does it feel like you're there years or does it feel like you're there for 16 hours? for 16 hours? for 16 hours? >> It you lose track of time pretty quick. >> It you lose track of time pretty quick. >> It you lose track of time pretty quick. But for me it feels like it's by quick But for me it feels like it's by quick But for me it feels like it's by quick but it also feels like you've been there but it also feels like you've been there but it also feels like you've been there for a lifetime. for a lifetime. for a lifetime. But man, like you can stand up like you But man, like you can stand up like you But man, like you can stand up like you know what you are. But here's the know what you are. But here's the know what you are. But here's the interesting thing. And everybody who's interesting thing. And everybody who's interesting thing. And everybody who's going down there will probably tell you going down there will probably tell you going down there will probably tell you the same thing. You wear eye shades. the same thing. You wear eye shades. the same thing. You wear eye shades. You can sit up, lift up the eye shades, You can sit up, lift up the eye shades, You can sit up, lift up the eye shades, look around the room, know that's you, look around the room, know that's you, look around the room, know that's you, know that's him. I can see the nurse. I know that's him. I can see the nurse. I know that's him. I can see the nurse. I can wave like, "Hey, let me take a can wave like, "Hey, let me take a can wave like, "Hey, let me take a piss." They'll unplug your leads. You're piss." They'll unplug your leads. You're piss." They'll unplug your leads. You're hooked to our EKG machine. All this hooked to our EKG machine. All this hooked to our EKG machine. All this stuff. They'll hope you go to the stuff. They'll hope you go to the stuff. They'll hope you go to the bathroom. bathroom. bathroom. >> Like, >> Like, >> Like, >> and you can go back in, so to speak, so >> and you can go back in, so to speak, so >> and you can go back in, so to speak, so you kind There's a little bit of a you kind There's a little bit of a you kind There's a little bit of a pause. Well, some guys will have an pause. Well, some guys will have an pause. Well, some guys will have an experience and they're trying to take a experience and they're trying to take a experience and they're trying to take a piss and now they're like swirling or piss and now they're like swirling or piss and now they're like swirling or they're screaming like they're in the they're screaming like they're in the they're screaming like they're in the thing. Yeah. But thing. Yeah. But thing. Yeah. But >> the weirdest thing is guys will talk >> the weirdest thing is guys will talk >> the weirdest thing is guys will talk about it. You you'll be sitting there about it. You you'll be sitting there about it. You you'll be sitting there and all of a sudden you'll hear your and all of a sudden you'll hear your and all of a sudden you'll hear your neighbor. He'll say something and you'll neighbor. He'll say something and you'll neighbor. He'll say something and you'll look over at him and you're like what? look over at him and you're like what? look over at him and you're like what? You'll have a full conversation and then You'll have a full conversation and then You'll have a full conversation and then you realize you have the eye shades on. you realize you have the eye shades on. you realize you have the eye shades on. You look up but you can see him. You You look up but you can see him. You You look up but you can see him. You lift him up and he is in the position lift him up and he is in the position lift him up and he is in the position you can see with the eye shades. And you can see with the eye shades. And you can see with the eye shades. And you'll watch everybody do this. you'll watch everybody do this. you'll watch everybody do this. He'll lift them back up like [laughter] He'll lift them back up like [laughter] He'll lift them back up like [laughter] I can see right through. I swear to God, I can see right through. I swear to God, I can see right through. I swear to God, you can have a full conversation. you can have a full conversation. you can have a full conversation. >> That guy will wake up. He's like, "What >> That guy will wake up. He's like, "What >> That guy will wake up. He's like, "What are you saying?" Like, "I don't know." are you saying?" Like, "I don't know." are you saying?" Like, "I don't know." Put the eye shades back on. You're like, Put the eye shades back on. You're like, Put the eye shades back on. You're like, "Were they on? Were they off?" Like, you "Were they on? Were they off?" Like, you "Were they on? Were they off?" Like, you can't tell. You can see right through can't tell. You can see right through can't tell. You can see right through them. them. them. >> It's difference between a bog and I bo >> It's difference between a bog and I bo >> It's difference between a bog and I bo it comes from essentially the same it comes from essentially the same it comes from essentially the same thing. I don't know if it's a thing. I don't know if it's a thing. I don't know if it's a >> the chemical makeup or whatever, but >> the chemical makeup or whatever, but >> the chemical makeup or whatever, but >> Okay. >> Okay. >> Okay. >> But it's the root of the aogga plant. >> But it's the root of the aogga plant. >> But it's the root of the aogga plant. >> And it's two capsules. >> And it's two capsules. >> And it's two capsules. If you want to take a boost, you can If you want to take a boost, you can If you want to take a boost, you can take two or three, take two or three, take two or three, >> right? But it's it's just literally >> right? But it's it's just literally >> right? But it's it's just literally >> two pills. You go in, you take them, >> two pills. You go in, you take them, >> two pills. You go in, you take them, it's 15 minutes, you burn your little it's 15 minutes, you burn your little it's 15 minutes, you burn your little paper. By the time you walk upstairs, paper. By the time you walk upstairs, paper. By the time you walk upstairs, you're like, [snorts] you're like, [snorts] you're like, [snorts] >> "Man, I don't feel anything." And then >> "Man, I don't feel anything." And then >> "Man, I don't feel anything." And then and you watch everybody do this. and you watch everybody do this. and you watch everybody do this. Okay, [laughter] Okay, [laughter] Okay, [laughter] better sit down. They'll give you like a better sit down. They'll give you like a better sit down. They'll give you like a moraca. You start banging this thing. moraca. You start banging this thing. moraca. You start banging this thing. You're staring in a mirror and you can You're staring in a mirror and you can You're staring in a mirror and you can watch your whole face start to move watch your whole face start to move watch your whole face start to move around. around. around. >> Typically, staring in a mirror is bad >> Typically, staring in a mirror is bad >> Typically, staring in a mirror is bad advice when you're on psychedelics. You advice when you're on psychedelics. You advice when you're on psychedelics. You think it would be, but that's how you think it would be, but that's how you think it would be, but that's how you reconnect with yourself. That's how you reconnect with yourself. That's how you reconnect with yourself. That's how you know the experience is happening. But know the experience is happening. But know the experience is happening. But you'll see everybody, they're sitting you'll see everybody, they're sitting you'll see everybody, they're sitting there beating this moraca and they'll there beating this moraca and they'll there beating this moraca and they'll come by and like you feel anything yet. come by and like you feel anything yet. come by and like you feel anything yet. Like I'm not sure like you've been here Like I'm not sure like you've been here Like I'm not sure like you've been here for an hour and a half. You're for an hour and a half. You're for an hour and a half. You're definitely in [laughter] definitely in [laughter] definitely in [laughter] lay down like you better lay down. He lay down like you better lay down. He lay down like you better lay down. He put the eye shades on. He lay down. put the eye shades on. He lay down. put the eye shades on. He lay down. >> Funny. >> Funny. >> Funny. >> But for me, I don't move. Most guys >> But for me, I don't move. Most guys >> But for me, I don't move. Most guys purge quite a bit. purge quite a bit. purge quite a bit. >> I had a guy just went down. He threw up >> I had a guy just went down. He threw up >> I had a guy just went down. He threw up so hard he threw his back out like so hard he threw his back out like so hard he threw his back out like couldn't walk. couldn't walk. couldn't walk. They're not throwing anything up though. They're not throwing anything up though. They're not throwing anything up though. It's all their trauma. But anybody in It's all their trauma. But anybody in It's all their trauma. But anybody in that room, they'll give you, it's like a that room, they'll give you, it's like a that room, they'll give you, it's like a big bronze bowl and you'll throw up and big bronze bowl and you'll throw up and big bronze bowl and you'll throw up and you'll hear them you'll hear them you'll hear them ting. You'll hear it bounce. You know, ting. You'll hear it bounce. You know, ting. You'll hear it bounce. You know, there's nothing in there. All the there's nothing in there. All the there's nothing in there. All the practitioners will tell you about it. practitioners will tell you about it. practitioners will tell you about it. He's like, "That's your trauma hitting He's like, "That's your trauma hitting He's like, "That's your trauma hitting the bowl. the bowl. the bowl. It feels like you're throwing up buckets It feels like you're throwing up buckets It feels like you're throwing up buckets of vomit. There's nothing in there. of vomit. There's nothing in there. of vomit. There's nothing in there. You've been fasting the entire day. You've been fasting the entire day. You've been fasting the entire day. There's nothing in your system. You're There's nothing in your system. You're There's nothing in your system. You're not throwing up at all. That's all your not throwing up at all. That's all your not throwing up at all. That's all your trauma." Wow. trauma." Wow. trauma." Wow. >> Purging it over and over. Same thing >> Purging it over and over. Same thing >> Purging it over and over. Same thing with 5 MO. You get me just purging this with 5 MO. You get me just purging this with 5 MO. You get me just purging this bucket. Nothing's coming out. But it bucket. Nothing's coming out. But it bucket. Nothing's coming out. But it feels like it is like you feel like I'm feels like it is like you feel like I'm feels like it is like you feel like I'm filling up this 5 gallon bucket. Like filling up this 5 gallon bucket. Like filling up this 5 gallon bucket. Like you better dump it. you better dump it. you better dump it. >> What's the relationship between the >> What's the relationship between the >> What's the relationship between the ibeane and the 5me? ibeane and the 5me? ibeane and the 5me? >> 24 hours of separation. I don't know if >> 24 hours of separation. I don't know if >> 24 hours of separation. I don't know if they have any correlation. They've just they have any correlation. They've just they have any correlation. They've just paired these two together, but this one paired these two together, but this one paired these two together, but this one particular clinic. particular clinic. particular clinic. >> It's amazing. >> It's amazing. >> It's amazing. >> What's this? You mentioned if I just >> What's this? You mentioned if I just >> What's this? You mentioned if I just done the first one, the second one, what done the first one, the second one, what done the first one, the second one, what what what is it that the 5me does that what what is it that the 5me does that what what is it that the 5me does that you didn't get from the IB? Think about you didn't get from the IB? Think about you didn't get from the IB? Think about think about everything you've think about everything you've think about everything you've compressed, everything you've compacted compressed, everything you've compacted compressed, everything you've compacted down your trauma. You just buried it way down your trauma. You just buried it way down your trauma. You just buried it way down deep. Like stuff that happened to down deep. Like stuff that happened to down deep. Like stuff that happened to you five or six that you don't even you five or six that you don't even you five or six that you don't even remember you've buried. remember you've buried. remember you've buried. >> And I again it all comes to the surface. >> And I again it all comes to the surface. >> And I again it all comes to the surface. It gives you a photographic memory from It gives you a photographic memory from It gives you a photographic memory from the past. Like you relive it all. Like the past. Like you relive it all. Like the past. Like you relive it all. Like it's on the forefront of your things you it's on the forefront of your things you it's on the forefront of your things you never thought you'd remember. You relive never thought you'd remember. You relive never thought you'd remember. You relive them right then, right there. And now them right then, right there. And now them right then, right there. And now it's flipped. So all the present trauma it's flipped. So all the present trauma it's flipped. So all the present trauma is now at the bottom. All the stuff in is now at the bottom. All the stuff in is now at the bottom. All the stuff in the past is up top. And now you can't the past is up top. And now you can't the past is up top. And now you can't get away from it. I would just go home get away from it. I would just go home get away from it. I would just go home with that. I don't want to go home with with that. I don't want to go home with with that. I don't want to go home with that. that. that. >> The five mo let you strip it all away. >> The five mo let you strip it all away. >> The five mo let you strip it all away. So when you smoke that, it empties your So when you smoke that, it empties your So when you smoke that, it empties your cup. It dumps it all in one shot. And cup. It dumps it all in one shot. And cup. It dumps it all in one shot. And it's like you feel 15 lbs lighter. You it's like you feel 15 lbs lighter. You it's like you feel 15 lbs lighter. You wake up next morning, you're like, I I wake up next morning, you're like, I I wake up next morning, you're like, I I feel amazing. I'm not on any drugs. I'm feel amazing. I'm not on any drugs. I'm feel amazing. I'm not on any drugs. I'm stone cold sober. I got no nicotine, no stone cold sober. I got no nicotine, no stone cold sober. I got no nicotine, no caffeine, no drugs, no alcohol. I've caffeine, no drugs, no alcohol. I've caffeine, no drugs, no alcohol. I've never felt better in my entire life. never felt better in my entire life. never felt better in my entire life. Even though my life is in chaos, I feel Even though my life is in chaos, I feel Even though my life is in chaos, I feel like that mean everything's just on like that mean everything's just on like that mean everything's just on fire. fire. fire. Yeah, I'm fine. Yeah, I'm fine. Yeah, I'm fine. >> I'm fine. I'm good. Yeah, man. It's It >> I'm fine. I'm good. Yeah, man. It's It >> I'm fine. I'm good. Yeah, man. It's It is so wild, dude. It is. is so wild, dude. It is. is so wild, dude. It is. >> I'm really happy for you, man. I'm >> I'm really happy for you, man. I'm >> I'm really happy for you, man. I'm really, really happy that you found really, really happy that you found really, really happy that you found something that's a new mission as well. something that's a new mission as well. something that's a new mission as well. Not only something that seems to have Not only something that seems to have Not only something that seems to have improved your life, but that you've been improved your life, but that you've been improved your life, but that you've been able to dedicate yourself to making able to dedicate yourself to making able to dedicate yourself to making other people's lives better as well. other people's lives better as well. other people's lives better as well. >> That's great. I just came back from >> That's great. I just came back from >> That's great. I just came back from Moody Air Force Base down in Georgia Moody Air Force Base down in Georgia Moody Air Force Base down in Georgia talking to those guys, the whole base, talking to those guys, the whole base, talking to those guys, the whole base, talked about mental health and all those talked about mental health and all those talked about mental health and all those guys. And it's cool because they expect guys. And it's cool because they expect guys. And it's cool because they expect you to be a certain thing and when you you to be a certain thing and when you you to be a certain thing and when you get out there and you're like, "We're get out there and you're like, "We're get out there and you're like, "We're just going to talk about mental health." just going to talk about mental health." just going to talk about mental health." Like, Like, Like, nobody wants to talk about it. Same nobody wants to talk about it. Same nobody wants to talk about it. Same thing when you were in teams. Like I thing when you were in teams. Like I thing when you were in teams. Like I asked them all, "How many guys in this asked them all, "How many guys in this asked them all, "How many guys in this room are struggling with mental health? room are struggling with mental health? room are struggling with mental health? It's over a thousand people in the It's over a thousand people in the It's over a thousand people in the audience. Nobody raised their hand." audience. Nobody raised their hand." audience. Nobody raised their hand." Yep. I'm used to this. I was the only Yep. I'm used to this. I was the only Yep. I'm used to this. I was the only Navy Seal with PTSD or trauma or Navy Seal with PTSD or trauma or Navy Seal with PTSD or trauma or depression or anything. So, this will go depression or anything. So, this will go depression or anything. So, this will go over well, but we talk. But I mean, the over well, but we talk. But I mean, the over well, but we talk. But I mean, the amount of DMs I've gotten, even from the amount of DMs I've gotten, even from the amount of DMs I've gotten, even from the Sean Ryan thing and all the other ones, Sean Ryan thing and all the other ones, Sean Ryan thing and all the other ones, it's only mental health it's only mental health it's only mental health >> and it's some of the craziest stories. >> and it's some of the craziest stories. >> and it's some of the craziest stories. But I'm glad because when I was on my But I'm glad because when I was on my But I'm glad because when I was on my island alone, when I was in that guest island alone, when I was in that guest island alone, when I was in that guest room with that trash bag and that pistol room with that trash bag and that pistol room with that trash bag and that pistol about to do that thing, no one came for about to do that thing, no one came for about to do that thing, no one came for me. No one ever said me too. No one ever me. No one ever said me too. No one ever me. No one ever said me too. No one ever stood up, got in front of the microphone stood up, got in front of the microphone stood up, got in front of the microphone with the bright lights on and said, with the bright lights on and said, with the bright lights on and said, "It's okay not to be okay." No one ever "It's okay not to be okay." No one ever "It's okay not to be okay." No one ever said it to me. And we talked about said it to me. And we talked about said it to me. And we talked about everything. Not that when you think everything. Not that when you think everything. Not that when you think every we talked and done everything every we talked and done everything every we talked and done everything together except talk about that [ __ ] together except talk about that [ __ ] together except talk about that [ __ ] And I wish we would have. It would have And I wish we would have. It would have And I wish we would have. It would have made us so much better. Would have made made us so much better. Would have made made us so much better. Would have made us truly a dynasty. us truly a dynasty. us truly a dynasty. I just I want everybody else to be I just I want everybody else to be I just I want everybody else to be better than me. I want you to understand better than me. I want you to understand better than me. I want you to understand that is perfectly normal and that is that is perfectly normal and that is that is perfectly normal and that is part of the game you play. If you're in part of the game you play. If you're in part of the game you play. If you're in the military, you're a first responder. the military, you're a first responder. the military, you're a first responder. And those are the guys I really get to And those are the guys I really get to And those are the guys I really get to see the most. Now, I mean, with GBRS, we see the most. Now, I mean, with GBRS, we see the most. Now, I mean, with GBRS, we probably train 1,500 to 2,000 cops a probably train 1,500 to 2,000 cops a probably train 1,500 to 2,000 cops a year, but I do speaking engagements for year, but I do speaking engagements for year, but I do speaking engagements for firemen. The stuff those guys deal with firemen. The stuff those guys deal with firemen. The stuff those guys deal with dayto-day. I feel guilty inside the military. I I feel guilty inside the military. I always love firemen. Always love cops. I always love firemen. Always love cops. I always love firemen. Always love cops. I love people of service. I love doctors. love people of service. I love doctors. love people of service. I love doctors. I love nurses. I love all those. I never I love nurses. I love all those. I never I love nurses. I love all those. I never knew what they dealt with. Not cops, knew what they dealt with. Not cops, knew what they dealt with. Not cops, especially not firemen. Thank you for especially not firemen. Thank you for especially not firemen. Thank you for your service. I appreciate you guys. If your service. I appreciate you guys. If your service. I appreciate you guys. If anything happens, I'll call 911. I never anything happens, I'll call 911. I never anything happens, I'll call 911. I never thought about the horrible things they thought about the horrible things they thought about the horrible things they would see and then they're going to be would see and then they're going to be would see and then they're going to be home within 25 minutes. home within 25 minutes. home within 25 minutes. Fireman fishing kids out of a bathtub Fireman fishing kids out of a bathtub Fireman fishing kids out of a bathtub because the mom ran out of her pain meds because the mom ran out of her pain meds because the mom ran out of her pain meds and drowned all the kids in the bathtub. and drowned all the kids in the bathtub. and drowned all the kids in the bathtub. >> 45 minutes later, he's giving his own >> 45 minutes later, he's giving his own >> 45 minutes later, he's giving his own daughter a bath. Compartmentalizing daughter a bath. Compartmentalizing daughter a bath. Compartmentalizing that, not telling his wife, not talking that, not telling his wife, not talking that, not telling his wife, not talking about with anybody. The boys at the about with anybody. The boys at the about with anybody. The boys at the station ain't talking about it. They station ain't talking about it. They station ain't talking about it. They just same thing we did. just same thing we did. just same thing we did. >> That's when I go and I reintegrate with >> That's when I go and I reintegrate with >> That's when I go and I reintegrate with those guys. those guys. those guys. This is your super team. This is your This is your super team. This is your This is your super team. This is your dynasty. You could potentially be in the dynasty. You could potentially be in the dynasty. You could potentially be in the same department for 20 years. Why are same department for 20 years. Why are same department for 20 years. Why are you not having open dialogue you not having open dialogue you not having open dialogue conversations? Why am I not able to tell conversations? Why am I not able to tell conversations? Why am I not able to tell you every one of my deepest, darkest you every one of my deepest, darkest you every one of my deepest, darkest secrets? You're not you're not leaving secrets? You're not you're not leaving secrets? You're not you're not leaving tomorrow. It's just us. It'll make you a tomorrow. It's just us. It'll make you a tomorrow. It's just us. It'll make you a super team. You can build a dynasty super team. You can build a dynasty super team. You can build a dynasty right here, but you got to do it through right here, but you got to do it through right here, but you got to do it through open communication. You have to be able open communication. You have to be able open communication. You have to be able to say the [ __ ] nobody else is going to to say the [ __ ] nobody else is going to to say the [ __ ] nobody else is going to say, say, say, >> and it only takes one of you. It's why I >> and it only takes one of you. It's why I >> and it only takes one of you. It's why I push those 20-minute walks. I push the push those 20-minute walks. I push the push those 20-minute walks. I push the routine. I push mental health, the routine. I push mental health, the routine. I push mental health, the importance of it, importance of it, importance of it, >> and say it. It's totally normal. This is >> and say it. It's totally normal. This is >> and say it. It's totally normal. This is part of the game. You can't run into part of the game. You can't run into part of the game. You can't run into burning buildings for 20 years and not burning buildings for 20 years and not burning buildings for 20 years and not be scarred by something. Can't do it. be scarred by something. Can't do it. be scarred by something. Can't do it. Can't walk around with a gun in your hip Can't walk around with a gun in your hip Can't walk around with a gun in your hip arresting bad guys and seeing the arresting bad guys and seeing the arresting bad guys and seeing the terrible things that people do and it terrible things that people do and it terrible things that people do and it not affect you. It's supposed to for you not affect you. It's supposed to for you not affect you. It's supposed to for you to think that you're just going to to think that you're just going to to think that you're just going to override that because you're such an override that because you're such an override that because you're such an alpha male. That's not going to work, alpha male. That's not going to work, alpha male. That's not going to work, dude. Ask me how I know. dude. Ask me how I know. dude. Ask me how I know. Like, I thought I could override Like, I thought I could override Like, I thought I could override anything. I've seen anything. I've seen anything. I've seen >> zero patient zero. I've seen some >> zero patient zero. I've seen some >> zero patient zero. I've seen some terrible things, dude. And it's terrible things, dude. And it's terrible things, dude. And it's interesting to me that uh when you're interesting to me that uh when you're interesting to me that uh when you're going through a journey on plant going through a journey on plant going through a journey on plant medicine, the classic sort of medicine, the classic sort of medicine, the classic sort of overachiever, I will be able to hold overachiever, I will be able to hold overachiever, I will be able to hold this down mentality. Andy was talking this down mentality. Andy was talking this down mentality. Andy was talking about this when he came through. He was about this when he came through. He was about this when he came through. He was saying uh saying uh saying uh >> he'd created an identity of uh never >> he'd created an identity of uh never >> he'd created an identity of uh never being the guy who quit. being the guy who quit. being the guy who quit. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. >> U I I don't quit. That's not what I do. >> U I I don't quit. That's not what I do. >> U I I don't quit. That's not what I do. And that caused him to stay in a And that caused him to stay in a And that caused him to stay in a marriage for like a decade that he marriage for like a decade that he marriage for like a decade that he shouldn't have done. Uh but it's shouldn't have done. Uh but it's shouldn't have done. Uh but it's interesting that when you get to a interesting that when you get to a interesting that when you get to a situation like you're in Iberane, situation like you're in Iberane, situation like you're in Iberane, uh that pattern that you've spent an uh that pattern that you've spent an uh that pattern that you've spent an entire career and a life putting entire career and a life putting entire career and a life putting together, which is that clenching, that together, which is that clenching, that together, which is that clenching, that tightness, tightness, tightness, uh uh uh that didn't come in or it wasn't able to that didn't come in or it wasn't able to that didn't come in or it wasn't able to hold on. hold on. hold on. I tell the guys now, that's why I I tell the guys now, that's why I I tell the guys now, that's why I recommend I gain for recommend I gain for recommend I gain for the alpha male types, the guys with a the alpha male types, the guys with a the alpha male types, the guys with a super strong ego, because that's because super strong ego, because that's because super strong ego, because that's because I've tried them all. That's the only I've tried them all. That's the only I've tried them all. That's the only thing stronger than the ego. thing stronger than the ego. thing stronger than the ego. >> You can usually try to wrangle it when >> You can usually try to wrangle it when >> You can usually try to wrangle it when using something else. using something else. using something else. >> Yeah. I mean, I can power through >> Yeah. I mean, I can power through >> Yeah. I mean, I can power through anything else. MDMA, weed, whatever. I anything else. MDMA, weed, whatever. I anything else. MDMA, weed, whatever. I ketamine, I can power through all that. ketamine, I can power through all that. ketamine, I can power through all that. Not that you are not going to be able to Not that you are not going to be able to Not that you are not going to be able to power through that. Just can't like power through that. Just can't like power through that. Just can't like whatever it's going to show you, it's whatever it's going to show you, it's whatever it's going to show you, it's going to show you can't steer. You can't going to show you can't steer. You can't going to show you can't steer. You can't navigate. You can't go, "Okay, cool. I'm navigate. You can't go, "Okay, cool. I'm navigate. You can't go, "Okay, cool. I'm going to sit in this black box and I'm going to sit in this black box and I'm going to sit in this black box and I'm I'm going to think about nothing for 18 I'm going to think about nothing for 18 I'm going to think about nothing for 18 hours. hours. hours. >> Can't do it. You [snorts] can't think >> Can't do it. You [snorts] can't think >> Can't do it. You [snorts] can't think about the things you want to think of. I about the things you want to think of. I about the things you want to think of. I try to put myself in a black helicopter try to put myself in a black helicopter try to put myself in a black helicopter with all my friends and try to relive with all my friends and try to relive with all my friends and try to relive all this stuff and see dead friends. all this stuff and see dead friends. all this stuff and see dead friends. Zero. Zero. That's all I wanted to see Zero. Zero. That's all I wanted to see Zero. Zero. That's all I wanted to see because I thought that is where my because I thought that is where my because I thought that is where my trauma lies." trauma lies." trauma lies." >> I was like, "Well, clearly it's it was >> I was like, "Well, clearly it's it was >> I was like, "Well, clearly it's it was my love of the job. It was because I was my love of the job. It was because I was my love of the job. It was because I was so professional and I was such a so professional and I was such a so professional and I was such a patriot. And now the loss of that that's patriot. And now the loss of that that's patriot. And now the loss of that that's why it's caused all this. Like nope, not why it's caused all this. Like nope, not why it's caused all this. Like nope, not a bit. Nothing was traumatic about my a bit. Nothing was traumatic about my a bit. Nothing was traumatic about my service. Nothing. service. Nothing. service. Nothing. >> I think the majority of the guys, it's >> I think the majority of the guys, it's >> I think the majority of the guys, it's not the service. It's the fact you left not the service. It's the fact you left not the service. It's the fact you left it. it. it. You lost your number one love. You lost your number one love. You lost your number one love. >> That's what it is. You're suffering from >> That's what it is. You're suffering from >> That's what it is. You're suffering from a heartbreak. Nothing PTSD. I didn't do a heartbreak. Nothing PTSD. I didn't do a heartbreak. Nothing PTSD. I didn't do anything that I'm ashamed of that ever anything that I'm ashamed of that ever anything that I'm ashamed of that ever really messed me up. I mean, I've seen a really messed me up. I mean, I've seen a really messed me up. I mean, I've seen a lot of terrible stuff, but it doesn't lot of terrible stuff, but it doesn't lot of terrible stuff, but it doesn't keep me up at night. Not a bit. keep me up at night. Not a bit. keep me up at night. Not a bit. [clears throat] [clears throat] [clears throat] that medicine. that medicine. that medicine. [snorts] [snorts] [snorts] Not saying it's a cure all, but if Not saying it's a cure all, but if Not saying it's a cure all, but if you've tried everything else and you you've tried everything else and you you've tried everything else and you haven't tried plant-based medicine, haven't tried plant-based medicine, haven't tried plant-based medicine, probably give it a shot. probably give it a shot. probably give it a shot. >> Where should people go if they want to >> Where should people go if they want to >> Where should people go if they want to find out more find out more find out more >> about plant-based medicine? If you're a >> about plant-based medicine? If you're a >> about plant-based medicine? If you're a veteran, I would go to Veteran Solutions veteran, I would go to Veteran Solutions veteran, I would go to Veteran Solutions um or Ambio Life Sciences for straight I um or Ambio Life Sciences for straight I um or Ambio Life Sciences for straight I gain five meal. gain five meal. gain five meal. >> Trevor and Jonathan, >> Trevor and Jonathan, >> Trevor and Jonathan, the best clinic I've ever been to. It's the best clinic I've ever been to. It's the best clinic I've ever been to. It's on a private compound right over the on a private compound right over the on a private compound right over the border. They've got shuttles running border. They've got shuttles running border. They've got shuttles running back and forth. It's super safe. Best back and forth. It's super safe. Best back and forth. It's super safe. Best food you're ever going to eat. I mean, food you're ever going to eat. I mean, food you're ever going to eat. I mean, Michelin quality food. Amazing ground Michelin quality food. Amazing ground Michelin quality food. Amazing ground pools overlooking the ocean. It's an pools overlooking the ocean. It's an pools overlooking the ocean. It's an amazing facility, but it's probably a 25 amazing facility, but it's probably a 25 amazing facility, but it's probably a 25 person staff. They've got multiple person staff. They've got multiple person staff. They've got multiple houses that are running consecutive and houses that are running consecutive and houses that are running consecutive and they do it all week. they do it all week. they do it all week. It's a cure all, man. They do the sweat It's a cure all, man. They do the sweat It's a cure all, man. They do the sweat lodge. They do everything. If I had to lodge. They do everything. If I had to lodge. They do everything. If I had to give anybody a gift to be the power of a give anybody a gift to be the power of a give anybody a gift to be the power of a 20-minute walk and if you have tried 20-minute walk and if you have tried 20-minute walk and if you have tried everything, call Ambio Life Sciences. everything, call Ambio Life Sciences. everything, call Ambio Life Sciences. Changed my life, man. That and Mary a Changed my life, man. That and Mary a Changed my life, man. That and Mary a unicorn. unicorn. unicorn. >> It's a beautiful story, man. I'm really >> It's a beautiful story, man. I'm really >> It's a beautiful story, man. I'm really glad that you're still here. glad that you're still here. glad that you're still here. >> Yeah, me too. >> Yeah, me too. >> Yeah, me too. >> Where should people go to keep up to >> Where should people go to keep up to >> Where should people go to keep up to date with everything you're doing as date with everything you're doing as date with everything you're doing as well? well? well? >> You can check out GBS Group on all the >> You can check out GBS Group on all the >> You can check out GBS Group on all the social channels, YouTube, Instagram, all social channels, YouTube, Instagram, all social channels, YouTube, Instagram, all that. If you're trying to find me that. If you're trying to find me that. If you're trying to find me personally, it's DJ Shipley. I am only personally, it's DJ Shipley. I am only personally, it's DJ Shipley. I am only on Instagram. I don't do anything else. on Instagram. I don't do anything else. on Instagram. I don't do anything else. [ __ ] him, man. I really appreciate you. [ __ ] him, man. I really appreciate you. [ __ ] him, man. I really appreciate you. >> I appreciate you. >> I appreciate you. >> I appreciate you. >> Thank you. All right. See you next time, >> Thank you. All right. See you next time, >> Thank you. All right. See you next time, everyone. everyone. everyone. >> Dude, >> Dude, >> Dude, this congratulations. You made it to the this congratulations. You made it to the this congratulations. You made it to the end of a full podcast episode. You are end of a full podcast episode. You are end of a full podcast episode. You are not so Tik Tok brain that you've not so Tik Tok brain that you've not so Tik Tok brain that you've completely dissolved into nothingness. completely dissolved into nothingness. completely dissolved into nothingness. Why not watch another one right here? Why not watch another one right here? Why not watch another one right here? Go on, press it.